Sunday, May 20, 2007
I actually got to go out and have a life AND get my weight back to 136 this weekend. I had 2 glasses of wine last night and hit the dance floor!:) I tried to figure out my points using the Eat Wisely book, but I redid it when I came home on SP, and I was pleasantly surprised that I hadn't done as bad as I had thought. Right now I'm just at over 1,200 calories for the day and stuffed! Lowering my percent calories from fat has made it possible for me to eat enough food that I feel full with under 1,300 most days, though I've had a few days this past week where I was at 1,350 (Tuesday when I went out for dinner with Honor), 1,450(I think?) on Friday when I forgot my measuring cup and ate directly out of the containers (bad idea), and Saturday (1,550) when I went out for lunch AND dinner AND drinks and guessed I was up around 1,900 calories but found out I was wrong when I entered it all on SP! And it's been fine, because I'm back to 136.0. :) I have a plan that works.
PS - I'm stuffed and tired and think my new plan is great, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't love to go and raid my kitchen and eat everything in sight. Sigh. Guess those dark urges don't ever go away!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
After a few rocky weeks I am settled into a somewhat new routine and very pleased with my new "weight management program." My new goals are:
*energy, happiness, and good mood
*any weight in the 130s will make me happy (though I have to admit, the lower 130s would make me happier than the upper)
*learning how to maintain my weight AND have a life
*continuing to increase my fitness level
*not driving myself crazy with overly strict rules
Yesterday I ate about 1,450 calories, which was a bit high for a weekday, but still fine. I had forgotten to bring my measuring cup to school so I was eating cereal and carrots straight out of the bag. Not the best idea. But I did skip the cupcakes (frooooosting), bagels, and muffins in the teachers' room and took some fruit instead. Good job, I say!:) Anyway, I was down from 138.2 on Jess's scale yesterday (the one that gives a lower number) to 137.2 today on my scale. :) In other words, I may have actually lost MORE than 1 pound. I love that I feel full after meals again. And I LOVE my new treat - mixing cereal with fat-free, no-sugar-added hot cocoa. A cup of Fiber One has fewer calories than a half a cup of plain oatmeal (surprising) so I tried my concoction with Fiber One this morning and put it in the microwave with a bit of water for 30 seconds. 160 calories for healthy, chocolately goodness!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, May 18, 2007
Down to 138.2 today. It feels great to be losing again. It feels even better to have energy and feel great while doing it. I haven't been planning out meals. I have low sugar oatmeal packets, Total, Fiber One, and cans of tuna here at work. (and tea and gum.) Each day I'm bringing a few other things, like yogurt, baby carrots, frozen veggies, whatever I have around. It's been weird stuff because I haven't been to the grocery store, so I've been doing things like bringing my large container of plain yogurt and measuring out a portion instead of the little snack cups. I actually forgot my measuring cup today so I've had to estimate. I should probably get a measuring cup and can opener to leave here so I don't have to lug them home each day. I can't wait to get home and have my special new dessert again - "cookie dough" made with 1 packet of no-sugar-added cocoa and 1 serving of plain oatmeal...though I may try it with Fiber One cereal because that's lower calorie than oatmeal. It's just like magic how eating this new way makes me not hungry even though I'm eating less than I was last week when I was starving all the time.
Last night I did a great 60-minute gauntlet workout - over 30 minutes at level 8, then down to 7 for most of the rest of the time with a little 6 and 8 thrown in. I had to lean over a few times, but then I'd get right back up and sweat away. I could really feel it in my legs afterwards and I got that "I've burned more calories than I've eaten" feeling too, which makes me a grouch but that's OK because I basically went to bed right afterwards.
I am SO excited for the weekend now because I actually have the energy to enjoy my life and don't have to dedicate all my thoughts, time, emotions, and physical exertion on weight management issues! I also know that if I DO get really hungry I can actually eat whatever I want as long as I'm right back on track afterwards. And I also know how to eat so that I hopefully DON'T get to that point. I also don't have to plan everything out and track it all in advance, which kinda sucks the fun out of things too. Very different than before! But, I still weigh in the 130s and I'm THIN! This is something I keep forgetting or being in denial about especially now that I've gained a few pounds. I did weigh 134 and now I weigh 138. But I will lose those 4 pounds plus a few more...even if it happens very slowly...and I will do it with a big energetic smile on my face, and even if I binge my way up to the low 140s again (temporarily, of course) I'll look and BE thin!!! (There are pictures of me from this past Sunday - binge day - and when I saw them I thought, oh wow, I look thin in these pictures!)
I mean seriously. I'm 29 and since I was in my early teens I was reading articles on weightloss, writing journal entries with detailed diet plans, and dreaming of being thin. I never could get it to happen until 2007. Now here I am weighing in the 130s and in the best shape of my life. I can't believe it. When will it sink in that I am thin now!!!!!!!!!? YAY!:)
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Today I was at 138.8 (accidentally typed in 138.3 on SP), which is LOWER than I was on Sunday morning before the binge. Yay! That means it only took 3 days to lose the weight from eating THE MOST I would EVER eat. That means that at any point, I could go nuts and eat like mad, and as long as I'm back on my program the next day, I'm in the clear 3 days later!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!! Plus, I was still pretty full the first and even the second day after, so it would have been hard NOT to stay on program. The third day I went out to eat and had 1,350 calories, and I was still down!!
Lowering my percent calories from fat is working well for me right now. Not sure how it'll make me feel in the long run, but for right now I am loving how much farther my calories go without the fatty foods.
My insight for today is that you have to make the program work for you individually. You aren't going to get graded on your weightloss performance, so you don't "have" to do what "they" say you should do. You need to do what you can keep up without going crazy or having adverse effects on how you feel or on your weightloss efforts.
*My heart-rate monitor was driving me crazy. Too many numbers to be strict with! For the purposes of activity points, I want to count running and heavy at-the-gym cardio as high intensity, stairmaster fit test/strength training/biking as medium, and walking as low. It gives me a psychological boost and makes me want to do it. So I'm going to do it that way. It's my body and I can do what I want to. Ha!
*I can eat MORE when I eat less fat. I know SP and WW have their reasons for encouraging you to eat fat - SP with its 30% of your daily calories guideline and WW with its 2 tsp of oil per day requirement. But this is working for me right now, so I'm going to do it!
*4 activity points per day doesn't always mean I'm going to work out as much as I was....but it's enough for WW and it's enough for me. I can do more when I eat more and have gotten more sleep on the weekends, or whenever it fits into my schedule and I feel like it!
*Caffeine, artificial sweeteners, artificially flavored calorie-free beverages, gum....they're my crutches, I'm not going to count the calories (I chew sugar-free gum that's 5 or fewer calories per serving) and I'm going to use as much of them as I need to to get through the day!
There is to be no beating myself up. If something isn't working, I need to figure out why, without a guilt trip or feeling down on myself. I have to keep the big picture in mind - I went down from being overweight my whole adult life basically, usualy 160-180 pounds, to a healthy, attractive 135-140. I did a fanastic job! This is literally my first experience with maintanence so I have to learn how to do it in a way that works for me!!!
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
I am very pleased with myself. I ate only about 850 calories before dinner, so I was able to go out to a restaurant and eat a real dinner, but in a very healthy, moderate, reasonable, "lifestyle-not-a-diet" kind of way. I had iced tea to drink, a little of the bread and butter, and my friend and I split the schrod! It was just enough food and I had enough energy for a good strength training workout afterwards (with 15 mins of stairmaster as a warmup). When I got home and got on SP, I was very pleased with the numbers - about 1,350 calories/25 points. My workout was 4 points, and my daily target is 21, so 21 + 4 = 25, which makes today an "even steven" day!
I'll probably be up a couple pounds at my weigh-in tomorrow, thanks to the way I was eating over the weekend (especially Sunday), but I'm not going to stress about it. I needed that binge! The weight will come right off, and I feel much better and have learned a lot about myself and the way this stuff all works.
A little off topic, but I wanted to mention that I've been eating a lot less fat the past few days and more protein. SP recommends 30% calories from fat, but you get to eat so much MORE when you eat less fat, because even healthy fats are so calorie-dense. I'm going to try this for a while.
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