Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Last time I wrote I said I'd been avoiding cameras. Well, all of a sudden I have a few recent photos of myself so I thought I'd share!
First, my brother took the photo below yesterday at Weetamoo Woods in RI where we went hiking and came across some very friendly horses. :)
I am 5'6" (or 5'5" and a half-ish) and was 174lbs yesterday, so that puts me deep into the overweight range. So, I was actually pleased that I don't look, in my opinion, THAT big. I mean obviously I see much, much room for improvement, but I don't think I look....fat. Just a little wider than before. I was worried I'd look much, much bigger actually, because I haven't weighed this much in a long time...not since 2004 or 2005...and back then I think I looked much bigger (there are a few photos of what I looked like back then on my gallery). OK, I was actually even heavier in some of those photos, but I think I looked MUCH bigger. And I was a little worried I'd be looking like that again. But I really do think that I have much less fat now than I did in 2004 (though still way too much), and a lot more muscle. Go strength training. However, if I want any of this muscle to actually show, or to look less wide, I really need to lose weight. At least, like, 20lbs.
Oh, and by the way, my legs look weird because I was wearing capri-length pants rolled way up on my legs. It was just me and my brother, so I wasn't trying to impress anyone, haha. :)
And here is a photo from Friday night...I like how I look, but my hubby looks drunk...because he WAS a little drunk...hehe. Please don't judge! He wasn't the one who wanted a photo taken in the first place, and he certainly wouldn't have shared it. :) I'm sharing it because my hair isn't crazy in it. :) This one really says nothing about my weight, but I thought I'd share anyway.
Thursday, August 09, 2012
I've been reading _The End of Overeating_, and so far I've been disappointed. The first several sections of the book were about the tricks that food processing companies use to get you to eat more - using a combination that is difficult to resist of sugar, fat, and salt, and sometimes chemicals that mimic all kinds of flavors. When I was reading these chapters all I wanted to do was eat more sugar, fat and salt! Counterproductive. Now I've finally reached the behavior modification section of the book in the back, and I'm not done yet, but it's been really nonspecific. It says that you need to develop rules for yourself that govern your eating, such as "I don't eat French fries," or "I don't eat dessert." I don't see how rules like that will help me stop overeating. Maybe the last bit of the book will be more helpful, but I'm not optomistic.
I've been finding it extremely difficult to motivate myself to count calories or restrict my eating at all. Even after my last blog with a few specific rules I didn't follow through. I've gone out and bought size 12 summer pants because my 10s don't fit. I'm hoping that maybe writing about it will get me moving again.
As always, I HAVE been pretty good about exercise lately, espeically my strength training. I haven't been to Body Pump in a long time...I've been out in the strength room with the big burly guys. I realized recently that I squat more than my own bodyweight...185lbs. I'm moving up with almost all my weights except for biceps and shoulders, which are my two weakest areas where I seem to always plateau at the lowest of weights. I'm not as consistent with cardio as I should be in order to lose weight, but I have been getting some cardio in.
In some ways I've been too complacent about my weight. I think it would probably take a photo (but I've been avoiding cameras whenever possible) or some horrible mirror angle to snap me into reality and make me realize I need to do something. I see the big numbers on the scale but don't think I look that bad. I also have been just a teensy bit obsessed (okay, tremendously obsessed) with TTC (which isn't working so far...), and kind of just lethargic lately. It's like I spend all my energy at the gym and don't save any for other stuff, like coming up with a better eating plan.
Today is my last day of work for a while, so I have time to come up with a plan to get back on track. It better be a good one, because I really need it.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Hi everyone... just thought I'd share that since we are going to Cape Cod this weekend, I'm on a mini challenge to prepare. I started yesterday. I'm not tracking calories (probably should be, but I've been doing this long enough to know in general how much to eat to stay in range), but I do have some rules:
*smoothie for breakfast
*batch-cooked meal for lunch
*something small for dinner, things like fish or chicken and vegetables
*optional: 1 small drink, 1 small dessert
*snacks: 1 baggie almonds, 1 hardboiled egg, fruits, vegtables
I'm doing this Monday (yesterday) through Thursday the 26th. We're leaving Thursday night for the Cape. Basically I should always be doing these things, but for right now it has to be a bit stricter.
Friday, June 29, 2012
I've just really had nothing I want to write about. My weight is embarrassing, so I don't want to talk about that. I've been on track with my exercise just about forever, and back to tracking my calorie intake for the past couple of weeks, and though I initially saw a drop of a few scary-high pounds at first, I've been stuck with my weight still way too high and not moving ever since. I know the number on the scale isn't everything and I have some muscle, but I don't fit into last summer's shorts.
School has been out now for a week and a half, and I've enjoyed having very little to do. I have one more week of freedom and then summer school. We refinanced our mortage to save about $80/month and had the closing the other day. The closing was in the city at 10 A.M. and then afterward we went for an early lunch and then I spent the rest of the day in the city while Jess went to work, and then met up with him for dinner. I spent several hours at Barnes & Noble..I read a few fitness magazines, and then I read a book about eating paleo. I was wondering whether to try it, but then I read online that it's one of the least safe and least recommended diets out there. I already try to avoid too many grains while I'm trying to lose weight, but I don't really want to give up dairy or beans, and don't seem to have any negative reaction to these foods. Anyway, after B&N I went for a long walk around the city and luckily despite the ominous clouds there was no rain storm, and then met Jess for a lovely dinner.
The next day (yesterday), I went BACK into the city (I live in the city, technically, but I mean the part of the city tourists would actually go to) to get my hair done. It's a once in a great while treat for me. Well actually it's not a treat at all....I hate trying to figure out where to park (and ending up paying $32 for valet garage parking), the huge expense of the hair treatment, the 3 hours it takes to do it, and the sting it brings to my eyes...but I LOVE having straight, shiny, soft hair. I wanted Yuko but my stylist siad my hair wasn't healthy enough. :( (I bought a deep leave-in conditioner to help fix that situation) and got a Pure Brazilian instead, which is like a Keratin but new. The best part is that there is NO waiting to get your hair wet or creased. With other procedures you have to wait 2 or 3 days which means, of course, no working out, no going outside if it rains, and no showering! Ew! This was a bonus. But, this procedure REALLY stung my eyes - the chemicals had the same amino acids that are in onions apparently...I was sitting there under the dryer crying away... and also it only lasts 2-3 months, and it probably won't be that straight after I wash it...she did say it eliminates frizz which is great for summer. But you know what else would be great for summer...NOT weighing 172...ugh. I'm rambling. This is why I don't blog anymore.
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