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Aren't you glad you're not me?

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Man, was I looking forward to having a week and a half off. I'd been feeling really run down and wanted a chance to relax and refresh. But then I realized I wasn't just tired from working too much - I was actually sick. Long story short, I have shingles. Shingles! WTF! I have very itchy spots on my abdomen and back, and I'm kind of exhausted. Oh, and I think I have PMS too.

On top of that, my weight is the highest it's ever been and I so desperately want to do something about it but I feel like I have no energy to even come up with a plan. And I just turned 35, so I'm now officially old when it comes to getting pregnant. (Our attempts at conceiving have been put on hold until after we've seen a specialist, which we're doing in early Jan.) I kind of cry whenever I hear about other people's babies or pregnancies, which is all the freaking time. I think I'm depressed.

I'm hoping I'll have something more cheerful to write about soon. Just so this post isn't totally negative, here's a picture of "my" dog (actually my parents') on his 11th birthday the other week:

  
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ERINLINDSAY83 1/9/2013 8:47PM

    I had shingles two years ago.....SO UNBELIEVABLY PAINFUL! (Yours were more itchy than painful? I's consider that lucky then! lol.)

I also know how you feel about the babies, though Ive been told it would be near impossible to conceive, so at least I don't have the question that you do.

But as someone with chronic health problems (see my many blogs if you want to know), I understand how run done life can get ya! Nothing you can do but take it one day at a time (which is SOOO not what you want to hear when you're bummed. But it's true.) Hugs!

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 1/2/2013 11:03AM

    I'm so sorry you're not feeling well! Has the shingles improved?

I've been the exact same way about other people's pregnancies and I hate it! I had 2 little breakdowns over the holidays. We're setting up an appt with a specialist this month, too.



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MBSHAZZER 12/31/2012 9:24AM

    Awww, I love the dog!!

Wishing you better health - shingles are the WORST - I have never had them, but Larry did a few years ago and it was awful for him. I hope by NYE (tonight!) they are gone and you can enjoy something fun with your cute hubby!

Happy New Year!

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PRINCESSPP 12/30/2012 11:32AM

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CRYSBROWN1 12/29/2012 7:35PM

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I am sorry that you are dealing with all of this negative stuff right now. Shingles sounds painful and I hope that you have a speedy recovery. I am thinking that the specialist appt is definitely a step in the right direction. Things will get better because YOU deserve it!

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PAPER_WINGS18 12/28/2012 9:37PM

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So sorry all this shti is being thrown your way lately. Please hang in there and try to rest up, relax, and not stress. Everything will work out. Please don't hesitate to message me if you need to talk or vent or anything.

xoxoxo

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SEEHOLZ 12/28/2012 9:19PM

    Man- what a bummer... I have a zit on my abdomen and feel rundown- yuck! And I feel all bloated and stuff... PMS? Not that it'll make YOu feel better :(

I've been in your place before, where I felt so beaten down- like no energy to pick up the pieces. The thing is- you WILL get through this! And you'll get back to feeling good- winter, PMS, the baby thing, feeling fat definitely could contribute to feeling all depressed- I wished I had a magic wand and could make it all better Susan!
All I do know is that doing something will make you feel better--- right now, it's all about feeling hopeful- so going to that specialist will give you that sense of being proactive. Plus, I firmly believe that getting your body as ready as possible for a happy, healthy pregnancy might a little motivator, even if for now, all you do is eat that 1 piece of fruit and that leave that 1 piece of chocolate in the garbage--- just my thoughts.

Know that this is a phase just like any other phase and that this won't last forever- you'll feel better- eventually. In the meantime, try to hang on to those feelings of feeling good and do your best to practice the behaviors that come with it- without feeling guilty about any inadequacies... basically EMBRACE it all... even the tears. I really feel for you- HUGS!

But first and foremost - do rest and take care of yourself to get over this crapola shingle thing!

Happy New Year! Keep us posted on your appointment and I'll be thinking of you guys :-)


Happy New Year!

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MEGSFITNESS 12/28/2012 4:32PM

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sorry to hear you're down. :( Totally understandable, though. There are moms who talk about their kids from time to time and I'm okay with that, and then there are others whom I just want to punch in the throat. Life isn't fair that people who never wanted to be parents are blessed with children but people who have always wanted to be parents go through all this pain :(

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I hope the specialists in January can help.

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ARUNNINGKAT 12/28/2012 2:15PM

    Susan, I am so sorry about how your life is going right now! I hope it gets better soon. Being sick is miserable!

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INBRAZILFORNOW 12/28/2012 11:29AM

    Sending much love and hoping you feel better soon. I'm glad you're seeing a specialist too.

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CHANGINGSAM 12/28/2012 10:46AM

    First off, you aren't too old to get pregnant. My step mom got pregnant after 35. Hopefully with the specialist's help, you can too. Don't give up. Secondly, I'm so very sorry you aren't feeling well. I've been there plenty of times, and it isn't fun. I hope you feel better soon. Lastly, as for having no energy to exercise, why don't you try Yoga or walking? I did some Yoga over the weekend when I wasn't feeling well; I had loads of energy and felt 100x better.

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SPARKNMOM 12/28/2012 9:38AM

    Wow, sweetie!! I hope you're feeling better soon and that the specialist has some good news for you. Thinking of you!!

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MRS.NG.06 12/28/2012 8:26AM

    Oh sweetie! I feel for you so much, you've been through alot and now you got shingles...good heavens! YOU ARE NOT OLD to be getting preggers! It'll happen, I know it will. Here's to a HEALTHY and FERTILE 2013 to you and yours xooxooxo *HUGS*

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MEADSBAY 12/27/2012 9:57PM

    Oh my- that is one big bad ball of crap!
I am so sorry.
Hope 2013 dawns bright and cheery for you.
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FRIZGIRL 12/27/2012 9:24PM

    Xoxoxo. I hear shingles suck. A lady in our church just had that. So sorry and hope you feel better soon.

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STEFANIE822 12/27/2012 8:58PM

    Oh Susan I am so sorry :( :( :( I know how painful shingles can be. It is absolutely miserable. I feel so bad that you are having such a hard time right now. I truly hope things start to turn around for you soon! Have you thought about going to see a counseler and talking things out?? I know when I am having a difficult time in my life, it always helps to talk to someone that really knows nothing about me or what Im going through. Just a thought. Keep your head up..good things WILL come your way!

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SWEATONCEADAY 12/27/2012 8:01PM

    i have never had chicken pox so luckily i can't get shingles! sorry you are feeling depressed. you have been on quite the roller coaster. it sucks too when we get that sense of heightened observation about whatever we are NOT trying to think/focus about/on.

try to keep your chin up and hopefully the specialist can get you guys the answers you need to make the decision about your future.

happy new year!

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SILLIANGEL 12/27/2012 7:55PM

    Oh man, shingles is supposed to be really painful. I'm so sorry :(
It sucks when things stack up like that. Sometimes the symptoms of shingles can be reduced if you reduce your stress. it might help to talk to someone about everything you're going through, to make it less overwhelming. Don't worry about things like weight loss right now. Just take care of yourself.

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My first two weeks at the Y: A review

Sunday, December 02, 2012

I am very happy to belong to a gym that is within walking distance of home again!

On Monday night I took a class called "Boot Camp." I was running a little late from work (crazzzzzzy week at work) and barely made it in time, so I didn't really have my pick of dumbbell weights. I think the weights I was using were a little too light for the most part. I liked the class overall, though not as much as Body Pump - it seemed way easier.

On Tuesday night I took a class called "Zumba 'N Sculpt" which was a half hour of Zumba and then a half hour of strength training. This class seemed too easy for me! I was sort of adding a few extra hops and things to my dance moves to try to get my heart rate up a little. It was probably the first time I had a fitness instructor who seemed to be less fit than me. The strength training was light, but that was OK because I'd done three days in a row of classes that had a strength component.

I haven't taken any classes since Tuesday, but I've been using the machines. I really enjoy the strength training machines at my Y - they're really new, and they rock back and forth as you use them - took a little getting used to, but they're fun, and they even have cup holders! I also love that each cardio machine has its own TV - makes the time fly by. There's one machine that is unlike anything I've seen before - sort of mimics roller blading - I enjoy it.

I really like how much people take care of the equipment at the Y. Things are always in the right place, and people clean off all the machines after they use them. This is a very pleasant change from my last gym, Work Out World.

Also, since this is a city gym I'm often the minory as a white person there. That's fine, just something I'm not used to. In my Zumba 'N Sculpt class, for example, there was only one other white person in the whole class, and she was sort of crazy (you know the type - the one who hoots and hollers out of excitement throughout the class! Haha.)

My complaints about the Y so far are very minor - one is that everyone seems to ignore the sign on the locker room door that says that the locker room is for 18+ only and families should use the family changing room or the youth locker rooms. I don't really care if there are kids in the locker room, but it's a little annoying that there are signs all over the place that it's not allowed and people ignore them. My other complaint isn't really even a complaint but more of a fear - this Y is really small and so far there hasn't been a problem, but I'm worried about it being overcrowded in January when the New Years Resolutioners come out. But then again I guess that would be a problem even in a bigger gym. At least at the Y there are so many options for things to do that if something is taken or a class is full, I can just do something else instead.

Anyway, overall I am very happy with the Y so far! Best part is, my hubby is paying our couples membership (which, at $51/month and no joining fee) really isn't bad! (He wants us to switch to a family cell phone plan and for me to pay that in exchange, but that hasn't happened yet.)

Happy December everyone!

  
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PAPER_WINGS18 12/5/2012 1:25PM

    Good for you for making it so much to the Y! That's great! I agree with some of the other ladies, try a different instructor and see if s/he is more intense. I def have my fav zumba instructor who makes me bust my @$$, where as the other ladies aren't as intense, and I find myself adding jumps and stuff like you just mentioned. HOpefully there's a good fit for ya there!

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DAMIENDUCKS 12/5/2012 1:13PM

    I love the Y here! Glad it's working out for you so well...try a few other instructors for Zumba, maybe the one you got is on the lighter end of the spectrum...

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CHANGINGSAM 12/3/2012 3:24PM

    Glad to hear you are enjoying it!

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MBSHAZZER 12/3/2012 9:38AM

    Glad you are enjoying! I belonged to a Y for years and I loved it!!

Also, I have found at all gyms I have belonged to that it gets really crowded in January and then everyone stops going once Superbowl Sunday rolls around!

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MRS.NG.06 12/3/2012 8:08AM

    That's awesome that even though you had a crazy week, you got there! Good for you! That's 1/2 the battle right there.

We were considering the Y's around here too....and when you get your membership, you can also visit the other Y's in the area if you are closer to another one for work and whatnot but we never got around to signing up yet. Other bills have been sucking the $$ out of us heheh. I like that if you get the family membership you can get free 2 hours of babysitting at the Y's in our area too..not bad if I say so myself! Definitely lots of perks. I hope because yours is small it doesnt get swamped after January...

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FITGIRL15 12/2/2012 11:38PM

    I have a friend who teaches Yoga at one of the Downtown Y clubs here, and she too complains that when she takes Zumba there, it';s not as Fitness-y as it is when she takes it with me, at a gym. Not every instructor is alike, try another one! Same for the other classes too! Eventually, you will find someone's style that meshes with yours!

Sounds like the equipment is awesome! I'm jealous! My main ST gym is small, and full of meat heads... so it's hard to get the equipment I want. I try to put on the "mean girl" face as soon as I hit the floor there! LOL

Keep enjoying it! But yes, the New year could bring a whole new set of fitness people that will change the space! Drop your comment in regarding the change rooms NOW... those signs are probably intended to reduce the amount of bodies in the main ADULT change rooms. I think you need to speak up!!! Hopefully, it will make things better in January at least!

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FITFOODIE806 12/2/2012 10:02PM

    So glad you are having a good experience! I am an instructor at the Y an we call January "tourist season". It's over by February!
I'd fill out a comment card about the locker room policy. Those cards have a crazy amount of power! It's unfortunate, but it happens. Takes a complaint from a member to get something done.

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SEEHOLZ 12/2/2012 8:50PM

    I'm glad you are overall enjoying your Y experience so far! That's awesome. I know that from my limited corporate gym experience, some choreographed classes are harder than the non-corporate Y classes and yes, they seem to be less stringent when it comes to the types of people they hire -- but in a weird way, that can be a good thing, because it's less intimidating for some beginners etc. For me, I'm very picky about my instructors, so I won't take certain classes, because they are just not for me... my Y has some awesome and challenging instructors, even teaching ST classes.... so I stick to the ones I like. That's really all you can do-- as for bodypump? Maybe invest into the DVDs that are similar to bodypump and invest into a set of barbells... that way you won't have to ever worry about joining a gym just for that type of class- just a thought, since you have the space now.



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FRIZGIRL 12/2/2012 7:27PM

    We had a Y near us when I was growing up, and man, I miss it. The gym I go to now is almost $70/month, and has half the things you just mentioned in your email... except for the instructors.... they are crazy fit and crazy intense which I usually love, except for in yoga. Glad you found a good fit AND that it is in walking distance from you! good trade gym for cell phone :)

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SILLIANGEL 12/2/2012 7:04PM

    I love the Y!

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MOXIE-IN-MOTION 12/2/2012 6:13PM

    The Y sounds awesome.....so many classes, so many options! Glad you're enjoying it!

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Thanksgiving and Kettlebell Training at the Y

Sunday, November 25, 2012

So...Thanksgiving was exhausting, but it was a success! To prepare, I spent a whole day cleaning my kitchen, and another whole day and a half cooking. We ended up having 15 people - mostly from my husband's mother's side of the family, which is huge. My parents and one of my brothers came (my other brother is on the other side of the country, in CA, and had Thanksgiving with his in-laws). My parents and brother were the last to arrive, even though my mom was the one bringing the turkey! My family has very little respect for timeliness (except that when I'M late, my mother gets very upset with me!). Anyway, I'd made an "extra" turkey, because my mom was bringing a 14-pounder, and I thought we might need more (at the time I thought we were having 16 people), so I'd bought a 5-pounder. I'd never cooked a turkey before, and I think it came out fine (not as good as my mom's...but nobody ended up eating my mom's because my parents were so late! ugh! except my mom...who's so picky she won't eat anyone else's turkey...double ugh). We had TONS of leftovers, and after everyone else left my parents and brother stayed and helped us clean up - we put everything in tupperware in the fridge except the leftover turkey (including the bones!), the leftover gravy, the carrot and celery sticks (chopped), and some spices, which we put in the crockpot to make leftover turkey soup! It came out delicious. Jess and I have been eating nothing but leftovers all weekend and we're finally making a dent. Today I reorganized what's left of the leftovers into single-serving containers, so it will be easier to take to work, and I froze some of it.

Also, Jess and I joined the Y about a week ago. It's walking distance from our house and totally renovated. In some ways it has a lot more than the kinds of gyms I'm used to, like a pool (which I have yet to use) and a real gymnasium, but in other ways it has less than I'm used to, like it has no calf machine, no chest fly machine, and the cables are situated in a way that you can't use them for some of the moves I sometimes do. Most of the cardio machines have their own TVs, and I've never belonged to a gym that had that before (though not all of the TVs seem to have closed captioning, which I prefer because I still like to listen to my music while I do cardio even when I'm watching TV too). There are a bunch of classes, of course, but the only one I have taken is Kettlebell Training. I took it once a while ago when I was trying out the Y, and today I took it for a 2nd time - and Jess came with me! Jess has hardly ever taken any classes, so it was a rare treat to have him with me today. The class was tough, and he was red, sweaty, and drinking all my water! (He never brings a water bottle to the gym with him.) He kept saying he wasn't feeling that well, and that he was really out of shape. The class was only barely a half hour, and I would have been fine with going and doing some cardio afterwards, but he need to go home and lie (lay?) down! (I just asked him which way is grammatically correct - "he needed to lay down" or "he needed to lie down" - and he said, "Are you talking about me? I'm not telling." Hahaha.) He explained to me that it wasn't so much that his muscles were tired, it was more that he was cardiovascularly tired. He never does more cardio than just taking it easy on a recumbant bike, and I realized he probably never gets his heart rate up more than 100 beats per minute or so, if that even. So this class was a shock to his system. It was tough for me too, but I'm used to more endurance and cardio work than he is, even though he's a lot stronger and leaner than I am. He said he'd try it again, but with lighter kettlebells! We really weren't given any guidance on what weight to pick, and of course you'd think you'd be using lighter weights for shoulders than for squats, but no, not in this class. The toughest stuff, though, didn't really involve the kettlebells at all - tons of pushups (with one hand on a kettlebell) and those horrible burpees - stupid name, stupid exercise. Haha. You know I'm only saying that because they were so hard.

Anyway, later in the day we ended up going back "downtown" to watch the annual Christmas tree lighting ceremony. It was kinda cheesy but would be really fun for the kids, if we had any. There was a petting zoo, dancers, a few rides for kids, face painting, etc. The only thing that bugged me (besides the cold) was that this was a public event that was completely Christmas-oriented. I'm basically a non-practicing Jew, but I was raised Jewish and wished they'd at least make mention of the fact that not every resident celebrates Christmas (although I sort of do, since my husband does), and that they'd left out the line about how God has always been a part of our churches and schools - isn't separation of church and state a legal thing? Anyway, I'm of the attitude of "if you can't beat 'em, join 'em" as far as all the Christmas craziness goes, and it's been a lot of fun to celebrate with my husband's family in the past, but still...I don't think a city-sponsored event should be tied in with something that recognizes only one religion.

Didn't mean to rant about that! Oh well. Back to work tomorrow - it's going to be a crazy week at school! Oh, and tomorrow night I have to decide whether to work out on my own, take Boot Camp, Group Cycling (never really enjoyed spinning much due to the seats being uncomfortable), or Zumba Toning! Oh, and my husband really wants me to somehow squeeze in a phone call to a fertility doctor. He saw his doctor a few days ago and described our situation with the miscarraiges and his doctor said that he thinks we should be doing something more than just trying what we've been trying again. (Though my ob-gyn said we should do exactly that - just keep trying. Hrm.)

  
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FRIZGIRL 12/2/2012 7:30PM

    lol.... wish I had kettlebell classes at my gym (we do, but you have to pay an extra $30/month to go to them on top of gym membership)... and there is a kettlebell gym within walking distance of my house, but not childcare options, and it's $100/month wowser!

And burpees.... just thinking of that word makes me want to vomit! you are amazing!

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MEGSFITNESS 11/29/2012 6:32PM

    Your back-at-it attitude is great!

Sorry 'bout the city thing, though. emoticon look :) Spark is down w/ equality ;)

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FITGIRL15 11/27/2012 3:44PM

    Sounds like your new gym has an awesome selection of classes! :) And you are enjoying them! YAY!!! Your hubby is hilarious! I am so proud of you for kicking his butt in that class :)
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MEADSBAY 11/26/2012 10:13PM

    I was raised a catholic but could care less about any of that now and couldn't agree more with you about having the whole Jesus thing (hahahaha- accidentally typed thong) shoved in our faces- enough already! lots of non-christians here now!
LOVE that your dh had to go lie/lay down after a workout!
They are such wimps!
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SEEHOLZ 11/26/2012 1:59PM

    I'm Catholic- well, my own version of it- no judging allowed-LOL. Obviously, I celebrate Christmas and I love all things Chrismas this type of year- so I don't mind all the stuff revolving around Christmas to be honest. And I can't wait to go to the Christkidlmarkt in Pittsburgh this year. But, I get it. I feel very similar about patriotic things- I was raised in Germany and patriotic was not really "allowed" for obvious reasons,so when I moved here, it was almost sickening, because I was not used to it ---- times have changed in Germany and I certainly have become used to all the patriotism in the U.S, but it's just not my thing- no matter what culture. Be proud- but don't shove it in people's faces. We are all just people--- people who should have open minds!

Great job on hosting your first Thanksgiving! It sounds like you saved the day with your turkey!!! As for parents? They seem to have their "ways"--- they are so set in them by now, I gave up on changing them :-)

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DAMIENDUCKS 11/26/2012 11:34AM

    Was laughing about the parent thing, too! My hubby's parents drive me slowly crazy when we hang out with them, but I'm sure my own would too if they lived closer than 1000 miles away!

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CHANGINGSAM 11/26/2012 11:25AM

    I've wanted to try a kettle bell class, but my gym doesn't offer it. Way to go on joining the Y!

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CARILOUIE 11/26/2012 11:07AM

    16 people?!? Wow!

The new YMCAs are really nice - I was in one last weekend for some training, and the facility was beautiful! I wish they had a nice, new one around here. The local Y here smells like BO CONSTANTLY and leaves a weird taste in your mouth.



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MBSHAZZER 11/26/2012 9:55AM

    Hehe, I was LOL at your "issues" with your parents. So funny! Larry was spending a significant portion of the weekend complaining about my dad (after my parents left) and then he talked to another one of our friends and came to the realization that EVERYONE'S parents have a "thing"! :D

Sounds like you had a great weekend! Enjoy the Y!

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MRS.NG.06 11/26/2012 8:58AM

    Sometimes our significant others need that wake up call to realize how much they need to get with the program..its a blessing and a curse to feel that way. Glad he was okay afterwards though..gotta be careful with that "all in" stuff. heheh

God my parents sound like yours..always late. Drives me crazy. We've to had to resort to telling them to come 30 minutes earlier than a start time to get them on time without telling them....I've tried not to pick up that awful trait but its like ingrained in my upbringing..thankfully DH is the person who is always ON TIME..so..he's always pushing me along to get moving lol xooxox

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GIANTMICROBE 11/26/2012 8:01AM

    My ex was kind of like that. He would come to the gym with me and lift like his own bodyweight, then run a little and be about to puke. All-over conditioning= very important!



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NINJALINDA 11/25/2012 10:16PM

    Wow...you've got a LOT going on! Was this your first time hosting Thanksgiving? I actually love having my family (in laws & outlaws, I say) over for this holiday. We had 18 this year - light crowd-LOL! I just got done cutting the last of the turkey off the bone & boiling the carcass for soup. Smells great in here!

Kettlebells is a class I've wanted to try for a long time. My gym has it, but I haven't been able to make a class yet. (Something about marathon training probably!) Same thing with Zumba. I love spinning, but haven't done in class in forever.

I truly hear you on the holiday celebration. I'm Christian, but am thoroughly sick of my peeps complaining about the 'war on Christmas', and pledging to 'keep Christ in Christmas, etc, etc.. As the majority we need to get over ourselves and realize...Hello! there ARE other religious celebrations at this time of year!

Good luck on the fertility issues. I can't imagine what that must feel like. I spotted one time during one of my pregnancies and almost freaked out completely. I'll send up a word for you. emoticon

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Follow-up appointment with the ob-gyn

Monday, November 12, 2012

It's been two weeks since my second miscarriage, and today I had a follow-up appontment with the ob-gyn. It was pretty uneventful, but some sweet Sparkies have been asking me how I'm doing so I figured I'd share. Plus, if I write it down, I'll remember it.

Basically, I had my HCG and TSH (thyroid) tested again - my TSH was borderline before so maybe going on medication would help me to not miscarry. And in January or February I'm supposed to have an X-ray taken of my uterus (if I'm not pregnant then) so they can look at the shape of it. That was basically it. Oh, and when I get pregnant again I can have my progesterone level checked - apparently there's a controversial treatment of giving pregnant women progesterone - controversial because it doesn't seem to actually help anyone, but it doesn't hurt either.

After the appointment I went for a jog, since the office is near my favorite place in the city to run. I hadn't been there in a while and it felt wonderful. Emotionally, I'm okay. I went through a few days of lots of bad feelings, but my job is so busy and my hubby is so sweet that I couldn't stay in a funk for long. I'm working out again (I was working out all along, but started to take it REALLY easy when I was pregnant) so that helps. And we keep tossing around the idea of getting a puppy...but I'm allergic...but I really want one anyway. Not sure what to do about that! Oh, and we're hosting Thanksgiving dinner for the first time, for 18 people. So we're too busy to sit around moping!

Thank you so much everyone who gave me any words of support/sympathy/encouragement over the past few weeks, and especially for those who shared their own similar struggles (hugs to you). When I was at my most unhappy moments, seeing a friendly note from a Sparker really did make my day. And since I told almost nobody in "real life," having this semi-anonymous place to get support made even more of a difference. Thank you, friends!

  
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PHD140 12/20/2012 10:29PM

    Just stopped by to check in on you- sorry to hear the news, but glad you're taking care of yourself. emoticon

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CRYSBROWN1 11/21/2012 10:07AM

    I am glad that you are doing okay. It does seem as though you have a solid plan with your physicians to assist with this process and I truly hope for the best for you. Glad to hear that you hubby has been so supportive.

Enjoy your Thanksgiving, sounds like you have quite a crowd coming over.

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SPARKNMOM 11/20/2012 11:15PM

    Glad to hear you've had so much great support. Hugs to you...

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KENSINGTONC 11/20/2012 11:08AM

    Susan, what a great attitude! Thanks for the update. Thinking of you. xoxo Liz

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AUGIEM1 11/15/2012 10:26PM

  First of all sorry for your loss. It is never an easy thing to go through. I am happy you found the support you needed here and within your own family with your husband. Taking on a dog can be a wonderful and rewarding experience as long as you are prepared for all that they bring - in fact it is like having a child. But the bond and love you get in return is worth it, at least to me! I too have had some minor complications with having a baby. My husband and I have been trying for almost a year now and no luck. I started bleeding for several weeks on and off. I too thought maybe I was pregnant and spotting...considering I was late and I'm never late. But after taking a pregnancy test at home and through the dr's office and having both of them come back negative I realized I wasn't. So, I decided to go to my gyno. He had me take and internal and external altrosound. They found out I have cyst growing on both of my ovaries. I was actually causing some of the problem from over doing my workouts and putting stress on myself, etc. So, my gyno felt that I didn't need to have surgery at this time to remove them considering my husband and I are trying to concieve and they do not risk me from carring full term. So, were back to the drawing board. However, since all this now I am having a hard time with caculating what I thought was my normal fertile time because of now having irregular periods. But, right now my focus has been on losing some weight since I know this too will help once I do concieve. Well, I do hope you have a successful thanksgiving dinner with your family. And my thoughts and prayers continue to go out to your during this trying time as well.

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BOOTS1221 11/14/2012 5:55PM

    So glad you're feeling ok Susan! You are so strong and I'm glad to hear things are getting better. Thank YOU for feeling like you can open up to us.. we are always here for you!!
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SEEHOLZ 11/14/2012 6:15AM

    Your hubby was there for you- that's the #1 important thing! I'm so glad you have someone that special to count on in your life!!!!
Happy Thanksgiving to you-LOL- sounds like you got your work cut out for you-- but I know it'll be worth it--- I personally can't wait for the 4 day week-end.

I am so glad that you are okay and are focused on all the positive stuff in your life- YES!


Love ya!!!

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MEADSBAY 11/13/2012 2:58PM

    Glad you're feeling ok.
Take care.
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MEGSFITNESS 11/13/2012 2:06PM

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glad to hear that you're doing okay, Sus.

The puppy idea is a good one, but allergies definitely complicate it emoticon Jeff was allergic to cats, but we stayed at my mom's house for a week (who had 5 cats at the time), and how he's fine around cats, lol. Maybe you could build up an immunity?

Hugs to you! *hugs*

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FITGIRL15 11/13/2012 1:08PM

    Thanks for the update, Susan!!! I'm glad you are bouncing back as best that you can! And I'm sure if you reached out to people in "real life" they would be just as supportive as your cyber friends here! XOXO

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FITBECKSRN24 11/13/2012 11:20AM

    glad to hear you're feeling better....it'll happen when the timings right =)

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MBSHAZZER 11/13/2012 9:44AM

    Susan, glad you are feeling better!

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CHANGINGSAM 11/13/2012 9:38AM

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MRS.NG.06 11/13/2012 8:58AM

    *HUGS* here for you always!

Have they checked to see if you are anemic by any chance? My mom was but didn't know it and she went through 5 miscarries before she conceived me. But I am sure the doctors have gone through every test...you have been in my thoughts lately and I hope for good things for you often ! xoxox

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PAPER_WINGS18 11/12/2012 11:31PM

    emoticon , glad to hear an update from you, friend. Hang in there. You are a strong, strong lady. It will all work out how it is meant to, and you guys will get just what you want- I just know it. :) You will make such a great, great mama when the time is right. Just try & stay positive(as hard as it may be), and hang in there. xoxo

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HOPERY 11/12/2012 11:26PM

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TATYPREZ 11/12/2012 7:41PM

    Thinking of you! I know many people who had to try many times, but in the end they were always blessed with a healthy beautiful baby. You're going to be a great mom regardless of when it happens.

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FITFOODIE806 11/12/2012 6:32PM

    Ill continue to think about you and hope you're pregnant before the January date. So glad you have a supportive husband!

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 11/12/2012 6:03PM

    I'm so glad you're holding up okay and that you've been able to lean on Sparkers for support! Our bodies are such mysteries.

Good luck with your Thanksgiving dinner. 18 people is quite the undertaking! I can't believe it's going to be Thanksgiving already, this year really flew by.

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ALLISON145 11/12/2012 6:01PM

    Glad you're doing OK!

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IAMZBEE 11/12/2012 6:00PM

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DOLPHINSINGER72 11/12/2012 5:59PM

    *hugs from me to you*

Wow 18 people, that will be busy.

Exercise does help making things better.

I am so sorry about your miscarriage. I am glad you are trying again.

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FRIZGIRL 11/12/2012 5:58PM

    Hi hun, so glad you are doing well. And I am really glad that your OB checked out other things. I have a friend who had progesterone in the early parts of her pregnancy, and it was the only time(s) she didn't miscarry. She has two sweet little boys now. xoxoxoxo

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KNYAGENYA 11/12/2012 5:54PM

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Everything happening all at once..

Monday, October 29, 2012

I had another miscarriage. In the middle of a hurricane. And it somehow triggered some kind of neurological thing that made my lip swell up. I was in the ER for 9 hours today. At least school was canceled due to the weather.. Today just sucks.

  
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KENSINGTONC 11/8/2012 8:18AM

    Oh Susan, I am so very sorry to hear this. I will be thinking of you all day today, and please keep us updated. Sending lots of hugs your way, xoxo, Liz

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ELFITZPA 11/2/2012 8:34PM

    I'm so sorry. You guys are in my thoughts.

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MRS.NG.06 11/1/2012 4:03PM

    I was hoping this wasn't the news when I saw the notification..I am so sorry Susan. Please do not give up...*HUGS*

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ALEXTRIFYING 11/1/2012 1:35PM

    i am so very sorry ... my prayers and thoughts are with you right now. emoticon

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PHD140 10/31/2012 10:23PM

    I don't even know what to say or where to begin. So sorry for your loss!

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YAYPRIL 10/31/2012 8:53PM

    Susan, I'm so sorry. You and your husband are in my thoughts.

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IAMZBEE 10/31/2012 11:05AM

    I'm so very sorry. emoticon

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PRAIRIEDAWNPAM 10/30/2012 4:00PM

    emoticon My sister just suffered her second. I had one many years ago, but I'll never forget. Misery does love company so feel free to share, Susan.

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NINJALINDA 10/30/2012 12:34PM

    Wish I had more to say than emoticon emoticon Thinking of you...

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CHANGINGSAM 10/30/2012 11:48AM

    I'm so sorry, Susan. I'm thinking of you today, and I'm sending lots of hugs your way. Hang in there, my friend! emoticon

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CRYSBROWN1 10/30/2012 9:38AM

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I am so sorry to hear this news.
Take Care

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BEWELL48 10/29/2012 9:38PM

    My heart goes out to you. What an emotional roller coaster! This too shall pass but for now be gentle with yourself, get some rest, don't shut your husband out; tomorrow is a new day with new dreams and possibilities.

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FITFOODIE806 10/29/2012 8:35PM

    I am so so sorry. I wish there were better words.

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FITGIRL15 10/29/2012 6:26PM

    Susan... When things in your life seem to be falling apart, keep your head up because the universe is putting together something better for you!!!

I can't even begin to understand the hurt and frustration you must be feeling... but I do know that things WILL get better for you... In time! Be patient!

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You and Jess have a very supportive family, you will get through this!


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ALLISON145 10/29/2012 6:02PM

    I'm so sorry honey. Keep your chin up - it WILL happen for you.

Hugs!
Allison

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WUMPASTAR 10/29/2012 5:59PM

    There are no words... just know I'm really sorry.

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BOOTS1221 10/29/2012 5:37PM

    Oh Susan, I'm so sorry... I'm sending you the biggest hugs and love. Take care.. we are always here for you.

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SILLIANGEL 10/29/2012 5:08PM

    Sending you hugs Susan. Stay safe.

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MEGSFITNESS 10/29/2012 4:57PM

    *hugs* Oh sweetheart :( there just aren't any words. You're still in my thoughts, though.

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FRIZGIRL 10/29/2012 4:44PM

    Oh, I am so so sorry. I hope you an have the hubby home to love and care for you. I hope you are healing up (inside and outside)' and that you get tomorrow off school too so you don't have to go anywhere.

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SEEHOLZ 10/29/2012 4:02PM

    Oh Susan - my heart goes out to you!!!! Sigh....
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SWEATONCEADAY 10/29/2012 4:02PM

    so sorry susan.

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COWBOYMAMA 10/29/2012 3:56PM

    So sorry to hear this. Praying you will be able to get pregnant again soon and keep this one. HUGS.


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STEFANIE822 10/29/2012 3:49PM

    So sorry to hear this. I know it probably feels like the world is against you right now, but please try to keep your head up. You will make an amazing mother to a beautiful child one day! I have a friend that had multiple miscarriages before she had her first baby, and now she is a mommy to 3 beautiful kids, so dont give up!! I hope you are getting some rest now and relaxing. Thinking of you and sending you lots of love!!!

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MBSHAZZER 10/29/2012 2:52PM

    Susan, I am so sorry to hear about this... when it rains it pours, doesn't it.

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DAMIENDUCKS 10/29/2012 2:39PM

    I am so sorry. I don't have any frame of reference for what you're going through, but that all really sucks. I hope it all turns around asap...sending good vibes your direction.

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PAPER_WINGS18 10/29/2012 2:21PM

    I am so, so, so sorry, Susan. Please hang in there, stay strong(and safe), and know that it will all work out for you when the time is right. Lots of love being sent your way.

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HOPERY 10/29/2012 2:13PM

    Aw Susan! Prayers and hugs!

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ARUNNINGKAT 10/29/2012 2:07PM

    I am so, so sorry! It just hurts to core of your very being. Lots of hugs sent your way. Stay safe! emoticon

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LALMEIDA 10/29/2012 1:52PM

  I am so sorry. I have had 3 miscarriages so I can relate to what you are going through. emoticon

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 10/29/2012 1:47PM

    Oh no! I am so sorry. I'm so sad for you and tearing up. Stay strong and keep safe in the hurricane. I'll be thinking of you. Big emoticon

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