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Low feeling day...

Sunday, August 28, 2011

I am blogging this to kind of track my ups and downs and feeling drained and a bit lower than usual today. Don't know if it's because I am over thinking things or what is going on.

I did a Lotus Tarot reading and it makes me feel hopeful ... that good things ARE in fact coming my way (despite a few detours lately)...

Dan's attendance with me next weekend is 'up in the air' again due to something that happened with him at work on Friday and frankly I'm a bit peed about the yes/no stuff with him and all the last minute maybe I can or can't... Then I think perhaps it's my own issues and that this is 'life' in the dating world and things aren't always picture perfect as they are in the movies...

Ah my patience ... I know I need it ... I know I should just go with the flow and enjoy... so doing my best to do that. It's a cool day out - feels like fall. Have to pick up the girls soon and then get things ready for the week as they go back to school tomorrow. Looking forward to just vegging today...

Back to routine tomorrow in every sense of the word. Cheers!

  
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SWEENEY777 8/29/2011 10:11AM

    Imagine if everything is exactly the way you want it. :) It helps me to write or say everything I love in my life...it always makes me feel better! Wishing you happiness!!

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LLREED 8/28/2011 9:03PM

    Helene, I don't know how long you've been single, but I have been for 2 years. I really wasn't ever before that, getting married at 19 and 6 months after graduating high school. At any rate, I have a theory that most women are better off single. I won't go into the reasons; I'll just suggest that you concentrate on your girls right now. They need you more than you need a man. I know it's nice to have someone to go to functions with, but is it really worth the hassle? I know this sounds really jaded, but I'm just being realistic. If he goes, great. If he doesn't, oh well!

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MSLZZY 8/28/2011 3:27PM

    Take it as it comes and see what happens. Have a great week! HUGS!

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WOLFSPIRITMOM 8/28/2011 3:25PM

    Hope you feel more up soon!

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NEW-CAZ 8/28/2011 3:20PM

    I hope you feel brighter soon Helene emoticon

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PTESORO 8/28/2011 2:03PM

    I'm sorry you're feeling how. I know how much that can be a drain. As far as Dan goes, just listen to your gut, and try not to minimize how you feel about it. What may be okay for someone else, doesn't mean it has to be okay for you.

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 8/28/2011 1:52PM

    Hope you are feeling better soon.

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JSALERNO 8/28/2011 1:02PM

    HOPE YOU'RE FEELING BETTER SOON. RELATIONSHIPS ARE SO MUCH WORK. THEY WANT YOU MORE IF YOU DON'T SEEM LIKE YOU WANT HIM. ASK MORE QUESTIONS TO GET A BETTER IDEA OF WHO YOU ARE DEALING WITH.

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LVMAMAW 8/28/2011 12:54PM

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CANBDONE 8/28/2011 11:47AM

    Whatever you do, don't let HIM know how badly you want him to come. Remember, guys need a LOT of space and very little PRESSURE...they can't handle it. Have a QUE SERA attitude...he'll follow!

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METTA4ME 8/28/2011 11:45AM

    How long have you been feeling 'low'? Just today, or has it been longer? It is important to know if you are just a little down, or possibly depressed. The wind is still blowing, the trees waving their limbs. There is so much beauty to appreciate. You may need a day of pampering. Let me know how you are doing.

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Taxi!!

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Well I'll be playing mom taxi today and get some school shopping done... The priorities of parenthood take over what plans I have for my own day but I love being a mom!

There are times that it's tough and frustrating, but the rewards and love outweigh the challenges.

No firm plans for myself tonight after the girls are dropped off... a night alone - perhaps a visit to a friend's... it's open and it's ok. Saturday is for me a rest day from the busy week and I begin it by waking at my own pace (my internal clock still has me up at 5:30am - but that's sleeping in for me lol).

Need to do some laundry, grocery shopping (prep for school lunches again as school starts up Monday) and other housework.

Next week is a short work week for me priming up for my long weekend - getaway so this weekend I'm happy to be there for the girls and play taxi and whatever else they need. It's a good balance ... I am truly blessed to have my wonderful angels in my life!

  
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MISSLISA1973 8/29/2011 7:56AM

    I hope it was a good weekend! emoticon

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MIMICOTO 8/28/2011 12:12AM

    Beautiful! emoticon

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BLACK-PRINCESS 8/27/2011 3:41PM

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 8/27/2011 1:52PM

    Have a wonderful weekend!

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CHRYS13 8/27/2011 12:05PM

    Wonderful.....

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WENDYDANCER 8/27/2011 10:24AM

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NEW-CAZ 8/27/2011 10:15AM

    emoticon enjoy

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CANBDONE 8/27/2011 8:46AM

    If you think parenthood is great, wait until you're a grandmother! emoticon

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MSLZZY 8/27/2011 8:04AM

    emoticonENJOY!

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NUTRON3 8/27/2011 7:16AM

    Always great to have friends

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JSALERNO 8/27/2011 7:00AM

    I LOVE YOU ARE SO CLOSE TO THEM. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN CLOSE TO MY MOM WHICH IS WHY ITS SO HARD HAVING HER MOVE FROM 1 HOUR AWAY TO A 2 1/2 HOUR FLIGHT. WHEN I FINISH SCHOOL I'M MOVING TO BE CLOSER. I TRIED TO HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BOYFRIENDS KIDS. HIS SON AND I ARE COOL BUT HIS DAUGHTER DOESN'T CARE FOR ME. I DON'T BELIEVE IN SPENDING HUNDREDS ON CLOTHES EVERY FEW WEEKS. HELL I DON'T LIKE SHOPPING AND SHE DOES. MAYBE SHE'LL REALIZE NOW THAT SHE IS ON HER OWN.

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Pool Party with Pics

Friday, August 26, 2011

Well the pool party was a great success! The weather turned out to be beautiful and the location was perfect. A few pics...
Our host displaying her diving skills...

Dan came along too...

And the other 'little people' of the party... Colleague Joel and his 2 week old daughter Tessa

Mermaid Megan (she always corrects me when I say she's like a fish - "Mom I'm a mermaid" lol)

And more shots...



This last one is the hostess' little cutie! What a doll!

It was a wonderful evening with good company, good food (enjoyed it all without guilt) and good weather! Who could ask for more?!

Happy Friday all!

  
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MIMICOTO 8/28/2011 12:15AM

    Looks like you had a blast!!!! So nice....and thanks for sharing!

xoxo

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PTESORO 8/26/2011 6:39PM

    Looks like you had a blast! How fun! Have a great weekend!!!

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PORITA 8/26/2011 1:26PM

    Yay how fun! Glad you had a great time!!

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SUSAN134 8/26/2011 12:42PM

    Looks like a fun time was had by all! Great pics!

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BLACK-PRINCESS 8/26/2011 12:27PM

    it looks like every 1 had a blast. Keep up the fun.

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 8/26/2011 11:39AM

    Looks like everyone had fun! Loved the pictures, and yes that last one is a cutie emoticon

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RDARLING 8/26/2011 10:54AM

    looks like it was a lot of fun. Smiles all around! emoticon

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MEXGAL1 8/26/2011 9:35AM

    Looks like a lot of fun. I love pool parties.
Enjoy your day.
Sallie

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MISSLISA1973 8/26/2011 7:50AM

    How fun!!!

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CANBDONE 8/26/2011 7:27AM

    A good time had by all...life is good!

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NEW-CAZ 8/26/2011 7:07AM

    emoticon pics
Happy friday

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JSALERNO 8/26/2011 6:24AM

    HAPPY FRIDAY! BEAUTIFUL PICTURES.

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The Art of Letting Go

Thursday, August 25, 2011

I have read many books that speak to this topic... including one of my favourites Guy Finley's "The Secret of Letting Go" which I read some time ago but lately it feels like things are clicking in this area of my life.

A dear friend (MIMICOTO) sent me a heartfelt e-mail and her observations made me realize that hey - YES - I am finally letting go... and with this realization, I think that things will naturally fall into place.

Things like letting go of the 'battle of the bulge' and just focussing on being healthy by eating good foods and getting plenty of exercise as a way of living.

Things like obsessing over the 'numbers' - how much I should eat, drink and just listening to my body and trust my intuition and treat my body as the temple it is.

Things like wishing I could 'find' my soulmate to allowing things to come to me naturally and accept what happens as being 'meant to be'... Like the metaphor of going with the flow of the water instead of treading water against the current all the time.

Things like looking ahead to things I want to do to living more in the NOW and appreciating what I have now and loving my SELF as I am NOW.

Of course I have dreams and aspirations, wishes and goals that I want to achieve, but I am taking it day by day without trying to rush the process. If I concentrate on the task at hand at any given moment, I'm sure to reach success in all things.

The most important thing in all of this is how I have let go of the hurt, the self-pity, and even as more challenges present themselves to me - rather than becoming upset, I consider what lesson there is to learn in the experience.

I truly feel that I have come to a major crossroad in my life and that things are truly going to just get better and better in every area of my life - because I will make it so. By believing in myself. By remaining positive and by always practicing gratitude for the gifts that I have in the PRESENT.

Today is a perfect example of this wonderful 'Present"... at work now, but will be leaving early to join my colleagues for a BBQ/Pool Party (and it looks like the sun will come out this afternoon to join us too)... Dan might even join me today and he has now confirmed that he will in fact be joining me next weekend to celebrate my bday... but that's next week so we'll see what happens, because things can change and you know what - that's ok!! Whatever comes my way, I make a promise to myself to make the best of every situation presented to me!

Here's to a terrific TODAY SP Friends!!

  
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CANBDONE 8/25/2011 1:40PM

    Staying in the moment..that's SO key!

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MYTIME001 8/25/2011 1:24PM

    As others have said: Be Here Now. not in the past, not in the future, thanks for the blog and the reminder.


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SUSAN134 8/25/2011 10:52AM

    Excellent blog and something we should all keep in mind! Thank you!

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JSALERNO 8/25/2011 9:05AM

    YOU ARE SO SMART. I SOMETIMES FEAR ISSUES FROM PAST RELATIONSHIPS MAY BE HURTING CURRENT ONES. I NEED TO LET GO.

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RIDMYCOCOON 8/25/2011 8:30AM

    Ah.... a breath of fresh air! Go for it! Let it all just fall away. And, hey, enjoy the emoticon emoticon

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RDARLING 8/25/2011 8:26AM

    A great revelation to have. I hope you are able to follow these changes to your thinking, I am sure it will bring you much success!

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MOMMABOF7 8/25/2011 8:20AM

    Excellent! Enjoying the present because it is the gift of now! Great Blog.

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NEW-CAZ 8/25/2011 8:12AM

    Love your positive blog Helene!
Have a great time at the BBQ

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ELRIDDICK 8/25/2011 8:10AM

  Thanks for sharing!

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JEEP8294 8/25/2011 8:07AM

    Positivity breeds positivity and negativity breeds negativity. You sound so upbeat and positive! I think letting go is a great lesson. I really need to do that with a few issues in my own life. Hope you have a wonderful time at the BBQ today.

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BLACK-PRINCESS 8/25/2011 8:05AM

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keep it up. You'r not alone in letting things go.

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My Reality... "Results Not Typical" in Reverse ...

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

You know those success stories we all hear and ads ... even those shared here on SP... well my results not typical are in reverse. While the stories we read show the incredible success people have achieved and maintained, and then you read the fine print that the results are not typical...

Well here's my story... I have been at this most of my life. I have weighed in ranges from 115lbs (well don't know if that counts as it was my high school years) to tipping over 200lbs after giving birth to my children. Throughout the years, I have had experiences of 'success' in weight loss, but I'm still here and not at my goal weight - YET!!

I have tried many programs including Weight Watchers, E-Diets, the drug store 'diet' cures, the online ones that drew me in... I have tried the fast and quick methods and I have tried the tried and true diet and exercise - basics of math calories in vs energy out... so why am I still here?

Well I am human and I have also had many life experiences in there that have caused me to go up and down - and I'm not only speaking in terms of my weight now - but also with respect to my spirit. I know that things could always be worse... and I sincerely do appreciate every wonderful day that is given to me, but I have had some trying times... (which I wrote about in a story that was published in a book in May 2010). I experienced marital breakdown, depression, addiction, bankruptcy, job loss, heartbreak, abuse... but through all of this I have also gained some very valuable lessons and do not regret any of the experiences I've lived as they have made me who I am today.

Along this journey - SP has grown to be very dear to my heart. When I moved to a new city - I did not have a friend base and felt very alone... but my SP friends follow me wherever I go and I know that I am never alone. I joined teams and now lead a couple of them and found more and more people that I shared interests with and some that I grew even closer to as we seemed to just 'connect' beyond SP (and now have off line daily contacts).

In my current home town I initiated some in person meetings and now striving to hopefully organize one where I can meet some of my 'international' SP friends ... outside of my city, and country.

Back to the results not typical... well today I did a check in as I prepare to join a new challenge with a new team and weighed in ... and I'm back up to 171.5lbs - only half a pound from where I started in January of this year but you know what - That's OK!! I am still here and I refuse to quit!

Through my stumbles, I learn - as I did with my life experiences, the same is true with my SP experiences. So my friends, if you are like me and sometimes feel like a yo-yo and wonder why bother I say - Because YOU are so worth it!!

Join me and let's show em' our own individual 'a-typical' results and the success we know we can achieve!! Who's with me?!

  
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WESTCOASTKID 8/24/2011 8:33PM

    Astoundingly inspirational, as usual!

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MIMICOTO 8/24/2011 5:16PM

    This is a beautiful, heartfelt blog Helene. You are doing what you need to do, and the results you are looking for will come. Don't every lose hope!

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JSALERNO 8/24/2011 2:47PM

    WITH YOU ALL THE WAY. emoticon emoticon

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LVMAMAW 8/24/2011 11:47AM

    I'm with you!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MYTIME001 8/24/2011 11:25AM

    I am with you! emoticon

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NEW-CAZ 8/24/2011 10:39AM

    Wonderful blog Helene emoticon

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CANBDONE 8/24/2011 10:02AM

    Well said! emoticon

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DOXMOM51 8/24/2011 9:58AM

    Thanks Much! Just the message I needed to hear. emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 8/24/2011 9:27AM

    Well put and all I can add is you're not alone!

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