Saturday, September 25, 2010
This will be a weird little post. Last night I had a little binge. Despite knowing it was a bad idea, I brought a box of crackers with me to bed and ate until the box was empty. I also ate salsa (jar and spoon), some low-fat cheese, and the one last corn muffin left from the batch my husband made last weekend. I also skipped a workout of any kind for the first time in a long time.
It wasn't good, sure, and I gained two pounds overnight, but something feels different, in a good way, than with previous binges. I feel like I can still be totally on track, that my mindset has not shifted over to what I sometimes think of as my "dark side" which I hit when I enter my rapid weight-gain phases. It was just one evening of improper choices. No biggie. Kinda funny how I'm able to think of it like that now.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
I've been running a lot lately, and a couple times lately I've actually passed other runners. This doesn't usually happen - I'm usually the slowest one out there - so I'm pretty proud of myself! Especially since all my runs are just for fun - no worries about how far or fast I'm going, or how often I go - I just go when the weather is good and when I have the time, and I keep downloading new music to make my running even more fun. I ran on the beach on Sunday, and on Saturday we were out shopping and I got bored so I ran home - almost four miles. I just bring my running gear with me where ever I go so I can always run at a moment's notice!
On Saturday night we ordered delivery from a Japanese restaurant - miso soup, seaweed salad, and an "ocean love boat" for two (maki, sushi, and sashimi). It must have been the salt that made my weight suddenly jump up four pounds the next morning. It was still up yesterday, and then today I got on the scale and was down five - to the lowest weight I've been in months, 156.8! So I'm feeling happy and skinny today - and it's school picture day!
I guess if you've read this far you can already tell, but I'm in a good place right now. My weight is fairly stable, a bit higher than I want but it'll come down with time, and I'm eating what I want and exercising when I want and life is good. :)
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Note to self - my latest eating template alone has almost 1,900 calories. That's just my standard breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks, without any extras. (Well, the latte is an extra, but I've been having those almost every day - maybe it's time to stop.) There have already been all kinds of cookies and breads in the teachers' room, and I've been indulging. Then there has been the extra beer, wine, weeknight dinners out, and evening cheese and crackers. This on top of reduced time on cardio... and even on strength training too considering that most weeks these days I'm only doing Body Pump twice a week. And as I've mentioned previously, I'm not counting calories on the weekends, and I'm probably taking in a daily calorie intake of upper-2000s on weekends.
The good news is that none of this has been out of control, and my weight has been fairly stable. This is actually GREAT news, because I haven't been succumbing to my old nemesis: the all-or-nothing approach.
However, I need to tighten the reins a bit and get things under control for two important reasons:
1) My current habits aren't going to result in weight loss. I want to lose a few pounds, so I have to get a little stricter.
2) I don't want a few indulgences here and there to progress to bigger and more frequent indulgences, especially as we progress toward the holiday season and treats become easier and easier to come by.
So keeping this in mind, I think I have to restrict the amount of teachers' room goodies I eat (I don't want to ban them, because that could backfire, but maybe just a half a serving of something once or twice a week or so). and I need to stick to my template a little more often! Gotta go - at work - bye!
Monday, September 13, 2010
This photo was taken at the end of August...my parents, MIL, hubs, and me. I think this picture pretty accurately reflects my size these days...not bad upper half, legs are much thicker than I'd like (especially when compared to my skinny MIL's legs!) but I think you can also tell they're pretty muscular - thank you Body Pump squat and lunge tracks! My weight has been hovering in the lower 160s to upper 150s lately. I've been counting calories during the week only and allowing myself indulgences on the weekends, which is a great maintanence plan but not really working for weight LOSS these days.
I'm not too concerned though. There's definitely a piece of me that wonders whether I'm at the weight I was supposed to be at right now. I was never a naturally thin girl, and I feel great (other than that one heartburn incident I wrote about last time!), have tons of energy, and checked out as perfectly healthy at the doctor's office. When I get thinner sometimes I lose some of my energy....because I'm hungry more often.... and I'm definitely better able to enjoy my lifestyle when I'm not being ridiculously strict.
Since school is fully back in session, I'm back to grocery shopping once a week and batch cooking on Sundays...with the football game on in the living room...it really feels like fall! Yesterday I made a vegetable/brown rice stir fry and my usual Mexican lasagna (but with a new addition to the recipe: guacamole).
On the exercise front, I couldn't be happier that just about every day now the weather is perfect for outdoor jogging. I've been going to Body Pump twice a week and once in a while doing strength training on my own too...and have been doing Zumba, Body Combat, and elliptical in addition to my jogging. Oh, and a little tennis. Yesterday I had one of those perfect workouts (on the elliptical) where I felt like superwoman...I went almost 7 miles and burned almost 1,000 calories in 65 minutes!
In other news, we lowered the asking price on my condo AGAIN (third time) and we're really expecting to get some offers coming in finally. In fact, there's a showing tonight. So hopefully I'll be moving soon - yay!
Other than that, I'm settling in with the new school year and having really fun weekends going out with my friends. All is good! Hope everyone else is doing well too!
Thursday, September 02, 2010
Why do they have to make summer so fun?
School started this week. It's been hot and uncomfortable. I'd been tired despite getting enough sleep all week... I think it's because I was getting up at 6 instead of the 7 or 8 I was used to... but then last night was the worst. I was tired and got in bed around 6 p.m. with the hope that I might fall asleep ridiculously early and get a major night's sleep. But then my husband texted me and asked to prep his dinner, and while I was doing that, I had a binge. What?? I haven't had a binge in a long time, I thought I was over that since I'm allowing myself plenty of treats these days. Then I went back to bed and wasn't feeling well. It felt like heartburn, maybe? Not even really sure what that feels like. Anyway, my husband came to bed, we watched a little baseball (enough to see the Red Sox come from behind), and we were asleep probably around 9:30 or 10...but then around 11 or so I was awake again with achy pain up and down my chest, my stomach, and even my upper back. I rolled around in pain until 2:30 in the morning when I finally went online and looked up my symptoms... seemed I was either having an ulcer, bad heartburn, or a heart attack. The first two, I read, are both helped by antacids, so my darling husband went to the 24-hour CVS down the street to buy me some Gaviscon. I took it and was asleep by 3...only to be woken by my alarm at 6...I reset it for 7 and got ready for work really fast and was only 10 minutes late.
So now here I am, still feeling a bit icky, thinking I'll probably have to go see the doctor about this even though I JUST went for a physical (and my doctor's office is 45 minutes away, ugh), totally sleep deprived, hot, and feeling sad that I'm not as into my j0b as I used to be.
On the plus side though, a four-day weekend starts tomorrow.
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