Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I had a few hours that were off-track today. It started with yet another baked good in that freaking teacher's room! This kind of thing needs to start being banned. I only had half a piece, but then I went into the tin of chocolates in the office, and by the time I came home I already knew I was going to eat off track, and I did, for an hour or so, but it's done, I've been reading blogs and trying to soak up all the motivation from them that I can, and now probably the best thing would be to plan for an early night since I'm tired and start fresh tomorrow.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I guess by now I should not be surprised when I receive several thoughtful, helpful, and nonjudgmental comments on my blog...but the level of support Sparkers give each other on a daily basis continues to amaze me. Thanks all!
As an update on yesterday's situation, I did have soup and then lots of water and felt fine, which was good, but wasted so much time in the afternoon/evening that I ran out of time to go to the gym, which is bad except that it's supposed to be okay to take days off here and there. I was down a pound this morning, yay!
Yesterday I was both frustrated by being hungry so often and ALSO confused about why my calorie level is different, it seems, than many other people's. Maybe it just is what it is, my metabolism works differently (more like a man's??). The pro would be that I can eat more, but the con would be that I get hungry more. Maybe it all evens out in the end...I hope...but why?? In order to get my calorie level to be at the 2400-2700ish range I wanted, I had to set my goal as wanting to lose one pound over the course of a year AND enter 120 minutes of cardio per day - both are obviously not true! I didn't want to just manually change numbers though because I wanted all the ranges for different nutrients to be adjusted properly.
I'm frustrated at how much more overweight I am than just two months ago, but unfortunately it takes a lot more time to lose weight than it does to put it on - for me at least. As long as I keep plugging away I will eventually get back to where I'm comfortable with how I look.
Oh, I did cave and take a small amount of the homemade zucchini bread I found in the teachers' room today, but I guesstimate/tracked it and am moving on. I guess I worry that if I hadn't allowed myself any of it I'd start craving zucchini bread and eventually buy (and eat) a whole loaf!
Other than that, I am right on track. Oh, in response to a few comments I received yesterday, in no particular order..... (very rambly blog today!) I was asked how I felt when I ate 1200 calories per day. I would get so hungry that I could barely function!! I could usually handle it for a short time, but after a while I just could not go on at that level. Also, one lovely Sparker actually took the time to look at my nutrition tracker to see whether she could make any recommendations (thank you!!!!) and suggested maybe I'm eating too many of my carbs in the form of fruits/veggies and not enough in the form of whole grains. That is something to consider because over the weekend I was eating fewer fruits and instead having a snack of steel-cut oats with milk and I didn't get so hungry. Then again, the weekend and a work day are SO different in so many ways that it's hard to pinpoint just one variable making the difference - like one of my Spark friends said, work days are (obviously) way more stressful, and we all know that stress can lead to eating in a person like me!
Okay, I'm done being random. For now. :)
Monday, April 26, 2010
It's 5:30 p.m. I'm a little bit tired, all alone, and definitely still hungry even though I've already had dinner. It would be so easy to slip back into binge mode right now, but I'm not going to because I am back on track. I am going to have some soup though. Sure it'll put my calories rather high for the day, but binge eating would give me some giant mystery calorie total I don't even want to guess at. I do wonder, like I so often do, why I have this enormous appetite. I've already had almost 2600 calories today, which for many Sparkers would be a seriously off-track day. Why am I still hungry??
Sunday, April 25, 2010
April vacation is over...back to school tomorrow. Right now my cabbage soup (the one featured on Sparks yesterday, plus my own modifications) is simmering and I have a couple other batch-cooked recipes in the freezer. I have everything ready to go to make all my breakfast smoothies and I have all my snacks ready. Now all I have to do is sleep well, stay hydrated at school, stay away from food from the teachers room, and track everything I eat. I just know that everything else will fall into place as long as I do those things. Now that my Tuesday-Thursday afterschool literacy intervention program is over, the only day I run an afterschool activity is Monday (homework club) and that's only until 4 p.m., and it's light out until almost 8 p.m. these days, so I will have plenty of time for outdoor runs after school. I LOVE it when I only have to go to the gym for 20 minutes because I'm only going for strength training - I feel like I'm getting away with something naughty!
Yesterday was my second day back to calorie-counting and again I had success. I put absolutely no restrictions on how much I ate, and when I was still hungry after 2500 calories (and my husband wanted to go out to a restaurant), I had no problem ordering a glass of wine and a small baby spinach salad with grilled shrimp. I tracked it and it added about 300 extra calories to bring my grand total to 2800. I don't know if I'll lose much weight eating this much, but we'll see!
This morning my husband woke me up early asking, "Ready to hike Blue Hill?" He knew I wanted to go for a hike, but he doesn't like hiking - he likes to say that he doesn't understand the point. I told him the point is so that his larda$s wife doesn't get even more lard-y!! He also doesn't like biking and claims he "can't" run even though I know he can, much faster than I can. When we were hiking up that hill (just 15 minutes to the top) I got all winded and he kept getting way ahead of me. I wish my genes were more like his, it's just not fair. I do so much more cardio than he does. He also doesn't get hungry nearly as often as I do.
We went to Panera for lunch and I had the black bean soup and apple - just 170 calories for the soup and 233 calories total! My husband had the Italian combo sandwich and when I looked up the calories it actually made me gasp - 1,040 - plus more than a day's worth of sodium. It was exactly 1200 with the chips and 1248 with the three sugar packets he put in his iced tea. Have you guys seen the chips bag at a Panera? They put a photo of some hands holding some potatoes fresh out of the earth and at the bottom it says things like "all natural" like this is some health food you're eating - sorry, it's still potato chips! It reminded me of the 1st graders on Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution who didn't know what potatoes were or that potato chips were made from potatoes.
My husband dragged me to Staples after lunch where he bought a new laptop and a new cell phone! He's currently trying to set the laptop up a few feet away from me - how nice that we don't have to fight over the computer right now. :)
Saturday, April 24, 2010
It's kind of funny how something that was just about second-nature for me a few months ago - calorie counting - is now so monumental. Yesterday was my first successful day counting calories in over a month! I didn't have any preconceived limits on how much I would eat - I just made sure I was eating healthy food in reasonable amounts. I can already tell today that my body is happier with me for treating it well - my skin is clearer, I've dropped a couple pounds, and my darling husband told me I'm already looking thinner - after one day! Obviously my body likes what I'm doing now.
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