Saturday, August 20, 2011
Well Day 4 was good all day until I got home... it was a Friday night and with the ups and downs or my experiences this past week, the cravings for an after work few 'drinks' came to me... I seriously was thirsting for one, but fought hard to beat it - mainly because I didn't want to waste the money I invested in the cleanse package by sabotaging it with a cheat night in the midst of my past half way mark of the cleanse. And I DID it! I side stepped the craving, went tanning, shopping and did some SParking instead!! Thanks to my SP Friends for your support and for always being there...
Today's number update:
Aug 16 - 170.5
Aug 17 - 169
Aug 18 - 169
Aug 19 - 168.5
Aug 20 - 168
Still have TOM visiting so I'm curious to see when it's gone what my final weigh in will be on Tuesday morning. At the very least it would be great to be back at where my SP ticker is - 165... because this is the yo-yo weight I keep fighting with.
Speaking of yo-yo's... it seems to be a theme in my life
Dan and I are talking again and trying to work through this - recognizing it's very new and part of getting to know each other I guess. He's had a bad week (feeling very tired and working long hours in the hot/humid weather with concrete can't be easy). I truly respect that he has a strong work ethic - something I was seeking in a partner. The thing we both recognize in this event is that we are still getting to know each other.
I pulled a couple of cards that reminded me about being 'patient' and enjoying each moment without looking too fast to the future and what I want ... but rather enjoy the gift of the PRESENT.
Ralph Marston's Daily Motivator again resonates with all I've been experiencing...
REASON TO KEEP GOING
Just because life has let you down doesn’t mean that you must let yourself down. Pick yourself up, quickly take a positive step, and know that you’re closer to reaching your goal than you’ve ever been before.
You’ve been through some of the hard part and already experienced some of the difficulty you must go through. So keep going, and make that experience count.
Change your approach if that’s what is called for. Learn from where you’ve been, adapt and adjust your efforts to be even more effective.
Every day, every encounter, and every outcome is a new opportunity to move yourself forward. Keep yourself focused on the goal you’ve chosen, and keep yourself moving in the best way you know how.
The disappointments are just as much a part of the process as the victories. Be truly thankful for it all, and in your gratitude you’ll find a way to put it all to positive use.
Whatever has happened is a perfect reason to keep going. Keep going, and create the life you have chosen to live.
So I'm going to smell the roses and bask in the sunshine of the day... I am so very grateful for all the life lessons that are being provided to me and sense a true growth in my 'being'...
I am at peace with it all - and while I wish for the confirmation of everything yesterday... I know that I have to practice patience...
On with the day - as I attend my association's full day planning session as we gear up for the 2011/2012 season! I'm stoked!! Should be a fun day with the ladies from 8am to 4pm ... it's volunteer but it doesn't feel like work! I'm feeling re-energized and ready to renew my passion for the work I do within the association. I was super proud of recruiting the hospital's CEO's Admin Assistant in joining our chapter!!
Life is simply a true GIFT and I'm so very grateful for each and every moment of the beautiful days I am given!
Friday, August 19, 2011
Aug 16 - 170.5
Aug 17 - 169
Aug 18 - 169
Aug 19 - 168.5
It's not a huge movement, but considering the fact that I see signs of TOM appearing (very early this month), I'll take it. Perhaps the cleanse is triggering it to come early, but it's all good... it means I won't have to worry about it come my bday weekend (my apologies to any male SP friends reading this - my blogs are for my own records so sometimes it may be TMI for you).
The Staff Appreciation lunch was less than ideal choices but I had some nonetheless (burgers - I tried a veggie burger but that was a yuck choice and had a bit of fries - told her to stop at one scoop as she almost threw another one on, and some coleslaw... skipped the cookies). I had packed some healthy snacks and found myself feeling so hungry again later in the day (and now I know why - and this also perhaps explains some of the bloating I had been feeling).
I enjoyed another lunch time walk with PERSISTENT_GIRL. We got rained on at the end but it was refreshing.
And now for the personal part of my blog (I sound like a friggen soap opera - who needs reality TV lol)... to record where I'm at in the love interest area... it seems the curve I met with Dan is coming to a dead end... We had a small mis-understanding or difference of opinion and given the early stages of this relationship and the fact that we don't really know each other that well, it has turned out that perhaps we are not a good match. His lack of understanding and harping on my being 'too emotional' I feel is a bit of projection as he has major mood swings and goes from hot to cold in an instant. One day he's affectionate and warm, and the next day he's a cold fish.
I'm am OK though with all of this and acknowledge this as another valuable lesson. As I continue to strive to meet my soulmate, I feel I am closer with every experience. I am grateful for the wonderful past few weeks with Dan as it showed me how things can be, what doors can open and it also taught me to not want 'love' so bad. I think we were both so in love with the idea of being in love - we moved a bit too fast and now it's coming to a halt.
I was able to console myself by reaching out to another friend who I had met just before Dan ... he's not ready for a relationship, but has proven to be a great friend to me. He reminds me of my friend who passed away just last Friday. Mars was someone I could confide in and be with ... complete honest and open... and while we were not romantically involved at the end - I cherished the moments we had together as we visited every now and again. His death really bothered me - but it also brought back some very fond memories of the times we shared together.
It's been a wonderful week back at work... These life lessons are making me grow even more... and I'm not letting the experience ruin the plans to go celebrate my bday... Turns out I'll be driving up with my nephew who lives in town who seems to be experiencing the same thing as me in the love interest area (a girlfriend who doesn't know what she wants lol).
I am very pleased with how my cleanse is going! Here's to day 4 and 3 more to go!! Life is still pretty darned
Wishing all my SP Friends a wonderful weekend ahead!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
My tried and true Daily Motivator provided the message I needed to hear this morning...
Change of focus
Don’t waste your time complaining about what brings you down. Instead, get yourself away from it in whatever way you can.
If you’re in a negative pattern, break the pattern by establishing a new, more meaningful, positive and empowering one. Doing what you’ve always done will continue to get you what you’ve always gotten, and to get a change you must make a change.
Reach inside and reacquaint yourself with what you truly care about. Your authentic purpose is far more important than keeping up old habits or superficial appearances.
This is your life and this is your opportunity to do something positive about it. You are far more powerful than you’ve allowed yourself to be.
Decide to use that power in the service of what is most important to you. Though a change of focus will initially be frightening and uncomfortable, you will soon feel you’re right where you belong.
The beautiful possibilities are calling. Now is your moment to focus your life upon, and to allow, what really matters.
— Ralph Marston greatday.com/motivate/index.html
After 5 years on SP, I am realizing that I have learned what my strengths are and I know where my challenges lie. As I look to the 2nd half of August and my return to work and routine, I understand I need to get my focus back.
I was sent a message from a friend to let me know a former boyfriend passed away just this Friday (Aug 12) and it really hit home... just how precious life is. He was only 47. He had developed cancer a couple of years ago and obviously the disease was very agressive and he lost the battle. Ironically, the friend who let me know is the cancer survivor who has been battling the disease for about 10 years now...
Our bodies are our temples and how we treat it matters. If nothing else, this is a reminder of how our life choices make a difference in how we live and feel. As I honor those who have lost their lives to cancer, I make a pledge to get back on track with my healthy eating and exercise routine.
To begin simply, cutting out the mindless junk food eating again and ensuring at least 30mins of activity every day. It begins with a 7 day 'detox' - the GNC Complete Body Cleanse... to give my body the break it needs from the 'vacation' mode and bring it back to normal living.
I want to be living life to the fullest for a very long time... and I'm going to make sure I never take ONE day for granted! We never know how precious our health is until it is taken from us... May all of you my dear SP friends be blessed with radiant health and make choices that support active, healthy LIVING!!
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