Wednesday, May 21, 2008
It happens almost every time... I lose weight after I drink. Last night I drank enough to be pretty "happy" throughout the whole game. Probably more than I should have, but I swear I don't do this that often. As I mentioned in my last blog entry, I wasn't going to eat anything... but then Jess noticed they sell Legal clam chowder right in the stands. I had about half of it, plus a few of the oyster crackers. SO YUMMY OMIGOD. So in all I estimate I ate/drank about 2,300 calories yesterday or so. And of course there wasn't time for the gym, but I did walk a half hour from where I parked to the game, and then another half hour back.
So this morning I was rewarded for that with a 2.0 pound drop. Yup, I was down to 154.6 this morning. Sad to say that's the lowest my weight has been since February.. but this is a fresh start, so I'm allowed to celebrate all over again. This weight is exciting because my official WW goal is 155, so I'm finally below that again. And, at 5'6", my BMI hits the top of the healthy range at about 154. So I'll try to just be happy that I am here now rather than regret the fact that I ever let myself gain all this all over again in the first place.
Today I've been tired and I skipped the gym today which I know I shouldn't have, BUT I also know that if I had to choose between eating right and exercising, I know that eating right makes a much bigger impact. And today was a very disciplined eating day for me...just over 1,400 calories. It's gotten to the point where anything under 1,500 calories feels very strict to me!
Monday, May 19, 2008
Go Lester!!! I'm going to Fenway tomorrow... wish I could have been there tonight! GO RED SOX :)
On a totally different, totally random note, TOM started Friday night, 5/16, and is already over. I had a doctor's appt about my back on Friday, and my doctor told me that I could have trouble getting pregnant because of how infrequently I get periods... they are coming about every seven weeks! It could also be related to my thyroid, which could possibly be sluggish.
My back was still achy today, so I again skipped strength training, though I am wondering how much longer I should skip it...I'd hate to lose strength or momentum. I am also wondering how much longer to take Aleve...my doctor told me to take 4 per day but the bottle says not to take more than 3 a day.
I did go to another step class today...third Monday, third instructor. I liked this one the best, because her moves weren't too hard and she explained them a little better than the others, though I still would like someone to do things like count it out and tell you which leg is going next... it was also a really small class, which was very nice.
Food updates...last night I made a huge salad, yum. I didn't have time to go grocery shopping all weekend (since I spent so much time out having fun!) so I went this afternoon. I took a healthy mac and cheese recipe and morphed it until it was a barley-tuna-veggie casserole... with cheese. :) I'll be eating that for lunch all week.
I am making a vow right now. No food at Fenway tomorrow night. I have all my healthy food and don't need any of that junky stuff (in the past I have been known to eat things at Fenway like giant pretzels, soft-serve ice cream, personal pizzas, chicken fingers, steak and cheese subs, fries...UGH). Nope... thin pretty Susan doesn't eat that junk!! My calories are a little teensy bit on the lower side tomorrow (under 1,450) so a drink or two is OK...red wine or light beer... but NO FENWAY FOOD!
My weight was up to 156.4 today, but between the usual Monday early weigh-in, and being on a different scale, it's not really meaningful to compare with yesterday's weight (155.0) at my friend's place.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Been a while since I last blogged...and it's so gorgeous out right now I'm not even sure I feel like writing a detailed blog right now. In a little bit we're going to take my friend's puppy for a hike up Blue Hill. I will summarize how things have been going... let's see... I've been good! My eating habits have been very reasonable lately...well, reasonable if you don't count drinking too much last night.. but even with all that I was still at 1,900 calories or so yesterday. My calories have mostly been around 1,500-1,700 lately, which seems to be a great level for losing slowly without feeling TOO hungry. On doctor's orders I have not done any strength training the past few days. I did Zumba again yesterday and LOVED LOVED LOVED it. Then I tried yoga for the first time, which my doctor also recommended, but it was NOT typical yoga. I think it was called Kundalini and it was all about spirituality and breathing in a certain way and chanting and meditating. I was frustrated by not being able to do some things that I think I could normally do if it weren't for my back problems. I felt like I was 90 years old.
I actually slept over at a friend's house last night, on her scale I was 155.0 this morning! But her scale only goes to the half pound... Then we went out for brunch, well, my boyfriend and my friend had brunch and I had coffee...and ate the stuff I'd packed afterwards.
Random thought, but I definitely want to be at my goal by the time we go on vacation again next February. :)
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
My back's still bugging me. I think I need to see the doctor. I couldn't do my leg presses without my back really feeling uncomfortable. That's making me kind of upset, because I don't want anything getting in the way of me feeling fantastic and making progress. I think my outlook will be fine after a good night's sleep though..feeling kinda tired now...a friend wanted me to come over tonight and watch Lost, but I should probably cancel in favor of sleep.
I like what my weight's been doing. It went from 158.4 on Monday, to 157.2 on Tuesday, to 156.2 today! I'm still trying to train my brain to realize that slow is best. If a month from now I weigh 153 pounds, that's GOOD. Two months, 150. I can't help but think that if my loss really were that slow, I'd get really discouraged.
But, starving myself can't be good for me. I was hungry today and found myself doing a whole lot of eating in the early hours of the day. I'd planned for just under 1,400 calories today, but this evening after the gym I decided to have some more to eat... one of my latest snacks is baby carrots roasted with extra virgin olive oil. The cooked carrots taste surprisingly good! So in all, I'm at just under 1,600 calories today.
I also finally realized that the Planters nuts I'd been eating are cooked in oil so I'm making the switch to raw nuts. I bought organic raw walnuts and cashews and mixed them together with organic figs to replace my usual nut-snack. Yum!
OK, time to stop thinking about food!! I gotta get going to my boyfriend's place. One last thought... I worked out at the gym today for a bit over an hour but still feel guilty because I didn't work as hard or as long as I'd wanted, partly because of my back and partly because I was just not that into it...I forgot my iPod, and was kinda hungry. Does anyone else ever feel conflicting thoughts - guilt that the workout wasn't "perfect," while at the same time realizing that you actually DID do a fairly decent workout by some people's standards, and that it was way better than nothing?
Monday, May 12, 2008
So last night, for Mother's Day, my mom wanted to go to a Chinese restaurant. My family has always shared a bunch of dishes. Nothing was particularly healthy - even veggies were covered in salty, oily sauces, but everything was delicious and I ate my share of everything and probably had far more calories than my guesstimations showed. I ate until I was comfortably full...more so than I usually get these days, but definitely not stuffed. So I'm fine with that. True, my weight was up 2 pounds today, but that's fine because
a) being Monday, it was an earlier weigh-in than the previous day
b) I'm sure with all the salt in the meal and water I was drinking, a lot of that was just water weight
and c) this is a lifestyle, not a race. My goal is NOT to weigh less every single morning than I did the day before. I would much rather weigh a little less a month from now, and a little more by summer, and be maintaining my goal weight a year from now, etc... than worry about daily fluctuations.
So today my weight was 158.4. I had a nice 1,450ish-calorie day planned, but I had forgotten that since I was helping my principal interview all day, she was buying me lunch. So I ordered the goat cheese and pear salad, used very little of the dressing, and ate the bread. To make up for the calories, I just skipped some of the other things I'd planned for the day and actually ended up having a 1,350ish calorie day. I think having had more to eat yesterday made it easier for me to eat less today. It is so much about balance and lifestyle.
Strength training was good today. I'm increasing weights for a lot of my moves lately, except shoulder presses, for which I went down in weight when I started doing them standing instead of sitting with my back supported. (I read it was better to keep your shoulder blade movement unrestricted.) Sometimes these days I try a heavier weight for one set and can only do 4 or 5 reps...and then I go back down to a lighter weight... but I think that's how I'll make progress.
I had really been looking forward to taking the same Monday 5:30 step class I took last week, but I discovered that last week's teacher was a sub and I had the usual teacher today for the first time. He's a crazy energetic guy, and he plays the music extremely loud and I had trouble hearing his voice, even with a microphone... so I didn't always know what was coming up. Plus, he would name a move to do and I would have no idea what that move entails! Most of the women around me were getting it all and making me look really stupid, but thank goodness there were a couple others in the back who seemed as lost as I was. I only checked my heart rate at the end after I'd stopped moving (but before the cooldown), and it was in the 160s...so I know I was working really hard.
Anyway, back to the food thing, I've really thought a lot about the approach of one of my Spark buddies, Vidabella. Her philosophy seems to work for me because I am attempting to be a recovered binge eater too. I hope she doesn't mind me sharing all this, but it's all true for me. It's extended binges - out of control eating that lasts more than just a meal or two - that keep someone like me from reaching/staying at goal. You can reach goal with a big meal here or there, that's different. It's OK to splurge once in a while. But using food as, well, something to do when I'm home alone, or making a regular habit out of eating until I'm stuffed, that just doesn't work. So the goal is to avoid extended binges and the rest of the time, well, for me... on just a plain old Tuesday, why NOT just stick with my healthy eating plan of 1,200-1,600 calories. When there's a meal out or something going on, most of the time it's best to try to eat a reasonable portion of the healthy stuff, but if there is a big meal like I had last night, keep it under control and then MOVE ON. The only destructive thing would be letting that become something I do again the next day and the next...which is what I've done many times in the past...that's the reason my weight graph has all those spikes in it... I would much, much rather just see a very gradual, fairly steady loss (with inevitable little ups and downs) and say goodbye to that rollercoaster. Easier said than done, but I love that I have Spark friends who are going through the exact same struggles who are there to support me. Thank you.
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