Thursday, December 27, 2012
Man, was I looking forward to having a week and a half off. I'd been feeling really run down and wanted a chance to relax and refresh. But then I realized I wasn't just tired from working too much - I was actually sick. Long story short, I have shingles. Shingles! WTF! I have very itchy spots on my abdomen and back, and I'm kind of exhausted. Oh, and I think I have PMS too.
On top of that, my weight is the highest it's ever been and I so desperately want to do something about it but I feel like I have no energy to even come up with a plan. And I just turned 35, so I'm now officially old when it comes to getting pregnant. (Our attempts at conceiving have been put on hold until after we've seen a specialist, which we're doing in early Jan.) I kind of cry whenever I hear about other people's babies or pregnancies, which is all the freaking time. I think I'm depressed.
I'm hoping I'll have something more cheerful to write about soon. Just so this post isn't totally negative, here's a picture of "my" dog (actually my parents') on his 11th birthday the other week:
Sunday, December 02, 2012
I am very happy to belong to a gym that is within walking distance of home again!
On Monday night I took a class called "Boot Camp." I was running a little late from work (crazzzzzzy week at work) and barely made it in time, so I didn't really have my pick of dumbbell weights. I think the weights I was using were a little too light for the most part. I liked the class overall, though not as much as Body Pump - it seemed way easier.
On Tuesday night I took a class called "Zumba 'N Sculpt" which was a half hour of Zumba and then a half hour of strength training. This class seemed too easy for me! I was sort of adding a few extra hops and things to my dance moves to try to get my heart rate up a little. It was probably the first time I had a fitness instructor who seemed to be less fit than me. The strength training was light, but that was OK because I'd done three days in a row of classes that had a strength component.
I haven't taken any classes since Tuesday, but I've been using the machines. I really enjoy the strength training machines at my Y - they're really new, and they rock back and forth as you use them - took a little getting used to, but they're fun, and they even have cup holders! I also love that each cardio machine has its own TV - makes the time fly by. There's one machine that is unlike anything I've seen before - sort of mimics roller blading - I enjoy it.
I really like how much people take care of the equipment at the Y. Things are always in the right place, and people clean off all the machines after they use them. This is a very pleasant change from my last gym, Work Out World.
Also, since this is a city gym I'm often the minory as a white person there. That's fine, just something I'm not used to. In my Zumba 'N Sculpt class, for example, there was only one other white person in the whole class, and she was sort of crazy (you know the type - the one who hoots and hollers out of excitement throughout the class! Haha.)
My complaints about the Y so far are very minor - one is that everyone seems to ignore the sign on the locker room door that says that the locker room is for 18+ only and families should use the family changing room or the youth locker rooms. I don't really care if there are kids in the locker room, but it's a little annoying that there are signs all over the place that it's not allowed and people ignore them. My other complaint isn't really even a complaint but more of a fear - this Y is really small and so far there hasn't been a problem, but I'm worried about it being overcrowded in January when the New Years Resolutioners come out. But then again I guess that would be a problem even in a bigger gym. At least at the Y there are so many options for things to do that if something is taken or a class is full, I can just do something else instead.
Anyway, overall I am very happy with the Y so far! Best part is, my hubby is paying our couples membership (which, at $51/month and no joining fee) really isn't bad! (He wants us to switch to a family cell phone plan and for me to pay that in exchange, but that hasn't happened yet.)
Happy December everyone!
Sunday, November 25, 2012
So...Thanksgiving was exhausting, but it was a success! To prepare, I spent a whole day cleaning my kitchen, and another whole day and a half cooking. We ended up having 15 people - mostly from my husband's mother's side of the family, which is huge. My parents and one of my brothers came (my other brother is on the other side of the country, in CA, and had Thanksgiving with his in-laws). My parents and brother were the last to arrive, even though my mom was the one bringing the turkey! My family has very little respect for timeliness (except that when I'M late, my mother gets very upset with me!). Anyway, I'd made an "extra" turkey, because my mom was bringing a 14-pounder, and I thought we might need more (at the time I thought we were having 16 people), so I'd bought a 5-pounder. I'd never cooked a turkey before, and I think it came out fine (not as good as my mom's...but nobody ended up eating my mom's because my parents were so late! ugh! except my mom...who's so picky she won't eat anyone else's turkey...double ugh). We had TONS of leftovers, and after everyone else left my parents and brother stayed and helped us clean up - we put everything in tupperware in the fridge except the leftover turkey (including the bones!), the leftover gravy, the carrot and celery sticks (chopped), and some spices, which we put in the crockpot to make leftover turkey soup! It came out delicious. Jess and I have been eating nothing but leftovers all weekend and we're finally making a dent. Today I reorganized what's left of the leftovers into single-serving containers, so it will be easier to take to work, and I froze some of it.
Also, Jess and I joined the Y about a week ago. It's walking distance from our house and totally renovated. In some ways it has a lot more than the kinds of gyms I'm used to, like a pool (which I have yet to use) and a real gymnasium, but in other ways it has less than I'm used to, like it has no calf machine, no chest fly machine, and the cables are situated in a way that you can't use them for some of the moves I sometimes do. Most of the cardio machines have their own TVs, and I've never belonged to a gym that had that before (though not all of the TVs seem to have closed captioning, which I prefer because I still like to listen to my music while I do cardio even when I'm watching TV too). There are a bunch of classes, of course, but the only one I have taken is Kettlebell Training. I took it once a while ago when I was trying out the Y, and today I took it for a 2nd time - and Jess came with me! Jess has hardly ever taken any classes, so it was a rare treat to have him with me today. The class was tough, and he was red, sweaty, and drinking all my water! (He never brings a water bottle to the gym with him.) He kept saying he wasn't feeling that well, and that he was really out of shape. The class was only barely a half hour, and I would have been fine with going and doing some cardio afterwards, but he need to go home and lie (lay?) down! (I just asked him which way is grammatically correct - "he needed to lay down" or "he needed to lie down" - and he said, "Are you talking about me? I'm not telling." Hahaha.) He explained to me that it wasn't so much that his muscles were tired, it was more that he was cardiovascularly tired. He never does more cardio than just taking it easy on a recumbant bike, and I realized he probably never gets his heart rate up more than 100 beats per minute or so, if that even. So this class was a shock to his system. It was tough for me too, but I'm used to more endurance and cardio work than he is, even though he's a lot stronger and leaner than I am. He said he'd try it again, but with lighter kettlebells! We really weren't given any guidance on what weight to pick, and of course you'd think you'd be using lighter weights for shoulders than for squats, but no, not in this class. The toughest stuff, though, didn't really involve the kettlebells at all - tons of pushups (with one hand on a kettlebell) and those horrible burpees - stupid name, stupid exercise. Haha. You know I'm only saying that because they were so hard.
Anyway, later in the day we ended up going back "downtown" to watch the annual Christmas tree lighting ceremony. It was kinda cheesy but would be really fun for the kids, if we had any. There was a petting zoo, dancers, a few rides for kids, face painting, etc. The only thing that bugged me (besides the cold) was that this was a public event that was completely Christmas-oriented. I'm basically a non-practicing Jew, but I was raised Jewish and wished they'd at least make mention of the fact that not every resident celebrates Christmas (although I sort of do, since my husband does), and that they'd left out the line about how God has always been a part of our churches and schools - isn't separation of church and state a legal thing? Anyway, I'm of the attitude of "if you can't beat 'em, join 'em" as far as all the Christmas craziness goes, and it's been a lot of fun to celebrate with my husband's family in the past, but still...I don't think a city-sponsored event should be tied in with something that recognizes only one religion.
Didn't mean to rant about that! Oh well. Back to work tomorrow - it's going to be a crazy week at school! Oh, and tomorrow night I have to decide whether to work out on my own, take Boot Camp, Group Cycling (never really enjoyed spinning much due to the seats being uncomfortable), or Zumba Toning! Oh, and my husband really wants me to somehow squeeze in a phone call to a fertility doctor. He saw his doctor a few days ago and described our situation with the miscarraiges and his doctor said that he thinks we should be doing something more than just trying what we've been trying again. (Though my ob-gyn said we should do exactly that - just keep trying. Hrm.)
Monday, November 12, 2012
It's been two weeks since my second miscarriage, and today I had a follow-up appontment with the ob-gyn. It was pretty uneventful, but some sweet Sparkies have been asking me how I'm doing so I figured I'd share. Plus, if I write it down, I'll remember it.
Basically, I had my HCG and TSH (thyroid) tested again - my TSH was borderline before so maybe going on medication would help me to not miscarry. And in January or February I'm supposed to have an X-ray taken of my uterus (if I'm not pregnant then) so they can look at the shape of it. That was basically it. Oh, and when I get pregnant again I can have my progesterone level checked - apparently there's a controversial treatment of giving pregnant women progesterone - controversial because it doesn't seem to actually help anyone, but it doesn't hurt either.
After the appointment I went for a jog, since the office is near my favorite place in the city to run. I hadn't been there in a while and it felt wonderful. Emotionally, I'm okay. I went through a few days of lots of bad feelings, but my job is so busy and my hubby is so sweet that I couldn't stay in a funk for long. I'm working out again (I was working out all along, but started to take it REALLY easy when I was pregnant) so that helps. And we keep tossing around the idea of getting a puppy...but I'm allergic...but I really want one anyway. Not sure what to do about that! Oh, and we're hosting Thanksgiving dinner for the first time, for 18 people. So we're too busy to sit around moping!
Thank you so much everyone who gave me any words of support/sympathy/encouragement over the past few weeks, and especially for those who shared their own similar struggles (hugs to you). When I was at my most unhappy moments, seeing a friendly note from a Sparker really did make my day. And since I told almost nobody in "real life," having this semi-anonymous place to get support made even more of a difference. Thank you, friends!
Monday, October 29, 2012
I had another miscarriage. In the middle of a hurricane. And it somehow triggered some kind of neurological thing that made my lip swell up. I was in the ER for 9 hours today. At least school was canceled due to the weather.. Today just sucks.
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