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Finding my Sunshine

Friday, December 09, 2011

While the weather at this time of year does not always bring out much sun and with the days being shorter... well it makes it even harder. Many people are SAD this time of year (Seasonal Affective Disorder) and the good news is there are things we can do to help ourselves.

Yesterday I picked up some Vitamin D capsules and some 5HTP to help with my mood and sense of well being (and hopefully help with these lingering headaches). Working in the health food store allows me to examine options and try different things so when I find the combination that works for me I'll share with you here.

Other things that help is maintaining a healthy diet of course and exercise... but it's hard to do the workout when you feel 'low'. Having had a bug lingering for almost 2 weeks knocked me off routine for a bit, but I am pushing it - even if it's 10mins here and there to DO something.

Of course at this time of year, it's a matter of ensuring balance. In the midst of the hectic holiday season, the social gatherings, the parties, the gift buying, the financial pressures... in the end you have to look at the TRUE priorities of life.

I have my tree up and have a few more things to do to finish the decorating. I have yet to do any Christmas shopping or do Christmas cards. I have a cookie exchange to bake for my daughter's outing this Saturday and well, the regular every day stuff that we all have to keep up with.

So today is Friday (YAYYYY!!) and I'll make the most of today and enjoy my 1 day off tomorrow as best I can. Amidst the snow that is now falling lightly, I will keep finding my sunshine because as I was reminded on my trip... the sun is always with us - but sometimes you just have to move to a higher level to get to it!

Stay positive my friends and make the most of YOUR day!

  
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    Sending you some sunshine from a tropical island!! emoticon

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 12/9/2011 12:29PM

    Have a great day! Glad you are starting to feel better.

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    Have a great day!

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MEADSBAY 12/9/2011 8:25AM

    Thank you, Helene.
I can feel my SAD slowly taking over my mind and body more each day.
It's like a dark cloud invading my space.
I haven't been to the gym since Monday but am going after work today.
I'm hoping that will help.
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Opening Doors

Thursday, December 08, 2011

When you follow your bliss, doors will open for you that wouldn't have opened for anyone else. ~ Joseph Campbell

It's so true that when we follow our passions - so many doors open to us! I was reflecting today on how incredibly lucky I am to work somewhere that embodies what I'm so passionate about - being healthy and active, all the while looking for ways to help the issues that face so many - obesity.

I was not feeling healthy for about 2 weeks and still kind of working at it, but getting in a good walk at lunch yesterday felt great! This morning - I'm hurrying up to get my blog done so I can get 30mins in before I hit the shower (and hope to walk at lunch as well).

Tonight - I work at the health food store... instead of going to my chapter meeting ... a choice I made for a few reasons... to save money, and make money instead.

I also had not been quite in the spirit of the season as I had not been feeling well but I cured that a bit last night by taking the tree out and beginning the decorating. We'll finish it up on Saturday.

After this week - there are 2 more weeks of work and then a bit of a break which I'm looking forward to... as I will be working to finish up some projects and de-clutter making room for all "NEW" things in 2012. I will be setting intentions and goals for the year and will make the most of the remaining days of 2011.

While some doors have closed in 2011 for me - so many more have openened. I have found new challenges on SP which have given me a boost in my progress... and I'm super pleased with having the SAC challenge to carry me through to the next BLC challenge. Of course there are all of the other wonderful teams I'm a part of ... The greatest gift of SP is that of community/team support!!

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MEADSBAY 12/8/2011 1:04PM

    YAYEEEEE!!!
So glad you're feeling better.
Bet your girls are happy to see you smiling again.
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ABISMITHY 12/8/2011 12:34PM

    Well said! You sound happier and I'm happy for you!

Woo hoo - let's go! I am excited about what 2012 will bring us all!

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KRZYKAT3 12/8/2011 12:22PM

    glad to hear you are on the upside,

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TREASURINGLIFE 12/8/2011 11:57AM

    Wooo-whooo!!! :)

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AMARILYNH 12/8/2011 11:30AM

    I'm so happy to hear you getting your energy back - and you seem to have done it by DOING something (getting your tree out). I've listened to tons of motivational tapes and cds over the years and something that Wayne Dyer said in one years and years ago stuck with me. He said people often ask him what KIND pf psychiatrist he is and he tells them he's a Do Do psychiatrist. Meaning he encourages people to DO something - anything!! And over the years I've followed his advice and it always works!! Speaking of which, I'm off to do some de-cluttering of my own! Merry Christmas!!

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WOLFSPIRITMOM 12/8/2011 9:31AM

    emoticon emoticon I have found the same thing and try to follow my passion.

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KIN59VARA 12/8/2011 5:34AM

    Wonderful blog, I want to continue to open new doors too!

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New Beginnings...

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

I woke this morning for the first time in a couple of weeks finally feeling better... and as I went through my ritual of reading affirmations ... I had notes/signs presented to me that reminded me of how we all have the opportunity for new beginnings - any time we choose.

The greatest challenge in that for me is the belief and faith. I had been on such a high, filled with joy about the great possibilities that life was bringing forward for me, and then I allowed myself to slip back into doubt and fear... and it stripped me of my joy and positivity, and brought me to illness and weakness... Thankfully every new day is an opportunity for new life.

I have shared with you how I believe in the Law of Attraction - and when you use it consistently it works... the thing is it also works in attracting 'negative' things if you let yourself slide and doubt so today is a NEW day and I am going to shut out all negative thoughts. I am going to hold on to the dreams and visions I have of my future that include continued progress, and great joy and happiness.

Today's few quotes and messages...

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity. ~Henry Van Dyke

As this year winds down, choose to declare completion on your lingering projects, and to prepare for new beginnings.

Doreen Virtue's "Thought for Today" reading...
I bless my future and know that it is safe and wonderful. I am excited about all the beautiful new opportunities and possibillities that are open to me. I step forward with the faith that God and the angels continuously walk beside me, and I celebrate new beginnings today.

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I did my weigh in and measurements as part of the SAC and ongoing BLC weigh ins to stay accountable and while the numbers have gone back up from 154... I accept what I post today as my new beginning and aiming to reach 149.5lbs by January 4th, 2012... I am going to congratulate myself for still being in 150Ville - as that in itself used to be a huge struggle... So here are my stats and moving forward as of today...

Weight - 159.5lbs
Waist - 33 inches
Hips - 39 inches
Stomach (or pooch) 38.5
Thigh - 22.5
Calf - 15.5
Arm - 12
Bust - 41.5
Neck - 13.9
Forearm - 9.5

When I compare this to last December stats I see changes... Dec 1, 2010... My waist is smaller by 2 inches, my hips by 1 inch, my thigh by half an inch, my pooch by 1.5 inches, my bust by half an inch.. so there's progress... and I was at 168lbs (in January was at 171lbs). I have adjusted my ticker to reflect this newest challenge for the next 4 weeks - and a goal of losing 10lbs.

There are 4 more weigh ins to go.... Let's Do This!! Cheers to New Beginnings my Friends!!

  
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ABISMITHY 12/7/2011 11:57AM

    You sound so positive today! It's great to read!!! I'm sure you'll do it!!! Woo hoo!

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MEADSBAY 12/7/2011 9:11AM

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for sparking me this morning, Helene.
I am joining you in recommitting to my goals.
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MSLZZY 12/7/2011 7:49AM

    emoticon emoticonPositive attitude! So glad you are feeling better! emoticon

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WESTCOASTKID 12/7/2011 7:36AM

    Yahoo SS! emoticon So great to read this, and SO compelling to see the progress you have made from a year ago!! I look forward to your blogs each morning, and was so happy to see this sunshiney, positive one from you!!

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Depression Hurts

Tuesday, December 06, 2011

It's truly amazing how much depression hurts. While I've been on such a high for some time, I have been hit with depression again and it's a cycle I tend to go through every now and again. I believe the season brings it about and while I do recognize it, it's not always easy to avoid.

My having been physically ill for the past couple of weeks - and even today waking with body aches has made me realize that I'm experiencing depression again. The first step is acknowledging it for what it is. The next step now is to take it one moment at a time to try to get myself out of it again.

What makes it even harder is that my own daughter is feeling blue too. She came home yesterday and was tearful as she was feeling down about missing her dad. It's truly a difficult season - but yet I do know that I have much to be grateful for.

I ended up leaving work early yesterday and came home to try to sleep as I have not been sleeping well either - which doesn't help. I was physically ill - and didn't know if I'd make the bus ride in to work as I was feeling nauseated. I went to bed very early last night and woke feeling sore... recognizing my symptoms as part of the depression.

I have decided not to go to my chapter meeting this week for a couple of reasons. One being that I'm simply not up for the social / happy gathering and two because financially, I can't afford it - which is another point that bothers me at this time of year.

This year - I wanted to focus on balance as a theme and as of late - I'm off balance and need to get that back. I do appreciate all of your support and understanding as I work through this. I don't mean to let anyone down and perhaps my sharing in the journey will help others... to know that they too are not alone.

Depression is something I have dealt with in my life through many situations and I know I will get through it... but it does take time. I found this quote and felt it was fitting for where I am right now...

Sometimes I think my life would make a great TV movie. It even has the part where they say, "Stand by. We are experiencing temporary difficulties." ~Robert Brault

So please do not adjust your set... I will be back on track in a bit... just have to get through this moment.

  
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FLUTTEROFSTARS 12/6/2011 10:00PM

    Thanks so much for posting such an honest blog - your feelings really speak to me. I know I go through periods of depression, too (although I've never sought help or counseling), and I am worried that I might be heading that way right now. It started around Thanksigiving, feeling lonely/sad/stressed, and I'm struggling to get my motivation back on track.

I know I've read that exercise is as effective in treating depression as medicines, but the hard thing is that when I'm feeling blue, I don't feel like I have the energy to exercise! So, I haven't been doing as much as I should for the last few weeks, and I know it's probably hurting my weight loss and my overall mood.

Maybe I can just force myself to try it, even if I give myself permission to "take it easy" on the elliptical or during my circuit training video. Probably, just getting moving will really help, and maybe once I'm doing it, the endorphins will kick in and I'll give it full effort.

I hope we can navigate this rough season, my friend!

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DOOBRIE 12/6/2011 5:59PM

    You are so sweet, Helene - worrying about whether you're letting anyone down! You're not, of course.

You take care of yourself.

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SOOKGAL66 12/6/2011 2:27PM

    Taking that first step and recognizing that you're struggling with depression is important. And I agree with Ewestcott above in that try to keep exercising even just a little bit. Do you seek help from a doctor or therapist or obtain some meds? It's amazing how medication really can help with that chemical imbalance and can help a person sleep better and then have a better ability to move forward through the depression.

No matter how you tackle your struggles, we are all here for you! Reaching out to us is important!
Take care Spark Friend.

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MIMICOTO 12/6/2011 2:25PM

    Goodness - being ill and tired are enough to put you under all on their own! Add gloomy weather and the emotional challenges of the 'festive' season and it's no wonder you are buckling a little bit. It'll all be alright - you've got great support here.....and remember, you don't 'have' to be on and positive all the time - as your friend, it is a pleasure to give you support when you need it!

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REBECCAMA 12/6/2011 1:15PM

  HUGS! It sounds like you are aware of what your body is telling you and doing your best to take good care of yourself. Hang in there!

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MAMABUG999 12/6/2011 12:13PM

    Dont worry we wont adjust our sets.
We know this channel will be back soon. You are such a fighter you always are
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TREASURINGLIFE 12/6/2011 12:04PM

    ((((HUGS))))

- Michelle

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PHOENIX40S 12/6/2011 10:22AM

    Is this something you should share with a physician? emoticon Take good care of yourself.

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MSPRIS3 12/6/2011 9:42AM

    Depression runs in my family as well, my sister and my Aunt have been battling it for many years now.

It's great that you are able to recognize it and then take the steps to get out of it on your own. I am sad for your daughter, Holidays can definitely be a hard time when you are missing family members, and I understand how you must feel as well.



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WOLFSPIRITMOM 12/6/2011 8:51AM

    emoticon Yes, this season is hard, I am thankful that it will be shorter up here In Canada. Only 3.5 more months of winter. And I have a tough time through Christmas too but I try to think of the positive too. Fish oil and Vit D help me through too.

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MEADSBAY 12/6/2011 8:29AM

    You're doing all the right things- try to keep up your exercising as much as you are able- and I can't say enough wonderful things about my old friend Mr Prozac, if all else fails.
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DGFOWLER 12/6/2011 6:18AM

    I work in the mental health field and I know that journaling through this time is very helpful. It does help you see patterns and ways to change things. Do you use a sunlamp in the winter time? How much have you read up on SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder), sounds like some of your symptoms coincide with that.

I hope you get to feeling more like your old self soon. It's tough and I can only imagine what you are going through, but here's a hug (((((SEPTEMBERSPIRIT))))) to help you through ~ Donna

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STALEYK 12/6/2011 5:59AM

    Sorry you are going through a rough patch. You are my inspiration and I know we can get through this season. Wish I were there so we could just do dinner or take a walk together. emoticon

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CHEFKATLEANER 12/6/2011 5:42AM

    The fact that you're able to recognize the start of a depressive episode is a great first step to taking care of yourself.

It's frustrating how it can just sneak up on us, eh? Even when things seem to be going well...then BAM!

I hope you're feeling better soon.

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    I'm sorry. If you need anything.

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Deflated...

Monday, December 05, 2011

This is going to be brief. My gala went ok - I danced and made the most of the evening but it reminded me of how much I miss having a partner in life and all things. I swear this time of year is difficult for me.. holidays coming upon us and I'm reminded of the loneliness.

I am still not feeling great either and it's wearing me down ... sorry I'm not more positive today... Just pushing to make it through the day.

  
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DIVEGODDESS 12/6/2011 6:51AM

    I can relate to the loneliness in this time of year. I've been spending every Christmas alone for over 25 years, I'd think I'd be use to it by now. I've been traveling alone and going to parties alone forever.. I don't have family either. I've spent most of the last 15 years working on Christmas..but since I'm only working part time I'm going to have to spend it alone this year again. (My friends all have family). I am telling myself that I will not feel sorry for myself but go to the beach or something and stay positive but it's still hard seeing other people surrounded by their family and significant other. I don't know if it would help, but i am with you in spirit and I can understand your feelings of loneliness.

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AUNTB63 12/5/2011 11:17AM

    We need to make the best of what good things we have in our lives and keep moving forward. Try shaking that loneliness by concentrating on doing for others...it just might help. Remember there are always people who have it much worse than we do. emoticon Feel better soon!


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    emoticon We are here for you...email me if you need to talk.

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MSLZZY 12/5/2011 7:13AM

    Your expectaions were so high and now the excitement is over. It is understandable to feel the loss of a soulmate when you are alone. The right one will come along, You are special, you are unique! Why settle for anything less?

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