Sunday, February 06, 2011
My weight has been steady at exactly 164.6 for at least a week now. And yet, I'm feeling more at peace with the whole weight thing now. I'm looking thinner, probably from being less bloated, especially in my face and stomach. Maybe I'll lose weight eating this way, maybe I won't. But I love me for who I am.
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
(on a 5'6" person!)
150ish lb, April 2004 (I am on the left, Miami):
180ish lb, 4/22/05 (inside Duomo's tower in Florence, Italy):
170ish lb, 2/23/06 (Puerto Vallarta, Mexico):
157 lb, 2/18/07 (Cancun - I had started using SP so I can look up my weight):
135 lb, 5/26/07 (Somerville, MA):
140 lb, 8/16/07 (Boston, MA, with Mom):
147 lb, 10/8/07 (Tufts 10K - My first 10K, Boston):
150ish lb (rapid weight gain while on vacation in Jamaica), 2/21/08:
151 lb, 8/21/08 (Martha's Vineyard):
139 lb, 10/31/08 (dive bar in suburban MA):
135 lb, 12/14/08 (around then anyway, at my in-laws' in MA):
145 lb, 2/17/09 (Puerto Plata, Dominican Republic):
145 lb, 8/7/09 (non-professional engagement photo shoot, MA):
148 lb, 8/30/09 (Chicago):
160ish lb, Late December 2009 (Pantheon, Paris):
142 lb, February 13, 2010 (Rehearsal dinner the night before my wedding, MA):
159 lb, August 2010 (my parents' house in MA):
165 lb, 10/31/10 (Salem, MA):
167 lb, 1/8/11 (Mom's birthday dinner in Brookline, MA):
Monday, January 31, 2011
I just finished reading my entire SP blog - from 2006 to now. It took me four days to read the whole thing!
I have gone through many, many ups and downs and come up with revelations - sometimes multiple times, forgetting I'd already figured something out previously.
I have been "on track" and "off track" so many times, and my weight has dropped down as low as the 130s or the 140s many, many times. But it always comes back to the upper 160s eventually. Every single time. This cannot be a coincidence??
In other news I'm still Eating Whatever I Want And Tracking It - I've been doing this over two weeks now. My daily calorie totals have ranged from 1,700 to 2,700 for the past week, with my lowest numbers surprisingly enough coming on weekends. I am only allowing myself one bag of almonds per day (1.2 ounces) because almonds are a very calorie-dense food and can be a trigger food for me. I've been snacking instead on a lot of fruit and veggies, which has resulted in a lower calorie intake most days now than when I first started this experiment.
Weight-wise, I started this experiment around 167, and for the first few days my weight actually rose to the lower 170s, then hung around at 168 for a week or so, then was down to 164 yesterday but back to 166 today. So....I think I might be losing a little, but also bouncing around a bunch. Regardless, I am sort of stumped as to whether to try to lose weight or not. I want to keep doing what I've been doing with my diet and exercise for now. I'd like to lose weight, but I also am feeling more convinced than ever that I am at the weight I am meant to be right now.
It's a quarter past 8 at night and I was going to go to the gym hours ago, but just couldn't stop reading my blog. Reading over the whole thing kind of has my emotions all jumbled up. My weight roller coaster has just been nuts these past few years. I also got to read about my own life history from ages 29-33, which was interesting, I cried when I read my own engagement story blog, I felt the emotions all over again. Oh, and I realized how much my Spark friends have been through with me, thank you to those who are around to read this now. Some of my Spark friends are no longer around and that made me kind of sad.
I better get going so I can get to the gym.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Yesterday I wrote that my weight had been sitting at around 168lbs since I've started my Eat Whatever I Want And Track It experiment, and I wrote that if I wanted to lose weight I was going to have to cut calories somehow.
Wellllll....today I got on the scale and saw 164.6. So now I've got my hopes up...hopefully not too much.
Is it possible that just simply tracking and trying to eat more high-volume low-calorie foods is enough for me to lose weight, without consciously cutting calories? That would be my DREAM SITUATION. I hate cutting calories!
I have a theory about my weight range. I think I am designed to weigh somewhere maybe plus or minus about 10 or 15 pounds from where I am right now. I think it wouldn't be too difficult to just kind of tighten the reins and get closer to the bottom of that range, just like it also wouldn't be too difficult to slack off and get to the top. But the further down my weight goes, the more susceptible I am to binges that will get my weight back closer to the center of my range, and at the other end of the spectrum, when my weight goes higher I'm more likely to gain some newfound motivation and find it easier to eat a lower-calorie diet that'll get me back down to the center of my range. So, I might as well just shoot for losing some, but not TOO much, because I'm not convinced I could ever maintain something too low.
I also think it's absolutely essential to have a plan that works with my lifestyle. I used to think I was only fully on track when I weighed/measured every little food item, down to the berries I put in my daily morning smoothies. Now, however, I feel that it's okay to estimate, especially with low-cal foods like fruit and vegetables, because even if I'm off I wouldn't be off by much. And I may overestimate one day, but underestimate the next, so it's all good. It's almost silly how much relief I feel when I just make my morning smoothies without feeling guilty that I'm not measuring out my ingredients! It's ridiculous that it took me this long to come to this conclusion!
Similarly, I used to feel that I was only on track when I had a basic eating template and stuck to it, even when I got particularly hungry in the late afternoon or evening and would have really enjoyed a little something extra but wouldn't allow it because I'd already met my calorie max. It is SUCH a relief that now I allow myself to have a little more if I'm hungry without guilt. I may not need it every time, but if I do, I'm going to allow it. I will no longer sacrifice feeling OK for weight loss.
Last night at the gym I did my usual 60 minutes on the elliptical plus five minutes cooldown, but for the 2nd time ever (first time was last week) I did the whole hour with miles that were slightly faster than nine minutes, and by the time I was done with the cooldown I'd gone 7.05 miles and burned 985 calories.
Knowing we were expecting yet another huge snowfall overnight last night, my husband and I both stayed at our own condos (we've been trying to move in together for a year and a half, but haven't been successful with the real estate market). I miss him!! But he worked late into the night and got up early to work this morning, whereas I went to bed at a normal time (1opm) and got the phone chain call at 5:30 A.M. that we were having a snow day (third snow day this month!) today so I went back to sleep until almost 10 a.m.!!! I really needed that sleep.
EDIT: I decided on a whim to go back and read my old blog entries...I have LOTS of them...and I discovered that it was EXACTLY four years ago today that I first used my nutrition tracker to track a day's worth of food! (I even went back and looked - I ate some bizarre stuff that day - red wine for breakfast? Chef Boyardee for snack? WTF??)
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
I forgot to mention in my last post that I've started taking fish oil supplements. This decision came after I read an article that suggested fish oil can actually REVERSE heart damage. If it's powerful enough to do that, imagine what it can do for a heart that's already healthy. Plus, one of the people who commented on this article is someone I respect (I don't know her personally, but I agree with her comments on lots of articles) and she said that she just keeps reading more and more reasons why fish oil supplements are a good idea. I always thought that just eating fish would be enough, but when I really think about it, how often do I REALLY eat fish? Not THAT often. The other supplement that seems pretty trendy right now is Vitamin D, but I haven't jumped on that bandwagon yet. I've gone through phases where I took lots of supplements (usually after reading a book that recommended them) and they get expensive, plus I never feel any difference.
So...what's your take on dietary supplements? What do you take and why? And just as importantly, why DON'T you take what you don't take?
My weight is still hovering around 168. I'm still just considering my current Eat Whatever I Want And Track It experiment to be temporary - just long enough to learn about myself and help me come up with a plan. I know that if I want to lose weight I'm going to have to cut calories somehow. I'm just hoping to make the cuts as small and painless as possible. I've been jotting notes on my Nutrition Tracker page (and I know for a fact that TERRIANGEL's been reading them because she comments to me on them! hehe) that might help me come up with a plan. Yesterday, for example, I was feeling hungrier than normal, so I ate about 2,600 calories, but I jotted down a thought that if I'd eaten just one bag of almonds (1.2oz) instead of two, and instead eaten more "freggies," my daily calorie total would have most likely been lower. So today in my cooler I packed only one bag of almonds, but I also packed a container of grape tomatoes and a yellow pepper.
Last night I roasted my broccoli and cauliflower, along with a few baby carrots and garlic cloves. I roasted them in sesame oil (thank you VIDABELA for that idea!) with some Trader Joe's 21 Seasoning Salute, at 375 degrees for 30 minutes. I should have probably covered them - the broccoli florets got very dried out - but other than that everything came out delicious and satisfying. I also attempted to make Chef Meg's Nutty Noodles, which was not quite as successful. I couldn't really get the ingredients to mix well.
So at my brand new gym the main studio flooded yesterday, and Body Pump was held in the yoga studio instead. It was sooooo crowded and stuffy, but I survived. I still miss my old gym.
We're probably having yet another snow day or delay tomorrow. It's just past noon and snowing already, and supposed to keep going until tomorrow morning. Some teachers are complaining that we've been having too many days off, but I am a classic procrastinator - I'm loving the free days!
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