Friday, April 24, 2009
AllieLee1 and I are going to do the New Charles River Run 5K on June 28! We have nine weeks to get ready! This will be her first ever 5K and my fourth (including my two 10Ks it will be my sixth race ever). It's time to set a new PR!!
The route will be great - I love running along the Charles. www.newcharlesriverrun.com/
I was thinking more about what I wrote in yesterday's blog about my goal weight. I am starting to get more excited about 140. It occurred to me (in the shower this morning!) that if I were at 140 most of the time, I could adjust as needed. Say I knew I had a beach weekend coming up - I could go on a mini-diet and get down to 135 or 137 temporarily. Or, for the holidays, I could temporarily reset my goal to 145, and then back to 140 when the craziness is over. That seems like a cool idea - liveable, and much healthier than letting my weight go up and down 30 pounds!!
If I do set my goal weight at 140, that means I have 20 pounds to lose, and I could lose it in 10 weeks and be there by the first weekend in July. Ooh, that's when my boyfriend's sister's wedding is - perfect timing! I will think about this just a bit more, but I feel almost ready to commit!!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
The more I think about it, the more important I think it is to have a goal weight and stick to it. Unfortunately, I'm no more decisive about it now than I have been!
On the one hand, I know I am capable of getting my weight down to the mid-130s because I have been there a few times over the past few years. I also know that at that weight I'm still not totally satisfied...I remember once when I weighed in the mid-130s I thought about resetting my goal to 124, which was the lowest weight recommended for my height in my Weight Watchers booklet. And aside from just numbers, when I'm at that weight I still see some body areas that could use a little improvement. So, when I've been thin, I've never felt like I reached my goal.
On the other hand, I need my goal weight to be something I can live with long-term. I know my priority should be reaching a healthy weight and maintaining it, not always trying to get thinner. It's the healthiest thing to do, and it's probably more realistic for me to maintain something a little higher than the absolute lowest weight I can achieve. I say PROBABLY because I honestly have never been able to maintain at ANY weight in the healthy range...so who knows what I can or cannot actually do. Common sense might suggest that it would be easier for me to maintain 145 than 135, but a) maybe I COULD maintain 135?! and b) maybe I can't even maintain 145. I just don't know.
I just cannot settle my mind on this. I discussed it with my boyfriend yesterday and together we came up with a number - 140. But all the questions were still there after this conversation:
*Is this too low for me to realistically maintain?
*Is this too high for me to realistically feel satisfied with how I look?
*With all the fluctuations my weight has always undergone, is it possible for me to maintain ANY weight?
*Do I really need to set a goal weight right now? And on the flipside, if I don't, am I setting myself up to fall into the same trap I've fallen into twice already, where I keep losing and losing until I snap and gain it all back? Or.. is that destined to happen no matter what?
Needless to say, I did NOT come to peace with a goal weight of 140, so I am still unsure. I was hoping that writing about it might help me sort it out. Or maybe someone will leave me a comment that helps me decide...but then again, I feel so touchy about this stuff, I really feel like the decision has to come from ME.
One thing I have decided on - I will NOT have a goal weight in the 160s. After just two and a half weeks of being on track I'm already below the 160s again, and it wasn't just a fluke yesterday - I'm still at 159.8 today. And considering that the top of my healthy BMI range is 154, and I'm sooo close to that, I don't see myself setting any goal weight higher than 154. So that narrows it down a bit.
I will not decide on a goal weight today... but I will commit to this (please don't laugh - I'm dead serious!): My goal weight WILL be somewhere between 134-154! (134 is the lowest weight I have achieved minus the one day when I hit 132 as a fluke. I have been at 134 multiple times since 2007, but never for very long.)
That's a start...but it's still a huge 20-pound range. I will need to narrow it down to a number, then hit that number, and then ACTUALLY start doing the maintanence thing I've read about and written about so many times where you only let your weight go up three pounds from goal before you go back into "weight-loss mode" to get back. I have never actually tried out a maintanence plan like that. Why would I, when I was always either off track and gaining, or always striving for something lower.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Hmm. I tried to embed a map in my blog, which is a feature I just discovered on mapmyrun.com, but when I went to post, I got an error message: "No HTML Please!" So instead, here is the link to the map.
5.4 MPH average pace (I'm a slooooooooooooooooooooooowpoke)
11:05 avg min/mile (By the way, the winner of the Boston Marathon ran less than five minute miles!!!!)
25.8 BMI :( - workin' on it though.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Just got home from blowing big bucks at Stop & Shop. I know Market Basket is cheaper, but S&S was on my way home and I figured they'd have a bigger selection (that ended up being only partly true though..) So now I'm sitting here eating organic mixed berries with fat-free Greek yogurt and it occurs to me that this is a very healthy snack! (Yeah, I know it has no healthy fat, but I eat raw almonds and walnuts too so gimme a break.)
Now onto the evidence that I am officially crazy: I have the week off from school, so today I met up with my boyfriend at a park near his office for lunch. The skies were very dark and gray, but I had so much fun running in the city last week that I decided I'd do it again, even after the first sprinkles started coming down. At first the rain was light and felt nice, keeping me nice and cool, but after a while it got heavy and I was soaked! Also, I hadn't charged my iPod in a while so after the first few minutes I had no music - I know I know, call the WAHmbulance, right? Running in the city is entertaining enough that I didn't need the music, but it sure would have been nicer.
For any Bostonians out there, here was my route (maybe I'll mapmyrun.com it later on to get the mileage) - it took me 1hr7min, but I wasn't going for speed at all, just fun:
Albany St. to Mass Ave all the way over the bridge into Cambridge, just so I could say I ran in two cities. :) Then up along the river to the next bridge...not positive about the names of these bridges...only to find that the sidewalk was closed on one side so I had to take a huge detour into Cambridge to get to a place where I could cross the street to the sidewalk that wasn't closed. Back in Boston I took Charles Street and then went through Boston Common to Newberry (sp?) Street, then crossed over at some point to Boylston where some guy promoting something called out to me, "Who needs umbrellas, right? We're tough!" :)
Anyway from there I went through Copley Square to Dartmouth Street and then back to my car on Albany Street! My feet are still wet, but I loved it!! Am I crazy or what??
Oh, totally non-Spark related, but as I was driving through Brigham Circle on my way back to the 'burbs, a guy crossed the street in front of my car and I'm just about positive it's a guy I seriously dated my freshman year of college!!! He transferred to a different school our sophomore year and I never saw him since, but his mom and mine still keep in touch (I have NO idea why, I think it's weird) and I know he lives in the area now! I probably last saw him when we were 19 or 20 and we're 31 now!!! But he looked just the same, and he was carrying the same kind of bag he used to carry, one with the big flap holding it closed. I kind of regret not saying hi...(I was in stopped traffic as he walked by), but how weird!!!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I'm back under 160 - 159.6 - yay!
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