Thursday, March 22, 2007
I did two hours on the elliptical this afternoon, level 14, at a good pace. My heart rate stayed around 140-155, I was sweating, and by the end the machine said I'd burned over 1,600 calories. Whatever. I'm still going to eat a small, super-duper healthy dinner. Haven't decided what yet. Maybe a smoothie.
"They" say you shouldn't let your weight dictate your mood, but I can't help it. I was strict yesterday and it paid off. Today I'm back to 146.0, which is my lowest so far, and at my WW meeting today I was down 2.0 pounds (to 147.2). My "official" total is 17.6 pounds and I have lost the most weight out of anyone in my group, unless one of the absent people has lost more than me. I decided NOT to tell them that I'd actually lost 5 pounds on my own the week before we officially started.
There was some talk about continuing our group past our scheduled end date of May 3. That's great, but I'm also looking forward to trying other meetings. I don't really feel like I can relate with anyone at my meeting - nobody else is following the program quite like I am. People say things like, "I did pretty good, but I did have a few drinks..." and everyone else claps. I'm sorry, but "a few drinks" just isn't part of my program unless these drinks are empty-calorie-free! They also "can't bring themselves" to exercise, or if they do, it's just a short walk around their neighborhood. I mean that's great for some people, but I just know that if I tried to do it halfheartedly like that I would not see progress. They all seem to think I should be "done" anyway. I wish nobody would ever tell me again to stop losing weight. One of my coworkers is 5'7" and weighs 100 pounds. She just told me this the other day. That makes her technically very underweight - her BMI is 15.7 (underweight is less than 18.5), but she is SO fit and strong. My point isn't that I want to have a BMI of 15.7. My point is that she doesn't get harrassed about being underweight, so why should I be harrassed about wanting to get my BMI closer to the middle of the healthy range? I'm just going to stop listening to people about that stuff, because, quite honestly, I have been soaking up every article I could find on weight loss since I was a teenager and think I have an extensive knowledge base, and now that I'm on this website I also know a lot about what I'm doing with my own body on a day-to-day basis. I am my own expert now, for the most part. I want to be the best me I can be, not just some slightly less fat but still overweight Weight Watchers "success story."
Wow, I didn't know I was going to go on a rant, but I guess I felt I needed to. On the positive side, like I was starting to say before, MY VERY HEALTHY program is doing wonders for me. I feel soooooo good. :)