Thursday, March 27, 2008
Today I am at 159.6 and I will not meet my March goal unless I remain very disciplined tonight. I have already eaten about a thousand calories today and it's just past 2 p.m. Tonight I must aim for only 200-300 calories, which I can accomplish by TASTING rather than EATING, and skipping alcohol. I can tell myself "I'm paying $35 to be here so I need to eat my money's worth" (FLAWED thinking), or I can tell myself, "I am learning to have fun and live my life while losing weight. In the end I will save money, in the short-term by meeting my March goal and not needing to pay for a WW meeting, and in the long term by being healthy and therefore saving on healthcare costs." A long time ago I realized that deprivation doesn't mean not eating something...deprivation is when I DO overat, because then I DEPRIVE myself of being thin, healthy, and attractive.
I believe I will meet my March goal if I am disciplined tonight and the rest of the month. I can weigh in on Sunday morning or Monday afternoon - preferably Sunday morning!! That means losing about five pounds in three days, which sounds nuts except that I put this weight on very quickly and it's coming off very quickly too - I'm already down 5 pounds in just 2 days. Plus TOM started today - FINALLY - it had been almost seven weeks!! So that will help me drop some water weight too. Then, once my weight is down, I should do my April weigh-in sooner rather than later. Then it will be back for attempt #9,999,999 at MODERATION (1,600 calories per day, 4-5 workouts per week, sloooooow weightloss, consistent behavior). It sounds so easy now. Why do I always mess it up?!?
One last thought. I need a REALLY GOOD REWARD to keep myself on track after my March goal. Maybe something around Memorial Day...last year I weighed 135 on Memorial Day weekend and looked my best ever on the beach. This year, weather permitting, I want to go again looking EVEN BETTER! I think another photo for my Spark Page comparing Memorial Days 2007 and 2008, showing improvement, would be a fantastic reward. :) I vowed not to let my thinness of 2007 be a one-year fluke!!!