Well the showings came and went and no calls so feeling somewhat deflated about that and so many other things. Weigh in on Friday - not recorded - up 2lbs... and the stress of the financial woes in my life is getting the best of me. On the brink of "something better happen or I'll lose my house"... so feeling quite low again...
Company (step-daughter) is here and I've been playing taxi for her and well again - not the visit I'd hoped for.
Trying to practice The Secret's law of attraction is easier said than done - I sure wish I had a crystal ball to know what my next step should be. I figure I'm due for a break - god willing I am praying for one - all the while trying to appreciate what I have now. Just not feeling very successful at my attempts and the proof is in the lack of progress in so many areas, including my weight loss...
Need to take a step back and re-evaluate things ... so will be out of the loop on SP for a bit - until my step-daughter leaves - and that will be Oct 1st (a new month and hopefully one that will bring some renewed hope my way)...
Well - what change a few hours can make - from feeling like I totally messed up, to getting myself back in focus - taking a good walk - well 2 actually (one tonight with my youngest daughter)... things are looking up!!
1. I am not only having one 'viewing' tomorrow - but received a second call and getting 2 viewings within half an hour of each other
2. My step-daughter is arriving early tomorrow am (6 or so) - one day early - wouldn't it be soooo cool if I got an offer while she was visiting?! We are going to use the time while the house is being shown to go shop for her as she's attending a friend's wedding - so nice together time!
3. I got a call for more work coming up in October - temp stuff but hey - I'm getting out there! The words of the recruiter was that she liked to keep GREAT people working (as she got great reviews from my first assignment last Friday).
4. I said NO twice as I was offered munchies and beer while out on my walk! I stood strong and feel great about it now!
5. I'm going to end the day by taking a nice relaxing bath, meditating and praying for the right buyer to come along.
My calendar (daily Louise Hay calendar) said today that everything in life happens in the 'right' time... I am hoping the time is NOW as I am sooo ready for change in every aspect of my life!
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
I am so grateful for this day and for all the great things that are coming my way!
Yes there may be a pot of gold at the end of that rainbow... this is the rainbow going over my home... I have a showing tomorrow - first one with the new realtor so I'm going to send out positive vibes, think great thoughts and envision the perfect buyer coming to buy my home! The Pot of Gold will be to see the SOLD sign on my realtor's sign.
I'm thinking this would be such an awesome GIFT ... my step-daughter who's visiting from Ottawa - to share this news with her - I'd be on Cloud 9!! This is where I want to move - so we can be a family together more often (we haven't seen her since May). And there's also the brother out there (step-son - and PS - hate the word 'step' because they are kind of like my own... I've known them for almost 20 years)... Anyhow - I soooo want this!
So my walk was great! I am continuing with positive actions - making meals for the kids ... so I can enjoy the visit as meals will be ready ahead... and I can stay on track!
Thank you all for listening to my vents, slips and for your encouragement. YOU really make a difference for me!!
Welllll..... I feel like I'm going to a confessional lol... I messed up again yesterday. Didn't log my foods (because I know the numbers would have been NUTS) and well - had some refreshments after my 4 hours of heavy cleaning...
WHY DO I DO THIS?!! I mean when I'm doing it I'm enjoying it - but today feel like CRAP about it... I am no longer looking forward to weigh in on Friday... because I know it will not have changed and/or worse - it will have gone up and it's my own doing! I am trying to be positive and learn from the experience - I am not perfect by any means... and yet I feel frustrated...
So today feeling a bit scattered - but planned out my meals for the day and keeping the calories within the lower range and going to head out for a 1 hour walk shortly... to clear my head and get my FOCUS back.
I want to be successful... I want to push forward - I was feeling so great and now I'm feeling the 'bad' feelings - guilt, frustration, anger... so going to shake those away as I pound the sidewalk and listen to my MP3 and get lost in the music for a bit... hopefully get my mind back in gear to get my through my challenge and reach my goals!!
A friend of mine called and asked me to go out with her shopping/browsing while her van was being repaired. This is a friend who doesn't have much time (she has a daughter with Cerebral Palsy) and now has her mother living with her while they build her add on apartment their home... so I said YES ... I figured I could sit here on SP and do my own routine stuff or take time out to be with a friend ... and so off I went. If there's one thing I've learned is that time is precious and I have it now so spending the day with her was very nice!
While we were shopping/browsing, she saw this top she really liked and it was a 'petite' so it was too short for her but she made me buy it... I didn't want to - and she said "Oh go on... how often do you buy something for YOU?"... (this after I had just purchased 2 outfits for my daughter..). So I ended up getting it and I'll take a picture of it to show you all on my blog later or tomorrow. I know that you are supposed to keep those rewards for accomplishing something / reaching a goal... but I suppose in reviewing the 10 days of my challenge thus far - I am doing pretty good.
I had 2 days where I had drinks and one day where calories were really high - but I'm back to the health routine (yesterday and today) and plan to do this for the week.
I'm also trying to figure out the upcoming visit when my step-daughter arrives on Thursday... she's overweight and eats LOTS... so I am going to try and plan meals without pushing my own plan onto her... and make the best of our visit.
I'm even planning an outing to Onaping Falls (the 2nd pic on my page with the image of the Wolf in the water)... as the leaves are beginning to change. This place has got awesome trails to walk - may even do a picnic lunch if the weather permits it.
For the rest of today (as it's almost time when my girls come home)... plan is to figure out supper, figure out a time to do a workout and maybe another walk with the girls! I'm loving our weather right now ... sun is shining and the beauty is all around us!
First I have to take a time out to just relax and then it's off to the rest of my day! Working on week 2 of my challenge and feeling like there's no turning back - I don't want those 4.5lbs that I lost to come back this time!