So Excited

Monday, February 11, 2008

I had no idea how deeply I can be affected physiologically by my emotions. I wasn't hungry again today. I'm ALWAYS hungry, so two days in a row of having no problem eating practically nothing?! It HAS to be related to how excited I am about Jamaica, right?? It's kind of like how after someone gives me a little wave at the gym, I can suddenly push harder, like knowing someone's watching me makes me have more energy. Anyway, I'm not only back down to 146.6 again today (weighed this several days ago too..), but I also weighed exactly 146.6 AGAIN after this afternoon's workout. I suddenly am getting happy with my body again, even though I'm well above my goal. Good timing, because I will be in a bikini in ONE WEEK!!!

Anyway, today's stats are: arms, shoulders, stretching, apple :) , 60 minutes on treadmill - 5.6 miles/650 calories. Calories eaten ended up being somewhere between 1,100 and 1,200 - can't remember exactly. I have about 1,430 planned for tomorrow...can't imagine I'll go without an appetite all week!!

PS - I love my boyfriend SO MUCH. I wonder what he's gonna do for Valentine's Day...but I better not wonder too much because in reality he'll probably just give me something inexpensive and cute - that's all I told him I wanted. I'm giving him a digital camera.

  

Where'd my appetite go?

Sunday, February 10, 2008

I never thought I'd be saying this, but I was busy today and forgot about eating! I KNOW I should not make a regular habit of this, but I only at 888 calories today. I figure it's kinda like a day of eating way too much, but in reverse. Once in a while can't hurt, right?

So I was so wrong with my weight prediction yesterday. I actually GAINED. I'm at 148.0 today. :( I don't care really though. I am doing everything I can do in terms of eating healthy and exercising, but I just cannot directly control my weight. So, who cares?! I think I'm looking thinner anyway.

At the gym today a fit young woman gave me a lot of advice. I'm trying to decide whether to follow it. She said to eat 40 percent carbs, 40 percent protein, and 20 percent fat, with at least 40 grams of protein at every meal. I'd really have to change my eating habits. I have everything all set up so that it's easy to get the SP-recommended 55 percent carbs, 15 percent protein, 30 percent fat. Lately I have been trying to make sure I get at least 60 grams of protein per day and that if I am off from the SP guidelines, that my carbs and fat are LOWER than the recommendation, and protein higher.

For exercise, she said I should lift heavier weights and do 5 sets of 5 reps of everything. Less cardio in favor of more of the type of strength training that raises heart rate.

I posted on the message boards to see what people think of that advice...looking forward to seeing the answers...just got my first one! :)

  

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BRUIN2 2/10/2008 10:02PM

I've had the same thing happen to me with calories today! So weird to forget to eat. Thanks for your comments on my blog - I didn't know I needed to get so many things out yesterday. I like blogging for that reason - seems to unearth things that I may not be concious of. Have a great week! Report Inappropriate Comment

Tuna Noodle Casserole

Saturday, February 09, 2008

I just decided I'm going to make a healthed up version of tuna noodle casserole tomorrow. I looked at sparkrecipes for inspiration but in the end I'm going to pretty much invent my own recipe, with whole-wheat noodles, tuna, peas, mushrooms, onion, olive oil, and fat-free sour cream.

Today I ate 1,700 calories and at the birthday party I chewed gum and drank Diet Pepsi. There was lots of tempting food - both healthy and unhealthy - but I insisted I'd just eaten and was "full." (Yeah right. I could have made room for lasagna, breaded chicken, punch, ice cream cake, and cheesecake!!) Oh, I also went to the gym twice today - once after my WW meeting (first meeting in a month and first Sat. a.m. meeting - was down 6.4 pounds!) for about 90 minutes and once with Jess after the birthday party for another 40 minutes and that's a total over over two hours! I did chest, back, elliptical for an hour, stretching, slow jogging for 40 minutes.

After my 2nd workout, around the same time of day that I usually weigh myself at night, I weighed 149.8!! Yesterday at that same time of day I weighed 151.2! That is a difference of 1.4 pounds. If I weigh 1.4 pounds less in the morning too, I'd weigh 147.0(today's weight) minus 1.4 which is 145.6!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *fingers crossed*

Gotta go, Jess is going to the liquor store and I'm going to the grocery store. :)

  

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BRUIN2 2/9/2008 8:25PM

Way to stick with your strategy for the party! And sounds like two great workouts! I love days like that! Let us know how the tuna casserole turns out. Mmmm, suddenly I have a hankering for some tuna....mmmmm. hehe. Report Inappropriate Comment

Looking Good

Friday, February 08, 2008

I noticed at the gym tonight that I am starting to get my nice-looking body back. It's not the 135-pound body I had back when that profile photo was taken, but it's definitely not the overweight body I had for most of my adult (and teen) life, either.

Today I weighed exactly the same as yesterday despite the two different scales (this was at my place) - 147.4. This will seem obsessive, but my post-gym weight was 151.2 which is 0.2 less than the past couple of days, so I might be in for a little drop tomorrow? Oh, also TOM came today. First time since I stopped taking the pill. Just under two weeks since I ovulated. I should figure out when I stopped taking the pill to get some idea of how long my natural cycles will be. Anyway, I wonder how TOM affects my weight? Maybe it's what's made me so hungry lately. I LOVE that I am now adjusting my daily calorie intake for how I feel, but I feel like I keep needing to go higher and higher! Today I was at 1,650 and I am going to plan 1,700 tomorrow. (I would have done it tonight already, but have food in the crockpot and am not sure whether I'll add more ingredients, or how many servings I'll make out of it.) I am planning a lot for tomorrow to give me strength to stick with my own food at the birthday party I am going to and to say no to all other things including cake. One week before Jamaica, 12-17 pounds above my goal weight? I don't think cake fits into that picture!!!

Plus, my cardio was lackluster yesterday and semi-lackluster today, so I want a nice food-fueled workout tomorrow morning. Oh, that reminds me, the man on the next elliptical over tonight was a disgusting smoker and I could tell by smelling his strong cigarette breath! EW!! I turned my head away as much as I could but eventually I couldn't stand it anymore so I switched machines.

I like to think that I have found the permanent solution I needed, in my calorie variations. I only need to be as hungry as I can stand, and never any more. (No crankiness!) I think my body actually needs different amounts of calories on different days, so I will do that. And in the future when I may not be as motivated as I am right now, I can stick with higher calories even if I maintain or gain a little, until the next big event comes along that gets me motivated to lose again. But the thing is, I will be PLANNING these extra calories. It might be 1,900, not 5,000. (I'm SURE I hit the multi-thousands when I binge.) I will feel good and not feel the urge to cheat and if I gain, it will be very slowly, very small amounts - no more 15 pounds in a few days.

It's so realistic I'm sure it can happen.

  

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BRUIN2 2/8/2008 11:49PM

I totally would have switched ellipticals too!! Hope you have a great weekend! Report Inappropriate Comment

Healthy Expectations

Thursday, February 07, 2008

I need to learn to have healthy expectations for my weightloss. I shouldn't hope for losing more than two pounds per week - everything you read says that losing faster than that isn't healthy and is less likely to stay off (except on the Biggest Loser where people are sad if they "only" lost five pounds in a week).

I've been focused on Jamaica and wanting to be as thin as possible when I get there. I am NOT going to hit my goal of 130-135 by the time I get there. I'm going in a week and a half and weighed 147.4 today. I am doing everything I can to be healthy and lose, but I need more than a week and a half to lose those last 12-18 pounds. Does that mean I failed? NO!!!

I just looked at my weight graph carefully from Jan. 22 to now - the time I've been on track. I looked from one week to the next to see how much I am losing per week. I looked at different days because there is that frustrating fluctuation, and I don't want to be discouraged by that - I want to see a pattern.

I did see a pattern. The first week, depending on what day of the week I checked, I'd lost between 5-8 pounds! (It's supposed to be a big loss the first week, especially since a lot of the gain had happened extremely fast.)

The second week, one day it looked like I'd lost 0, but on any other day it was 2 pounds! Two pounds is the most you should lose per week if you're losing healthfully, so that is GREAT!

With a week and a half left til Jamaica, I can't expect to lose more than three more pounds. So....I might weigh 144 when I go to Jamaica. And that's okay.

Jess thinks I should count points in Jamaica like I did in Cancun last year. He's probably right. I just haven't counted points in such a long time...I'll have to break out my old stuff. I don't want to gain weight in Jamaica. Even if I really push I probably won't lose, based on my past experience. So my goal will be to maintain.

But then I'll get home and will have four months til summer. And as long as I weigh a little less at the end of each of those months than I did at the beginning, I'll be happy. :)