Monday, June 04, 2007
Why AREN'T more books dedicated to maintanence alone? It's always an afterthought chapter added to the end of a diet book or program. In some ways, it's even MORE important than the weightloss program itself, because weight loss is temporary. Maintanence should be for life!
It's all been so new to me, but I have already learned so much in just over a month since starting maintanence. It's psychological and physiological and the two just cannot be separated. Here's some of what I've been learning:
*Drinking fluids is way more essential than you'd ever realize.
*Motivation is this magical flame that sometimes burns bright and strong, other times flickers or goes out and needs to be re-lit. I'm not sure if I have a solution that'll keep the flame always burning strong, but here are some things that have helped my motivation come back when it was in danger of disappearing:
-going to a WW meeting
-receiving a sparkmail message from someone who noticed I hadn't been around lately
-having definite short-term goals - knowing I will be ON THE BEACH seems to be the best motivator, it's already saved me twice and it's only June 4.
*Once motivation is there, it's a little easier to maintain it for a while. I get bursts of ambition like last night, when after I went to the grocery store I spent a couple hours pre-portioning all my cereal in serving-size bags, making a crockpot dish, portioning cherries into plastic cups... When I know I will see a lower number on the scale the next day, I don't want to mess that up by eating something I don't really need at night.
*On the flip side, when motivation is already gone, it's easy to keep on "being bad." If I've already binged on one kind of cereal, unfortunately I'll sometimes have a can of soup and then binge on another kind of cereal. That's why I didn't buy any soup and I preportioned all my cereal last night! Ha!
*You really can feel a lot of the physiological processes happening, I think. I really do think I can feel it in my body when I'm losing weight. It's this uncomfortable hungry and weak feeling I get, but the more recently I've gotten back "on program," the less uncomfortable it feels, if that makes any sense. I can feel when I'm a little hungry (but can live with it, UNLESS I'm about to do some exercise in which case I'd need to eat a little more to get through the workout), very hungry in an immediate sense (the low blood sugar, sweaty, shaky feeling), or very hungry in the long term sense (the weak feeling I get when I haven't eaten over 1,300 calories in a while). I can also tell when I'm really NOT hungry at all, but just want to eat!
*I have a binge problem. It's not that I get really hungry or LOVE the food that I'm eating, I just sometimes want to eat large quantities. I'm really not sure why. It's pretty destructive. I eat to the point where I don't feel good. I need to work on this.
OK, more on this later, I gotta go!
Friday, June 01, 2007
I'm living that Japanese proverb. Fall down 9 times, pick yourself back up 10.
Friday, May 25, 2007
The past few days every time I tried to post a blog entry I had technical difficulties. Luckily those entries were never very long. I had a few hard days on Monday-Wednesday and I ate too much, but of course I learned from the experience:
1) I need gum. I was out of gum on Mon-Wed, and I was eating cereal instead. I binged SO HARD on cereal. I have since bought gum and have not binged. From now on, it is a PRIORITY to ensure that I have gum around.
2) I can relapse from anything. I went on a 3-day binge basically, but my weight only went up to 140 and after just one day of being strict yesterday, it dropped back to 137.6. (I was strict again today so I expect to see another loss for tomorrow. I wouldn't have been so strict - I actually have an unused AP - but I'm going to the beach tomorrow - first time since becoming thin!!!)
3) No matter how "bad" I was, GO TO WEIGHT WATCHERS EVERY WEEK. I didn't want to, but I went, I weighed in (up 0.8 after being up 3 pounds the week before), and then I got the support I needed from my leader and group members to really get back on track. No offense, SparkPeople, but this was actually a case where I needed face-to-face support.
4) It's not all bad. It might just be the way I maintain. Some days I eat a lot but those days MUST be balanced out with days when I am strict. When I do eat a lot, it's healthy food and it's not nearly as much as "a lot" used to be before I started this program. I could not fit that much food in me anymore!! So I'm getting a LOT of nutrients on those pig-out days, and letting myelf know that I don't have to deprive myself 100% of the time to stay thin. I have more energy and am in a better mood after I've eaten a lot. My fitness level continues to increase. (Speaking of which, I ran a mile in 7 minutes, 52 seconds today and felt like I could have gone even faster.)
5) Thank goodness for that bridesmaid dress. I probably should have ordered the 8, but it's the 6 that's making me realize I MUST not gain weight. I no longer think I ought to weigh 124, but I do have to fit into that dress in December, so I gotta keep my weight at least NEAR 135. For the wedding I'll probably have to weigh under 135. But that doesn't have to be my permanent weight.
6) In addition to needing gum, I need to be drinking. Coffee is good because it decreases my appetite and increases my energy. But I also need non-caffeinated, calorie-free beverages. On the days that I ate too much I didn't drink enough. NOT a coincidence.
There's a very fit, thin woman at my gym. She does a LOT of strength training - she's at the gym more than I am!! She always says she does it because she loves to eat. She is so inspiring to me. I would rather work out a lot and get to eat a lot than deprive myself all the time. There's no way I could deprive myself all the time.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
I actually got to go out and have a life AND get my weight back to 136 this weekend. I had 2 glasses of wine last night and hit the dance floor!:) I tried to figure out my points using the Eat Wisely book, but I redid it when I came home on SP, and I was pleasantly surprised that I hadn't done as bad as I had thought. Right now I'm just at over 1,200 calories for the day and stuffed! Lowering my percent calories from fat has made it possible for me to eat enough food that I feel full with under 1,300 most days, though I've had a few days this past week where I was at 1,350 (Tuesday when I went out for dinner with Honor), 1,450(I think?) on Friday when I forgot my measuring cup and ate directly out of the containers (bad idea), and Saturday (1,550) when I went out for lunch AND dinner AND drinks and guessed I was up around 1,900 calories but found out I was wrong when I entered it all on SP! And it's been fine, because I'm back to 136.0. :) I have a plan that works.
PS - I'm stuffed and tired and think my new plan is great, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't love to go and raid my kitchen and eat everything in sight. Sigh. Guess those dark urges don't ever go away!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
After a few rocky weeks I am settled into a somewhat new routine and very pleased with my new "weight management program." My new goals are:
*energy, happiness, and good mood
*any weight in the 130s will make me happy (though I have to admit, the lower 130s would make me happier than the upper)
*learning how to maintain my weight AND have a life
*continuing to increase my fitness level
*not driving myself crazy with overly strict rules
Yesterday I ate about 1,450 calories, which was a bit high for a weekday, but still fine. I had forgotten to bring my measuring cup to school so I was eating cereal and carrots straight out of the bag. Not the best idea. But I did skip the cupcakes (frooooosting), bagels, and muffins in the teachers' room and took some fruit instead. Good job, I say!:) Anyway, I was down from 138.2 on Jess's scale yesterday (the one that gives a lower number) to 137.2 today on my scale. :) In other words, I may have actually lost MORE than 1 pound. I love that I feel full after meals again. And I LOVE my new treat - mixing cereal with fat-free, no-sugar-added hot cocoa. A cup of Fiber One has fewer calories than a half a cup of plain oatmeal (surprising) so I tried my concoction with Fiber One this morning and put it in the microwave with a bit of water for 30 seconds. 160 calories for healthy, chocolately goodness!!!!!!!!!!!
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