Monday, March 08, 2010
I'm kind of just writing now because I'm stuck supervising Homework Club in another teacher's classroom and I'm incredibly bored. So forgive me if this is the most boring blog entry ever...
I discovered I was eating about 200 fewer calories per day last week than I thought, because I was entering the wrong number of almonds in my snacks. However, my calories were still well over 2,000 most days and even close to 3,000 on some. It is such an amazing thing to eat my maintanence level of calories. Eating too few calories is necessary for weight loss, but it definitely doesn't feel good - it leaves me feeling weak, tired, and hungry. Eating too many calories is a bad habit I've had in the past, but that doesn't feel good either! It makes me feel tired, stuffed, and guilty. My maintanence level is the best level for feeling good physically and having the most energy. With maintanence sometimes you feel a little full and sometimes you feel a little hungry, but never for long. Of course, taking care of yourself in other ways matters too...I didn't get enough sleep last night so I'm feeling especially hungry today! Luckily I recognize this feeling and realize it isn't true hunger - being tired always makes me THINK I'm hungry.
I feel like I am regressing a little bit and feel like a teenager again - maybe it's subconscious rebellion against feeling like being a "wife" equals being "old"?? I've been wanting to stay out late doing things like rollerblading at the rink, karaoke, dancing, drinking, flirting (mostly with my husband, hehe). Maybe it's all this extra energy I have, too. While it's a lot of fun and sometimes even good exercise (my butt was pretty sore yesterday - delayed onset muscle soreness from skating Friday!), it's not good for my healthy lifestyle to mess up my sleeping habits. So to make up for it I'm going bar-hopping during the day next weekend for St. Patrick's Day - always huge here in Boston! Hehe. See what I mean? I'm acting like I'm 21 years old.
Finally time to go home, yay!
Saturday, March 06, 2010
In my mid-20s my best friend and I used to go to a roller skating rink every Wednesday night - yes, of course it was very retro even back then - but then life got in the way and we stopped going. Well, we finally made it back to the rink last night and it was SO MUCH FUN! Very crowded with children and teens, but that just added to the excitement. :) I could skate as fast as a teenage boy, woohoo! I entered the "girls 16+" race and probably came in about third place or so. Then afterwards we went to a bar with a live band and I danced the night away! I guesstimate I ate about 2800 calories yesterday...and didn't go to the gym...but I weighed exactly the same today that I did yesterday! :)
Today is just GORGEOUS. I went for an amazing jog at a nearby college, and saw a 14-week-old Maltese, which just makes me melt. We really wanted to see Avatar at IMAX tonight, but they stopped showing it. We snooze, we lose. :(
A few differences I've already discovered between weight loss and weight maintanence:
*More energy! You're exercising a lot... and eating more than when you lose, less than when you binge, so you feel just right!
*More self-esteem - it's very powerful to say "I'm not perfect (who is), but I'm thrilled with where my weight is right now and I want to stay just the way I am."
*Track when you feel you need to, but it doesn't have to be as careful on just a regular old day.
I think I am going to love maintanence once I finally get the hang of it. Yay!
PS - Almost forgot! I just want to throw the idea out there that maybe I won't enter a road race right now...training for a race is kind of stressful, and I'm really just enjoying exercising for FUN right now! Will decide later.
Friday, March 05, 2010
Just a quick note to say that I'm eating right, had my first almost-2500 calorie day yesterday, exercising lots, and my binge weight quickly came off and I'm back in what I guess is going to be my maintanence range.
Have a fantastic weekend!!
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
First, I just have to say how incredibly grateful I am for my Spark friends. I got so many supportive comments on yesterday's emergency-style blog, and not a single person made me feel bad or weird or embarrassed about what I'd done or the fact that I needed help. THANK YOU. I am SO proud to say that I successfully nipped the binge in the bud and am back on track! I am so determined to make now the time that I finally learn weight maintanence skills. Here are some of the measures I'm taking:
*Talking openly about my struggles with my Spark friends, my husband, my mom, and my closest friends so I can get the support I need.
*Finding other ways to give myself treats rather than overeating. For example, yesterday I went to Dunkin Donuts in the afternoon and bought myself a small decaf French vanilla coffee with skim milk and a Splenda. I didn't really need it, but it was a much more weight-friendly treat than many other choices I could easily come up with!!
*Increasing my regular daily calorie level sooner rather than later. I'm on board to be slightly over 2,200 today and will further increase to about 2,500 to see what happens there. Even if it does make me gain a little, which I really don't think it will, it's so much better to be eating a controlled and healthy 2,500 calories than an out of control mystery number of calories that would inevitably include a lot of junk food!
*Along those same lines, I'm quite officially over one of my old stumbling blocks - the idea of always wanting to lose more weight, never being satisfied with where I am. I used to have a goal weight of 130, but honestly I weighed around 145 on my wedding day and must admit I think that was just fine! Being emotionally ready to maintain rather than attempt to lose will free me up to REALLY practice maintanence strategies for a long-term outlook.
*Related to that, it also seems to help to often look at pictures of myself at my maintanence level to remind myself of why I'm taking these efforts - to keep this up! This goes along with wearing nice clothes that I can only fit into when I'm at my maintanence level and being proud to wear form-fitting workout clothes at the gym! It's shallow for sure, but appearance is one of my major motivating factors! (Being happy and healthy are important too of course.)
*BRUIN2 is right and it's in my plans...but I need to do it sooner rather than later...find a race to train for! Spring's coming and running outside is fun! The other day I ran at the gym, and then afterwards I ran all the way to the mall! The huge rotary near the mall isn't exactly pedestrian-friendly, but I told my husband I was going to start jogging in the direction of the mall and could he please pick me up in his car along the way...well, I got all the way there before he did!
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Full disclosure - I have been in all-out binge mode the past few days, and I am nipping it in the bud this time BEFORE I gain back all the weight like I have done so many times before. I am back on track today and can really use the support of my Spark friends! I even asked my mom to tell me all the reasons why I shouldn't binge tonight!
This is me on my honeymoon about to board a little 9-passenger plane to Culebra to see some of the world's most beautiful beaches! I won't look like this anymore if I keep bingeing!
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