Sunday, April 27, 2008
I'm going to make this quick because it's past 10 p.m. and work starts back tomorrow after a week off! Today my weight was up a little bit, from 160.2 yesterday to 161.0 today (first attempt) and then 160.8 (second attempt). I promise not to get discouraged or anything. This is a slow process and there will be ups and downs and they don't mean anything!
Today I was on the go and didn't think about eating much, which is something I love about the weekends. I actually thought more about cooking than eating and realized I might be able to meet some of my "food needs" by cooking and don't even necessarily need to eat it to get the satisfaction. I made a shephard's pie recipe from Spark recipes, but I made it healthier by making the mashed potato out of sweet potato with the skin, added extra veggies, and used fat free cheese. Looks delish, but I won't be eating any until Tuesday. I have to finish up an older recipe first, plus a salad and some flounder my boyfriend made for me.
Today was our first time back at the gym post-bronchitis. (Though I have been doing my ab video and lots of walking.) We were there 45 minutes - I did chest and back, stretching, and 6 mins on the elliptical before Jess said he was ready to go. I was happy that I didn't need to go down too much in weight with the big lapse since I'd last worked out - the only real difference was that I could only do two sets of my first chest press exercise with 20-pound dumbbells before needing to switch to 15 instead of my usual three.
After the gym, on my request, we went for a bike ride - only 20 minutes or so, on HIS request... but... right toward the end I FELL. I was biking over a speed bump and turned my front wheel weird and FELL, right in front of Jess and a family walking on the sidewalk. So embarrassing!! I am scraped on my left shoulder, left elbow, and left knee. Ugh! I guess I'm not ready to bike to work yet!
Anyway, the mindset is still strong and I think I'm doing well. Oh yeah, been drinking TONS of water too - and seltzer, green tea (regular early in the day, decaf late), and some coffee, though trying not to depend TOO much on coffee.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Unlike in my blog, I didn't make a big announcement to my boyfriend a few days ago when I decided to get back on track. I guess it was a combination of not wanting a "yeah right, SURE it's gonna be permanent this time" response (not that he responds that way to me, but I project those thoughts onto him!), wanting to surprise him with suddenly looking good again, and also this new idea: It's just the way I live. Don't make a big deal out of it.
Of course I could never surprise him and suddenly look great... we're together every day, he sees me making my lifestyle choices, and things happen gradually. Plus, I'm bound to start talking about it. But I'm not sure I should be obsessing so much. I choose a healthy lifestyle as a permanent part of my life. That's practically the end of discussion, right there.
I do love a good book, and the motivation they give me. I just finished In Defense of Food, and I'm feeling inspired to say no to corn syrup and long lists of unpronounceable ingredients, and yes to food that is unprocessed and ideally grown in healthy ways. There is a little farm near where I live with their own grocery store. I'm not exactly sure if all their stuff is organic, or locally grown, or any of that, but I should check it out more. I am also toying with the idea of biking to work instead of driving: better for me, better for the environment.
Don't go congratulating me on all these drastic steps just yet. I haven't committed to them, but I am seriously considering.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Kinda fun - I just went on mapmyrun.com and mapped out the walks I did yesterday. I went for a short walk with my parents in the afternoon, and that was 0.43 miles. Then I walked around Boston in the evening - partly to get to Fenway Park for my third (!) Red Sox game of the season and partly to kill time because I was early, and that was 4.14 miles. So altogether that's over four and a half miles of walking yesterday! It's not running, it's not strength training, it didn't even get my heart rate high enough to provide maximum exercise benefit, but it was fun and productive. Today I'm going to be doing some more walking when I park at my boyfriend's office and walk to my hair appointment, just over a mile away, and then walk back..and maybe I'll stop at the Prudential Mall for a while too, and walk a little in there.
I'm also very happy with the food choices I made yesterday. I would like to start thinking in terms of meals again, instead of all day odd grazing. I had oatmeal for breakfast (and I'm wondering whether I should switch to plain to avoid the sugar and chemicals in my usual "lower sugar" varieties??), a baggie of cereal for a snack that I split between morning and afternoon, a big salad for lunch, and a serving of casserole for dinner, with lots of evening snacks because dinner was early (around 4 p.m.!) - an apple, another baggie of cereal, iced coffee with skim milk, and some popcorn at the game. It wasn't exactly what I'd planned for the day, but smart substitutions are fine.
I'm reading In Defense of Food and so far I'm loving it, but I'm waiting for the part where the recommendations are made...so far I'm getting that the whole push to eat low-fat was completely wrong, and that eating unprocessed foods is better than processed. I guess I knew that, but I definitely fall into the trap sometimes of thinking that processed foods can be healthier - like Total Cereal...all the added vitamins and minerals...I should be choosing something natural instead, probably. I guess I should finish reading it!
Thanks so much to everyone who's given me encouragement on my big return back to SP. :) I am so happy to be back, to have my mindset back, and to know that I still have it in me to do this. Summer is coming very soon and I saw lots of cute dresses on my walk through the city yesterday...I want to be part of all that!!
And finally, a weight update - two days ago I was 167.6 (ugh), yesterday 162.8 (actually, I weighed myself three times, that was the lowest of the three but probably not the most accurate??), and today 161.4. Still higher than I ever thought I'd get back to, but...progress.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Either way, it's inconvenient. I could eat whatever I want and not exercise... but then I'd have to deal with more and more weight gain, getting larger sizes, not being fit enough to do what I used to be able to do, and eventually risk serious health problems. Or I could control it and get back to a healthy weight and a healthy lifestyle.
I choose the healthy option. Even though I know it is inconvenient.
I have to take the time to plan my meals. I have to say no to my old standby, binge eating. I have to choose healthy foods when less healthy options might seem more appealing. I have to work out even when I'd rather be doing other things. But these inconveniences are all worth it. They're my only choice really, for a healthy life.
This time, I'm going to make it liveable. I will go to restaurants, but I will make healthy choices there ALWAYS. Same for parties. But most of the time, I will plan meals and make them myself. They don't have to be boring. I am collecting SP recipes and I can really make ANY recipe (possbly with a few healthys substitutions), as long as - here is the key - I portion it out.
I will plan my calories and let them vary from day to day, depending on how I feel. I'll stick with a few healthy staple items and get creative for a meal a day or so. I will exercise, but it doesn't have to be a drag...I can get my cardio outdoors, in various locations... but I still need to do my strength training 3x/week.
I guess I knew that with this vacation week coming up, I'd have time to recharge my program. I wasn't counting on getting sick, but I'm starting to feel much better now. I guess the final straw was seeing how my poor diet was affecting my complexion, and having my weight go up so high that I actually had to make my ticker a little higher. So yesterday I cleaned out, went grocery shopping, did some cooking and some planning, and I'm already down from yesterday's high of 167.6 to 162.8 today. But it's not a race. I want each pound I lose to be gone for good, no matter how slowly it happens.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Hi everyone... I just wanted you all to know that I have bronchitis and am taking a little break....will be back when healthy. Thanks for thinking of me!
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