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Breaking Down...

Tuesday, July 08, 2014




I've felt this before - but perhaps this time it's even scarier as I swore I'd never be back here again. This weekend was truly heart wrenching with a major blow out on Saturday with my 13 year old - and I'm still recovering emotionally.

I was ready to throw in the towel with regards to caring for my daughter. She called her dad. I called the step-daughter and basically told everyone I was DONE and I couldn't take it anymore.

This daily struggle and worry about my daughter and her constant pushing of my limits has broken me down and I'm feeling so shaky inside. I also know that I have delved into unhealthy coping mechanisms which have not helped. And so here I find myself again trying to re-build my strength and recharge a bit.

I have to take this one day at a time. I felt awful yesterday - my nerves were simply terrible and I'm still feeling somewhat shaky inside today. I have to stay focused on the things I can do to build myself back up and tend to my self-care more than ever.

Thankfully work is quiet as my focus and concentration is obviously not where it should be. I simply need to take it one hour at a time right now and continue praying that things will change for the better...

  
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JOANNS4 7/9/2014 9:31AM

    You are in my prayers. I know how difficult this can be. Keep the faith and take it one day at a time, as you are doing. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ATHENA1966 7/8/2014 8:02PM

    I am so sorry that you are going through this. I know Helene, do you have someone you can call when you are having a tough time? I can't imagine what you are going through. One day at a time. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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LATVIAN_SANDY 7/8/2014 4:45PM

    Sorry to hear that - and praying for your family. We're all thinking about you. emoticon

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ELIZABETH5268 7/8/2014 3:49PM

    I'm so sorry to hear this especially involving your child. I hope things look up soon. Try your best to stay positive and just work on what you can do.

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JANTHEBLONDE 7/8/2014 3:41PM

    So sorry to hear about all your problems with your youngest daughter! Hang in there and keep strong girlfriend! One day at a time and sometimes one hour at a time! Sending you lots of hugs!
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GABIBEAR 7/8/2014 1:51PM

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KRICKET4 7/8/2014 1:44PM

    Hugs to you.
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I can honestly say I know how you feel.
Thanks for your quotes. They are a tremendous help to me today.
Let's hang in there!
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1CRAZYDOG 7/8/2014 12:05PM

    ((((HUGS)))) Wish I had advice -- just don't. Glad you blog about it here, at least it's a safe release. Prayers too.

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WHITNEYLD 7/8/2014 10:38AM

    There are so many emotions that conflict and cause strife in young teens. My mom had her hands full with me, when she was there... I had been a problem in younger years, but things happen that catapult emotions and anger into new territory. History of mental illness runs strong in my family, particularly in my mom, so I have a hard time telling if her perception was reality when I was very little. However, a lot of issues arose around 8-12 years for me due to certain circumstances. If it makes you feel better, although I did not do drugs at a young age, I fell into terrible despair and self-destructive behaviors between 18-24 and I am now on the other side. Just know when people use substances they are not themselves. I can not imagine living as I once did now, with a family of my own and worrying about my own mental genetics being passed on to my daughter. It is a hard battle. I hope things turn around for you and yours. I know it has been a lifelong struggle for me, but with a bipolar and severely depressed and general anxiety, obsessive compulsive, and others in my gene pool, I can manage my symptoms somewhat without medication at the moment.

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IAMBIZI 7/8/2014 9:37AM

    Oh helene,
I am so sorry that this is happening to you.
take each day as it comes....
yes self care is so important.
I have had a break down in the past that required hospitalization....there is this option if you need it to stay safe.
(((((HUGS))))
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DOOBRIE 7/8/2014 9:03AM

    Try and keep strong.

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READY2LIVE85 7/8/2014 9:02AM

    I so agree with the previous posters. Raising teenagers will test you beyond what you may have ever imagined. Having done it three times, every child has a unique way in their path to independence and adulthood. If you can, please journal your thoughts, hopes and wisdom for this child. It will unburden your trials, keep your spirits up, and reflect the love you have, regardless of what bumps (or boulders) are in the road. Look back at your writing to see how far you've come, and someday your child may see in your journal how much you loved her, even when she wasn't so lovable. Blessings to you.

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BOOKLOVINGGIRL 7/8/2014 8:43AM

    Girls sometimes try the patience of their moms. I have two daughters who are now young adults. The teenage years were truly hard. I'm not sure I did such a great job handling them, but I did the best I could. You're doing your best too. Just remember, trials don't last. Better days come too. Journaling helped me a lot in those days. From the looks of the quotes pictured in this post, it sounds like you're a mom doing a better job than she knows.

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MSLZZY 7/8/2014 8:36AM

    You can only do so much and it is time to let go. One day she will understand all that you have tried to do for her but for now, she is struggling to find her way and not making the best choices. Make time to get yourself in a better place because you can't help her otherwise. Stay strong! HUGS!

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While it's hard now, you must pick yourself up & move forward.
So sorry that you have such issues with your daughter. In time she will
hopefully understand everything you did for her. Hang in there. Things have
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FORZACHANDMATT 7/8/2014 8:23AM

    I have been reading your blog and my heart goes out to you for all that you are dealing with. I only have younger kids and they are boys but I have a feeling the youngest one is going to push us like your daughter. Please take it one minute, one hour, one day at a time and use those very true quotes you put in your blog post to help you through. Will be thinking of you today

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    The only way you can go is up!

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Borderline Personality Disorder

Friday, July 04, 2014

I made a few calls today - first to the Children's Aid Society to clarify what had been said to me with respect to giving up my daughter to temporary care - which in my case, since she's not at risk of harm by me, would mean basically that I would be abandoning her because I couldn't handle it anymore (something that just breaks my heart to even think about).

Then I called the Parents Lifeline of Eastern Ontario again and I have to say I need to call them more often. The person I spoke to sent me this incredible email following our conversation including many helpful links - and this one is the one that stood out because while my daughter can't yet be diagnosed or labelled - it sure sounds like all we're living. www.ementalhealth.ca/Ottawa-Carleton
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I also spoke to the counselor at the crisis unit earlier today and at that point my daughter was refusing to cooperate and wasn't even doing her part in the 'client' reflections about why she was there. She refused to talk to me as well. I said to the counselor if this was where she was at that I could not see her coming home. Then I called again after work - and spoke to her. She did a 360 - and was calmer, did the paperwork and when I went to visit we had a good talk. I had faxed over my expectations and boundaries - she agreed to follow them. We'll see how that will go ... but she's back home after a three day stay there (the longest stay yet).

Now she's gone out with my oldest - and they are talking/bonding I guess or de-briefing - which is good. At least I know she's with her sister.

And me - well I'm sitting here feeling very tired. I am not sure what tomorrow will bring - but I'll take it one day at a time and do some more reading and figure out next steps to stay on track with my daughter.

I'm grateful for this parents lifeline service - it's a Godsend. I was a bit sad that I had to forego the workplace activity because I was dealing with this - but my spirit was not up for celebrations and so - I'm having a peaceful night at home and hoping for a great night's rest.

  
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JUST_BRENDA 7/7/2014 5:17AM

    I'm glad that PLEO is working out for you. A few years back I had checked into it, but never went to a meeting. I know I didn't give it a fair chance.
There are so many valuable resources out there.
Anything you can use to help your coping abilities is great. You've been presented many challenges for quite some time.
Hang in there!

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IAMBIZI 7/6/2014 6:49PM

    I had dropped from getting your blogs,
sounds like you are getting some help.
You know you are a great mom.
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MSLZZY 7/5/2014 7:02PM

    It sounds like you are finally getting some answers. HUGS!

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    emoticon emoticon Keeping you & your family in my thoughts & prayers

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MEADSBAY 7/5/2014 7:09AM

    I know you are searching for a solution to help your dd but be careful about attaching labels. My dd had at least 10 different labels glommed on to her from the age of 2 and her treatments tended to veer off in different directions depending on the latest diagnosis.
I'm not saying your dd and mine are not, and that article was very helpful, I'm just saying that people, especially young ones, are highly complex and malliable beings.
Sometimes behavioral issues and acting out are only that, and not a sign of serious mental issues.
I am trying to be encouraging here, not critical- hope I worded this properly.
I know how exhausting all this has been for you.
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GABIBEAR 7/5/2014 2:37AM

    emoticon and lots of emoticon Helene.

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DOOBRIE 7/5/2014 1:54AM

    That's a very good article with lots of practical advice. It's good that it recognizes teens can have borderline personality disorder even if they can't be "officially" diagnosed until they're 18. It's certainly a very challenging condition to deal with.

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LYNETTEMOM 7/5/2014 1:31AM

    so good to hear that you are seeing some points of light in the midst of these difficulties. Stay strong and take care of yourself.
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1CRAZYDOG 7/4/2014 10:09PM

    HUGS and prayers. So sorry.

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JANTHEBLONDE 7/4/2014 9:36PM

    WOW! I just read the article that Parents Lifeline of Eastern Ontario sent you! OMG girlfriend! You will be in my prayers! Sending you lots of hugs!
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VIADOLOROSA 7/4/2014 9:15PM

    My husband and both children have mental disorders. It is all I can do to keep myself sane sometimes. I'm glad you found the help you need!

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REGILIEH 7/4/2014 9:11PM

    We have friends that dealt with borderline personality, the doctor gave her resperdal not sure of the spelling. The daughter has taken it many years, is still,taking it and has a normal life, the medication made the difference. I understand they give this medication for lots of things so,she wouldn't be labeled taking it.

I hope this helps. If you can think of something you want me to ask her I will.

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UMBILICAL 7/4/2014 9:05PM

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Affirmations at Work...

Thursday, July 03, 2014


Life and every NEW day is definitely a blessing to be appreciated!

It was back to work today and it felt good - especially since things cooled off and I managed to sleep a solid 5 hours - I know not a lot but in comparison to the previous 3 nights a blessing.

The day flew by as it was my first day back since last Thursday. I am forever grateful for my workplace and amazing colleagues!

I had an intense night last night with my oldest as we got into some heavy discussions about her life path now that she has graduated. We also talked about some hurts about her dad not being present in her life and I offered her outlets or suggestions to deal with it - like handwriting him a letter to express her feelings as she feels when she calls she is never able to get what she wants to say out without being interrupted or yelled at

So tonight I am looking forward to a quiet night alone. My youngest called me and is asking to come home but I don't feel she's ready. She does not see that she's done anything wrong and is copping an attitude with me. When I talked to the counselor he agreed so he was going to let her know that she was not coming home but I have to go visit at 7:30. I told him I know it's going to be her begging me to come home and I'm not going there. He said there would be support for me and if she gets rude or the visit goes negatively - I can leave - I have a feeling it won't be a long visit.

I had hoped to see my guy tonight - but it won't work out so I'll make the most of an alone night and enjoy. I'm still feeling very tired and drained with the past few days.

TGIF tomorrow! A real short work week... gotta love that! And so now - I take a few hours to be calm before the visit... I'll check back in tomorrow.

  
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GABIBEAR 7/4/2014 12:50AM

    Good luck with your visit Helene! Glad things went well at work! Have a great Friday!

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JANTHEBLONDE 7/3/2014 6:08PM

    I hope your visit goes well with your daughter! That was so good that you were able to sit down and talk to your oldest daughter on how she was feeling! Thanks for sharing! Sending you lots of hugs today!
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MIMICOTO 7/3/2014 6:00PM

    Hope the visit goes well, Helene....be okay with caring for YOU through this situation....you cannot help or guide your daughter if you are not strong and centered....

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1CRAZYDOG 7/3/2014 5:56PM

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    Good luck with the visit.

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    I hope the visit goes well....

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Staying Strong ... and Coping

Wednesday, July 02, 2014


It's very heart wrenching that my 13 year old daughter is going through so much. Today was another day off for me - and I hoped to rest but spent it mostly still wound up about the event and talking with my oldest as we kind of debriefed together as she too is going through all of this. It's stressful for her too to hear and witness all of it. She often feels caught in the middle as my 13 year old will confide certain things to her and ask her not to tell me.... and when she does her sister gets mad at her.

So I spent time with my oldest - talked with her, drove her to her interview, she bought me lunch (very sweet - she said heck mom you've been feeding me all my life - it's the least I can do).

I tried to rest but haven't been able to. And again today - at 1:11pm believe it or not I got a call from the crisis unit. My daughter revealed that she had been involved in risky behavior involving drug use. Because of the confidentiality - they couldn't say more but they said that as she was brought in under the influence - the proper procedure would have been to have her checked out so I had to go pick her up, bring her to the doctor's and then bring her back.

Thankfully the office was not busy and they took us right away. I'm so grateful that we were able to see the intern that has been working with my doctor as she knows the history and was so compassionate... emoticon My daughter didn't want to divulge what she had done in front of me so they spoke alone and then the actual doctor took me in and talked to me. He asked 'so tell me what's going on'... and it goes back to April 2013 - and he even said the writing was on the wall then - and he recognizes how she has escalated.

She was fine physically but he gave her something for her stomach as she has been getting sick in the middle of the night and today hasn't eaten. When I got back to the crisis unit I had to fill out the paperwork for the medication and spoke with the counselor a bit. He said unfortunately she's a teenager and she won't recognize the severity or danger of her actions until she hits rock bottom which scares me - I honestly hope that something SERIOUS doesn't have to happen before she turns things around.

And so now I'm home... and I am allowing myself a few drinks - mainly because I know she's safe and no issues will arise... and because I honestly feel better already after one.

I hope to get at LEAST 6 hours sleep tonight. I think I have had 10 hours in the past 3 nights and maybe just 2 or 3 last night.

I'm exhausted - physically and emotionally. I am also sore from my one hour workout yesterday - but that's a good feeling. I will take it easy tonight though. Tomorrow is a new day and I can't wait to get back to work and focus on that.

Thank you SP friends for your prayers and positive thoughts - I don't know how I could stay so strong without all of you... my solace comes from letting it out in writing... and your feedback nourishes my spirit. emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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WHITNEYLD 7/8/2014 10:29AM

    I am sorry to hear. I have missed a lot. Sometimes therapy and medication can help. I know I have had my share of mental distress, and I have somewhat grown out of it. There were come catalysts involved in my case, but the genetics were there anyway as were some of the behaviors.

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AMBERLICIOUS88 7/3/2014 3:42PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about all your stress and troubles. I honestly don't know how you manage to stay sane and keep it all together. I know if I was in your position I would probably need a few drinks to calm my nerves and keep my sanity. I hope things get easier for you soon. I don't even technically KNOW you, but I swear reading about all your troubles stresses me out even! You are STRONG and you CAN get through this. Whatever your coping mechanisms may be.

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JWARD199 7/3/2014 10:48AM

    Kids can be so trying. I remember well the call from police at 3:00 in the morning, after not being able to reach my 17 year-old son all evening on his cell phone (yeah, we had cell phones back even then!). The good news is that Danny is a 26 year old man now, married, with a home of his own, a fantastic wife, and he is talking about attending the community college in the fall.

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MIMICOTO 7/3/2014 1:25AM

    Helene - to echo Gabi's comment, it really is a blessing that you've always been able to reach our to your friends here for support, encouragement and love....this is not something to go through alone....

It seems that she may be in the right place at the right time, and the fact that caregivers and caseworkers around her case have walked through this with her (and you!) places them in an excellent position to intervene with focused care right now...

Thinking of you and praying for you, my friend...

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GABIBEAR 7/3/2014 12:54AM

    So glad that you could get some comfort in this community Helene. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

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LYNETTEMOM 7/2/2014 10:00PM

    I feel so bad for you but your pic post at the top of the blog is key. You cannot live for your kids. They are in control of their lives and you must control your life. Some people may think that is harsh but I believe that is reality.
I hope you will take my next words in the spirit in which they are written. I am a very frank person and I just have to say, please, please, don't self-medicate yourself. It may seem like it helps but it really doesn't. Not for you and not for your kids. We grew up with booze being the drug of choice..... but it is a drug and it is a crutch. You are strong .
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4RASCALS 7/2/2014 8:46PM

    Sending you tons of hugs. Know that you are doing everything possible for her. She is getting help so maybe she can turn it around. Stay strong & hang in there. Be sure to take care of yourself.


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KRISKECK 7/2/2014 7:56PM

    It is so hard. You are doing the right things, know that. Hopefully she will get the help she needs, especially if you keep pushing. I think I told you this before, my son got into drugs when he was in high school (older than your daughter though) and finally was placed in a county-sponsored treatment program and got clean. I don't know what I would have done without that program and my friends. Stay strong, you can do this.

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WONDAWOMAN2 7/2/2014 7:02PM

    Sending lots of love to you, Helene....remember to breathe. So sweet of your oldest to do/say that.

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    I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter! Sending you lots of hugs today!
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KRICKET4 7/2/2014 6:15PM

    From one mom with a troubled child to another - my thoughts and prayers are with you. Hang tough!
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1CRAZYDOG 7/2/2014 6:03PM

    ((((HUGS))))) That's all I can say.

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MEADSBAY 7/2/2014 6:02PM

    My heart is aching for you, my friend.
She is so young!
I am so happy that you live in a place with such good support services.
Please take care of yourself and #1 dd.
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DOOBRIE 7/2/2014 5:31PM

    It's very sad that your daughter is self-medicating with drugs. With the right help she shouldn't need to hit rock bottom so don't even think about that. She's in the right place and I hope they will realise how serious things are and give her ongoing professional help.

So sorry you are getting such little sleep. I hope you have a better night tonight.

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Overcoming Adversity

Wednesday, July 02, 2014



Yesterday was quite a day for me. It started with my motivation on a high because of the new month but as the day progressed things became more challenging.

More conflict and arguing with my kids. My own cravings to cave in on my resolve to abstain from alcohol for a while and then caving in - but to fast foods instead. I managed to turn that part around in that I watched a documentary (Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead) and I found it motivating and inspiring. While I watched it I worked out doing strength training - for just over an hour.

In the mean time - my youngest was out (she is 13). I had dropped her off at a friend's. I asked her to promise me that she wouldn't go downtown to the Canada Day festivities alone as I think she's too young. She promised she wouldn't - she said she would hang out with her friend (where I dropped her off). So by 4pm I was checking in to see how she was doing. No answers to my texts. The night progressed and then I figured her phone was dead again so I texted the friend where I dropped her off. I am like an investigator when it comes to having to track my daughter down - but last night was different. Where I dropped her off - that friend - well my daughter dumped her to go hop a bus and meet 'downtown' friends.

I was livid - but had no way to get in touch with her. So I waited... and waited... and finally went on the computer to see who she was messaging with and tried contacting them. I managed to reach some of them but they all said she was no longer with them. 10:30pm came and went - the later curfew we had agreed upon following a counselling session. Then came 11, 11:30. I called the crisis line to ask what I should do. They said if she wasn't home by 11:30 or 12 to call the police and report her missing and so I did at midnight.

About 20mins later she walked in. I immediately demanded that she return her phone to me and she refused. As soon as she walked in she wanted to go to the bathroom. I followed her and saw she was trying to plug it in to obviously delete or hide something from me. I physically pushed my way into the bathroom and it was very intense - but she refused to give it to me so I gave her 5 mins. It was very heated. I talked to her after and she said it was things she was looking up to lose weight because she's fat. Whether or not that's true I have my doubts (although I know that's an issue for her). Our discussion escalated and I decided to call the crisis unit back - well it turns out she is back at the residential crisis unit. I told her I couldn't put up with her behaviour and disrespect anymore and she didn't want to stay here so I brought her in at 1:11 am (there's my number...). I filled out all the paperwork and wasn't back until after 2 and maybe slept a couple of hours so needless to say I'm at home today.

The police showed up just before I was bringing her in and I explained I tried to cancel the call - they talked to me a bit. I expressed my concerns about her escalating behavior and fear for her safety. They said 'yes we saw a few things come up in the system - her shoplifting, the incident where she sent the threatening text to someone, school issues. I told them I just don't know what to do with her anymore.

She says she doesn't like her new counsellor and that it's not helping. I can't just NOT get her help because it is so obvious that she needs it. So she's at the crisis center because she refused to stay here and also to give me a bit of respite. This is the third time I bring her there - but the first time in about a year. I feel like something's gotta give here.

I have to visit her every night but I do hope she will be there until Friday. Her 2 stays before were 2 days and 24 hours - I feel I need the 3 days minimum (they keep them up to a max of 5 days).

And so in all of this I read this affirmation to start my day... "No matter what happens to you in life, you alone have the capacity to choose your response to it. When you form the habit of searching for the positive in every circumstance, your life will move into its highest dimensions. This is one of the greatest of all the natural laws of success and happiness."

And so in all of this - I'm grateful that my daughter did make it home because I worried something really bad happened to her. I'm grateful that in a way she did not fight me to go to the crisis unit as she usually does. I'm grateful that she will be there receiving a structured program including some life skills and perhaps a bit of a break between us - time for both of us to reflect and re-group. I'm grateful that I was able to again take an extra day off work and for my boss' understanding. I will take the day to hopefully rest a bit more and I will go visit my daughter tonight during visiting hours.

Life will continue to bring us challenges but I will continue to choose to push forward despite the difficulties and seek the positive and never miss an opportunity to see the good in even the toughest days.

  
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WHITNEYLD 7/8/2014 10:32AM

    I am sorry to hear again, just wondering if there was anything that happened to trigger this self-harming behavior in her. I had things happen to me that escalated and caused a lot of mental problems that I may have already had but were not as severe until things occurred.

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    My prayers are with you and your daughter Helene!
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MIMICOTO 7/2/2014 4:51PM

    Oh Helene.....

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JANTHEBLONDE 7/2/2014 1:53PM

    Oh my gosh! My heart goes out to you! I am really proud of you how you handled the situation with your daughter last night! Stay strong girlfriend! Today is a new day! Sending you lots of hugs today!
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LYNETTEMOM 7/2/2014 11:31AM

    thoughts and prayers are with you, Helene.

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1CRAZYDOG 7/2/2014 11:29AM

    Sending you strength. It's a rough road.

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BOSTONBLUESGIRL 7/2/2014 10:10AM

    Sending you positive vibes and encouragement. emoticon

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PHOENIX40S 7/2/2014 9:58AM

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MSLZZY 7/2/2014 8:53AM

    So sorry your DD is treating you and herself with such disrespect. HUGS!

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DOOBRIE 7/2/2014 8:44AM

    I'm so sorry, Helene. She is so young and acting like she's at least four years older. It must be heartbreaking.

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NANCYPAT1 7/2/2014 8:42AM

    It sounds like you are dealing with a lot right now. How old is your daughter? My son is an adult now, but I went through a lot with him when he was younger. I will keep you both in my prayers.

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