Saturday, March 08, 2008
Second blog entry of the day! Since my last one, I went to the grocery store, ate the rest of the food I'd planned today, and did 41 minutes on the elliptical at level 8, about 4.5 miles and over 600 calories. Right now I'm having a glass of water. It's funny how I approach food differently when I'm really motivated. I make eating an EVENT where I force myself to slow down, have sips of water between bites, and notice how full I feel when I'm done even if the fullness doesn't last very long.
TMI alert, but I want to keep track of this stuff...2nd TOM since I stopped taking the pill started today. I went back through my blog entries until I found the last one, and it was exactly one month ago - Feb. 8 - 29 days ago. Still, I wasn't expecting it today. I wonder if the time of the month has anything to do with how much willpower I have to stick to my program??
Anyway, as the title of this blog entry suggests, I reset my long-term goals just now on SP. It's set at losing 1 lb per week until I reach 130, which would take me until the end of September. The point is not that I want to lose exactly 1 lb per week, or hitting it by a particular date. The point is that I need to do some long term moderate weight management. Get rid of the ups and downs. Stay consistent with being moderate. Do this long enough and I will eventually be where I want to be.
Saturday, March 08, 2008
I am a lifetime member of Weight Watchers. I can go to as many meetings as I want for free as long as I weigh in at least once a month at no more than two pounds above my goal. My goal, as far as WW is concerned, is 155, so my two-pound margin means I can't weigh more than 157, or I'll have to pay. Now, of course I will be wearing clothes and, depending on the time of day I go to the meeting, I may have also eaten/drank, though I'd rather go to a weekend morning meeting before I eat or drink anything. So in order to be safe, I had better give myself a five-pound buffer, meaning that when I wake up in the morning and weigh myself the way I normally do, which is without clothes and before eating, I should weigh no more than 152. That way I can be confident that I won't weigh more than 157 at the meeting.
I have been too ashamed to weigh myself regularly lately, but I have weighed myself a couple times. Once, a few days ago, I weighed 161.0. YUCK YUCK YUCK!!!!!!! It was awful, but it was reality. Honestly I didn't do enough to turn that around, so I was lucky that today I weighed less - 158.8. My eating hadn't been better, and the only times I went to the gym this week were Monday and Friday - chest/back and 30 mins of cardio on Monday, legs and 26 mins of cardio on Friday.
Still, it was a nice relief to be under 160 today, and I'm ready to make a real effort once again. My goals are modest: track calories and keep them reasonable, not extremely low (1,600 today). Go to the gym regularly and do strength and cardio. Drink enough water and get enough sleep. And...BE AT 152 BEFORE MARCH ENDS so I can go to WW and weigh-in and keep my free lifetime status!!!!!
Easy! Just gotta do it.
Monday, March 03, 2008
Jess forced me to go to the gym on Saturday even though I just wanted to lounge on the computer and in bed all day! It was tough since I hadn't been since Monday, but I made it. Sunday we went again and my workout was a little better...and then today I went on my own and my workout was great! (Though my legs are still sore from Saturday's lower body strength training!) Each day I did strength training, a bit of stretching, and 30 mintues of elliptical, with a total workout time of just over an hour. Much less than before Jamaica, but OK.
I haven't tracked my food the past few days, but I ate OK today...not perfect though.
I think I feel better at my current weight, although I can't stand how I look. Ugh.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
My friend and I were complaining about how tough it is to manage your weight the other day. She is a healthy weight, but cannot reach the weight she'd really like to be at, and her weight bounces around a lot, though within a much, much smaller range than mine. She said you basically always need to be on a diet or else your weight will rise - how depressing. I know we're supposed to brainwash ourselves into thinking we're not on a diet, we're on a "lifestyle change," but they're the same exact thing. She also said that probably a lot of celebrities are thin because they use cigarettes as an appetite suppressant. Now I will use coffee, but never cigarettes. Then we went out last night, and had dinner. I pointed out that if I were sticking to my "lifestyle change," I would have not been able to eat because I'd already eaten all my calories for the day - and I'm talking top of the acceptable range. My friend said no wonder it's so hard to stick to it. It's like...live a fun rich life, OR be thin.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
I wanted to binge yesterday. It started with eating a huge breakfast, then I had three mini chocolates from the main office before a meeting, but secretly wanted more. I decided then that I'd go home and binge. I skipped the gym, came home, and ate three servings of Mexican lasagna, half a container of nuts, half a jar of olives, a packet of flavored rice, a slice of cheese, and a serving of GoLean. I felt disgusting but was eating for reasons that had nothing to do with hunger, reasons I can't even explain. I don't think I've ever written down everything I ate during a binge before. I could probably even calculate all the calories (approx.) but I don't want to. Jess actually noticed how big my belly looked after all that, and I didn't admit to him I hadn't gone to the gym.
But let's look forward. That girls' night I was talking about may actually happen this weekend, so I only have a couple of days to get ready for it. I will stick to healthy choices!!!
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