Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Following my blog yesterday, I was pleasantly surprised to read the daily motivator as it affirmed what I believe to be true in my heart... I wanted to share:
Tuesday, July 20, 2010 - FOREMOST EXPERT
There is no other person who is smart enough, or experienced enough, or informed enough or insightful enough to tell you how to live. That's up to you.
Certainly the advice and guidance of others can be extremely valuable. Yet when it comes to expressing and fulfilling the best of who you are, you are the world's foremost expert.
It feels good to be praised and it hurts to be criticized. Always keep in mind, though, that those who offer their opinions of you cannot possibly see the whole picture.
Your life is your responsibility. That is simultaneously a sobering obligation and a fantastic opportunity.
Successful living is difficult work and yet you are absolutely qualified to do it. You are worthy and capable of creating and enjoying whatever it is that truly fulfills you.
Make the commitment, do the work, accept the responsibility that is necessary for that fulfillment. Live the outstanding life that is yours to experience.
-- Ralph Marston
Ironically, the person who was grilling me sent a quote from this very site but not the one from today so I took the liberty of sharing it with her... and said "this is a good one"... no reply so I think she knew what I was saying... It also reminded me that I truly am my own best friend, resident expert on "ME"...
I missed out on chatting with James yesterday - he called me early morning and emailed me, but alas, poor guy is in Malaysia and has to do some visiting (not just sit in front of a computer talking to me lol).
I kept busy last night with productive things... went tanning, cleaned, organized some. I ate well and feel great this morning - despite the "CRASHING" sound that woke me just after 2am and scared me all to heck... One of my pictures in my bedroom fell to the floor and glass shattered everywere so I've been up since then... Thankfully I went to bed very early so I should be ok as I have had nights where I slept less and managed ok through the day.
Since I was up so early, got a nice foot soak in and my reading, blogging, and will get to my AB workout this am and some weights. Still haven't made it out to the gym and probably won't today either.
I'm looking forward to my social outings. Meeting with a former work colleague from Sudbury for lunch. She's in town for medical reasons - has lost 60lbs due to a blockage of some sort in her intestines that they can't figure out - hopefully the specialists here will be able to help her.
Then tonight I get to walk with ANNE7X7 and her little pooch! So looking forward to that! I feel so blessed with the People in Ottawa team and our in person meetings and how they are leading to individual outings too! We have our picnic planned for this Sunday - Meet and Greet #6 - and I'm going to pray for no rain. Not sure how many will make it out, but I will post pics and an update of course after!
Oh - and folks... following my blog a few days ago... I received pics my 'new' friend took when we were side by side watching Kevin Costner. I think you'll agree she got some great 'close up' shots! YUMMMMM!
We just had to get the 'tush' shot!
And this was his 'drinking' song which he got us to sing along with! He is simply 'dreamy'!!
Gotta run - James just came online to chat!!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Hey did you get that SP = Safe Place... FB = Fudged Blunders lol...
I don't know why I never learn... I was chatting on FB and made the mistake of telling someone about my new love interest... well talk about getting grilled! The things this person suggested I do to make sure he's for real was absurd! Like I'm a total idiot... I know it sounds too good to be true, but we have exchanged enough communications that I believe in his sincerity - and that is what matters... because in the end, I am my own best friend!
When I spoke to James as we chatted last night again ... he said he told one of his friends in the States when he was back in California and he was told the same... not to trust that I was for real or sincere.
Yes I am being careful, but why can't this be for real?! Every sign tells me it is and my gutt tells me to go with it. I have listened to my angel reading and opened to listening to my own intuition and caring less about the negative feedback that sometimes comes from those who always doubt... I know it's because they 'care' ... but from this particular person, I believe it's almost some jealousy... So James and I have decided to not say much more ... but alas, here on SP I am safe to blog and journal my feelings without fear of judgement. I thank you all for your positive wishes, goodies and good luck wishes!
So James and I chatted early morning and late last night. He connected with his web cam and he is just as handsome as his pictures... and he was shy - which was so cute to see.
During our chat in the morning, he said... "May I say something?" and of course I said yes, and he said my full name... "I Love You"... and my heart was a flutter because I feel very much the same way. Yes call us crazy love struck teenagers but I'm truly very happy - like never before in my life and he the same... He then sent me some beautiful poems... I used to dream that I would meet someone who would do such gestures... and here he is!!
"A Special World" !!
A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb !!
Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last !!
And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong !!
You are in my heart
I melted when I read the poems he sent... we exchanged some as we searched for some online that described how we were feeling... It's a WOW story folks... my TRUE fairy tale love story come true!
So despite the negativity and doubts that came forth from my 'opening my mouth' to the wrong person... I am still on Cloud 9 ... and no one is going to rain on my parade!
On the SP Front... I tried for the first time the Zumba Express and boy did I sweat - only 20 mins but it was good! Then 'lovestruck' me got on the wrong bus coming home so ended up walking about 40 mins to get home... but did I care - NO! It was a beautiful day, I was getting in some activity and I could daydream some more lol...
I ate very well, and the only thing that was not planned is I had 2 light beers. Alas... they were in the fridge calling my name. But I woke this morning and feel great! Going to try and get another morning workout in again. Didn't make it to the gym ... so going to try to go tonight (I just have to DO IT - to get the ball rolling again)... Hey Anne - is there a class we can do together Wednesday night? Maybe that could be our 'meeting'... I can go to your location - let me know!
Oh - and in one week - the girls come home! Megan is 'missing her mum'... and sent me a note on MSN so I'll call them today. I guess she has 'changed her mind' about wanting to move with her dad - I knew she'd be way too lonely for her mom... and it warms my heart that my girls, my angels will be back next Tuesday (I'm taking the day off to clean house and get ready to pick them up around lunch time to spend the day with them).
Time to get this day started! Ab work this morning perhaps... it's been a while - yikes! Taking it easy because my shoulder pain is mostly gone, but going to be extra careful and stop if it feels like it's aggravated! Happy Tuesday SP Friends!!
Monday, July 19, 2010
James referred to our encounter as comparable to that of the movie "You've Got Mail" so today, as I took a day of rest, I went out and bought the movie and watched it. What a wonderful story and it really reminded me of how our meeting is similar in some ways, but that our own story has the making of something very special. Neither of us had any other person in our lives. We've both been alone for some time and both of us are ready to be with a that special someone... and commit to a serious relationship.
The movie also brought up emotions for me about my mother and the holiday season (I think the hormones were playing up a bit)... but typical me, tears flowed throughout some of the more sentimental parts of the movie.
James called me around 10pm to let me know he had arrived safely and we chatted briefly. He also sent me an e-mail and of course, I came down to read it and replied. I feel like the song by "Kesha" (Your Love is My Drug) in that I'm almost addicted to this attention and courting... something I've never before experienced in my life. In most scenarios or experiences, I meet someone, it looks good and then typically things go wrong. I know this to be different with James. This one is THE ONE!!! Friends doubt it and of course warn me to be careful, and I am trying to be cautious, but I can not deny that every day I am more convinced that it's a for real thing this time... He is truly a man of his words and I thank God everyday for bringing me this wonderful man to my life.
We will meet in August only, and by then we will have been communicating for a month. It's a foundation I've never before established with someone, making this a different situation to begin. I hope our chemistry will overflow in person as it is right now...
So now it's just past midnight and I can't sleep ... so thought I'd blog now as we will probably chat in the morning via yahoo.
I am feeling rested and enjoyed the day. I managed to get some cleaning done and I am planning my week ahead. It's time to get back to the gym! I have not been for a while so I am committing to going 3 times this week. There are 2 full weeks left in the month and I intend to make the most of them.
I also talked to the girls today. Megan is homesick and misses her mom... but soon they will be home - 1 week from Tuesday. Trista was anxious to see her school schedule that arrived in the mail as her friends were asking about it so I scanned it and sent it to her. August will be a busy month ... I will have my week off, meet James in person and get the girls ready for another school year. I can't believe Trista starts high school - it just amazes me!
Life is so beautiful right now! I thank God for all the blessings in my life! I also take a moment to pray for those who need our thoughts and strength, for those who are not so fortunate, those who are experiencing difficult times, I send positive thoughts and prayers their way! For my SP friends who are experiencing some more difficult times, know that sunshine is just around the corner if you believe!
My life is living proof of how when you change your thoughts, you can truly change your life!!
Sunday, July 18, 2010
And I believe that to be true for me right now. All areas of my life are so amazing!
Yesterday's Bluesfest day/evening was great! I was anticipating Keith Urban's concert, but alas, was delightfully pleased with being in 'front row' for Kevin Costner's show. Not only is he gorgeous, a great actor, director, but he's a great musical entertainer! I took some pics which are not as great (some were blurry)... but a friend who I met there will send me her's from her camera as she had a better quality camera (I think I may have to upgrade my camera). Even 'just standing there' he was HOT! The other pics will be even better as they will be clearer and even more close up.
Once his concert was finished I made my way to the stage where Keith Urban was to play but it was PACKED so only got to watch from afar - just like watching it on my DVD at home. I tried to take one picture but as you can see, again, my camera is not great.
Amazingly, after thinking I couldn't wait to see Keith Urban - I was so tired that I left by 10pm. I'm feeling tired and achy today. My massage on Friday helped somewhat but standing in the heat and walking for the shift from 3 to 10pm was enough for me. So today's plan... staying home... I was supposed to meet up with KISHEGER & SILV3BACK - but alas, I'm too pooped and don't think I can handle the sun/heat today.
If Jodee and Gary are available, I may see if they want to do dinner together at my place... but first things first... I am going to go back for a nap... I only slept 4 hours and need more rest.
I need to make the day go by as it will be the longest length of time with no communication from James (as we've talked daily and more than once a day since we first connected) ... but alas with his flight to Malaysia, this can't be helped. He did call me before he left on his flight and before I left for Bluesfest, and we have a great conversation... He even slowed down while talking to me so I could understand him more (as his British accent is so very strong but so very lovely). As my little poster says... I do believe I've been given a 'fairytale'...
Have a blessed day my SP Friends!
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