Wednesday, December 10, 2008
I'm on a new kick right now to really try to get more sleep, so I'm going to try to keep this short. Getting enough sleep is key for keeping my appetite in control and having energy for working out (and for life in general).
Yesterday - 135.0!! (Jess' scale.)
Today - 136.2 (my scale)
Still staying away from gum (it's getting a little easier...still tough), still seems to be helping the bloat situation.
Yesterday I was a bit above my calorie range again - 2,220 calories, I think. Today I was in my range, in the 2,100s, but still haven't managed a sub-2,100 day yet..maybe it's not that necessary right now afterall....my weight seems fine afterall...
Yesterday's workout involved running 30 minutes on the treadmill...probably about 3.2 miles or so, then two or three minutes of walking, a stretch, and then 15 minutes on the elliptical, pushing hard.
Today's workout was Body Pump and then...my first spin class! (Technically I did try spinning once a couple years ago, but it was in a high school gym and I don't think the bikes were great.) Spinning was OK. My butt hurt a little when I went a long time without standing, especially when I had to do "flat road double-time" (e.g. low resistance, pedaling quickly), but it wasn't as uncomfortable as I'd feared. I wore an ancient pair of padded bike shorts I have - amazing they still fit.
Sorry for being so boring today. I'll catch up with everyone's blogs sometime soon. Good night!
Monday, December 08, 2008
137.0 today again - third day in a row at this exact number...my body must like it!
I won't make this long, but I need to just state for the record that I LOVE the three dishes I've made myself this week. All recipes are keepers!
This evening I decided a little bit of extra food was OK because I was going to do two classes at the gym. Oops - I forgot to budget myself some calories for my coffees with soy milk - so with that on top of my extra snack (an extra apple), my total today was 2,215 calories. Never mind being above my "under 2,100" challenge goal...that's above my range in general! But that's OK. I guess today wasn't meant to be a challenge day. And I was below my range yesterday, so it all balances out.
Tonight's workout was a lot like Saturday's, minus the biking. I took a Zumba class and then a Body Pump class. I like Saturday's Zumba teacher the best...the Monday teacher is OK but she keeps her microphone too loud. The Monday night Body Pump teacher is the best, but I can't reguarly attend a class so late - 7:30-8:30...I tend to be way too tired to work out that late on a Monday. Tonight I made it, but am very, very sleepy now.
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Here I am, three seconds after crossing the finish line...I am the one in the pink jacket and gray hat.
I was in a 3.2-mile race today in the town where I teach. The race is called the "Angel Run" because it is in honor of a girl who passed away when she was in the third grade.
I hadn't been feeling super all week (TOM, sleep deprivation, gum-related bloating, and most likely a stomach bug on top of all that) and I really hadn't been training. So I had no high hopes for any type of PR today. I did force myself to sleep in this morning so I'd be well-rested, but I had a stomach ache and stomach "issues" right before the race!! Yuck, not a good way to feel before you're about to race! At least the snow wasn't a big issue...it was cold and there had been a dusting... the route was hilly so when I was going downhill I didn't go all-out with speed just in case I were to hit a slippery spot.
Anyway, here's how I did:
Overall place: 120 (top 15th percentile)
Time: 29:18 (goal had been 27:00, but I hadn't been training for it...not bad for a hilly route feeling rather icky... and that's actually a better time than I got in my two 5K races I've done, and this was .1 mile longer than a 5K!)
Place for female: 42 (top 8.8 percentile)
Place for females aged 14-98: 31 (top 16th percentile)
9:09 min/mile, 6.56 mph
My boyfriend and my dad came to cheer me on...my mom didn't come because of the cold. My brothers are in LA right now for work, and today is their birthday...they're 29 today...I still haven't called them to wish them happy birthday yet! And yes, they're twins, duh. :)
Despite still having the stomach issues (which is why I think I may have a lingering stomach bug), I am feeling SO much better today. Really back to my good old self, thank goodness. I was 137.0 again today, but I was well-rested and did NOT have the bloating issues last night or tonight - so I am convinced it's the gum! I really miss my gum, but I know it's been this emotional crutch for me and I can learn to live without it. I eat really healthy, and gum was really the one lingering thing that was processed/chemical crap. I am better off without it - bring on the decaf green tea refills instead!
Anyone ever go to the gym on the same day as a race? I did!! I proudly wore my race shirt and hoped people noticed that it had today's date on it. :) :) But I worked out too hard for long sleeves and had to take it off. I did 40 minutes on the elliptical, high heart rate (160-170 mostly). Then I did a quick two-minute cooldown on the treadmill...that was long enough to get my heart rate back under 120. :) Then I did a really nice stretch and had a chat with one of my gym buddies who had to take five weeks off due to an injury. He said it's so hard to go from working out a few hours a day to not working out for five weeks...exercise is such a powerful antidepressant...I hadn't even thought about it because I do get regular exercise, but if I didn't I bet I'd be such an emotional mess. Anyway, he said I looked like I'd lost weight since he was last at the gym five weeks ago. I thought about it and yeah, I am a little bit thinner than five weeks ago, even though I haven't lost anything really in the past oh...three (?) weeks or so. He also told me not to be so critical of myself about my race time. Of course I had to say all the negatives when I told him about it, but really I ought to focus on the positives.. he also said "You're crazy...I love it!" when he first found out that I was at the gym after being in a road race on the same day. :)
Oh random but there were all kinds of sugary junk items after the race - cookies and hot chocolate and whatnot, and I didn't even consider having any. I just was looking for water!
I did lots of cooking today and can't wait to eat my recipes all week!
Breakfast: I wanted to give the smoothies a break, so I invented my own "quiche"-ish recipe... in a casserole dish I mixed olive oil, garlic, mushrooms, a lot of broccoli, onion, seven eggs (cage free and organic!), fat-free mozzarella (haha Breigh), parmesan cheese, low-fat mayo, and a little soymilk, and then I baked that until it was golden on top.
Lunch: Who was it again who recommended quinoa recently? Was it Marlie? It was one of the bunnies. Anyway, this will be my first time trying quinoa and I know I am going to like it. I am having it with cherry tomatoes sliced in half, spinach, olive oil, scallions, little pieces of chicken, garlic, mushrooms, low-fat feta,and black olives.
Dinner: I did make the "healthy mac and cheese" recipe from the Daily Spark that "sneaks" butternut squash in...it looks so rich and creamy and cheesy, what a great fake-out!!
Man am I hungry...I cannot wait to eat tomorrow. Snacks this week will include apples, yogurt with dry oats mixed in (YUMMY snack), and raw almonds.
Oh yeah, that challenge to myself...I decided I would keep my calories under 2,100 (instead of under 2,000). This will be a reduction of at least 50 calories per day from what I've been eating lately. Very modest reduction, but it's a place to start and see what happens. I'm actually probably more concerned about not getting overly hungry than I am about losing any weight, although ideally of course I'd lose some weight AND not get overly hungry. ;) (And by lose some weight I just mean...like...three weeks from now I weigh a pound or two less than I do now. Nothing drastic.)
Just did up my calories for today and I'm under 1,800 (was too busy to eat today) - woohoo!
Saturday, December 06, 2008
Wow, I haven't blogged since Wednesday, which is a long time for me. I've had a bit of a roller coaster of emotions since then, although I can't exactly pinpoint why. I'll start with Wednesday night....I felt guilty about skipping the gym, but at least I did my ab routine...Jess did it with me.
Thursday I weighed 137.2 again and had a very blah day. I was tired, I kept dropping things, I just wasn't feeling zippy. I was at work late and by the time I got home and did a few things, it was almost 8 and I wanted to watch TV. There aren't too many nights of the week when there are shows that I really like to make sure to see, but Thursday is one of them - The Office and Ugly Betty. So, second day in a row with no workout. This time I didn't even do a quick little something. I just felt like a big, tired, lazy sloth. Also, I was having major bloating issues and stomach problems, yuck. So the smart thing to do would have been to go to bed early, right? But my boyfriend had not one but two work functions to go to and wasn't due home until after 11. I was kinda half asleep with Seinfeld on TV when he got home...so...I wasn't setting myself up to make Friday any better!
Friday morning I weighed 138.0 and felt incredibly fat and frumpy. I wear jeans to school on Fridays and decided to wear a looser pair rather than a tighter one. At school I had some stomach issues which I won't get into in detail here. I don't know if my stomach issues and bloating are from a stomach bug, from TOM, from my diet, or some combination, but last night my bloating was just out of control...I seriously was looking like I was pregnant. So I looked online for some possible causes and one that caught my eye was the sorbitol in sugar-free gum. It is not something we can digest and it can cause gas and bloating. Sure enough, that is the first ingredient listed on my blueberry Trident I love so much. I chew so much gum that I am ashamed to get into the specific numbers here...I don't really even keep track, but generally all night long I pop a few pieces at a time and switch to new pieces whenever I start to lose flavor. It's out of control. So, in order to figure out whether that's the cause of my stomach issues, I am taking a cold-turkey break from gum, starting last night. Usually I'm okay in the morning and the bloating starts in the evening and lasts through the night, so it's too soon to tell anything. Last time I lost a lot of weight I started having major stomach/bloating issues when I hit the mid-130s too. Maybe this is the point where I start majorly relying on gum so that I don't start mindlessly snacking. I don't know.
Last night Jess really wanted to go to the gym - he needed some stress relief - and I really didn't want to go. I was tired and feeling disgusting all over. But of course I wasn't going to sit there and watch him go off on his own, not when I'd already taken two days off in a row, so I went. I did probably a little over 20 minutes on the bike, 15 of walking 4.2 mph with an incline, and then a stretch. Of course I'm glad I went but I was sooooooo exhausted afterwards, I didn't feel better at all. Then we checked the mail on the way home, which is starting to be an activity I dread - bills and such. Jess was kind of nagging me about money and I just was feeling incredibly negative. I went right to bed after that.
This morning I woke up around 8:15 and asked Jess if he thought I should skip Zumba this morning in favor of getting some more sleep to hopefully help myself feel better. He agreed, but as I was lying there thinking about how skipping Zumba was going to make me feel, I changed my mind. Finally I got up, had some breakfast, and went. Oh yeah, and I weighed myself - 137.0 - a little bit better. That reminds me, last night on the walk over to the gym I told Jess I was done losing weight. I said I didn't want to put in all the work to try to lose any more. He supported the notion of me not losing any more weight, but he said that I was going to snap out of it and he was right. I usually LIKE putting in the work - it is a huge source of pride for me. Just not the past few days.
Anyway, Zumba was quite good considering my funk, and I stayed for Body Pump where I did OK but not particularly my best. For some reason I just wasn't feeling the rows and the "clean and press" today. Too tired. I didn't even think about Body Combat after that, but I did find a bunch of good magazines that took me a little over an hour to skim through on the recumbant bike. I am relying more and more on that thing...I wonder if it's making my fitness level go down because it's easier than my other cardio choices, and today I was sweating on it. ?? I really have not been training for my race tomorrow at ALL. I don't have any grand expectations for my time...plus tomorrow we're supposed to get our first snow of the season - seems so late for a first snow, and the timing is just awful. What is racing in the snow going to be like?? Apparently a lot of little kids from my school will be in this race too, so I have to be kind of "on" at the race if you know what I mean. My professional side. How is going to feel if little kids beat me in the race?? Will they? I don't know how fast a 10-year-old can run 3.2 miles. (The race is definitely 3.2 miles - I checked the website.) A few months ago I'd been hoping to really get fast for this race. Oh well.
Anyway, I did a nice stretch after the bike and when I finally left the gym it was 12:15 and I'd been there since 9:00. I actually felt GOOD for a change, and happy that I'd done such a nice long workout at a level that made me feel comfortable. I like seeing myself in my workout clothes in the gym mirrors because it's a reminder that I am still thin - I'd been feeling like a total fatso lately, so it was almost a surprise to see that I didn't look fat in the gym mirrors.
I haven't totally committed to this yet, but I am thinking of giving myself a one-week calorie challenge starting on Monday - to keep my calories under 2,000. Even 1,999 is OK. I don't think I can keep losing weight at my current calorie range, which has been working out to be quite close to 2,140 every day lately, but I don't want to drop calories a lot because it makes me feel really hungry, and also because I don't want to lose a lot of weight. I just want to inch down just a little bit, just to keep my spirits high. Or to get them back to high, because they haven't been! I haven't finalized my grocery list yet, but I think I'm going to make that "healthy mac and cheese" recipe that was featured on the Daily Spark recently - the one that sneaks in butternut squash and you can't really even tell because it's the same color as cheese? I thought that was a cute idea, but I'm tempted to add other veggies too and maybe even use some other grain instead of macaroni and then it won't look like mac and cheese at all. For my other recipe I haven't quite decided yet. Maybe tuna spinach bake or tuna broccoli bake... maybe something with pasta, cherry tomatoes, feta, olives, and chicken. Also, I'm wondering if maybe my stomach has a hard time handling all that pumpkin (lots of fiber) and I'm considering looking for a different breakfast too. I'll figure all this stuff out after I'm done blogging.
Jess is off doing errands today. He had to go to his parents' for something and to his own condo in the city. I shouldn't be thinking this, but I'm really really really reeeeeally hoping that he was lying to me and what he's really doing is ring shopping. He told me a few days ago that he can't afford to buy me a ring right now because of his 20 percent pay cut and possible upcoming layoff, and confirmed this last night, but I was thinking today that it would be a really tricky way to try to surprise me and I do know for a fact that he had been saving up for the ring and right now he has saved more than he wanted to spend on the ring. If I'm wrong I promise I won't get too upset but, man do I love him and I would be so proud and excited to wear something that symbolizes us dedicating the rest of our lives to each other.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Naughty me, I didn't go to the gym. I put on my gym clothes and then drove straight to Jess'. WTF? I guess I could salvage the situation by doing at least a quick ab workout or something. I kinda feel right now like...maybe once in a while I won't feel like going as hard-core. And maybe I might gain a bit during those phases. And it won't matter, because then I'll get a fresh wind and I'll take off whatever extra I gained. It's a comforting thought that I have permission to have my off weeks.
Ever have no warning that TOM's coming? No major mood issues or major complexion issues that give you any warning that this is about to happen? Yeah, me neither, until about an hour ago. Surprise! Hehe, sorry for the TMI.
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