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Monday, March 08, 2010

I'm kind of just writing now because I'm stuck supervising Homework Club in another teacher's classroom and I'm incredibly bored. So forgive me if this is the most boring blog entry ever...

I discovered I was eating about 200 fewer calories per day last week than I thought, because I was entering the wrong number of almonds in my snacks. However, my calories were still well over 2,000 most days and even close to 3,000 on some. It is such an amazing thing to eat my maintanence level of calories. Eating too few calories is necessary for weight loss, but it definitely doesn't feel good - it leaves me feeling weak, tired, and hungry. Eating too many calories is a bad habit I've had in the past, but that doesn't feel good either! It makes me feel tired, stuffed, and guilty. My maintanence level is the best level for feeling good physically and having the most energy. With maintanence sometimes you feel a little full and sometimes you feel a little hungry, but never for long. Of course, taking care of yourself in other ways matters too...I didn't get enough sleep last night so I'm feeling especially hungry today! Luckily I recognize this feeling and realize it isn't true hunger - being tired always makes me THINK I'm hungry.

I feel like I am regressing a little bit and feel like a teenager again - maybe it's subconscious rebellion against feeling like being a "wife" equals being "old"?? I've been wanting to stay out late doing things like rollerblading at the rink, karaoke, dancing, drinking, flirting (mostly with my husband, hehe). Maybe it's all this extra energy I have, too. While it's a lot of fun and sometimes even good exercise (my butt was pretty sore yesterday - delayed onset muscle soreness from skating Friday!), it's not good for my healthy lifestyle to mess up my sleeping habits. So to make up for it I'm going bar-hopping during the day next weekend for St. Patrick's Day - always huge here in Boston! Hehe. See what I mean? I'm acting like I'm 21 years old.

Finally time to go home, yay!

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MEGSFITNESS 3/9/2010 1:59PM

    Lol I love your enthusiasm for life. Being married doesn't mean you have to be boring =P

I like reading your discoveries about the maintenance stage :) I can't wait until I get there.

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STEPHANON 3/8/2010 10:10PM

    I have times when I want to act like a teeny-bopper again, too. :) So glad to hear that you're happy with what you're eating. For me, eating to maintain was actually harder than eating to lose, because it was hard to reign myself in once I started giving myself a little more freedom.

Oh, and being tired always makes me hungry, too.


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SEEHOLZ 3/8/2010 10:03PM

    I'm so with you on the sleep and "thinking" I'm hungry.. i hate that feeling... it got me in trouble one too many times...
Have fun being 21! There is no reason to not live it up... you know, within reason of course-LOL- truth is that I haven't been a big drinker for a long time, but I always went out dancing, until I started running long on the week-ends. Now, that I don't do that currently, I feel like it doesnt' bother me to stay out late... as much.. even though midnight is my antsy time, haha.. I figure let the kiddies and drunks have the fun then.. and truth is that I need to go out dancing.. just don't seem to get around to it=LOL= being out of the habit and all-LOL! You are so right about having extra energy... I wished I could bare to stand to be without it... maybe I'd actually loose some weight...

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MARATHONER340 3/8/2010 7:00PM

    I still feel like my body is messed up from being out late drinking on Saturday night! Seems it takes me so much longer to recover than when I was 21! But hey, you have to act like a kid once in awhile! ;) Glad maintenance is still treaing you well!

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MBSHAZZER 3/8/2010 5:50PM

    Sleep is SOOOO important! I'm the biggest freak about sleep. If I don't get good sleep, I can't eat right or exercise!

I like the daytime barhopping. I like doing that b/c then you have time to drink enough water and get .... a good night's sleep! Making the next day less horrific!

Enjoy St. Pats!

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ZIRCADIA 3/8/2010 4:08PM

    I LOVE when I learned that not getting enough sleep made me feel hungry. For some reason, knowing the reason helps me deal. Like when I know I'm feeling crazy because of TOM I'm like -- oh. Ok that makes sense, moving on. HAHAHA :D And yeah -- I'm trying to visualize my sore muscles as muscles that are currently in repair to build up stronger! *RAWR*!

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A Few Favorite Wedding Photos

Saturday, March 06, 2010

In my mid-20s my best friend and I used to go to a roller skating rink every Wednesday night - yes, of course it was very retro even back then - but then life got in the way and we stopped going. Well, we finally made it back to the rink last night and it was SO MUCH FUN! Very crowded with children and teens, but that just added to the excitement. :) I could skate as fast as a teenage boy, woohoo! I entered the "girls 16+" race and probably came in about third place or so. Then afterwards we went to a bar with a live band and I danced the night away! I guesstimate I ate about 2800 calories yesterday...and didn't go to the gym...but I weighed exactly the same today that I did yesterday! :)

Today is just GORGEOUS. I went for an amazing jog at a nearby college, and saw a 14-week-old Maltese, which just makes me melt. We really wanted to see Avatar at IMAX tonight, but they stopped showing it. We snooze, we lose. :(

A few differences I've already discovered between weight loss and weight maintanence:
*More energy! You're exercising a lot... and eating more than when you lose, less than when you binge, so you feel just right!
*More self-esteem - it's very powerful to say "I'm not perfect (who is), but I'm thrilled with where my weight is right now and I want to stay just the way I am."
*Track when you feel you need to, but it doesn't have to be as careful on just a regular old day.

I think I am going to love maintanence once I finally get the hang of it. Yay!

PS - Almost forgot! I just want to throw the idea out there that maybe I won't enter a road race right for a race is kind of stressful, and I'm really just enjoying exercising for FUN right now! Will decide later.

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V-RON_CAN 3/8/2010 10:29PM

    you are a beautiful bride and your optimism is inspiring!

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STEPHANON 3/8/2010 10:12PM

    Nice pics! The fourth from the top is my fave, too. :) And I love that you went roller skating! I go to the "adult skate" every Tuesday night at my local rink, and I love it.

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MEGSFITNESS 3/8/2010 10:14AM

    I loved this post :D Way to rock out, girlie :D SEE? You don't have to be activly losing weight to be a great motivator :)

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    You are fabulous my friend!! I love how positive you are : )

Keep shining!!


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KATYMARIA 3/7/2010 3:23PM

    You guys are so cute! And I love your dress, very simple and classic :)

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MBSHAZZER 3/7/2010 11:38AM

    I love those photos!!! You guys look so happy! And your roller derby night sounds fun. And guess what?? Eating a bit more than usual once in a while WON'T make you gain weight! So glad you are discovering this b/c the diet mentality is way too hard to live with full time!

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LIL_EZZY 3/7/2010 5:19AM

    I have said it before you just looked stunningly beautiful and I am so happy for you. I am even happier that you are feeling good about where you are and your weight and that you are just exercising for FUN god forbid. Love your blogs love you.

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    Awesome post, and oh my gosh you made such a gorgeous bride!

It's great that you are exercising just for the fun of it. I am slowly learning from you.

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    Such an upbeat post!! Loved it!

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SPARKNMOM 3/6/2010 8:48PM

    Gorgeous pics. Wonderful thoughts on it. And as for the road race...good for you for just running for the enjoyment of it. Races keep me faithfully training, as I am fearful of going into a race rock :)

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KJNE8O 3/6/2010 8:25PM

    You can always just do a race for fun and the t-shirt and not worry about where you place :)

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JENONTHEROX 3/6/2010 7:26PM

    You're in such a great place :)
Love the 4th pic from the top, such pure genuine happiness caught there. You make a beautiful bride & a stunning couple!
hope you're having a GREAT weekend!

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BOOTS1221 3/6/2010 6:04PM

    Oooh I love roller skating! I used to competitively do figure roller skating! What rink did you go to?

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 3/6/2010 5:48PM

    You ARE AWESOME! You are my new role model! And you look STUNNING in your photos, you SHOULD feel great about where you are!

The skating rink sounds like so much fun :)!

Thanks for being such a great sparkfriend emoticon

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MARATHONER340 3/6/2010 5:05PM

    Sounds like you're in a great place right now! Enjoy maintenence - and exercising for fun! That's the way it should be!

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    your pics were great. thanks for sharing. i love maintenance too. as much as i would like to lose the 10 lbs again i am not sure being 130 is worth the hunger pangs, fatigue and b!tch i become lol. wow, i don't know the last time i roller skated on 4 wheel roller skates. maybe you should do roller derby?

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JOPAPGH 3/6/2010 4:54PM

    You two look beautiful!

BIG thumbs up for exercising for the fun of it!!

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Plugging away at maintanence..

Friday, March 05, 2010

Just a quick note to say that I'm eating right, had my first almost-2500 calorie day yesterday, exercising lots, and my binge weight quickly came off and I'm back in what I guess is going to be my maintanence range.

Have a fantastic weekend!!

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DRAGONFLY180 3/6/2010 12:22PM

    you look beautiful!

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ROGUE_1 3/5/2010 10:35PM

    Way to go, I'm proud of you for getting back on track! You look amazing!

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SPARKNMOM 3/5/2010 9:28PM

    Wow - gorgeous pic and sounds like your doing fabulously!!

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ZIRCADIA 3/5/2010 6:23PM

    GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!! :D I've removed all my blog subscriptions to try to simplify things and I'm visiting people when they comment on my blog. MISSED YOU!! Now I'm gonna go read the past few blogs but YAY on everything in this one! :D

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SEEHOLZ 3/5/2010 1:43PM

    Great news!

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MBSHAZZER 3/5/2010 9:29AM

    WHOOOO!!!! Doing great!

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FITGIRL15 3/5/2010 9:03AM

    Great to hear, Susan! Your current weight looks great on you!!!

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    Good to hear. Maintaining is the hardest part!

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Maintanence Measures

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

First, I just have to say how incredibly grateful I am for my Spark friends. I got so many supportive comments on yesterday's emergency-style blog, and not a single person made me feel bad or weird or embarrassed about what I'd done or the fact that I needed help. THANK YOU. I am SO proud to say that I successfully nipped the binge in the bud and am back on track! I am so determined to make now the time that I finally learn weight maintanence skills. Here are some of the measures I'm taking:
*Talking openly about my struggles with my Spark friends, my husband, my mom, and my closest friends so I can get the support I need.
*Finding other ways to give myself treats rather than overeating. For example, yesterday I went to Dunkin Donuts in the afternoon and bought myself a small decaf French vanilla coffee with skim milk and a Splenda. I didn't really need it, but it was a much more weight-friendly treat than many other choices I could easily come up with!!
*Increasing my regular daily calorie level sooner rather than later. I'm on board to be slightly over 2,200 today and will further increase to about 2,500 to see what happens there. Even if it does make me gain a little, which I really don't think it will, it's so much better to be eating a controlled and healthy 2,500 calories than an out of control mystery number of calories that would inevitably include a lot of junk food!
*Along those same lines, I'm quite officially over one of my old stumbling blocks - the idea of always wanting to lose more weight, never being satisfied with where I am. I used to have a goal weight of 130, but honestly I weighed around 145 on my wedding day and must admit I think that was just fine! Being emotionally ready to maintain rather than attempt to lose will free me up to REALLY practice maintanence strategies for a long-term outlook.
*Related to that, it also seems to help to often look at pictures of myself at my maintanence level to remind myself of why I'm taking these efforts - to keep this up! This goes along with wearing nice clothes that I can only fit into when I'm at my maintanence level and being proud to wear form-fitting workout clothes at the gym! It's shallow for sure, but appearance is one of my major motivating factors! (Being happy and healthy are important too of course.)
*BRUIN2 is right and it's in my plans...but I need to do it sooner rather than later...find a race to train for! Spring's coming and running outside is fun! The other day I ran at the gym, and then afterwards I ran all the way to the mall! The huge rotary near the mall isn't exactly pedestrian-friendly, but I told my husband I was going to start jogging in the direction of the mall and could he please pick me up in his car along the way...well, I got all the way there before he did!

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 3/6/2010 5:51PM

    You totally have it together! This is what I happens when I miss a few blog posts! Thanks for the sensible talk.

On that note, I was already planning to "shop my closet" today, I going to go do that now!

Great plan Susan! Again, thanks for being so awesome!

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ZIRCADIA 3/5/2010 6:31PM

    HAHAHA that is so funny that you made it to the mall before he made it to you. :D Rock on! I'm soooo happy that you are ready for maintenance!! :D You rock! OK I'm looking through ALL of your favorite pictures now -- I like that that is an option since there are nearly 1000 - 349 I can handle. :D hehehe and you look totally gorgeous!!!! Congratulations on a beautiful event as well! UM AND ON BEING MARRIED NOW, you're a WIFE. ;) hehehe. I like being a "wife".

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RA4945 3/4/2010 2:29PM

    What a great blog, Susan! You're exactly right, you looked PERFECT on your wedding day. Why agonize about being smaller? The others said it, ignore those numbers. You know exactly what to do to live a healthy lifestyle and that's all you need to focus on. I can't wait to hear more about your running. You're a natural so put it to good use!

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MEGSFITNESS 3/4/2010 10:45AM

    I'm so happy to hear that you're not going to be focused on losing because, honey, you look absolutely stunning. You're at what appears to be the right weight for your frame.

Way to run to the mall! Lol that's a great place to run to... you can do your cool-down by window shopping haha.

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CARILOUIE 3/4/2010 6:14AM

    Numbers, schmumbers.
You look fabulous!

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    You go, gurrrl! You rocked that dress too, btw! Congrats on being a Mrs. now ; ) I'm sorry I'm late. I'm so proud of you! You inspire me! In fact, in an hour... I'll be putting that inspiration into practice!

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SEEHOLZ 3/3/2010 5:32PM

    I love this blog! It's sooo proactive, right on and totally doable!

I agree with the others that you looked fabulous on your wedding day- who cares about the #?!

You are HOT!

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MARATHONER340 3/3/2010 12:41PM

    That sounds like a great plan Susan! And I think you look great right where you are - no need to get down into the 130s! My old "goal weight" was 130, too...but I really don't think I can realistically maintain a weight that low - and frankly I'm feeling ok at 145!

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MBSHAZZER 3/3/2010 11:59AM

    Susan, you're doing great! I also think that the "diet mentality" is so pervasive in our culture, it's really difficult to NOT think you *should* be losing more weight. But people's healthy weights are all over the board, and if you can maintain at this weight without resorting to starving, overexercising, denying yourself, etc, etc, than THIS is your healthy weight! And you looked DAMN good on your wedding day, so who cares what the scale says!

Way to go!

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TERRIANGEL 3/3/2010 10:36AM

    You're there, girl! Maintenance, meet Susan. Susan - Maintenance. Stick around for a while! :)

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BRUIN2 3/3/2010 9:26AM



Can't wait to hear about the race you find!

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BOOTS1221 3/3/2010 9:19AM

    Great measures Susan! You can do this. You have all the support & tools you need to continue, and we are always here for you. You looked aaaabsolutely stunning in your wedding dress, I hope I can look half that amazing on my day!!!

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Tuesday, March 02, 2010

Full disclosure - I have been in all-out binge mode the past few days, and I am nipping it in the bud this time BEFORE I gain back all the weight like I have done so many times before. I am back on track today and can really use the support of my Spark friends! I even asked my mom to tell me all the reasons why I shouldn't binge tonight!

This is me on my honeymoon about to board a little 9-passenger plane to Culebra to see some of the world's most beautiful beaches! I won't look like this anymore if I keep bingeing!

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MEGSFITNESS 3/4/2010 9:55AM

    I think Bruin2 said it pretty well :D You need new inspiration!

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SEEHOLZ 3/3/2010 5:29PM

    I'm with Breigh- NEW GOAL girl! You can do this Susan!!!

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RAWKNRUN 3/3/2010 10:48AM

  Lets stop this together, I am in the same mode, I have seen my scale drop lately and that prompted a binge.. it stops NOW.

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TERRIANGEL 3/3/2010 10:32AM

    Oh, you can do it, honey. And what a cute picture!!

Where is Culebra??

Silvano and I are headed to the Dominican Republic tomorrow morning for 7 nights of anniversary bliss. Aaaaahhhh...I am NOT bathing suit ready, but WHO CARES?! (well, I do, but not that much) :)

Keep up the good work, girl.

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MARATHONER340 3/2/2010 10:54PM

    I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND! I did the same thing after my wedding! And of course it does take some time to gain the weight I kept thinking...oh...scales hardly gone up...I guess I'll just keep binging...eventually it caught up! You worked so hard and looked so good for your wedding - I know you can keep it up! Don't worry about dropping more weight - but just try to maintain for now! YOU CAN DO IT! There is really no good reason for binging! (if only I could listen to my own advice! ha! )

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SPARKNMOM 3/2/2010 9:13PM

    Yup - it doesn't take long to pack it on and forever to get it back off. Good for you for nipping it in the bud!! No more bingeing!! Sending positive thoughts and strength your way.

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STEFANIE822 3/2/2010 8:32PM

    DONT DO IT!!!!!!!!!!! You have worked WAY too hard for that kick ass body and amazing attitude Susan!!

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CRYSBROWN1 3/2/2010 8:11PM

    Just say NO! Down with the binging! I have to agree with BRUIN2 though maybe a new goal would be a good idea to keep you motivated to make the right choices...hang in there, it isn't easy!

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BRUIN2 3/2/2010 6:18PM

    You need a new goal!!

Wedding planning is all-encompassing - and when it's over, most women go through the post-wedding blues... SO - curb those blues, and the binges.

Time to sign up for that road race and get your tushie training for it!!! Plan your meals, do your batch cooking, slam your water.

Be the best you you can be! (hehe - did I steal that from an army recruiting commercial?)

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STEPHANON 3/2/2010 6:03PM

    You can do this! It's tough to start once it stops, but YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF YOUR BODY - not the other way around. You have the power to do the right thing! That picture of you is HOT HOT HOT! Don't waste all your hard work and lose out on that smokin' body you've worked so hard for!
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RBNSMI 3/2/2010 5:34PM

    I think only you can answer the question of why you should not binge tonight. Another suggestion I can give you is to ask yourself why do you?? You say you have been down this road many times before as most of us have. You say you don't want to travel this road again. I try and figure out what cause all this to begin with. Food is a comfort for so many people but there is an underlying problem behind it. I have a big problem with eating and found out the reason why is because I have a lung disease and when I eat it makes my breathing worse. Dietican and nutritionist have told me I am starving myself I eat most days once a day. So I know what the problem is and now I have to learn to take a different approach. I am going to ask you why do you binge is there something behind it?? Have you ever thought about it. I wish you the best tonight and I am sure you will make the right decision. Right now you are beautiful and healthy and you want to stay that way. emoticon We have to remember we have to eat to live and not live to eat. Look at you on your pic. You look so happy and you want to stay that way. You will only feel miserablre when you are done on your binge. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CGRESS2 3/2/2010 5:26PM


Hey its tough, but find an alternative for yourself. If I don't binge, I will give myself...

I'm new at this stuff, but if I keep the food on the table, I will keep crazing. SOOOO put it away after you fill your plate with one serving.

Yes you want to keep looking so awesome as you do in the honeymoon picture!

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    I went on a binge this last weekend too. :( But I am trying to refocus my thoughts to look at food as, it is healthy or it is cellulite on my hinny! emoticon emoticon

Now, I am not perfect at this watching my calories or I would not be telling you about my overeating. In fact it took me a lot of practice to get this round and delicious. emoticon
It is going to take me time to get to the thin and delicious! emoticon

What I am trying to say is, don't beat yourself up, just step back up and try, try again! Until you have become an expert at this, "not over eating" plan.

emoticon emoticon emoticon I am here for you!

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MBSHAZZER 3/2/2010 5:20PM

    Back away from the fork! Just put it down! :D You can do it!

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