Friday, May 30, 2008
We went to an Asian fusion restaurant and I had the papaya salad, only I couldn't actually find the papaya in it, and I wasn't sure what the noodle-looking vegetable shredded stuff was that made up most of the salad, and the waitress didn't know either (she hadn't been working there long, and I was the first person to order that dish from her!). So in trying to get the calories, I looked up papaya salad on google and realized that the shredded stuff was green papaya. So I entered the ingredients for two servings...who knows if I got even close. Even going out to dinner I managed to keep my calories close to 1,600 for the day.
I am proud to be down to 152.8 today...
I spent my entire 65 minutes of cardio today talking with a friend on the next machine. It was fun to have someone to talk to, but honestly I would have gotten a much harder workout if I'd been listening to my music and concentrating on keeping my heart rate up. But...I guess some low-key workouts are okay, even though I have had several lately. The good news is that I'm pretty sure I know which exercises were bugging my back, so I eliminated them from my repertoire. We also walked tonight...to a restaurant...only to find it was closed for renovations, so we walked home and drove to a different restaurant! The walk was 35 minutes in all.
Zumba in the morning........fingers crossed that I'll have a good instructor this time!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
I had been so excited to see there was a Thursday 6:30 Zumba class...it was taught by a woman who trains other Zumba teachers.. but it was AWFUL. My heart rate didn't go up, she played the music/talked too loud, she stopped between every song to talk to us (you're supposed to keep moving during cardio - DUH), her moves were stupid, and I don't want to be mean, OK yes I do, but she made me look thin. If I see her again, I'm going to just walk out and use a cardio machine.
I also got in 25 minutes of chest/back strength training.
I'm at 154.2 today...recouping from the guacamole damage from the other night. TGTF - Thank Goodness Tomorrow's Friday!!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Weight 155.2 today. Probably the biggest difference between "diet" and "lifestyle change" has to do with how I handle a binge. On a diet, after a binge I am extremely discouraged because now I have to be extra strict to meet my predetermined goal by a predetermined date. (Or I give up completely, which is even worse.) With a lifestyle change, I accept that there are going to be days where I binge - hopefully few and far between, and hopefully the binges get progressively smaller themselves - but it'll still happen, just like there will be other days when I'm not hungry and only eat 900 calories (that rarely happens...but it's happened!). My weightloss is NOT a race. The slower I lose, the better because slow=permanent. Also slow=lose while having a life & keeping energy up!
I did well today until I got to the gym and just wasn't really feeling it. I think I was too hungry. Also, my back hurts today and a friend suggested I look into physical therapy or a chiropractor. But I did 45 minutes of strength training and stretching, and then was only going to do 15 minutes on the elliptical, but the ellipticals were all taken so I grabbed three magazines and ended up walking on the treadmill for 56 minutes (450 calories, 3.5 miles). I only read two of the magazines.... My heart rate barely went up enough for me to break a sweat, but I think it was a much better choice than skipping my cardio completely. (I got it into the 130s when I was walking 4.2 mph with an incline of 5 or 6, but mostly it was in the 110s...)
The batch recipe I've been eating this week is Mexican lasagna - see my favorites for the recipe...it is SO DELICIOUS. I almost want to make it again for next week, but I better get some variety. I think I will make a healthy version of my favorite recipe of my mom's...tuna spinach bake. I loved it growing up, and as an adult I have made it many times only to binge and eat the entire thing. This time I'm going to portion it into 6 or 8 containers as soon as it comes out of the oven, just like I do with all my SP recipes, and I bet I can make a pretty darn healthy version of it! :)
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Ate within goal range today (about 1,560 calories), did a quick leg strength training routine that seems to have ruined my back all over again :( :( and.... ADVANCED step class! I warned the instructor that I am NOT an "advanced" stepper. This was the fittest woman I've ever seen in real life - probably the only woman the ever seen with a real live six-pack. She was so energetic and fun and encouraging. At one point she even moved her step right in front of me so I could see how to do a move. I didn't get most of the moves at all, but she still kept praising me and had the class clap for me at the end! Wow, was I sweating.
I did look pretty fat compared to everyone else in the class though. :( I soooooooooo miss being thin. :(
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Normally, the pattern starts small and snowballs. I am at a party, for example. I have a cooler full of my own, healthy, balanced, pre-portioned, pre-calorie-counted food. I see some chips and guacamole. "I wish I could eat that," I think. Other people dig in. "This is so unfair," I think. We sit down right in front of that evil junk. I sip my seltzer and munch on some GoLean from a baggie.
"I made this just for you!" my friend announces, handing me a cool glass garnished with both a strawberry and a mint sprig. She has made me an even prettier version of the "strawberry cobbler" I'd ordered at Eastern Standard on Saturday night, complete with rum and tonic (which, unlike seltzer, I've discovered, has plenty of calories, sodium, and sugar).
How can I resist? But once I've had the drink, suddenly eating a little guacamole doesn't sound too bad. Avacados are healthy, right?
"Do you have anything other than chips to go with the dip?" I ask, and end up with some slightly wrinkling grape tomatoes. I pick and choose the least shriveled ones, but they don't dip into the guacamole (or the equally appealing but even less healthy spinach dip) nearly as well as those Scoops would. So, I dig into the corn chips. And then, all of a sudden, I've eaten more dips and chips than anyone else.
My friend makes me another drink, but now I am in my food-obsessed mode. And I'm not thinking at all about the little bits of fruit and vegetables and yogurt in my cooler. No, I ask for a plate, and fill it high with BBQ drumsticks, corn, and potatoes. I eat until I feel practically sick, then I go lie on the couch to cuddle with the puppy, feeling horrible.
Okay, so that's exactly what happened last night, and this morning I'm up to 156.8. But what I MUST SAY is that while in the past I would have allowed my brain to switch into "gorge mode" for a few days, a week, a few months, whatever, that is NOT HAPPENING THIS TIME. I am back on track NOW!!! No eating less today to "make up" for yesterday, either. I am sticking with my 1,500 calories today, and I am going to go to the gym, and I am not going to recalculate what my weight could potentially be when I go on vacation, or any of it. I'm just back, and I'm wondering what lessons can be learned from yesterday. Yesterday was a great day, healthy-lifestyle-wise, UNTIL the evening. I did 45 minutes of strength training/stretching at the gym, then went on a really fun bike ride around Jamaica Pond and the Arboretum for over an hour with my boyfriend, didn't have too much of an appetite, and thought I was in for a fun time on the scale this morning. In my less-than-perfect moments I want to be angry at my friend who hosted the BBQ last night...she knows I am trying hard to get my weight problems under control.....but it is not her fault at all. I must learn to be in any situation life presents and still manage to make reasonable, healthy choices. And maybe what I did last night isn't the end of the world at all...everything in moderation, even moderation, right? I recognize what I did and I'm moving on. The end.
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