Saturday, May 28, 2011
I guess no matter how long I am at this healthy lifestyle/weight management thing, I really can never say that I have it all figured out. Whenever I start to think I can just naturally make good choices all the time, even dabbling in snacky foods that are practically like drugs to me, I get a little overconfident and mess up. The desire to make poor eating choices lies within me, and I can be stronger than that urge for months at a time, but it's always there waiting for a vulnerable moment. Like I mentioned in my last blog, PMS is a vulnerable time for me, and like the comments suggested, being aware of that is a good first step. A good second step is to take proactive steps during those times to avoid problems, though what exactly those steps would be, I'm not sure. Maybe blogging more often?
One thing that can get my motivation going is seeing someone else start fresh. The raw enthusiasm of the novelty of their adventure inspires me. I have a friend who has talked a good talk about losing weight now for years, but last night she seemed more serious about it than she has in a long time. She only had one glass of white wine (usually has at least five drinks when we go out - and not low-cal ones), and after dinner she whipped out her iPhone to track her calories on MyFitnessPal! Anyone have any knowledge about this program? I got an email from the program this morning telling me that my friend wants me to join to track her progress...and it says it's free...but I'm already all set with SP and don't want another website sending me a bunch of emails all the time although I would love to track my friend's progress. ?? She's already lost five pounds but has about 80 to go to reach her goal weight. One funny thing is that I can completely forsee some of the problems she's going to face - like for example, she's aiming for 1,200 calories per day and a loss of two pounds per week, and I KNOW from experience that she's goigng to get desperately hungry at 1,200 calories per day and someday she will eat more than that and feel like a failure even though she'll really just need the extra calories to function. And I know that she's not going to lose 2 pounds per week like clockwork, and that if she gains weight some weeks that does NOT make her a failure, and that there is no race to get to the finish line. However, she doesn't want to hear this stuff, and I know that and I'm not going to push it on her. She's gotta figure it all out for herself, or it won't matter.
Another thing that motivates me is looking good on the beach. All of a sudden it feels like the middle of summer here in Boston - yesterday at one point my car's thermometer said it was 96 degrees. I went to Wollaston Beach for a run - had to cut it short because it was too hot and sunny, but still managed to get in a good enough workout. A bunch of people were hanging out on the beach, and a lot of them seemed to have two goals in mind - expose as much skin as possible, and get a tan. The tan thing doesn't really work for me - I had an uncle who died of melanoma - but man, I don't want to be chunky on the beach this summer! So I'm inspired right now. PMS is thankfully over - was a few days longer than I'd been expecting so I'm so relieved it's gone and I do suddenly feel more able to stay on track, whether it's just psychological or not I don't know. Plus it's just too darn hot to overeat!
Our annual trip to Wellfleet (Cape Cod - spectacular beaches) isn't until the end of summer this year. So I'm going to keep the thought of bikinis in mind alllllll summer. And if that means picturing bikinis on the donuts in the teachers room, Carilouie, then I'll do it - whatever it takes!!
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
My name is Susan and I am a binge eater.
Last time I wrote I hinted that I'd had flickers of thoughts about binge eating. Well, I've since given in and binged. I guess it's just an area in which I'm vulnerable, and I'm going to always have to be on the lookout for it. A few days of binge eating puts on the five pounds it's taken months to lose.
I'm going to blame this episode on PMS, which is, thank goodness, a temporary phenomenon and I will be back to myself ASAP - in fact, so far today (though it's only 9:30 A.M.) I'm feeling much less bingey, and I already ate all the carby stuff in the teachers room yesterday so there's nothing left for me to binge on today anyway, haha.
Reasons I will go right back to my healthy habits:
*I look much better when I follow healthy habits.
*I'd rather be excited about fitness than about junk food.
*I want to continue to fit into my pants.
*I want my husband to stay proud of me.
How much easier would this whole weight management thing be if we weren't dealing with our hormones?? Lucky men, they don't know how good they have it. :P
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
The other day someone commented on a blog post I wrote three years ago. I'm an old Sparker....I joined in 2006 and have been using the site in full force for the better part of the past 4.5 years. I feel like at this point I have figured out what works for me for the most part. It's been an extremely bumpy ride to get to this point, but I think I have it now. So now it just feels like I'm plugging along. There won't be much exciting healthy lifestyle news to write about, because I have a good routine now and keeping that routine going week after week does not generate much news. I go to Trader Joe's each weekend and buy my fruits and vegetables, milk and yogurt, almonds and tea, and ingredients for my batch-cooking recipes, which I then bring home to cook, separate into single-serving containers, and enter into Spark recipes to get the nutrition facts for each serving. I track my calories each day, with a lot of copying a meal from one day to another. I go to the gym or run outside almost every day, and I go to Body Pump Tuesdays, Thursdays, and once per weekend (I think I like the Sunday class better than the Saturday class at my new gym). I'm still losing very slowly, but even that will stop soon if it hasn't already, because I'm basically at a realistic, maintainable weight.
There will be a few ups and downs. This past Saturday I was not particularly careful about my eating, and even though I was physically extremely active all day I gained some weight. However, I was not in the least bit anxious about it, and I wouldn't even consider it "off track" really, because the term "off track" to me implies that I did something wrong. In a lifelong healthy lifestyle, there are going to be days like that and it's perfectly OK. I've since returned to my usual eating habits and just as I knew would happen, the temporary extra pounds have been slipping back off. (In all honesty I was a bit worried that a day of less careful eating might drag me into a spiral of unhealthiness like what has happened to me before, but I made sure to stick to my routine and just allow myself moderate extra snacks when I really needed them. There will be no more downward spirals into the doom of unhealthiness for me!)
There will be times when my routine gets disrupted or altered - like if/when we finally buy a house and/or have a baby - and when those times come I'm sure I'll need to do a lot more blogging to figure it all out. But for now things are mostly same old! That's not to say things are easy - of course there are times it sounds nice to slack off on a workout or overeat junky foods. But I keep on making good choices, beause a healthy lifestyle, for me, really is about plugging away at it week after week, never expecting sudden miracles, but knowing that the long-term effects are profound.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Back in early 2010, when I got married, my weight hovered around 145 for a little over a month, so somehow that became my goal weight. Still not sure whether that's my permanent goal weight, but I like how I feel at that weight.
Last night I didn't get enough sleep...hubby worked really late... so this morning I was still a little fuzzy-eyed when I stepped on the scale. Keep in mind three days ago I was 152.2, two days ago 151.2, yesterday 150.2.... so when I saw that there was a 7 in the ones place I thought something was wrong. I thought it said 157.8....but then I blinked the sleep out of my eyes and realized the scale was saying 147.8!!! WHAT?! Of course I didn't believe it and got off and on a thousand times until it finally settled in at 149.2. I'll take it - I'm under 150! Closer to 100 pounds than 200 pounds! And less than five pounds away from my goal weight!
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