Friday, April 02, 2010
I didn't stick to my challenge rules. On Tuesday night I ate too much and then I got stuck in the "I've already blown it" mindset. I have the day off from school today, and I slept in 3.5 hours later than I would have if I'd had to go to school. I know that being tired is part of the reason why my plan didn't work, but I'm frustrated because I TRIED to get enough sleep this past week...I just couldn't always will myself to fall asleep when I wanted to.
Despite some not-so-great choices, my weight is down a bit from my last post, to 157.4. Yesterday I went to Barnes & Noble and read a few chapters of the latest diet book, _The Skinny_. Something about reading the intro to a diet book always gives me a boost of motivation, even if I don't fully agree with what I'm reading! Basically the author was saying that people with weight problems have a messed-up system for feeling hungry/full, and that if you're struggling with overeating it's not your fault because powerful biological forces are screaming at you to eat. I don't know if this is true, but I do know that I eat past the point where I know I should stop a lot of the time, and I can't explain why other than to say that it feels good, and it doesn't feel good to be hungry. Then again, it doesn't feel good to be overly stuffed either, but before I notice the "stuffed" feeling, the "eating" feeling tends to be nice.
Anyway, the book's solution to this "fullness resistance" is setting up your eating patterns to make you feel fuller. The author says you should do things like eat protein at breakfast, eat lots of vegetables, and avoid processed stuff. While I agree with all of that, I don't think it's a permanent solution because I DO eat that way when I'm on track, but I STILL manage to fall off track. That idea frustrated me, but I still got the boost of motivation that I was hoping for. When I was finished reading, I went to the grocery store and bought only healthy food, came home and had a salad for dinner, and then went for a run and some strength training.
I am trying to figure out what approach will work best for me - now, most importantly, but also long-term. So many options...I could make food plans ahead of time and stick with them rigidly, or eat whatever I want but track it all, or try to eat mindfully without tracking, or I could do something that is in between any of those approaches. I could aim for quick weightloss with a low calorie level, maintainence with a higher calorie level, or somewhere in between. I could just put off making these decisions and just live my life and see what happens. I'm feeling pretty indecisive right now.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Purpose: Experience tells me that some small success often leads to much more success. Therefore, I'm giving myself a completely doable yet challenging program that will help me get back to healthy behaviors, lose a few of the pounds I've recently put back on, and feel motivation to continue.
Timeframe: NOW (Tuesday afternoon) through Friday night.
*Track everything I eat.
*Pre-track whenever possible (in other words, plan it out in the nutrition tracker ahead of time). The only times this will not be possible are tonight, when I'm going to my parents' seder, and possibly one dinner out to celebrate my husband's birthday. (We already went out on Saturday night with the family, but his birthday is actually tomorrow so if he wants to go out with just me, I will take him out!)
*When I do eat out, make good choices and track afterwards.
*No food from the teachers' room.
*No going to a grocery store or convenience store to buy binge food.
*No eating Jess' food.
*No eating anything that would pull me off course, period!
*Stay under 2,500 calories per day. (Baby steps...)
*General template: fruit smoothie (no extra nuts or chocolate) for breakfast, unlimited (within reason, of course) morning/early afternoon coffee (be done before 2 p.m.) but maximum of 1 cup of milk or soymilk, two pouches of almonds, 1 apple, 1 orange, 1 grapefruit for snacks, 1 lunch serving plus vegetables, 1 dinner serving, NO EXTRA FOOD!!!!!
*Cardio minimum 60 minutes per day with the exception of today (seder) unless I manage to squeeze it in somehow...
*Strength training daily, usual routines (same possible exception for today).
*Daily blog to 1) confirm that I am following the rules, 2) post my weight, and 3) talk about any struggles that I experience. For example, I am sure that when I see some junk in the teachers room I will be very tempted, and after work I will be extremely tempted to keep eating beyond 2,500 calories. I will blog about those struggles and getting past them!
So here goes...sigh...I weighed 160.6 this morning. Yikes. Before I started this challenge I did have one chocolate caramel candy from the front office (no junk allowed from there either! or from anywhere!). Other than that, however, I have eaten healthfully today. I am hungry now but will have one of my healthy snacks. I am worried about sticking to just good choices tonight at the seder, but I will. One reasonably-sized serving of each item tonight. Drink water, and stop eating when I'm full! (And don't RESTART eating later, either!) I'll be proud of myself, Jess will be proud of me, and I'll be happy to get on the scale tomorrow morning for a change!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, March 29, 2010
I think I went 11-12 miles yesterday, plus strength training!
*SparkPeople core video - 10 mins at home
*Jog outside - 23 mins - probably about 2 miles
*Walk outside with hubs - about 1.5 miles
*Chest strength training at gym - about 20 mins
*Elliptical at gym - 65 mins, almost 7 miles
*Walked the long way home from gym - almost 1.5 miles
Then I made dinner - a healthy salad with homemade dressing and.....er....meatball subs. Some good and some bad. Weight doesn't seem to come off of me unless I'm 100 percent good though. Sigh!
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Wow, I guess race season has started - I just read race reports on about five different blogs! People are running their first races, their fastest races...even just getting out there would be so much better than what I've been up to. I need to quit my whining and just do it - live the life of the person I want to be.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
There's something about new beginnings...a fresh start, a new chance. Especially on a Saturday morning in early spring when the sun is shining - there's just so much potential there. Today could be the day I take on the world. Do my taxes. Finish my thank-you notes. Spend time with my mother. Go out for an epic run. Or... get back on track with my eating.
Then time rolls on. There are appointments that get in the way of the ideal day, there are snatches of wasted time that leave me surprised and guilty when I look at the clock, laziness. There's hunger and instant gratification. A less-than-perfect choice, perhaps followed by another. The day's been tainted.
Did anybody see "Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution" last night? Jamie Oliver is a British chef who is visiting what is apparently the least healthy town in the United States to encourage healthier eating. He emphasized fresh, natural foods over processed junk. I completely agree that natural is better, but that's not my problem at all. My problem is quantity. I can stuff my face full of too much fruit, whole grain, fat-free organic dairy, wild Alaskan salmon, raw nuts........... it's incredibly healthy food, but it's not healthy at all when you eat too much of it.
Random blog entry I'm coming up with here! Just a couple other totally disconnected thoughts I'd like to share. One, I was down almost four pounds today for absolutely no reason, woohoo. Two, I think I need to come up with a challenge for myself to get back on track. Okay, one more thought. I wonder if I will EVER be fully permanently on track, or will I ALWAYS be either on or off the wagon with recent memories of the other side??
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