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Drama at Seven Weeks

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Yesterday afternoon I had spotting and it was too late to go to my obgyn's office, so the nurse advised me to go to the ER. After hours and hours of waiting around at the ER and a few tests, I found out that I have a gestational sac but they couldn't see a fetal pole. They tested my hcg and told me to call my doctor's office today. I did call today, and was told to go in on Monday to see if my hcg levels have doubled, and I'll need another ultrasound in a few weeks. I had more spotting this morning. I'm kind of nervous, but I know spotting is common, and I know there's nothing I can do about it. My husband is telling me to keep my mind off of things, so we went for a walk and did some yardwork, and we'll go to the gym in a bit.

  
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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 10/29/2012 11:25AM

    I hope everything goes well (or went well) today at your appointment. I'll keep you in my thoughts. emoticon

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COWBOYMAMA 10/29/2012 8:35AM

    Praying that everything is okay. Hang in there, miracles happen every day.


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FITGIRL15 10/28/2012 11:08PM

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I am sending you positive vibes, Susan!!!
XOXOX

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MEGSFITNESS 10/28/2012 11:07PM

    Hugs and positive vibes for you!

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PAPER_WINGS18 10/28/2012 4:44PM

    Big hugs Susan. I'm sure everything will work out just fine- try and stay positive and don't worry! Please keep us posted. Xoxoxo

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SEEHOLZ 10/28/2012 12:58PM

    HUGS, HUGS and more HUGS! I am sure you just can't get your mind of off it and it must be extremely agonizing to have to wait---- I guess, trying to stay calm and relaxed is all you can do. More HUGS!

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STEFANIE822 10/27/2012 9:01PM

    Thinking of you love!!! I know its so hard not to worry, but it is very early so it would be easy to miss a fetal pole, especially in the ER. Let us know how things go on Monday!

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MBSHAZZER 10/27/2012 7:06PM

    Oh, Susan, this must be so stressful to have this happen over a weekend. You can't do anything about it, so worrying isn't going to change things. Don't forget to breathe and relax.

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ALLISON145 10/27/2012 5:58PM

    It's so early that it would be easy for someone to miss the fetal pole on an ultrasound... Particularly if it's not the tech's specialty. I had spotting with both of my kids - cramping too. Sending positive vibes and prayers your way!

Allison

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SILLIANGEL 10/27/2012 4:33PM

    It's hard not to worry, but you're right, it's normal.

Hugs Susan, keep us posted :)

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MEADSBAY 10/27/2012 3:42PM

    So sorry.
Hope things go well in the next few days.
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FRIZGIRL 10/27/2012 3:16PM

    Oh hi sweetie, I am so sorry, that is so scary and not what you want to happen. I had a similar thing with Corban (always happens on a Friday night right?) and was told to sit tight and not worry (like you can stop yourself!) only they tested my HCG levels and they weren't multiplying the way they should. Then Monday they pulled me in for an early ultrasound and I saw the heartbeat for the first time. What a little miracle! I'm surprised they didn't have you go in tomorrow to take more blood. My thoughts and TONS and TONS of prayers are with you. xoxoxxo

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FITBECKSRN24 10/27/2012 1:26PM

    praying for you guys xoxo

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First Trimester Class

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

We did the first official thing of the pregnancy today - we went to a first trimester class at my ob-gyn's office! The class was kind of useful - I found out a handful of things were okay that I had thought were banned, like using products with salyclic acid, doing ab work, flaxseed, and Claritin. I think I will take a conservative approach though and not use things if I don't have to. I was actually able to give up virtually all caffeine without a problem! It helped that I started to cut back when I first started trying, so by the time I got pregnant this time I was already almost not addicted. Anyway, the class was okay - there was just one other couple there, so we got a lot of individual attention.

Unfortunately, after the class we found that both of our cars - Jess's and mine - had been towed! Street cleaning! There was a sign, but I hadn't read it in my rush to get to the class on time. We had to make a bunch of phone calls, take a bus, and walk on foot, and pay huge $$$ to get our cars back, and we both got tickets. It was my fault - I was the one who insisted on parking there instead of the building's garage, and then told Jess to hurry up right after we parked - so I paid. I felt awful. I also missed an extra hour of school beyond what I'd planned to miss.

Oh well, what's in the past is in the past, right?

EDIT: Since so many people are asking about flaxseed, I'm adding what I had learned (or thought I had learned) from the internet - apparently flax, like soy, messes with your hormones and I read that it isn't recommended in pregnancy. However, in my class today, the nurse told me that a) a tablespoon of flax in my smoothie is fine, and b) not to look up every little pregnancy-related item on the internet. Oops, too late.

  
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SEEHOLZ 10/25/2012 9:04PM

    Holy cow about being towed! What a nightmare and that having to take the blame on top of it--- totally something I could see myself doing. Good think you are pregnant- because one thing that is definitely banned, getting the expecting mother upset-lol.

Anyways, I hope after you absorb the financial shock, you can actually kind of laugh about it.

Also, I never completely cut caffeine out- I just limited it a lot. I think it's awesome that you were able to wean yourself off so easily :-)

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FRIZGIRL 10/25/2012 3:17PM

    Oh that sucks about the towing! And glad about the flax seed. I had it all through pregnancy number one and the start of this one without even thinking about it! I also found out at about 8 months that one of my favorite hard, aged cheeses at a local shop is unpasteurized... Oops! Guess it's not too bad if you eat it all the time though because your body is already adjusted to that particular bacteria.

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MEADSBAY 10/24/2012 4:25PM

    Well, my dear, chalk that one up to the first of
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COWBOYMAMA 10/24/2012 3:51PM

    Those are good things to know. Sorry about the towing, that would stink! Guess you learned your lesson that time. I hadn't heard anything about flax, what is the deal with it?

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DANIE11ECINCY 10/24/2012 1:25PM

    Yeah, what is the flaxseed thing about? Hadn't heard of that one being a no-no?!?

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 10/24/2012 1:05PM

    Oh no! I can't believe that BOTH of your cars got towed! Sounds like a nightmare! But at least it's all over now and you're can only go up from here! :)

I think the conservative approach sounds like a good idea.

Do you think you'll be doing bump pics along the way? I love bump pics. :)

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PAPER_WINGS18 10/24/2012 12:56PM

    Sounds like an informative class! More fun to come :) :) :)

Sorry about the towing... That's frustrating but cant change it now, right?!

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MBSHAZZER 10/24/2012 12:55PM

    What's wrong with flax seeds???

Sorry about the cars....

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CHANGINGSAM 10/24/2012 12:41PM

    Glad the class went well!

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My BIG News

Monday, October 22, 2012

Drumroll please....

I'm pregnant!!



Okay, so many apologies about this picture:
1) It's blurry.
2) Please ignore gross wet paper towel in background.
3) There really is vertical line there, I promise you. The directions on the test said it didn't matter how faint the line was - if it was there at all, it was a positive test!

I found out just over a week ago and have been dying to share the news ever since. So far only my parents know, and a few Sparkers who noticed my suggestive status updates. Not even my in-laws know yet! Jess, my baby daddy (haha), didn't want me to share the news yet, especially since when I was pregnant back in April we told my parents, his parents, and I shared the news with SP, and then I miscarried hours later. I started off terrified that something similar would happen this time, but now I'm 44 days along and feeling more confident. Plus, I read something online that calmed me down: Miscarriages are common (enter some statistic here). There's nothing you can do about it, and if you have one, you just try again. I don't know why, but that concept calms me down.

Anyway...I'm 6 weeks and 2 days today, and according to the internet I'm due somewhere between June 15-19. I have a first trimester educational class at my doctor's office this Wed., an appointment with a nurse about a week later, and my first ultrasound in about a month. Also, since I have a blood clotting condition, I have an appointment with the hematologist to learn how to give myself anticoagulant injections - FUN. Ugh.

My symptoms have been very mild to this point, for the most part I'm feeling really good. The less fun stuff - major mood swings, feeling bloated and a little achy, being tired, and slight nausea, do come and go, but they haven't been bad (yet?).

So...if you're my friend on FB of course I know you won't say anything about it there... but I'm so relieved to be able to have an outlet to blurt out my happy news SOMEWHERE! (here!)

  
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MRS.NG.06 10/26/2012 5:43PM

    CONGRATULATIONS!! I was secretly hoping this was the news we were going to hear..I am SOOOOOOO excited for you : ) xooxox *HUGS* I cant wait to hear about the journey!

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MEGSFITNESS 10/26/2012 12:27PM

    Awe, sweet news :) Best of luck with everything!

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MOXIE-IN-MOTION 10/24/2012 8:28PM

    Oh. My. Gosh! This is FABULOUS news! I am so excited for you.....yipeeee! Congrats!

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ELFITZPA 10/24/2012 5:35PM

    A HUGE congrats to you both!!!! This is such exciting news!

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YAYPRIL 10/24/2012 1:41PM

    This is wonderful news, Susan, and I am SO happy for you!

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STEFANIE822 10/23/2012 9:00PM

    I have been waiting for this blog for about a week now!!!! So excited for you love! Cant wait to follow you along during the pregnancy! Hope you share some fun stuff with us!! emoticon

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KENSINGTONC 10/23/2012 8:49PM

    Susan I am so excited for you!! PLEASE keep us updated during your journey!!! xo Liz

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BOOTS1221 10/23/2012 6:32PM

    YAYYYY!!! I kinda suspected from your statuses and I was keeping my fingers crossed! I am so happy for you and Jess! Please keep us posted on everything and make sure to take some bump pics when you start showing!!! xoxox

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SEEHOLZ 10/23/2012 5:19PM

    Thank you for letting us know - even if not "officially" - as your Sparkfriend, that means a lot- I loved the post with the 3 smiley faces--- and just so you know- I did say a prayer for you guys that day :-)

Really, really happy for you Susan! (And the Baby Daddy of course)

Based on the status on Sharon's blog, your sense of humor has definitely NOT left you-- that comment about running naked in Miami cracked me up!

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CARILOUIE 10/23/2012 5:13PM

    Yahooo!!!!!

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RUNNINGOLLIE 10/23/2012 5:00PM

    Congrats!!!!!

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FITBECKSRN24 10/23/2012 4:31PM

    YEAH!!! awesome news!!! I had a md tell me that miscarriages happen because somewhere along the lines of all the "creating" something goes wrong and so its the body's way of terminating the pregnancy because something didnt form/fuse, whatever! lol, right.


we only want happy healthy babies =) keep us posted!!! cant wait to follow you! xoxo



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MEGSMILEY 10/23/2012 1:56PM

    Awesome news! emoticon emoticon

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DANIE11ECINCY 10/23/2012 1:53PM

    so exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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JESSICAPAGE 10/23/2012 1:48PM

    Congratulations!!!! 8-)

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VERONICAVW_140 10/23/2012 1:33PM

    Congrats!!!! So excited for you! :)

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WAVEDANCER7 10/23/2012 1:23PM

    WOOHOO! How exciting! Congrats!

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SWEATONCEADAY 10/23/2012 1:11PM

    congrats susan!

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MILLER*TIME 10/23/2012 1:00PM

    AWWWWWWW HUGE CONGRATS!!
Here's to a healthy and happy pregnancy!!

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CRYSBROWN1 10/23/2012 11:56AM

    CONGRATULATIONS!! I knew when I saw the blog title that this would be the news! I am so excited for you!

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PHD140 10/23/2012 11:45AM

    congrats!!!!

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ARUNNINGKAT 10/23/2012 11:39AM

    Congratulations! I kind'a suspected from your status updates - so happy for you!

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-DYET- 10/23/2012 11:28AM

    CONGRATS!!!!

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IAMZBEE 10/23/2012 11:13AM

    CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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MBSHAZZER 10/23/2012 10:53AM

    Congratulations! And you timed it perfectly for the school year, too! :D

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DAMIENDUCKS 10/23/2012 10:04AM

    Aw, that's awesome! Congrats!

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CHANGINGSAM 10/23/2012 9:41AM

    Aww yay! I'm so happy for you and your hubby! Congrats! emoticon

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COWBOYMAMA 10/23/2012 7:58AM

    Crossing my fingers and sending healthy baby dust your way. Congrats!!!

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PURPLEVALENTINE 10/23/2012 6:53AM

    Congrats!!!

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 10/23/2012 12:20AM

    Congrats!!! So exciting!

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PAPER_WINGS18 10/22/2012 9:16PM

    :) :) :) so happy for you and Jess!!!!:) you are going to be an amazing mama!! Can't wait for more updates!

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SILLIANGEL 10/22/2012 9:14PM

    Oh congrats Susan!!! Yippeeeee!

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MEADSBAY 10/22/2012 9:10PM

    Woooooo-hooooooo!!!
I am SO happy for you!
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My DIL had two very successful pregnancies right after miscarrying twins (it was early).
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FITFOODIE806 10/22/2012 8:55PM

    Yeah!!! Congrats!!

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    emoticon Congratulations!!! Sooo exciting!

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STRONGMOMMA2014 10/22/2012 8:47PM

    CONGRATS!!!

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FRIZGIRL 10/22/2012 8:47PM

    Yay!!! I am so happy for you and can't wait to hear all the updates!

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WUMPASTAR 10/22/2012 8:28PM

    OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! I'm so happy for you :D :D :D

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First blog post in over a month

Monday, October 08, 2012

First, thank you so much to those who have been checking in on me...some of you multiple times. It's not like me to be as absent from Spark, and some of my favorite Sparkers noticed. That's so sweet.

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Now here's where the writer's block comes in. I don't want to write about my current state of affairs. I feel like I'm living in maintanence kind of, except that I weigh 20+ pounds more than a healthy weight. What I mean is, I'm eating mostly normal portions of usually healthy food without thinking too much about it, and I'm exercising probably 3-5 times per week without too much fuss - strength training and jogging, mostly. I've been feeling good. But, like I said, I weigh too much. A lot too much.

I'd like to lose weight. I went to an ob-gyn about my inability to get pregnant (or remain pregnant, I guess - I had one miscarriage for sure at 5 weeks and may have had another at just under 5 weeks, not sure because my hormone levels were so low), and he said that losing weight might help me with my fertility. I didn't want to have to go out and buy new size 12 pants for work. My complexion is not happy these days either. And my jogging is slower and even a long walk starts to make my lower body achy these days. All due to my weight. So I'm in a state of indecision. I know what I have to do to lose weight, but I know that the process makes me hungry and to not feel good a lot of the time, and that I always gain in back in the end, so it's so hard to motivate myself to get started with it again. And I've written all this stuff before which is why I didn't really feel like coming back and writing it all over again..except that I felt like I owed everyone an update.

By the way, the ob-gyn said he thinks Jess and I will have luck on our own, and to keep trying for a few more months. If I'm not pregnant by my 35th birthday, in December, he'll start me on clomid and if that doesn't work within two months he'll refer me to a specialist.

One other thing - I am switching gyms. The gym I'm leaving is cheap, and you get what you pay for. There are constantly cardio machines that are out of order and they don't have my favorite kind of elliptical, the weights are always strewn all over, the class schedule just keeps getting worse and the studio was out of commission for the past few months without ANY classes, the A/C didn't really function over the summer, and the final straw was when I went to another location of theirs a few weeks ago and was told that I could no longer visit that location. So I have 60 days left with this gym - I'm canceling just after a payment was made so I need to go through two more payment cycles, and Jess and I are joining a gym closer to home - a 5 minute drive (or 1.2ish mile walk) vs. 15 minute drive (if there's no traffic) and about 5 miles to the old gym. The "new" gym is actually in a dumpier building, but we tried it out a few weekends ago (for free!) and they have all the machines I like and told us that sometimes it's TOO cold there in the summer (a good thing - once you start exercising!). It's slightly more expensive for both of us in total since my current gym allows me to bring a guest so Jess never got his own membership, but actually cheaper per person since there is no annual fee. There is no Body Pump but I haven't gone to a Body Pump class in months anyway - there are other classes that are probably similar, but I've been just working out on my own lately. They charge $5 extra per Zumba class which I don't like, but I just won't go to those classes. The most important thing is that Jess can go to the gym more often - without having his own membership to the old gym, and with it being a little out of the way for him, he was only going once or twice a week - Saturday and Sunday - if even that (sometimes our weekends have been busy), and he really wants to work out more. He might even go to the new gym in the mornings before work, since he doesn't have to be at work until 9 (and I have to be at work at 7:45 and usually go the gym in the afternoon while he's still at work).

  
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FRIZGIRL 10/22/2012 8:33AM

    Hey hun, so I can say for sure that your doctor is full of crap. Most women who are in the upper range of healthy weight or slightly above get pregnant MORE easily than those in the bottom of their range or way above. But even then,a lot of the ability to get pregnant is genetic, hormonal, or just plain luck... 20% of women have trouble conceiving (more than 9 months of trying), and 25% of women have miscarraiges. It certainly doesn't make you feel any better when you are in one of those percentages, but 20 lbs at your height is really nothing that would hurt your chances or increase a chance of a miscarraige. And I agree with Allison that the stress of trying to lose weight/get pregnant/losing a baby/etc is not helping things. Especially if you miscarried twice, because even though you aren't pregnant after, it takes 1-2 months for your hormones to go back to normal and often get pregnant again, so if you did have 2, then you most likely lost 3-6 months of "fertile" hormones in your body. Has your OB checked your hormone levels and made sure that everything else is in order? I am so sorry for your loss and my heart totally goes out to you for everything you are going through. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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GYPSYGOTH 10/17/2012 7:58PM

    great mews, and welcome back :) - i wish i could afford a nice gym like BSC but now that my company is not subsidizing it i can't afford the $90/month they wanted for me to have work as my home gym but also be able to use the one near home. ridiculous. so i've just been doing yoga on groupons and other specials, and lately attempting to jog. good for you for staying so active. if you want to lose, have you read/tried volumetrrics? don't be hungry. eat. just eat lots of high-water stuff ;)
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MOXIE-IN-MOTION 10/14/2012 9:46PM

    Definitely a good choice! Sometimes you gotta pay a little more for better service. And the better service will make you happier! And maybe being happier will help other things move along!
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REBECCAMA 10/13/2012 8:20PM

  I think you are making a good choice. Good luck!

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 10/12/2012 5:26PM

    Well, you know I'm in the same boat...and I agree with the others that I don't think 20 pounds would really impact your fertility. It's such a crapshoot! I'll be sending positive vibes your way!!! I hope we'll both have some positive news to report sooner rather than later!

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MBSHAZZER 10/9/2012 1:07PM

    Thanks for checking in! I was worried about you! :D

Your new gym sounds like a great set up - enjoy it!

I also agree with the others... 20-ish pounds overweight is not enough to impact fertility. If it was, we'd have a population crisis in this country! Also, a "normal" weight range for any given height can vary by as much as 20 pounds. So, I don't buy that. Not only that, if you are actually hungry all the time, that is an indication to FEED your body and if you're providing basic sustenance to your body, how can you get pregnant?? It's worried about other things.

Just keep trying! :D

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FITGIRL15 10/8/2012 11:58PM

    Susan, we missed you! I'm glad you are still here, just busy with life :)

I have nothing to offer you on the conception issue... but I tend to disagree that being 20 pounds heavier then your ideal weight is the cause. Many heavy women get pregnant... it's not uncommon! I do agree with your hormones being possibly out of wack... diet can cause huge hormone imbalances! I love the advice you got to try going on the low carb/ hight fat diet! You will NEVER feel hungry while on it, and you'll likely see amazing weight loss results! I hope you find something that works for you, longterm!!!

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SEEHOLZ 10/8/2012 6:30PM

    I am not an expert, but I do agree with Allison145- I really don't believe that your weight is affecting your fertility- my SIL recently had a miscarriage--- and she only kept the first pregnancy after clomid (? spelled right?) -- if you are prone to diabetes or something like that, then I'd say-- maybe. It's not just weight- that's for sure.

I think that clomid might be a good option- it worked wonders on her-- and in the meantime, keep trying, right?

I think that maintaining is SUCCESS-- I also know how you feel- I would prefer to weigh less, but I also feel pretty happy right now- and that to me is MOST important!

Anyways- sooo glad to have you here :-)

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LEIGHWOMAN 10/8/2012 10:40AM

    Have you thought of switching to a low carb/no sugar Paleo/primal type diet? I don't know anything about yuor dietary needs, but seriously it has helped myself and many people SO much. You don't get cravings, you get full on a lot of food, and ALL of the food is used to fuel instead of being turned into sugars. So your body is burning fat instead of sugars all day. There are some great teams on SP that can help answer questions, but since starting the weight has just dropped off of me and I really never feel unsatisfied. And the best part - YOU DON'T HAVE TO COUNT ANYTHING.

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CHANGINGSAM 10/8/2012 10:36AM

    I can relate to this! I've been dreading "losing weight"; however, we can do this! emoticon

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ALLISON145 10/8/2012 10:33AM

    I know what you mean about hating the process and having a hard time getting going after regaining... I just keep reminding myself that "practice makes perfect," so maybe if I do it enough I will figure out how to maintain properly. What's driving me right now is that my clothes aren't fitting, my skin is broken out, and I feel achy and yucky. Sounds familiar, yes? I can either stay where I am, or try to address those things.

On the doctor front - you may be 20 pounds up, but you are not up enough to effect fertility. I hate when doctors look for the "easiest" answer instead of really thinking about it. I have PCOS and got pregnant with both of my kids at 20-25 pounds over the top end of a healthy BMI. My sister-in-law got pregnant by accident while super morbidly obese. It's more likely that the stress of trying and the stress of the miscarriages is effecting your ability to conceive. The hardest part of the process for me was relaxing about it. Maybe if you shift your focus to losing a few pounds SLOWLY, it will distract you from TTC enough to let it happen. Just be sure you don't do anything drastic in terms of calorie reduction or extreme exercise... just a nip and tuck here and there any you should accomplish both of your objectives. :)

Hope this helps!!
-Allison

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CARILOUIE 10/8/2012 10:13AM

    Good to see you back!

Good luck with the new gym. Sounds like there are lots of good things about it.

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SILLIANGEL 10/8/2012 9:56AM

    So great to see an update Susan :)
I have struggled with the idea of actively losing weight too. I have mostly been relying on intuitive eating and I absolutely love this new found freedom and relationship with food.

If you are a reader, I highly recommend the book Eat What You Love, Love What You Eat by Michelle May. It has taught me so much about the diet culture and restrictive eating patterns. I am still trying to figure out how to balance this with weight loss, but I know I already feel 100x better.

Keep us posted on everything!

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PAPER_WINGS18 10/8/2012 9:40AM

    I am so happy to see you back, Susan! :) Missed ya! I seriously just KNOW you & Jess will have a cute little baby when the time is right. I can't even begin to imagine how frustrating & emotional the whole TTC process is, but I really do believe it will happen for you. :) You will be a great mama! I will keep sending postive thoughts your way. My cousin went through the same thing just last year @ 30, and she finally saw a specialist who put her on some type of fertility treatment(not sure which. whichever one gives you more chance of having multiples. Not sure if that helps, lol.) and she was pregnant almost immediately from the treatment,a nd now has a healthy little boy. :)

I totally know what you mean about being in maintenance mode even though we are both unhappy w/ where we are maintaining. I've been stuck here for about a month and keep sabotaging myself, and keep eatnig candy and junk I don't even need DAILY. I'm here for extra support if ya need any!!

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Cape Cod 2012

Monday, August 27, 2012

I went to Cape Cod several weeks ago, but finally just got an email with the pictures from my MIL...and wanted to share!

First is me doing one of my absolute favorite activities, boogie boarding.:)


Next we have the gloomy gray beach. Notice nobody else is in the water that day except me. :)The waves were big and super choppy, and it was raining a little.


Here's my surfer boy, AKA Mr. SeppieSusan.


Here's the two of us. I thought I could still get away with wearing that bikini despite the fact that one side's underwire mysteriously disappeared. I had a friend suggest I just take out the underwire on the other side because it's pretty obvious. Duly noted.


Here he looks naked.:) But he's not!:)


MIL (on right) and I catching a wave.:)


Mother and son.. a rare shot of him boogie boarding (he's usually either on a surf board or not in the water, period):


The annual puzzle...not quite done! Plus a very lazy boy:


I don't want summer to end! :(

This evening I went for a 40-minute, 3.3 mile jog, and then Jess and I made spring rolls for the first time ever! It was easier than I'd expected and different, delicious, and healthy. We soaked each wrapper (and doubled them because they ripped easily), then put in a filling made of stir-fried carrot, mushroom, garlic, onion, and mint, and rice noodles. We also improvised a sauce made of soy sauce, white wine, garlic, vinegar, mint, ketchup, mustard, peanut oil, and brown sugar. Kind of cool to try something different.

  
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KATYMARIA 9/9/2012 4:02PM

    Looks like a great trip!

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BLUEBOOEYES 9/4/2012 9:54PM

    I LOVE homemade spring rolls! Looks like you had fun at the Cape (is that what the cool kids call it?). Glad to see you back on Spark as well. I'm glad I'm not the only one has gone away and come back. Have a great day tomorrow!

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SPARKNMOM 9/1/2012 11:04AM

    What a great vacation!!

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CRYSBROWN1 8/31/2012 4:27PM

    Thanks for sharing the pics, it looks like you had a blast! UM, you're awful brave in that water because it did look mighty cold and the wave pretty HUGE!

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HAPPYCUPCAKE 8/31/2012 2:07PM

    Looks like an awesome vacation! Glad you had a good time! :)

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THIRTEENREASONS 8/31/2012 12:28AM

    I laughed at the "he looks naked but he's not" comment and then I scrolled down to the comments to see that I'm not alone. Also, side note: you look great, especially in the last pic. Summers always go by so quickly... I'm not looking forward to the cold weather fall brings.

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SEEHOLZ 8/28/2012 3:48PM

    Oh, I read that as... Here he looks naked, but he's HOT-LOL!

Luckily I re-read that...hahahaha.

Thanks for sharing your relaxing vacation with us- I like puzzles- I usually do them over Thanksgiving week-end or Christmas- when its cold out :-)

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 8/28/2012 2:02PM

    Looks and sounds like a great vacation...and you look fantastic!

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MBSHAZZER 8/28/2012 11:09AM

    Looks like a great vacation! Sorry to hear that summer is ending for you. BTW, that water looks COLD! :D

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SWEATONCEADAY 8/28/2012 11:00AM

    looks like fun. i tried surfing for the first time in hawaii last week and it was so hard but so fun!

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MEADSBAY 8/28/2012 10:58AM

    Proof that underwires do something (always wonder how).
Looks like fun!
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MRS.NG.06 8/28/2012 9:43AM

    I love that you guys do a "annual" puzzle, we did one when we went on vacation to Lake Tahoe 2 years ago and we came so close to finishing but couldnt quite get it done..with 4 of us working on it tediously every night for 5 nights..it figures we got like a 1000 pieces puzzle lol it was too pretty to pass up of the caribbean while it was 45 degrees outside and snowing lol

I have to agree with the previous comment, that dress looks phenomenal on you, real pretty! I love his lazy come hither stare though..fantastic! : ) xooox

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CHANGINGSAM 8/28/2012 9:36AM

    Glad you had a fun weekend! By the way, the food description sounds amazing!

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FITBECKSRN24 8/28/2012 7:40AM

    looks like you had fun despite the weather! =)

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FITGIRL15 8/28/2012 12:29AM

    "Here he looks naked.:) But he's not!:)" LMAO that picture is HILARIOUSSSSS!!!!!! I love it!!!

And the missing underwire bikini, OMG... CLASSIC!

That blue-green dress looks FABULOUS on you! You wear that color well!

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PAPER_WINGS18 8/27/2012 11:04PM

    Gosh you are soooo gorgeous! :D Not to sound like a creeper ;-) ha!

Ugh that puzzle is my worst possible nightmare. When I was a kid, my mom used to FORCE me to try and do puzzles, but I hated them so much I always got out of them. I still hate them. ;-)

Looks like a blast!

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SILLIANGEL 8/27/2012 10:28PM

    Looks like you guys had a blast! The swimsuit comment cracked me up :)

Also, I love that your puzzling methods look as nerdy and anal as mine!

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STEFANIE822 8/27/2012 10:27PM

    Looks like a blast!!

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