Wednesday, December 12, 2007
I weigh 145.2 today.
Jess wanted to know why I was in such a good mood last night when he came home. I was happy to see him, but I was also happy at how great my workout was. Exercise really does make you feel happy and good - but only if you are also feeding your body enough! (Though you also don't want to feed it too much, because gaining weight doesn't make anyone happy...at least not anyone like me.)
They say you should look for patterns in your eating habits and I have discovered a pattern. I eat a lot more than I should when I have work to do that I don't want to do, especially when the work is at the computer. I do best when I am busy with fun things that don't involve eating, like clothes shopping. I also do pretty good when I am busy with things that aren't necessarily fun but that make it difficult to eat - like teaching. But plunk me in front of a computer all day and tell me I can't get up until my progress reports are done, and suddenly I've eaten breakfast and lunch by 9 a.m. :( I am trying to slow myself down with seltzer and gum, but all I have left for the rest of the day is an apple, a packet of oatmeal, and a packet of hot chocolate and it's only a quarter past noon. There is a big luncheon right now in the teachers room and I am staying away from it. If I'm going to splurge this week it's going to be at Jess' work party Thursday night, and certainly it should not be today - the day before an official weigh-in! I will also allow myself to have some skim milk in my coffee before the gym and I think I'll do fine - I won't fall off my plan today.
It's always a choice to stay on plan or to fall off...I wish I knew why sometimes that choice feels like it's under my control and other times it's as if the food is forcing itself into my mouth?!?
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
So in the past few weeks my weight has been bouncing around a range of 141-155, because my eating has been inconsistent. However, my exercise has been consistent and today I noticed it's paying off. I was going 6.3 mph on the elliptical trainer for 45 minutes with my heart rate only around 140-155 (kind of like my weight - heh). I realized I could do a 5K or even a 10K no sweat - well, OK, I'd SWEAT, but I wouldn't need to do any extra training. I'm already conditioned enough to go!!! And lately I've been doing a 2-minute sprint at the end before my cooldown. My heart rate goes up to 180 and is back down to 120 within TWO MINUTES, which I read in some magazine is a sign of high fitness level. I also am doing well with strength training and stretching. I love working out!
Today I was at 146.6, and I think I'm doing just fine. Oh, and right now a salmon stew I invented is simmering in the crockpot - I think it's gonna be a yummer! (Salmon, olive oil, low-sodium chicken broth, low-sodium soy sauce, ground ginger, spinach, zucchini, onion, carrots, sweet potato, stewed tomatoes, brown rice, and spices - curry powder, garam masala, apple pie spice, and Italian medley.) Okay, so maybe it's for aquired tastes - but it sounds healthy, doesn't it? :)
Monday, December 10, 2007
So the first party I went to was on Saturday night. I ended up having a few drinks (low-calorie), then a stuffed mushroom, a cookie, and 1 piece of fried plantain. Not bad and I gained 0.2 pounds to 144.2 on Sunday (144.6 early in the morning). Fine, I can live with that. Oh, also when I tried to go to the gym at 5 p.m. on Saturday it was closed - found out today that they'd closed early for their holiday party,so instead of blowing off exercise altogether, I did abs and an exercise video on the computer. Overall not bad. Way to balance life and weight management.
But then comes Sunday with two food-heavy parties in a row. I didn't eat anything beforehand but I did drink a lot of tea and coffee. At the first party I tried to keep things under control. I tried to eat mostly the healthy choices and only little tiny bits of the less healthy choices. I did okay. I didn't deprive myself and I didn't go overboard either.
At the second party I wasn't really hungry. In hindsight I probably should have had water instead of punch (cranberry juice mixed with Fresca). We brought a loaf of sourdough bread from San Francisco which was a big hit and I had one slice, of course without butter. I had salad with no dressing and BBQ'ed chicken and salmon. But then I had a big chocolate chip cookie, three small slices of chocolate cake, and pistachio ice cream for dessert!! Whenever there are multiple choices I seem to feel the need to try all of them. :( I should have just had 1 slice of cake and half a cookie, and a very small serving of ice cream, of course.
Then I got home and I was full, but I ate lots of nuts. That was the worst part probably. Oh, and there was no time to go to the gym - it was closed by the time we got home.
I was up 5 pounds today - 149.0. Jess seemed to feel badly for me, though he doesn't know about the extra two sneaky slices of cake or any of the nuts (he had promptly fallen asleep on the couch when we got home). He said it was probably lots of water weight and of course there's the weight of the food itself to deal with.
But this brings me to why I entitled this blog entry "Set-Point Theory." It's as if my body is desperate to get back to the weight it's "used to" - the 160s - which I weighed for years before I started my weight management program. Any deviation from plan throws me way back up. However, reading over how the weekend went, I have some other thoughts...
*The longer I was "allowed" to stray from my plan, the worse my choices got. I can't always avoid having several events in a row, especially around the holiday season. But I must get back on track as soon as I can!
*There were choices I made where I should have done better. Water instead of punch. (Oh, and I also had a glass of wine...that's OK, I think.) ONE slice of cake, and keep it small. Keep the unhealthy food portions tiny and the healthy ones bigger. And do NOT come home and eat MORE when I'm already stuffed! Reduce the damage by just getting right back on track as soon as I'm out the door of the party.
At least I did the exercise videos on the computer, and I'm very glad I stayed on track today, including a full workout even though I was tired. I already am down to 148.8 - I rarely weigh less at night than I do in the morning...so...the yo yo continues. :( :( :(
Jess got me my birthday present tonight!! But he won't tell me what it is. Nine more days til I turn 30.
Friday, December 07, 2007
(Before I start - weight today was 146.2 - NICE)
I just read several posts on a very interesting thread with the subject, "Does it help you to have a goal date?" After reading many of the posts, I realized that this question really taps into my core problem.
It's not about goal dates! It's about being fit and healthy and happy and thin for LIFE.
Yes, I've set goal dates, and they've been lifesavers. They've been the only thing that's consistently gotten me back on track after I fell off. First it was being in the 130s for the Cape in July. Then it was fitting into my bridesmaid dress by December 1. That one was obviously out of necessity...
But now that that's over, what a gift! Now I can TRULY experiment with things and find out what really works for the long term. It has NOTHING to do with a goal date (be quiet, voice in the back of my mind whispering, "What about Jamaica???")... it has EVERYTHING to do with figuring out how to be consistent, not yo-yo, keep the weight off, and live my life.
Actually, Jamaica's covered. If I really do have this down, it will be NO PROBLEM to stick with my plan. Even if I lose much more slowly this way, in the end I will WIN - and win by a lot, because it is infinitely better to slowly lose than to quickly lose a lot and then gain it all back.
Bad scenario (this won't happen): I diet too hard, push myself to the limits, get my weight back into the 130s, then fall off the wagon and go to Jamaica weighing around 150.
GOOD scenario (this is what WILL happen! because it's my choice!): I find the right balance, I lose half a pound a week (let's just say...who knows...but just for argument's sake)...and well, let's see, how many weeks til Jamaica? (Consults with calendar...) OK, about 10 weeks. If I lose .5 pounds per week, that's 5 pounds between now and Jamaica, and I'd go there weighing 141. Okay, I actually don't see it happening QUITE like that. I think I will lose faster than half a pound a week at first...while I'm still working on the weight I only recently gained. Let's say I manage to get back to the weight where it starts to become significantly more difficult to lose....say 140....one week from now. I honestly think that's realistic. THEN, I hit the half pound a week mark and lose an additional 4.5 pounds...I'd weigh 135.5 pounds for Jamaica. THAT's nice. I like that a lot. Weighing 135 and not be starving and lacking energy? Yeah.
Plus, I am loving my new fitness routine - 45 minutes of cardio and give or take 30 minutes of strength training per day, plus stretching. At the moment I'm loving running but that can vary as the mood strikes me. Now, as I get fitter, I will burn more calories in that 45 minute block, and I will increase my muscle mass with the strength training especially considering I'm eating a lot, so my metabolism will increase and my body will get more effective at burning those 1,600 calories....
It's all a win-win really. The ONLY thing I must not do is to not get right back on the horse after I fall off. Yes, I'm saying it that way deliberately - I meant to imply that even if I fall off it's OK. I'd rather not, of course. I'd rather say no bingeing whatsoever, and I will certainly coach myself before holiday parties and whatnot to make good choices. BUT, if I should happen to fall off, the only thing I am going to request of myself is that I get right back on the very next day, NO BINGEING the next day. That way, the damage done is not only limited, it disappears quickly, so I can continue to progress.
Sure, I am motivated by Jamaica... but the major point here is that it's NOT all about looking good for one particular date or event. It's about making this lifestyle PERMANENT. And I think I'm well on my way!!
(PS - despite the eating disaster in San Fran, I realize that I didn't even have to debate with myself about going for that walk/jog every morning - I really WANTED to! What a change from a year ago!)
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