Tuesday, January 27, 2009
...and still going strong. I have an amazing surge of willpower for this vacation...going to the gym is not a question, I'm spreading out my meals better than ever even though I'm eating far less than normal (1,200 calories), drinking tons of water, and getting to bed nice and early. I know exactly what I'm doing - I know I can't keep this up for long and all I ask of my body is to do it for the next 19 days. It's kind of insane because so much of what I'm doing is somewhat opposite of my general healthy lifestyle philosophy, but for this exact moment in time it works.
I was down another pound today. I was ashamed to blog about this, but by this past Saturday I had actually managed to get my weight a full TWENTY POUNDS heavier* than it was at my low point in early December. As of today though I am back to 145 pounds after being on track for three full days. I believe I still have about four to five pounds of water weight that will drop off nice and quick, and then I'll have about two weeks to refine. Ideally I'd like to be back to 140 after all the temporary weight is gone and then have two weeks to lose two pounds per week and go on vacation weighing 136.
*Are you wondering how to gain 20 pounds in a month and a half? First, start at a weight that is far lower than what your body is used to. Then surround yourself with food temptations. Then get into a mindset that you are going to eat whatever you want, dammit, beause you work hard and you "deserve" it! (How about DESERVING to have a healthy, fit, and attractive body? Wasn't thinking about that at the time.) Then, gorge yourself on all manner of bagels, pasta, ice cream, candy, hot chocolate, cookies, oh, and lots more cookies, pizza, and chicken nuggets. And start watching TV and playing computer games at the times of day you typically go to the gym. Very effective weight-gain plan!!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Three weeks to go! This morning I was down about four pounds after just one day of being on track hard core. A little momentum is going a long way. I spent a while yesterday looking at pictures of Puerto Plata, which is where we're going on vacation, and I even did a web search for bikinis just to get inspired. It worked. I REFUSE to go on vacation looking anything other than my best!
It's true that I have a great long-term plan that I've developed over time. But it's also apparent that I still need to shake things up once in a while. I plan to get back to my usual routine after vacation, but for now, I am loving the idea of having to step up to the plate for a major challenge.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
First of all let me get the defensive stuff out of the way. What I wrote yesterday was like daydreaming...I wasn't listing goals as much as fantasizing. Do you know the quote, "Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars"? That's what I was doing. I'm more motivated by dreaming big than I am by being politically correct all the time!
So, without apology, I have a hardcore bikini bootcamp plan. I'm going all out for 23 days, starting today. I've gotten far off base, but it hasn't been all that long, and I believe I can shock my body back to where it was if I work really hard. It'll be much easier now than if I let the new extra weight settle in longer.
It's easy for me to start on a Saturday. My gym has such amazing classes on Saturdays so I always get a great workout, and I'm always busy with household chores, plus I have my guy aroud to keep me in line. It is not going to be at all easy to stick with my plan during the week, but I will only have a total of 15 weekdays on this plan. I can do this.
Twenty-two days from now, I'm off to the warm sunny sands of the Carribbean.
Friday, January 23, 2009
I'm a work in progress. Sometimes it feels like I've taken two steps forward, seventeen thousand steps back. But what would perfection even look like, for me? What would be my best? What would that look like? Here are some ideas:
*My weight would be STABLE
*I wouldn't obsess, but I would follow some guidelines
*I would go to bed at 9 p.m. and get up at 6 a.m. every day
*I would read more
*I would keep my condo cleaner and neater, and I'd finally get around to fixing up certain things around here
*I'd recycle (well...thanks to Jess, we've already started doing this!)
*I'd still be able to have treats. I'd figure out a way to have small treats, so small they don't affect my weight, and I wouldn't feel guilty about it or let that trigger binge patterns
*I'd figure out how to eliminate bingeing once and for all
*I'd do cardio 5-6 times a week and strength training 3 times a week (and stretching with every workout)
*I'd probably drink just one cup of coffee a day, plus have some occasionally as treats (see bullet on treats above)
*I'd drink a LOT of water. And green tea.
*I'd weigh 130 and be a size 2
*I wouldn't get overly hungry or overly full
*I'd figure out how to handle restaurants, vacations, parties, work luncheons, and other special occasions without impacting my weight or feeling deprived
*I'd feel happy and energetic, without aches and pains, and I'd sleep well
*I'd have really good skin and hair
*My mom and I would get along consistently
*I'd see my friends more often
*I'd spend less time with the TV/computer
*I'd try new active challenges on a regular basis
*I wouldn't let "I'm tired" or "I don't feel like it" or "I've been working hard so I deserve to rest" be an excuse to be a sloth or not enjoy my life
*Jess and I...er...too personal, use your imagination
*I'd be an involved, caring, well-informed teacher who got great results using best practices
*I'd manage my time better at school
*I'd stay organized
I think I'm starting to see some categories taking shape... so I'm going to cut off the specifics and try to identify the broad areas:
*Diet, exercise, and other healthy lifestyle choices - consistent, moderate, non-obsessive
*Enjoying results of the above
*Social/emotional/happiness/active lifestyle (some things could fit in more than one category)
*Ethical/making choices I can be proud of
I'm a special education teacher and part of my job is writing Individualized Education Programs for students. I've often thought it'd be a useful exercise to write an Individualized Health Program for myself. (Health, or weight management, or whatever you want to call it!) This is reminding me of that idea because I'm coming up with broad goal areas, like the goals in IEPs. It's obviously time for me to come up with something new. I have one Spark friend who actually started a whole new account when it was time to wipe the slate clean and start fresh. I can't bear to part with all my old info...but I do think it's time for a makeover of my Spark page and my program in general.
Oh, one more very important item to my list:
*I would figure out a way to keep the flame of motivation burning at all times!
My behavior lately has been like a child's who is acting out as a way of letting her caregivers know she needs help. I haven't been taking care of myself. It is time for a big, big overhaul. Only, I keep telling myself that, and then going back to the bad choices. It's time to do something significant enough that it sticks. To be continued. (once I figure this out.)
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