Tuesday, July 24, 2007
I just wanted to take a moment out to give myself a little praise. I really think I am getting there...working my way toward the ultimate goal of a permanent healthy lifestyle and healthy body. I have been learning all about myself and putting that knowledge to good use. I may slip up sometimes but I keep getting back on track, and even though I'd like to weigh less, my weight right now is healthy and looks good and is so much less than I ever weighed before I started this journey in 1/07. I know that eating the right amount of all my nutrients every day, and getting frequent exercise, is making me so much healthier for now and for my future. I am proud!!
Monday, July 23, 2007
1. Make it simple, easy, and pain-free to follow the plan, and the plan will be followed. That means skipping the tedious extras like calculating points, tracking water, tracking exercise. I need to count calories, but I will drink and exercise even without tracking, so why take the extra time?
2. When I think I can't track, go for simpler meals - even a frozen meal once in a while. Place a priority on tracking.
3. When I REALLY can't track or need a break from tracking, still remember to eat like a thin person - when I'm done you should still be able to tell what I was eating because I haven't polished away every last crumb (this one is seriously hard for me, but my thin boyfriend eats this way without even thinking about it). I should only be eating when I'm truly hungry - when delaying, having some water or gum haven't helped, OR when I'm about to need the energy for a workout, BUT I also need to stop when I've had a reasonable portion. I might still think I'm hungry, but 20 minutes later I'll feel fine.
I think that eventually I might want to try mini-goals toward my ultimate goal of maintaining my weight by eating intuitively. I should blog about goals for this weekend... I'm going to be on vacation, and was planning on taking a break from tracking, which I will, but I should probably use the weekend to practice intuitive eating!!! More on that later.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
I'm on Day 5 of my challenge (which I'd been referring to as an 8-day challenge but now realize it's actually 9 days - duh). I'm at 140.2 today, which is down 1 from yesterday, but on a different scale so hard to compare for sure. Very very close to the 130s. I'm going to reweigh myself after I write this blog entry (obsessive, true) and maybe I'll see that happy number. Jess' scale is very sensitive to slight changes.
I have been doing really well following my program, eating delicious and healthy food at around 1,275 calories a day, and feeling good MOST of the time. I just had two episodes of feeling grouchy/hungry yesterday - one was when I felt too hungry to paint my bedroom, and the other was around 10:30 at night and when I got into bed I was fine. But the episodes were enough to remind me why I can't stay this low on calories for the long term. Oh, and also I felt very low-blood-sugar-y after 30 minutes on the gauntlet, too.
I'd like to share my thoughts about why wellness is like a ladder. By "wellness," I'm referring to all this stuff - weight management, fitness, looking lean and toned. It's a very long ladder, and where you are right now you can't clearly see either end. Have a day (or even just a moment) of positive wellness and you move up a rung. Do something unhealthy and you move down. That part is obvious. But what I'm trying to get across is that when you fall off your program, you only move down toward the unhealthy bottom of the ladder one rung at a time. Get back to it, and you're not starting from the bottom all over again. It won't take too long to move yourself up to where you were, one rung at a time.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I had achieved an all-time high level of wellness for myself in April/May, but started to move down rungs throughout June and early July. Now, though, I'm moving back up the ladder and since I'm starting in the middle instead of at the bottom, I've quickly regained almost all my ground.
I'm going to go try weighing myself in one more time, then I'll be done for the day. Will be back with results in a moment..
140.0. Guess the big drop in weight decade will have to wait another day. Still, not bad, that's another 1.2 from yesterday. (I know losing fast isn't ideal. But this is weight that I PUT ON ridiculously fast, too.)
Saturday, July 21, 2007
That list I wrote for ways to thrill myself that don't involve either losing weight or having food binges? I have another, really good idea for that list. I was thinking to myself, "What about SparkPeople? I will need to stay actively involved to keep myself motivated to eat right and exercise." So... I could pair up with a newbie, and vicariously get all excited about THEIR weightloss! They might appreciate my experience - if I can find someone who thought they couldn't get thin (like I used to) and convince them that they CAN, because (this is a cliche bu true) if I can, anybody can. And we can give each other support and both celebrate as they lose their weight. I get all excited thinking about it.
OK, Jess is getting mad because I'm sparking instead of eating breakfast, and we have a lot to do today! Bye!
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Day 1: 148.0
Day 2: 145.8 (loss of 2.2 lbs)
Day 3: 142.6 (loss of 3.2 lbs)
Day 4: 141.2!! (loss of 1.4 lbs)
I am looking much better and feeling much better. Do you know how cool it is to not have to suck it in and still not have it hanging over? (Now the only reason to suck it in is to firm my abs, see the article I posted below!)
But I am starting to notice a problem. I realized I get a thrill out of losing weight quickly, and this is not cool. I don't exactly binge eat JUST to then later see my weight drop 7 pounds in 4 days, but I do recall thinking the night before I started my challenge, "Should I really work out tonight? If I do, I might not have my highest possible 'starting weight' tomorrow morning." I worked out anyway, but do you get what I'm talking about here? Is my TRUE goal to be thin/fit/healthy and stay that way, or is it subconsciously about seeig fast success on the scale?!?
You know what the thing about maintanence is, though. You DON'T see numbers dropping on the scale. Success is measured by keeping the numbers exactly the same! How boring! And I have to do this forever in order to keep my weight off?!?
I know the answer is obvious. If I'm thrilled by my own success (and who isn't) maintanence needs to be about seeing success in other areas, not the scale. I do need to keep weighing myself and being sure I'm staying within my range, but I have to find ways to thrill myself in other ways. Not the scale, and, of course, not food either. Here are some ideas:
*Become a better runner, do more races.
*Get really good at biking, strength traning, roller blading, etc.
*Make my condo really gorgeous.
*Ditto my wardrobe - in heavenly size 4s, 6s, and 8s.
*Focus on being a fantastic teacher.
I can do all these things for thrills, and just take a few minutes out of each day to plan and prepare the next day's food so that I stay on my plan. I think that's the long term solution. I really do.
But for now, I'm halfway done with my challenge and starting to look very bikini-ready!!!!!!!!!! Woohoo. :)
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