Saturday, April 17, 2010
Here's a recipe I invented for healthy fake chocolate ice cream:
*frozen fruit (berries, cherries, and mango for me)
Blend until you get the consistency of soft-serve ice cream. Now, if only I had the motivation to actually measure and track the ingredients, I'd be onto something!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
I weighed myself this morning for the first time in a week or two. Not good. Not going to share, either.
I get a boost of motivation when I read diet books. I read one yesterday at Barnes & Noble called _I Can Make You Thin_ by Paul McKenna. Right away I was suspicious of the hypnosis CD, but the book was short so I read it. The plan has four rules:
1. Eat when you're hungry.
2. Eat what you want, not what you think you should.
3. Eat consciously and enjoy every mouthful.
4. Stop when you think you're full.
I told my husband about it and all he had to say was, "You could never do that." Maybe his reaction is exactly the reason I SHOULD do something like this. I haven't decided yet.
This coming week is school vacation week and I really want to have a plan of action by early in the week so I can start implementing SOMETHING and feeling good about myself. I feel so ugly right now and my self-esteem is so low. I think I have two whole different ways of thinking and acting, depending on whether I'm on or off track. I don't want to dwell on the negative right now though.
Two absolute givens: I must try to get more sleep and I must drink more water. Oh, and a third given: I must eat more slowly.
When I was on track, I would never eat without having water or tea. I would take sips between bites and eat more slowly because I knew I wasn't going to allow myself unlimited food so I had to make what food I did have last.
I should make a list of things I did when I was on track. I should also try to figure out why I let myself get off track. You'd think it would be a basic question - it's all behavior afterall, shouldn't I know why I choose to behave the way I do??
Jess and I went to Fresh City for lunch - we'd never been there before. We didn't notice until after we ordered that they had a computer near the entrance where you could look up nutrition information. We didn't use it, but Jess asked me to look up the info as soon as we got home. He was sure that his salmon burrito would be lower-calorie than my Cancun burrito (chicken, guacamole, rice, beans, cheese, salsa, low-carb tortilla) but it turned out that mine was the lower-calorie option - 550ish? I think vs. his 750ish. I had guessed that his would be about 600 and mine 700. Plus he had a sweetened iced tea and chips, and I just had a water. But I had breakfast and Jess didn't. As we were finishing our lunches a waitress came around with samples of a fruit smoothie - I took one but since I'd been eating slowly - consciously putting my burrito down between most bites and taking a sip of water - I was full! So I took some of the tin foil from my burrito and wrapped my smoothie and it's still in the fridge at home.
I think I should practice leaving some food behind. I could be the president of the clean plate club - I really go to extremes, I would never leave behind a single grain of rice, it's embarrassing.
One more thing for now - lately on Spark I've spent far more time reading other people's blogs than focusing on myself. I need to get a bit selfish and write blogs that are just for me, without worrying about whether they'll be interesting to anyone else, or about whether I'll be embarrassed to say everything I want to say. (There have been times lately I've felt tempted to write to myself privately without posting my thoughts in a blog..though I haven't actually done that.)
I'll write again soon. I feel like I'm on the verge of making a positive change.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
I found this fascinating. There are over 100 photos, each captioned with the person's height, weight, BMI, and BMI category (underweight, normal, overweight, obese, or morbidly obese). Many of the "overweight" people looked normal to me (and to my husband), and one obese man toward the end didn't even look heavy. The underweight people looked so frail. Is a person's BMI an indicator of their health? Of their best look? I'm not so sure. I remember when I first heard of the concept of BMI (years ago) I thought it was an oversimplification because it was based on nothing more than height and weight. My weight is always straddling the line between "normal" and "overweight." I much prefer being "normal," of course, but even when I'm "overweight" my mom tells me I look thin. :)
Sunday, April 04, 2010
OK, still no "plan," still kind of okay with that. Yesterday I went for a jog (through a proper neighborhood this time, no honks!). Then my husband and I went to the gym and did strength training (and I was lucky I didn't give myself a concussion when I didn't properly rack my barbell after a set of chest presses, luckily I ducked but boy was my yelp embarrassing!). Then I asked him if he was going to do cardio, which for him usually consists of 15-20 minutes on the recumbant bike. He told me he had an idea - he wanted to walk around the pond at Wellesley College! I've been there for jogs several times on my own, but he's never gone there with me before, so I was excited. We made a bet about how many cute dogs we'd see and I won (prize - dinner paid for by the loser). After the walk we went into downtown Wellesley which is adorable - he bought some cheese and crackers from a specialty cheese shop that had a really bad stink, and I bought a birthday card for my aunt at a gift store. Then we went to Starbucks where I had a tall (cute cup - I'm used to venti) skinny iced latte and a Greek yogurt parfait, and he had one of those bottled smoothies and his cheese and crackers, and we people-watched. Then a friend called and invited us to come over for a BBQ, but we already had plans to go to the grocery store and buy stuff (on him, remember?) to make "Mexican" salad, and we had DVDs....plus there were going to be a bunch of screaming little kids at my friend's. So we decided to hang in last night. Our salad consisted of red leaf lettuce, a red pepper, a tomato, mango, shrimp sauteed in cajun seasoning (aka salt, oh well), shredded cheese, black olives, and salsa for dressing. I also put beans and avocado on mine, but those are two items Jess HATES. We also had a few sushi rolls and a Malbec I'd bought Jess for his birthday the other day along with a decanter, which we put the Malbec in. The dinner was so healthy and delicious, and I couldn't finish my huge salad. I went to put my leftovers in a container for the fridge, and Jess commented that wasn't like me! (I usually don't have leftovers because I eat like a pig!) I said I was learning from him - he does that all the time. Only this time, he DID finish his salad.
I'm down 1.4 pounds today, going to the gym now before Easter dinner with Jess's family!
Saturday, April 03, 2010
I still don't have a PLAN, but I'm feeling better. Yesterday was my best day, eating-wise, in several weeks, even though my grand total was over 2,700 calories and my weight stayed exactly the same today. The weather was beautiful so we went to a restaurant with an outdoor patio for dinner, and I hemmed and hawed over what to get until I finally decided to make the choice I'd be most proud of - the sesame salmon salad. (I also had a blueberry beer.) I know that I ate healthy yesterday and even though I'm still well over my maintainence weight, I'm feeling good. Getting wonderfully long nights' sleep because it's the weekend helps too!! I wish I could sleep this much every day - life would be great!
Men often honk at me while I'm jogging...and I usually take it lightly - just some harmless fun flirting. I have a friend who goes for walks during her lunch hour and she told me they honk at her too even when she's wearing something as un-sexy as a sweater and work pants. Well, yesterday I was jogging along the side of the road when a car full of guys came along with the windows open and one of them called something out...couldn't hear the whole thing with my music going, but it ended in "baby." THEN, they actually slowed down and came to a stop a few feet ahead of me!! This was a little troubling - what the heck were they planning on doing?? Thank goodness another car came along and they had to start driving again. I'm also a little sensitive because I'm still wearing my same workout clothes as before even though I have several extra pounds on me, so I'm not exactly at my highest self-esteem level right now, and I'm wondering how large my butt looks in my fitted workout pants to drivers coming up from behind me. Man. Just wanted to get that out there.
Anyway, we're supposed to have a record-breakingly gorgeous weekend here...we deserve it after all the flooding we've been having - and my hubs and I are heading out to enjoy! (Well, after we go to the gym.) Have a great Saturday everyone!
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