Thursday, June 27, 2013
well, i'm doing so-so. my calorie count this week has been in the world of 1800-1900-- so, obviously, not great, but not as awful as 2600 or more. also, i went for my first acupuncture session to deal with the sugar cravings. amazingly, it seems to be working. my sugar cravings are much much less and it doesn't feel like such a battle of will to say no to sweets. in fact, yesterday, i didn't have any sweets at all except for a coca cola with dinner. lets hope this keeps up! i'm supposed to go once a week for the next 5 weeks for 6 sessions in total. i hope it works.
but, i just weighed myself and i've gained weight. i'm now at 159 which is not good. six days ago, last friday, i was at 156. to understand where this 3 pound gain came from, i went out to a big dinner last friday where i ate and drank plenty, but would that cause 3 pounds weight gain? or could this be a hormonal fluctuation since i'm about to get my period?
its upsetting to see the number on the scale go up so dramatically b/c i actually feel that this week i've been more on top of things than usual. i went to yoga on sunday, monday, wednesday, and i'm going today and on saturday. i have been eating around 1800/1900, which i won't lose any weight on but i shouldn't gain weight on it either. i'm scared that yoga is not enough to lose weight and that i have to start running again, which i haven't done in a couple of months and i don't know if i have the motivation to do so since i find it a bit boring.
argh. frustration. i feel sad and demoralized.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
i haven't been blogging so much this week and i don't quite know why. i have been consistently tracking, eating veggies/fruits, and drinking water, so maybe i don't need to blog so much to keep myself accountable. i have also done a ton of exercise this week: a 20 mile cycle ride on sunday, yoga on monday, tuesday, and thursday; spinning on wednesday and saturday.
however, my calorie count has been pretty high this week. i checked out this past week of calorie counts and the maximum was on sunday at 2700 and the lowest was for 1600 or so. plus, i did not track on friday night after going out eating and drinking with friends, so its possible that friday was also in the 2700s if not higher.
so, the big question is, how am i going to lower my calorie count? this tuesday, i'm seeing an acupuncturist for help with my sugar addiction. if i cold turkey stopped eating sweets, then i would definitely be eating within my calorie range. but is it possible to stop cold turkey? for years now, i've had trouble with sweets, and as i get older, the consequence on my body only gets worse. i just looked through a set of wedding pictures from 4 years ago and i was a different person in terms of weight. i don't know what to do!
on one level, i think that i should accept where i am. on another level, i think that i should push myself to be at the weight that i want to be in-- where my old clothes fit me, where i look good and feel good. i want to be proud of how i look. is that so wrong?
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
well, i just tracked at about 2200 today, so i feel a bit bummed. i don't know what happened in the afternoon, but i was hit with cravings and being tired, back and forth, and found myself snacking more than i should.
i think that i need to take another approach b/c clearly, i've been on sp since october and i am not changing my eating habits very significantly. i go through these phases of intensity and excitement, focusing very hard on eating within my range for a few weeks and then i go off the wagon in such an extreme way that i lose any benefits that i may have gained from my careful dieting. its all very frustrating and i don't feel that i have any control over myself.
i've decided to try acupuncture. there is a private clinic near my house that specializes in ear acupuncture as a means of addiction therapy. i think that i am addicted to sugar and so maybe this could help. the website recommends going 3 times a week for 6-8 weeks. i can only afford once a week for 6-8 weeks. i'll check with them to see if that will be enough.
i don't know if this will work or if its a giant waste of time and money, but i'm going to see. i've emailed the clinic for an appointment. i'll keep you updated, sparkers!
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
well, yesterday i tracked at under 1700, which is definitely progress. no cookies, so that helped! i wonder if i have to stop cold turkey with the cookies in general. that would be so tragic..
also, i weighed myself today and there has been no change. i'm still at 157.41. i shouldn't be surprised given how i've been eating, but i'd love for the number to go down.
today was my second day of waking up early and going to a yoga class. so far, i do feel more focused but also more tired. in fact, i think i'm going to take a nap soon.
i've been eating well today. a simple and healthy pre-yoga breakfast, a post yoga cappuccino, and a cottage cheese/blueberries, 2 hard boiled eggs, and a slice of buttered toast for lunch. i'm full, which is a good sign.
i'm going off to take a nap. i'll blog on how i did today later today.
thanks again for all of your support, sparkers!
Monday, June 17, 2013
i'm trying my hardest to stay in my calorie range today. its about 7 pm and i haven't had dinner yet. at this point, i've got about 551 calories to eat for dinner.
i'm seriously trying my best and do you know the extremely obvious thing that i'm learning, despite having been on the SP plan since October? I'm hungry. For some reason, for the past 8 months, I was not able to be hungry, and so I immediately ate, and thus, could not stick to the low calorie range. And so, I'm doing my best to ride out this hunger until dinner and hope that dinner satisfies me so that I can, for the first time in months, be in my calorie range.
Besides the hunger that i'm currently feeling and thus blogging about, I'm also starting a new experiment. Starting today, I'm waking up much earlier to start the day with yoga and see if it helps me concentrate better and be more productive in general. Waking up early was quite tough b/c I had to wake up about 2 hours before the class in order to eat something that would be digested by class time. However, I did it and I feel proud of myself. After yoga, I had a cappuccino and croissant n a nice cafe next door to the yoga studio since I was quite hungry. I've been tired all day but oddly enough, I haven't snacked on a devilish cookie despite these cookies being in my presence. Lets see if I can withstand the night!
I'm going to try this routine during this week and see if it makes a difference. Wish me luck Sparkers!
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