Monday, October 11, 2010
So this past week I've been coming off a stretch of being in party mode. I had been out late and drinking too much, and I was feeling drained. So I was looking forward to having a three-day weekend with no plans. Friday night we didn't do anything - no gym, no restaurants, no bars, just a DVD and early to bed. This paid off, as we were up early enough on Saturday to go to the grocery store at 8 A.M. and beat the crowds, and then I went to Body Pump and Body Combat. I did my batch-cooking for the week ahead after that, experimenting with new recipes (polenta with spicy beans and mushrooms and butternut risotto, both of which I found through a google search for quick and easy dinner recipes; the recipes are here: www.healthy-eating-made-easy.com/hea
Anyway, after that we played tennis for about an hour with my husband's parents, and then used a gift card at Legal Seafoods where I had some delicious baked cod, then early to bed again Saturday night!
On Sunday I went to an amazingly sweaty Step Interval class in the morning (cardio and conditioning), followed by a half-hour Abs & Stretch class that my husband actually joined me for!!! Yay! Then we did errands and played tennis for about an hour again, just the two of us, and then we prepared a dinner party for my father's birthday - I attempted to mimic the baked cod (used expensive scrod from the grocery store) and it actually came out really well in my own opinion, plus a salad that included every color except blue, breadsticks, rice pilaf, cider, red wine, and instead of a birthday cake, a homemade apple pie with no added sugar. Lots of work but fun. I wish I'd taken a picture of the table with the pumpkin-mum-foliage centerpiece (I'd won it at a teacher breakfast the other day) and my orange and green placesettings.
Anyway, this morning I woke up feeling sore and tired. My arms, elbows, and shoulders are sore - there's a lot of punching in Body Combat, and I played more tennis than my body was used to this weekend, and maybe a conditioning class on my day "off" between two Body Pump days was too much. Also, I have a bit of a sore throat, and then to top it off I have some bad PMS. Last month when TOM started I had incredibly painful cramps, and I'm worried I might be in for that again. What's up with that? I used to be able to get through Day 1 of TOM without any painkillers whatsoever! Hmm. Maybe cramps get worse as you get older? (I'm only a couple months shy of 33.) Also, I'm sure being off the pill now has a lot to do with it, but I've been off it for a couple years now and my cramps haven't been THIS bad.
So...even though I felt awful, I really wanted to take advantage of my day off (thanks, Columbus) and went to Body Pump and Body Combat this morning with one of my favorite instructors. I survived Body Pump just fine but started to feel tired during Body Combat. The kind of tired where I was chosing the lower-impact modifications for moves whenever possible and having more trouble than usual just trying to focus on remembering the series of moves. But I made it through the whole class, and have now been home a few hours - I had leftover salad, rice, and pie for lunch, and just read (mostly silently) through all 50 or so the blogs I'm subscribed to. And my cramps are feeling worse. :( It stinks, because if I were feeling energetic today would be a great day for a trail walk/jog. Or clothes shopping. But instead I just want to crawl into bed with something to numb myself. :( At least I have a good excuse for making tomorrow a rest day, exercise-wise.
Friday, October 01, 2010
My last blog was about having a mini-binge, and MEGSFITNESS asked me a great question: Do you remember what triggered it? Thank you for asking, Megs! The answer is a resounding YES, I know EXACTLY what triggered it... sleep deprivation!! I was tired that day, and decided that instead of following my usual routine of having a quick small dinner and then going to the gym, I was going to "treat" myself to unlimited quantities of junk food in bed. Horrible idea!! Lying in bed and eating is not required just because I'm a little tired, and I certainly can't consider something a "treat" that makes me feel so bad afterwards.
I should explain that last statement...when I wrote my last post I was actually feeling fine and even rather proud of myself for having a mini binge instead of a major binge, but unfortunately I've been having more repeat performances than I should. The weekend was fine, but then on Tuesday there was a potluck lunch at school, and even though I'd been planning on not participating, there were just too many yummies and I ate a bunch. Then yesterday I pulled another "I'm so tired I'm just gonna lie in bed eating and skip the gym" scene on myself, only this binge wasn't quite so mini, and today the scale showed me a major jump upwards.
So, today I'm nipping it in the bud for real. My take-home message to myself NEEDS to be this:
Yes, there will be days when I am tired. I'm a teacher, and June is a LONG ways away. And on those days when I am tired, I will oftentimes experience a sensation that feels exactly like ravishing hunger. RECOGNIZE THAT THIS IS A CRUEL TRICK! I will probably need more water, more coffee, more distractions, and more self-cheerleading than normal, but not more calories!
So when I'm tired, maybe I'll work out to try to perk myself up, or maybe I'll skip exercise, guilt-free. Maybe I'll nap, or maybe I'll just try to turn in for the night early. If I'm looking for a treat, I'll allow myself to do something fun or even sneak out for an iced coffee.
But what I WON'T do is binge eat! I will be EXTRA vigilant with myself about not eating anything straight out of the original container (portion control is extra important on these days!), and if I really need something it will need to be fruit, or a vegetable, or even a tiny single-serving treat, but I will make sure I don't binge. Because for me, one episode just leads to more, and I don't want my weight rising back up, up, up, and Halloween is coming, and I want to get a sexy costume, and I want to feel good and look good and fit into my clothes! BINGE EATING DOESN'T SOVLE ANYTHING!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
This will be a weird little post. Last night I had a little binge. Despite knowing it was a bad idea, I brought a box of crackers with me to bed and ate until the box was empty. I also ate salsa (jar and spoon), some low-fat cheese, and the one last corn muffin left from the batch my husband made last weekend. I also skipped a workout of any kind for the first time in a long time.
It wasn't good, sure, and I gained two pounds overnight, but something feels different, in a good way, than with previous binges. I feel like I can still be totally on track, that my mindset has not shifted over to what I sometimes think of as my "dark side" which I hit when I enter my rapid weight-gain phases. It was just one evening of improper choices. No biggie. Kinda funny how I'm able to think of it like that now.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
I've been running a lot lately, and a couple times lately I've actually passed other runners. This doesn't usually happen - I'm usually the slowest one out there - so I'm pretty proud of myself! Especially since all my runs are just for fun - no worries about how far or fast I'm going, or how often I go - I just go when the weather is good and when I have the time, and I keep downloading new music to make my running even more fun. I ran on the beach on Sunday, and on Saturday we were out shopping and I got bored so I ran home - almost four miles. I just bring my running gear with me where ever I go so I can always run at a moment's notice!
On Saturday night we ordered delivery from a Japanese restaurant - miso soup, seaweed salad, and an "ocean love boat" for two (maki, sushi, and sashimi). It must have been the salt that made my weight suddenly jump up four pounds the next morning. It was still up yesterday, and then today I got on the scale and was down five - to the lowest weight I've been in months, 156.8! So I'm feeling happy and skinny today - and it's school picture day!
I guess if you've read this far you can already tell, but I'm in a good place right now. My weight is fairly stable, a bit higher than I want but it'll come down with time, and I'm eating what I want and exercising when I want and life is good. :)
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Note to self - my latest eating template alone has almost 1,900 calories. That's just my standard breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks, without any extras. (Well, the latte is an extra, but I've been having those almost every day - maybe it's time to stop.) There have already been all kinds of cookies and breads in the teachers' room, and I've been indulging. Then there has been the extra beer, wine, weeknight dinners out, and evening cheese and crackers. This on top of reduced time on cardio... and even on strength training too considering that most weeks these days I'm only doing Body Pump twice a week. And as I've mentioned previously, I'm not counting calories on the weekends, and I'm probably taking in a daily calorie intake of upper-2000s on weekends.
The good news is that none of this has been out of control, and my weight has been fairly stable. This is actually GREAT news, because I haven't been succumbing to my old nemesis: the all-or-nothing approach.
However, I need to tighten the reins a bit and get things under control for two important reasons:
1) My current habits aren't going to result in weight loss. I want to lose a few pounds, so I have to get a little stricter.
2) I don't want a few indulgences here and there to progress to bigger and more frequent indulgences, especially as we progress toward the holiday season and treats become easier and easier to come by.
So keeping this in mind, I think I have to restrict the amount of teachers' room goodies I eat (I don't want to ban them, because that could backfire, but maybe just a half a serving of something once or twice a week or so). and I need to stick to my template a little more often! Gotta go - at work - bye!
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