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Miracles... I am Ready and Willing!!

Wednesday, June 27, 2012


The way I felt last night in comparison to the many previous nights is nothing short of a miracle. I am continually amazed at how I 'bounce back' so quickly from some very trying situations and life lessons.

Even with TOM's arrival - I was still in good spirits actually thankful that it happened now and not this weekend.

I had a total of 130mins of activity - walked close to 7 miles and did some arm ST work. I did an intermittent fast (IF) day yesterday and really enjoyed the blog by Rusty Black (I've subscribed to his blog) fitnessblackbook.com/main/hybrid-die
ting-cherry-picking-the-best-diet-stra
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Like another dear friend (MIMICOTO) - I agree that there's no one size fits all 'diet' - if we even want to call it that. My formula has been mixing it up and keeping my body guessing. The IF helped me bust through my most recent plateau and will help me reach my goal by the end of this week...

I also connected with someone by chance through FB (via another friend's page) - but he's a bodybuilder so we have a common interest in health and other areas as we chatted for about an hour last night. He is moving to Ottawa mid-July so perhaps he'll be able to give me tips on ST. I don't want to get into competition (well I don't think I do lol) but I would love to be lean and sculpted.

It's amazing how resources come to us - when we least expect it. I may not go to the Success Seekers seminar after all tonight - but no matter what I do today/tonight - WILL BE a Success and I plan on making the most of every moment of the day!
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Your success and happiness lies in you. Resolve to keep happy, and your joy and you shall form an invincible host against difficulties. ~ Helen Keller

  
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SAFETYSUE 7/1/2012 3:15AM

    A perfect quote to live by.!
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You really sound like you are hitting your stride! Way to go!

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SIONED40 6/27/2012 4:09PM

  Loved this blog and could just feel your up beatness thru it. Life becomes so much more amazing when we allow ourselves to enjoy it and see how wonderful it can be. Keep enjoying this journey every step of the way.

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JUSTYNA7 6/27/2012 8:28AM

    What a positive blog/day. Have a great week Helen, Justyna

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KIPPER15 6/27/2012 6:48AM

    Isn't it amazing how things happen. Keep moving onward. Ready and willing.

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COLETTEISGREAT 6/27/2012 5:58AM

    I love the quote!

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STALEYK 6/27/2012 5:39AM

    Awesome lady! You do bounce back with a good attitude! Make it a great day! emoticon

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NUTRON3 6/27/2012 5:24AM

    Have a great day

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CAMILLEDEMAITRI 6/27/2012 5:24AM

  It IS amazing how resources arrive for us right when they are needed. People often think I'm impulsive, but I call it going with the Flow. I pay attention, am not afraid of change, and am willing to step through doors that open to new adventures.

Be ready and willing.....RIGHT ON!!

Also by Helen Keller......Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.

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SALGUOD2 6/27/2012 5:24AM

    Sounds great

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NEW-CAZ 6/27/2012 4:54AM

    WOW that would be fun, your own trainer on tap LOL
Glad you're in a happier space now Helene, have a great day today, make every second count as they won't come again.. I know I shall

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When Things Go Wrong...

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

You know when things go wrong and your day just isn't going well, I love that quote from the 'King' "When things go wrong, don't go with them".

The past few days have been tough, but I've been maintaining my practice of early wake up, positive affirmations/readings, blogging and keeping up with my SP health goals... A couple of good days of eating well and exercising has me feeling emoticon again!

I was also determined not to let the events deter me from making the most of my ME time while the girls are away... I have a few things lined up already... at work tomorrow is our team trying out those DVD (The Esmonde Technique) and a review afterwards. Here's a link to their website if you want to see what it's all about www.essentrics.com/ This will replace my usual lunch time walk and I can't wait to give it a try!

Then tomorrow night I'm attending a free session entitled "Success Seekers" being put on by best selling author Peggy McColl (who's book "Your Destiny Switch" led me to meeting her and having her come speak at our chapter meeting).

Thursday night I have my board/social dinner which was a lot of fun last year as I ended my year of presidency with this ... thus why the new president decided to do the same thing.

I booked Friday off so have an extra long weekend and since it's my first Canada Day in Ottawa, I decided to sign up to volunteer at Parliament that day to be close to the festivities. My shift is from 4 to 8 - so I'll be off and there to enjoy the fireworks at 10pm.

I am making plans to keep busy busy busy - doing positive things and I'm feeling so good about it! I received what I hope is the 'last call' from this guy this morning - so I'm letting it go and praying it's for real the LAST CONTACT. Thank you for all your words of advice and I am being extra cautious and aware... but I will also NOT let this guy get me down!! I am stronger than that!

If nothing else - it's given me extra motivation to get to my 30lbs weight loss mark ... I'm hoping TOM won't mess that up too badly lol... One day at a time ... two good days under my belt. I am going to do this!!

  
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WINDSTAR3 6/27/2012 1:44PM

    huge hugs to you! You are doing great!

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BEGONIAC 6/27/2012 3:55AM

    You are such an inspiration Helene! So positive and optimistic! emoticon

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NEW-CAZ 6/27/2012 2:58AM

    You never let the grass grow Helene, I love that you're always active and enjoying life.
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46SHADOW 6/26/2012 10:51PM

    What fun! Enjoy!

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MAKINANIMPACT 6/26/2012 9:51PM

    Wow! You are going to be extra busy! Have fun reviewing the DVD's and have a great rest of the week!

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DBELLE39 6/26/2012 8:05PM

    Good going on trying to focus positively. Life sometimes throws a curve ball at us, but the key is to react in a positive way.

Hope you enjoy your long weekend, sounds like it's just what you need.

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It's all in how you look at it...

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

I have had one strange week - with emotions going from excitement to meeting a new person, discovering through chats/conversations that we seemed to really connect to meeting the 'real' person and discovering that he was NOT who I thought he was. From the misrepresentation of himself with fake pictures to his obsessive behaviours... It's been a real eye opener. With your feedback - I realize I'm not alone in this and well, I guess that makes it a bit easier.

I have also had to deal with the emotions of sending my girls off - last night was my first full day/night alone and it feels weird.

I was emotionally drained by the end of the day as I had hoped this man would back off, but he continued to try to manipulate to try to get me to respond so I did call my service provider and have now blocked him from texting me and I've blocked his e-mails, he's been reported to the dating site and well... if it doesn't stop by the end of this week I'll see what the police can do or suggest to me. After I blocked his number from texting, he called from a 'calling card' number to leave me yet another long voice mail and it's very obvious this man has issues. He goes from saying he's sorry, to he can't believe I did that, to 'anytime you want to chat/vent - I'll be here because I'd rather be your friend than not be in your life at all'... Well it's very obvious that I could never - nor would I ever want ANYTHING to do with this man.

And so - I hope to turn the page on this... and I am getting back to my own focus...


On the SP front - I had a good day! Did 70mins of activity and stayed within my calorie range.

I did not get to the girls rooms - but did book Friday off to make it an extra long weekend as we have Monday off for Canada Day. This is the first year I stay in the lovely city to celebrate - looking forward to perhaps getting out to enjoy some of the festivals. Will have to see what local Ottawa friends are around that I can maybe connect with.

And now it's time to get to my morning workout. The events of the past week are not going to deter me from my determination to reach that 30lbs weight loss mark by Friday!!

  
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CHERRY666 6/26/2012 4:37PM

    Great job dealing with that guy and getting 70 minutes of activity in (!!! Something to be proud of, for sure!). You'll be to your 30 pounds lost in the blink of an eye!

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HOPEFULHIPPO 6/26/2012 12:58PM

    WHAT a crazy week!!!

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MEADSBAY 6/26/2012 10:18AM

    NEWCAZ has a good point- scary/sad to think when he figures out you are too strong of a woman to give in to his pestering, he may move on to some other more vulnerable woman.
Enjoy the solitude-
but I know what you mean- I love to be alone but it feels very strange- esp,. for extended periods.
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DIVEGODDESS 6/26/2012 10:16AM

    That's why I don't like online dating sites. A lot of people lie or put a different picture. Watch out for those psychos and stalkers. He sounds like a desperate guy.
You'll be reaching your 30 lb weight loss soon! Hope everything is great with you.

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DESTDYLAN 6/26/2012 9:45AM

    you did the right thing. Good luck on your journey. :)

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KIPPER15 6/26/2012 7:24AM

    I agree with the above posts, call the police now. He is a creep that needs to be stopped. Good job on staying on track with the emotional roller coaster you have going on in your life. emoticon

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MOONSHINE77 6/26/2012 5:42AM

    I agree with the other posts... the police need to know about this man, if not for your own safety (which is paramount) then for the well-being of the next person he drags into it.

Please be hyper-aware of your surroundings for a while and keep safe.

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COLETTEISGREAT 6/26/2012 5:35AM

    70 minutes is awesome!

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JSALERNO 6/26/2012 5:16AM

    GOOD QUOTES

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NEW-CAZ 6/26/2012 5:04AM

    Helene hun I'd call the police NOW.
Chances are this man has done this before and will do it again if he gets nowhere with you (and I know you're strong enough to resist his "charms" others may not be)

I love that you are not allowing him to get in the way of you enjoying life and getting on with what you want to do.

Be strong. call the police today.

Have a good day babe
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DOOBRIE 6/26/2012 4:53AM

    I'm so sorry that man is still finding ways to pester you. I think you are right in deciding to contact the police soon if he doesn't back off. The sooner the better in my opinion. I think a little visit from the police department should stop him!

I'm so glad he is not stopping you from your determination to reach your goals.

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Choosing Freedom

Monday, June 25, 2012

I am going to begin this new week (and last week of June) liberating myself from the past few days emotional 'stuff'... I'm going to follow the wise words of Bill Cosby...

Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it. ~ Bill Cosby

The situation with the 'stalker' guy seems to have calmed down (I hope) ... only one text received later in the day and e-mails - that seem to relay that he's gotten the message. I am no longer replying to any of his messages and found this ... thought it was cute (might have to use it emoticon)

I am going to keep my guard up for a while still and will be more aware of my surroundings, and perhaps even change up my routine a bit (as he found me on Thurs coming off the bus at the main station - may get off at a different stop and walk the rest of the way - it will give me extra 'activity' for the day too).

The girls' sendoff was nice but emotional. My step-daughter treated us out to lunch and then at the airport my oldest realized she forgot her contacts so I'll have to courier those out to her today. She texted me to say they arrived safely and my youngest called too. I got my oldest a cell with the plan that they can call home anytime for free - so we'll be able to keep in touch without problem. And I can send them texts every day if I want to let them know I'm thinking of them. My oldest was more emotional to my surprise too - when I hugged her she started crying and wouldn't let go... needless to say that was hard leaving them after that.

I do hope they'll have a good/positive visit. And I will keep myself busy in positive ways as best I can. Going to maximize the time to also 'de-clutter' their rooms since I both told them to clean it before they left or I would go through it. Muah-ha-ha ... they didn't clean them so I have dibs on it...

So here's to a new week, the last week of June. Let's make it a great one!!

  
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MRILEY123 6/25/2012 9:05PM

    I love your text message response! Great idea. And I know about the daughter's rooms problem. Sometimes they just need a little help digging out. Mine are both in college and every time they come home it's like a whirlwind has arrived. Hopw the new week is going great!

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MEADSBAY 6/25/2012 5:57PM

    It's a great chance for your girls to test their wings in a safe way- and good for all of you to have some time apart.
My DD has no idea how much crap I throw out from her room in the name of 'vacuuming upstairs'.
Muah-ha-ha- indeed!
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LVMAMAW 6/25/2012 4:17PM

    Good luck on your daughters' rooms! That can be invigorating! emoticon

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BOGUSANNIE 6/25/2012 7:42AM

    How old are the girls?

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KIPPER15 6/25/2012 7:27AM

    Dredging out the girls rooms can be fun and informative. They were warned. Hope the time flys for you. Take some me time and enjoy yourself, even though you miss them. Glad the creep is going away. emoticon

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JSALERNO 6/25/2012 6:06AM

    enjoy your time the girls will be home soon enough

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NEW-CAZ 6/25/2012 5:19AM

    YOu'll miss your girls but you have some ME time now Helene.
I hope you've heard the last from creepy, if not call the police, take no chances with your safety.
Have a good week hun.........and I love the error message! emoticon

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STALEYK 6/25/2012 5:18AM

    Whew girl! Sorry it turned "ugly" Scary stuff! Hope he got your message!

I know you will make it an awesome summer!

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GHOSTFLAMES 6/25/2012 4:43AM

    ONE DAY AND ONE STEP AT A TIME WE WILL DO THIS WE ARE WORTH IT.
REMEMBER TO TRACK DAILY YOUR FOOD AND FITNESS TO BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE.
FIRST I READ ANY OF YOUR BLOGS.HAVE YOU REPORTED TO THE POLICE ABOUT THE STACKER? I SURE WOULD THEY WILL DEFINATLEY DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. WHAT IF HE GETS OFF WITH YOU WHEN YOU ARE WALKING? DO YOU HAVE MACE?IF NOT I WOULD DEFINATLEY GET IT GOOD LUCK ON YOUR SPARK JOURNEY AND WITH THIS STALKER.

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The UGLY Truth

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Watching the movie this afternoon... so ironic with all I've been experiencing. Thankfully no messages via text or calls today, and the e-mails he sent this morning - which makes me think he has gotten the message and offering his 'friendship' and a person I could talk to or vent with anytime... NO THANKS!! I have my lovely SP friends for that emoticon

Seriously though ... the send off with the girls was a bit emotional. There was tension and then my oldest got upset when I hugged her and wouldn't let go. I do hope they have a good visit.

Then as I drove back with my step-daughter she asked me about all that's been going on with me and as I relayed my 'stories'... about this latest 'stalker' encounter, and previous to that, the issue with my sister and how she's no longer talking to me over an incident where I was violated by a man (her step-daugher's husband)... Well friends - it's pretty dis-heartening. I have been given many lessons in life - and they seem to keep coming at me and I wonder about the purpose and truly hope that one day I will get that break and have true happiness.

The "ugly truth"... life is NOT easy. It's not all roses, sunshine and smiles/laughter. What you make of it in how you react to things is what makes the difference.

Sure I am feeling pretty low right now. I'm alone for almost 2 months, and today I'll allow myself to 'sulk' maybe just a little, but going to pick myself right back up tomorrow morning and get a routine going as a single woman, no kids...

I am going to clean this house up - room by room, projects, and I'm going to go OUT and meet real people. No more computer/internet dating sites for this girl.

Sure deception exists in real life too when you meet people, but I am a pretty good judge of character and I am visual and nothing beats looking into someone's eyes and making that connection. That's what I'm after!! I want that spark - that look, across the room or after a bit of time... spending time together doing activities we enjoy ...

So my plan when the girls are gone is to stay on track. Today is a write off but the last week of June is NOT! I still have my goal in view.

The Universe knows what I'm going through it seems delivering these key messages...

We are fragile so that we need beauty. If we never broke, we would never need fixing. We would never know how others have the power to fill hollow spaces in the heart. We would never know the power of books or poems or films or songs, gems from one suffering soul to another, to speak to the spirit. We would never know the power of hands in hands or arms around waists or lips on cheeks, those gentle gestures that light up the world.
~Shirley

  
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SIONED40 6/24/2012 9:34PM

  Remember that the first and biggest step is trully accepting and loving yourself completely. Once you do that, then you will be happy which results in the right vibration to attract that perfect mate. It is when you are OK with the world and yourself that you can be receptive to that right relationship. It will come. Don't let others draw you into their vibration because its pretty easy to see that most people are really not very happy or satisfied with their own lives. You being the same way gives them comfort that they are normal. Believe me, its better not to be normal. We are always here for you. Your past is the past so concentrate only on today and tomorrow because that is only where change can really occur.

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NOCALORIES 6/24/2012 7:06PM

    Life is a challenge. Congratulations for starting the new week with a plan and motives to achieve a beginning to a clean slate. Live today with being joyous on being alive.

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JSALERNO 6/24/2012 5:30PM

    LIFE IS DIFFICULT. WE JUST HAVE TO MAKE THE BEST OF IT.

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SPUNKYDUCKY 6/24/2012 5:06PM

    Life is hard...but it is also beautiful, challenging, and wonderful. Just when things seem like they can't get worse - they get better. Hang in there...

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BOGUSANNIE 6/24/2012 4:41PM

    You will find the summer just flies by, and you won't get all your projects done, then you will wonder what you did with your time!!! emoticon

I personally can't imagine 2 months without my kids...but I think I would have fun !!! \\If you need a friend, in real life too...let me know :)

I promise...I won't stalk you!

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NEW-CAZ 6/24/2012 4:38PM

    great blog Helene, take care
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BALDWINJ_03 6/24/2012 4:34PM

    Sorry that things didn't go well with meeting your online friend. Keep your head up hun. I know that being alone is not fun (been dealing with it for quite some time) but atleast you can do anything you want, anytime you want!! Enjoy some 'YOU' time!!!

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MJ7DM33 6/24/2012 4:24PM

  Great blog! Take care!

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KDAILEY70 6/24/2012 4:17PM

    Life really can be difficult at times. Having a positive attitude helps make it more bearable. Hang in there.

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MAKINANIMPACT 6/24/2012 4:15PM

    I wish you the best, I hope that you can find someone eventually that will make you happy as you would make someone! Just always keep on guard and keep safety a priority ;( unfortunately we always have to do that I hope that your girls will know how much they are loved, maybe not at this moment but when time comes they will see that!
Wishing you the best in all of your endeavours! Always remember you do have your SP friends to talk to!

Take care and have a great week!

((hugs))

Kelly

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MSLZZY 6/24/2012 4:12PM

    Put your plan into motion and stick to it. Maybe "Mr
Wonderful" will fall off the planet or better yet, get the
hint and move on. HUGS!

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MEADSBAY 6/24/2012 4:01PM

    Life is sure not easy at times!
Great blog.
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ENCOURAGEDLADY 6/24/2012 4:00PM

    My 'stalker' is my abusive exhusband. Remember safety first in everything we do, whether in person, online, on the phone, everywhere.

Keep focused on those end of the month goals & thank you for sharing your experience.

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