Sunday, December 04, 2011
It might seem like an odd time to try intuitive eating for me, considering I'm at the top of my weight range these days, but it's a busy time of year, and I know what my eating choice parameters should be in order to be successful, so why not just try to eat within them most of the time, not stress when I choose outside of those parameters once in a while, and get on with my day without feeling the burden of tracking? I've been basically doing this in an informal way since I last posted a blog, and my weight has dropped about three pounds in that time. It's been easy - no treats in the teachers' room so I HAD to stick with my apples and clementines for snacks, no time at home to eat too many snacks, and yesterday I was just so busy that I barely had time to think about eating! Last night we went out to dinner and a show with my husband's office. I had a grilled chicken salad at dinner and we were short on time to get to the show, so I literally didn't eat half the salad simply because I didn't have time to. I also didn't have time to eat very many chips and salsa (it was a Mexican place). But I was no martyr - I made time for 1.5 huge margaritas with salt! (The .5 is because of time again - my husband stuck a straw in my second margarita at the end and helped me finish it!)
The show we went to was The Donkey Show: http://www.artsboston.org/event/detail/452
It was...a fun dancing experience, but the show itself didn't do much for me. But we almost NEVER go out anymore now that we are old adults with a house to work on, so it was fun to go out and drink and dance to a bunch of 70s songs. Most of my husband's coworkers are gay men so the dancing was good! After the show, when it was just free-for-all dancing, most of us got up on stage and twirled around with glowsticks on our heads, and we were the last ones out. And then even though this was CAMBRIDGE which is faaaaar from our side of Boston and we never go there and we had a long walk back to the car because parking in Harvard Square is impossible, I was still asleep after my big night out by 11 P.M. and up at 8 with more of a scratchy throat and a craving for green tea than a hangover! Yay! :)
Thursday, December 01, 2011
So I've been back off track since Thanksgiving, and I've gained back the six or so pounds I'd lost. I just get this relaxed and happy feeling when I give myself permission to eat whatever I want without worrying about calories. I never let up on exercise. For some reason, my motivation there just isn't an issue. It's not that I always LOVE it and can't wait to do it - in fact yesterday it took me dragging myself out of the car once I'd pulled into the gym parking lot, and I was staring at the clock. But I keep exercising, day after day, year after year. With eating it's just not the same for me. To me counting calories is kind of like holding my breath - there's only so long I can do it before I have to stop. Even with all my experimentation with moderation I still end up feeling that way. However, not all is bad. I wish I had the photos to prove it, but I'm almost positive I'm a more fit/toned version of the mid 160s than I ever was before. I'm still fitting into the same pants that I was wearing 10+ pounds ago. They're tighter but they still fit. I'm overweight for sure, but just a little bit. I thought once I came back to school this week after five days off that I'd go back to counting calories, but who am I kidding - there's goodies all over the place this time of year. So. I know I'll want to track and get back to a healthy weight soon. I just haven't been feeling it for the past week or so.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Went to the gym this morning for a special one-time only class called the Turkey Trot, but it turns out it was the same as a class usually called Circuit Systems. It's normally Tuesday nights so I may check it out again. It was different than my usual and pretty tough! I deserve a good Thanksgiving dinner now!
I am starting to get the baby bug, bad. We're going to a baby shower today...for a couple who met after Jess and I did, and married after Jess and I did...and yet they are having a baby and we are not. I had this big conversation in the locker room today with some women who were urging me not to wait too long...don't wait until after 35, they said...well, I'm almost 34 now, and a baby takes almost a year...and Jess now wants to wait until the spring to start trying, so I'll be at LEAST 35 for our FIRST baby. Ugh. I KNOW we can't afford it. But when can anybody ever afford it?!
OK, time to rush off to central MA for Thanksgiving! Happy Thanksgiving everyone! No seconds!!
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
It's cold and rainy outside, but I'm indoors wearing my cozy socks inside my slippers. I went to the gym this morning for Body Pump and spinning (I'm still new to spinning and find it uncomfortable physically - that seat!) and then I went to buy a baby shower gift (a ducky outfit) and butternut squash, but I've been home all afternoon cleaning and cooking, while my husband and FIL were working on the house. So cozy! I made butternut squash to bring to Thanksgiving dinner tomorrow at my husband's aunt's house.
Yesterday was the end of my two-day work week, and I was unexplicably exhausted. I went to the gym after school for only a half hour (slow jog on treadmill), and then I came home...and had a binge. I didn't track it. I could have avoided it, but I did it and I am glad I got it out of my system. I KNEW I'd be back on track in the morning, with my usual healthy breakfast and gym routine. So I guess I'm okay with it, it's not a great thing to have done, but I am moving forward.
Monday, November 21, 2011
...and you were expecting to see a loss? Because you were doing everything right? You've been tracking your calories, making nutritious choices, drinking your water, getting your sleep, doing your cardio and strength training, and being all-around active (e.g., raking all afternoon), so you fully expect and deserve to see a loss?
But instead you see a gain, and you think, "That can't be right," so you get off the scale, recalibrate the zero, then get back on, and see the exact same gain you saw five seconds ago, and then you sigh, curse, and get all crabby.
Well, then you shrug and remind yourself, "I've been doing all the right things. I am living healhtfully and I can FEEL and SEE the results. I don't give a flying * what the scale says."
And you go on with your day.
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