Friday, July 23, 2010
Well it's FRIDAY and I'm feeling much better. A day off to rest and care for myself was just what the doctor ordered. I managed to get some extra sleep, rested and stretched my neck and shoulders... it's still a bit stiff... perhaps another massage is in order.
I got on the scale this morning and was happy to see that I'm at 164 ... so close to that ticker mark (which I refused to change back up lol)... Now with 1 week left in the month... will I visit 150Ville?!? I am impressed that I'm at 164 because TOM is soon to get here ... anyday.
I was looking through old pictures yesterday as I'm preparing a CD for my sister's 50th birthday (they want pictures to put on the 50 frogs they'll place around her campter come the 'birthday' time). I found some of me where my face was much chubbier (here I am with Dan and Rita)...
And this one - ya - I think I lost weight lol...
And in this picture with the girls... I'm smiling but I see in my smile that it's not the same smile I smile now ... I am so much happier now!!
My life has certainly changed greatly since those days. The pics were from New Year's Eve 2006... I have no regrets about my past as I've said before - they are lessons that have brought me to being the person I am today! Happy, fulfilled and knowing that any dream can come true when you BELIEVE!!!!
I am reaching my health goals... and I am improving myself... the 'belly' pudge isn't as big as it used to be...
And in love, well ... it is now a grand part of my life! James did love the poem I wrote and he read my story and his note really touched me...
"I've completely read your story over and over again and i wonder why certain things happen, its so sad that you have gone through a lot of pain, and i hope i can bring more happiness into your life. I know your past has been plagued with many issues, but i want you to look ahead and be happy and i love your positive attitude, it will always help you suceed where others fail.
You are the lady in my life and i just want you to be happy and i will do all i can to see that you are happy.
Your story is indeed touching, and i am so proud of you.
I have never had a partner 'be proud of me'... I used to be criticized and could never openly be myself! Today, in the present, I can totally express whatever I wish and it's accepted without condition and that is true caring!
I'm so blessed and grateful for James coming into my life 2 weeks ago today! He talked to me about sending some luggage to me before he leaves for North Korea and I thought... this will make it seem so real. He said he was going to do some shopping and send me a gift along as well... I've never been treated or spoiled as he is doing, and LOVING it!
Life is so grand right now! In health, mind, body and Spirit!
What more could I ask for?! Well I also have the weekend to look forward to and going to pray that we have good weather for our SP Meet and Greet #6 - Picnic gathering on Sunday! Saturday ... hang out with my neighbour and SP Pal JL_FLEURY
I'm also going to spend time getting my thoughts organized for my associations "Planning Day" in August and have a dinner/bbq meeting with my mentor to discuss that on Sunday afternoon/evening!
Truly a great life I'm living now... productive, happy and fulfilled! I'm wishing the same for all of you my SP Friends! Make Yours a Great Day!!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Following my blog yesterday, I was pleasantly surprised to read the daily motivator as it affirmed what I believe to be true in my heart... I wanted to share:
Tuesday, July 20, 2010 - FOREMOST EXPERT
There is no other person who is smart enough, or experienced enough, or informed enough or insightful enough to tell you how to live. That's up to you.
Certainly the advice and guidance of others can be extremely valuable. Yet when it comes to expressing and fulfilling the best of who you are, you are the world's foremost expert.
It feels good to be praised and it hurts to be criticized. Always keep in mind, though, that those who offer their opinions of you cannot possibly see the whole picture.
Your life is your responsibility. That is simultaneously a sobering obligation and a fantastic opportunity.
Successful living is difficult work and yet you are absolutely qualified to do it. You are worthy and capable of creating and enjoying whatever it is that truly fulfills you.
Make the commitment, do the work, accept the responsibility that is necessary for that fulfillment. Live the outstanding life that is yours to experience.
-- Ralph Marston
Ironically, the person who was grilling me sent a quote from this very site but not the one from today so I took the liberty of sharing it with her... and said "this is a good one"... no reply so I think she knew what I was saying... It also reminded me that I truly am my own best friend, resident expert on "ME"...
I missed out on chatting with James yesterday - he called me early morning and emailed me, but alas, poor guy is in Malaysia and has to do some visiting (not just sit in front of a computer talking to me lol).
I kept busy last night with productive things... went tanning, cleaned, organized some. I ate well and feel great this morning - despite the "CRASHING" sound that woke me just after 2am and scared me all to heck... One of my pictures in my bedroom fell to the floor and glass shattered everywere so I've been up since then... Thankfully I went to bed very early so I should be ok as I have had nights where I slept less and managed ok through the day.
Since I was up so early, got a nice foot soak in and my reading, blogging, and will get to my AB workout this am and some weights. Still haven't made it out to the gym and probably won't today either.
I'm looking forward to my social outings. Meeting with a former work colleague from Sudbury for lunch. She's in town for medical reasons - has lost 60lbs due to a blockage of some sort in her intestines that they can't figure out - hopefully the specialists here will be able to help her.
Then tonight I get to walk with ANNE7X7 and her little pooch! So looking forward to that! I feel so blessed with the People in Ottawa team and our in person meetings and how they are leading to individual outings too! We have our picnic planned for this Sunday - Meet and Greet #6 - and I'm going to pray for no rain. Not sure how many will make it out, but I will post pics and an update of course after!
Oh - and folks... following my blog a few days ago... I received pics my 'new' friend took when we were side by side watching Kevin Costner. I think you'll agree she got some great 'close up' shots! YUMMMMM!
We just had to get the 'tush' shot!
And this was his 'drinking' song which he got us to sing along with! He is simply 'dreamy'!!
Gotta run - James just came online to chat!!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Hey did you get that SP = Safe Place... FB = Fudged Blunders lol...
I don't know why I never learn... I was chatting on FB and made the mistake of telling someone about my new love interest... well talk about getting grilled! The things this person suggested I do to make sure he's for real was absurd! Like I'm a total idiot... I know it sounds too good to be true, but we have exchanged enough communications that I believe in his sincerity - and that is what matters... because in the end, I am my own best friend!
When I spoke to James as we chatted last night again ... he said he told one of his friends in the States when he was back in California and he was told the same... not to trust that I was for real or sincere.
Yes I am being careful, but why can't this be for real?! Every sign tells me it is and my gutt tells me to go with it. I have listened to my angel reading and opened to listening to my own intuition and caring less about the negative feedback that sometimes comes from those who always doubt... I know it's because they 'care' ... but from this particular person, I believe it's almost some jealousy... So James and I have decided to not say much more ... but alas, here on SP I am safe to blog and journal my feelings without fear of judgement. I thank you all for your positive wishes, goodies and good luck wishes!
So James and I chatted early morning and late last night. He connected with his web cam and he is just as handsome as his pictures... and he was shy - which was so cute to see.
During our chat in the morning, he said... "May I say something?" and of course I said yes, and he said my full name... "I Love You"... and my heart was a flutter because I feel very much the same way. Yes call us crazy love struck teenagers but I'm truly very happy - like never before in my life and he the same... He then sent me some beautiful poems... I used to dream that I would meet someone who would do such gestures... and here he is!!
"A Special World" !!
A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb !!
Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last !!
And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong !!
You are in my heart
I melted when I read the poems he sent... we exchanged some as we searched for some online that described how we were feeling... It's a WOW story folks... my TRUE fairy tale love story come true!
So despite the negativity and doubts that came forth from my 'opening my mouth' to the wrong person... I am still on Cloud 9 ... and no one is going to rain on my parade!
On the SP Front... I tried for the first time the Zumba Express and boy did I sweat - only 20 mins but it was good! Then 'lovestruck' me got on the wrong bus coming home so ended up walking about 40 mins to get home... but did I care - NO! It was a beautiful day, I was getting in some activity and I could daydream some more lol...
I ate very well, and the only thing that was not planned is I had 2 light beers. Alas... they were in the fridge calling my name. But I woke this morning and feel great! Going to try and get another morning workout in again. Didn't make it to the gym ... so going to try to go tonight (I just have to DO IT - to get the ball rolling again)... Hey Anne - is there a class we can do together Wednesday night? Maybe that could be our 'meeting'... I can go to your location - let me know!
Oh - and in one week - the girls come home! Megan is 'missing her mum'... and sent me a note on MSN so I'll call them today. I guess she has 'changed her mind' about wanting to move with her dad - I knew she'd be way too lonely for her mom... and it warms my heart that my girls, my angels will be back next Tuesday (I'm taking the day off to clean house and get ready to pick them up around lunch time to spend the day with them).
Time to get this day started! Ab work this morning perhaps... it's been a while - yikes! Taking it easy because my shoulder pain is mostly gone, but going to be extra careful and stop if it feels like it's aggravated! Happy Tuesday SP Friends!!
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