Life is not all rainbows and butterflies. It can be tough sometimes. And you’ve paid a heavy price to get this far, so the best option is to really make it count by moving forward from where you are. Free yourself from the world’s negativity – from the sources of ignorance telling you what you can and cannot do – by promising to look ahead, to live ahead, and to get ahead. In other words, start making positive promises to yourself!
Promise to fight back, to fight harder, to laugh louder and longer and slap adversity back into its seat whenever it dares to stand against you. Promise to be a force to be reckoned with – because you are a force to be reckoned with.
Make these promises to yourself, and keep them forever.
For the rest of this month I have to let go of my goals around diet/exercise. I need to take some pressure off - and simply focus on one day at a time - with work, my move prep, my volunteer stuff and somehow get some balance and insert some FUN in there.
I've been so busy that I haven't been able to visit with my 'friends' as much and it's making me grouchy. There are also a couple who were rude or just turned me away - and I felt hurt - but I'm letting go and breaking any ties to anything negative and moving onward/forward.
I have a meeting with the new school program on Monday. I'm hoping to hear that my oldest is going to resolve her living issue (I have been worried about this situation and frustrated that I can't really help right now).
So I'm going to try to minimally 'spark' here and there. I may not post as much or blog as often. I need to do some re-grouping.
I am resigning to allow life to flow these next two weeks. I am done trying to 'control' things and I'm going allow things to flow as they will.
It's liberating to do this - and it's something I need to practice more in my life. I need to let go of the "Virgo" in me who wants to know every detail, step... Life HAPPENS... I'm not perfect but things keep moving in the right direction despite the challenges (and some weight gain set backs).
For now - the important thing is to set the goals to get this move done as smoothly as possible. I've set a goal to get through 4 boxes every night this week and this weekend - well I will really dive into packing all I don't need. So much stuff to still get rid of - incredibly LIBERATING!!
Including getting rid of old wedding photos and posting an ad to sell my wedding dress. Letting go of old karma to allow for FRESH new things to come into my life!!
This was almost 20 years ago!! My train - detachable too... I will post it I think for $250 or best offer - what do you think?
Onward, forward, upward - Feeling liberated accepting all that is flowing in my life right now!
Day 2 with my daughter back to school. In thinking of the trials and challenges we went through last year - we've come a long way and I see possibilities for positive changes.
She ended up reaching her friend and I allowed her to spend time with him and she was very grateful and felt very relieved that he was ok. She has been much more appreciative and expressing gratitude these days which is nice. There are still moments where her moods shift in an instant - but that's all part of the teenage hormones.
Work flew by today. After work I came home to do my workout. I was tempted to skip it but pushed through. I used our lab's scale today which measures body composition (I can't believe I didn't use it before now since I've been there almost 4 years) but it was a wake up call! I need to get my numbers down to healthy ranges - my body fat percentage is in the obese category again - that was what made me push through my commitment to workout and eat well and skip drinks tonight.
I am determined to finish off the year getting back to the 20 to 25lbs weight loss mark. I was looking at old pics and had this scan of me - not sure how old I was but love my thinner face and I will get there again.
Tomorrow is my long day... I get to work for 6 and won't be home until 9 as I chair my first meeting as president with my association. Then I get home and have to take care to put the garbage out as I have loads with the de-cluttering.
Tonight I managed to scan more pics and pack up movies and a box of VHS movies that I'm giving away.
Now I just finished taking my bath, blogging and will be turning in soon. Plans to workout in the morning since I won't be home until late.
My daughter had her first day today ... while I had to drive her in because the transportation didn't show up - she went and she for the first time left the house without her hat as it's not allowed at school (an issue she has about not liking how she looks / her hair).
She was only there a half day as per the plan - but then this afternoon she received a call that would frighten anyone. One of her friends has been missing since Friday and last time she talked to him - he was suicidal so she is understandably upset. I'm proud of her for how she's handling it and how she is opening up to me about it.
I'm grateful for this progress... I'm grateful for my workplace and their flexibility as I didn't make it in until 10. Tomorrow I'll stay again to be sure her taxi arrives ok.
I used the extra time at home this morning to get my workout in which was great since I didn't get it in after work. I did well with eating all day - but having a few drinks tonight - but completely OK with it. Progress is progress...
I also talked to someone about the possibility of sharing my story around my drinking as part of a documentary - and while it's scary to open myself up this way - I honestly feel it's for the greater good (if I'm accepted) to help others who might be experiencing the same issues. That's what I love about leading the team Cutting Down the Booze - it's a team that ROCKS in that we do not judge. We are open to all goals that people set for themselves without stereotyping.
My hope is that if I'm chosen to be part of this documentary that it will be another step forward in my journey - but most of all that it will be something that will help many others.
My passion in life has always been to be a helper, coach, and healer... I have faith and belief that everything comes to my life for a reason and this is just one more of those instances.