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Monday, April 06, 2009

You know, in order for me to be successful, I have to think about this healthy eating stuff (and exercise to a slightly lesser degree) practically constantly!?!?

Yesterday Jess and I went out for lunch. The first place we went had no salads on the menu so we went somewhere else. I had unsweetened iced tea and a salad with mixed greens, GRILLED apple (never had that before), toasted walnuts, mini cherry tomatoes, and feta. (The feta was a substitution...the salad normally comes with gorganzola which I HATE.) I was still a bit hungry after lunch but that was actually a good thing because I exercised right after lunch! We drove to a nearby pond (Jamaica Pond for you Bostonians) and while my lazy@$$ boyfriend sat on a bench (haha, he knows I love him) I jogged around the pond twice for a total of 31 minutes. We then walked a bit together for a total of 43 minutes. It was gorgeous and sunny - a bit cold when the heavy wind hit me until I warmed up though. Jamaica Pond is a really wonderful place to jog with lots of people- and dog-watching to keep you entertained as you go. It's fun to mentally "race" with the other joggers going in the same direction as you (I passed two joggers and got passed by one) and to keep seeing the ones going the opposite direction from you as you pass each other on succeeding laps.

We then did a bit of grocery shopping and had snacks - Jess had ice cream and I had Trader Joe's fat-free Greek yogurt, into which I mixed some berries! Then we went to the gym where I did 30 minutes of lower-body strength training. Wow, after the running my leg muscles fatigued quickly during strength training!

One of my brothers lives in Oregon (until June anyway) and he flew in to Boston yesterday, and then he and my other brother started a huge road trip today, so the only chance we had to all get together as a family was last night. We all met at my parents' house and my mom made this really delicious roasted orange chicken. I wrote down what I ate and used my nutrition tracker to guesstimate the calories. I knew I ate too much...but I also knew I didn't go totally wild I wasn't surprised to see a grand total of 2,727 calories yesterday, which is too much, but not WAY too much. My sodium was also quite high so it was no surprise that my weight is up a bit today - 167.0.

I didn't have time to plan out what I'd eat today in advance, so I'm tracking as I go. I had a fruit smoothie and a cup of coffee for breakfast and an apple for snack.

So far I haven't gotten far enough in to have everything all worked out like I always used to. I like this. I may develop a whole new way of doing things I never thought of before.

I'd like to buy a really good heart rate monitor - I've had two cheapos that both died on me. Any recommendations?

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TERRIANGEL 4/6/2009 9:23PM

    Cool. So glad to see you back, girlfriend!

I love my PolarHRM. No complaints yet!

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STEFANIE822 4/6/2009 2:16PM

    Wow you had quite a day!! You are doing fabulous...keep it up!!

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SILLIANGEL 4/6/2009 1:27PM

    You sound like you're doing wonderfully. Your day sounds fantastic!

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PAMELA984 4/6/2009 1:22PM

    You can do this! The best time to get control of your habits is while you are still young! emoticon (that is me throwing out bad habits!)

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ZIRCADIA 4/6/2009 1:10PM

    Mine is a Polar F4 and it was about $100.00 - LOVE IT. It's the cheapest Polar that tracks cals burned I think. The F6 is almost the same, but it has the "OwnCode" which encodes your transmission so you don't get crosstalk with other HRM's. Unless you want anything more fancy than that I wouldn't go much higher, but Polar has a great comparison chart thingie on their website as well. I haven't ever had any crosstalk problems with my HRM as far as I can tell. It doesn't seem that many people at my gym must use them, but I can foresee it possibly being a problem if I were running in a large race w/ runners up close to me also using HRM's... *shrug* But I opted for cheaper. Congrats on continuing your awareness and steps -- getting in that exercise and choosing healthy options even when it meant leaving one restaurant to go to another! I'm VERY impressed with that!

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SEEHOLZ 4/6/2009 1:04PM

    You seem to be on a role Susan! I think you'll find YOUR way!
As for the HRM: I like the Polar F11- it works for me!

Have a nice Monday!

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KJNE8O 4/6/2009 12:51PM

    In our culture it does take constant thinking and planning to be sure to eat healthy! Sounds like you made some very good choices for yourself.

On the HRM I have the Timex Ironman and love it! It's around $100 for the watch and chest strap. The Polars are good too - just make sure you get one that tracks your calories as some of the HRM's only track the HR - go figure! LOL.

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KMWKENT 4/6/2009 12:39PM

    I braved the scale this morning also. 167 for me as well. Want to do this together? I could use a buddy!

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CHASINGTHENOW 4/6/2009 11:52AM

    I got my HRM from Wal-Mart. It was around 50 bucks, but so far it is still going fine. :-)

Also, a healthy lifestyle does involve thinking about your choices, so don't feel bad about that!


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RA4945 4/6/2009 10:55AM

    Hi Susan, I've been on vacation for over a week and am finally getting caught up. I'm glad to see that you are building momentum. It's always difficult to start over but I know you can do this!! I feel like I'm starting over since vacation. My sister and I ate TERRIBLY and had so much fun doing it! I didn't give calorie counts a 2nd thought and I ate like a pig! So I have a lot of work to do but am looking forward to getting my momentum built back up. Hugs to you! rebecca

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Momentum Building!

Sunday, April 05, 2009

So yesterday, for the first time in a long time, I counted all my calories. I ate first, tracked second, and was very surprised to see that my total came out to over 2,400 calories. I thought I was eating very light and the total would be under 2,000. This is actually a good exercise for me, because when I plan it all out in advance I'm not really learning how to count calories in my head. People always say that eventually you just learn to count automatically and I never did. Now I know why - I was always planning it out in advance. Regardless, I don't think 2,400 calories is too much for me right now... I actually lost some weight already. It's shameful, but I'm finally ready to go public with the numbers. On Friday, I was shocked to see the number 172 on the scale. I hadn't weighed in the 170s since BEFORE I started using SparkPeople...I hadn't seen a number like that since 2006 or maybe even earlier. It was three pounds more than I'd weighed on Thursday too, so I have no idea why it was up so high on Friday.
On Saturday I was back to 168...and today I am back to 165. 165.4 to be precise. I went to use my weight tracker today...last entry 2/09/09 - 143.4. I am such a roller coaster-er! :(

Regardless, it feels good to see my weight going DOWN again, no matter what the number. I know it's just been one day, but I already have visions of being at a healthy attractive weight again, fitting into my clothes, and being psyched about summer coming.

Yesterday I batch-cooked two recipes from Fitness Magazine - the soup and the shrimp dishes I mentioned the other day. It takes so much longer to enter all the calorie info on SP but I have to or my weight keeps going up. I wrote it all down on a piece of paper but I haven't entered it on SP yet.

Non fitness related - last night my boyfriend and I went to the theater! It was a birthday present from me to him. We saw A Bronx Tale and it was excellent! I felt so sophisticated too. :)

Finally, my good friend and former roommate AllieLee1 is now on SparkPeople and I am soooo psyched because this summer we are going to be two hotties on the beach!!!

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STEFANIE822 4/6/2009 8:21AM

    It looks like you are headed in the right direction! Counting calories is really important to me too. Keep your head up!!! You can do this!!

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SEEHOLZ 4/5/2009 7:57PM

    I would caution you to be a calorie counter--- it something that I wished I wouldn't have to be-- I mean, I always think calories and how many more i might get away with or should/should not be eating---it totally ruins the idea of eating when hungry! I know it works for so many, but I guess I'm one of those people that wished she never went on a "diet" either--all those things mess with my head and hence why I'm so screwed up!
I'm glad you're living life and going out to have fun! Life is more than just work and exercise!
Have a great week Susan!

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KENSINGTONC 4/5/2009 6:43PM

    I totally hear you on this one, sista. Counting calories is a necessary evil in my book, but as much as I dislike it I've learned that I have to do it or my weight (and lifestyle) heads in the wrooooong direction. Glad you're back in full force! Keep us updated, and have a super week!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon


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SKYFYRE 4/5/2009 4:33PM

    Glad you are starting to see the scale coming down, it sure does instill some confidence! Look at you trying NEW recipies! That is awesome! (I don't eat anything that swims, it grosses me out, but I know that the rest of the world just loves swimming food!) Keep up the concious eating, it is good for us!

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ZIRCADIA 4/5/2009 4:18PM

    I think I've tracked so much that I know what things are automatically most of the time, or a rough estimate, so I dunno it's kinda weird. But I still think tracking is very useful for me to make sure I'm getting enough protein and things like that. But congrats on coming down some in the weight and feeling the momentum coming back. :) Congrats on having a nice outing with the BF! :D hehe.

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BRUIN2 4/5/2009 3:46PM


I don't count the calories in my head either. I actually like it better that way - I'm still eating "an apple" - not 64 calories (or whatever an apple is). That's why weight watchers didn't jive with me... I stopped eating food and started eating points. Anyways.

Glad you got all cultured last night with the theatre! Fun!

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Pretty Smoothie

Saturday, April 04, 2009

This was my breakfast this morning - a delicious pink smoothie:

*unsweetened soymilk
*pomegranate/blueberry juice
*frozen mango/berry
*orange mango peach juice
*light vanilla yogurt

So far I'm off to a good start...went to Trader Joe's last night, their prices are surprisingly good and they have some interesting things I'd never seen before (like baby kiwis) but it's a small store without a huge selection. A lot of the smoothie ingredients were from there.

I tracked my calories this morning. I think what I'll do at least for the weekend is to just write down what I eat on a piece of paper as I eat it, and then enter it on SP later... during the week I'd like to have it planned out in advance like I used to.

Also, I just found out that one of my best friends in real life started using SparkPeople last night! Now I just gotta figure out what her SP name is so I can find her. :)

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SILLIANGEL 4/5/2009 2:45PM

    I emoticon Trader Joe's! I always try to make my grocery list and then check off the items I can get at TJ's. I usually buy most of my produce at the regular grocery store but a lot of other staples at TJ's like hummus, rice milk, pasta, soups, beans, and everything frozen! They are super cheap!

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KJNE8O 4/4/2009 9:42PM

    I love Trader Joe's and do most of my grocery shopping there. That smoothie sounds yummy! I think I'll have one tomorrow before I go for my run :)

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SKYFYRE 4/4/2009 5:51PM

    Baby Kiwi's? I've never seen them there! What I miss is comquats- my neighbor when I was a kid had a tree, and I have NEVER seen them in the stores :( Congrats on such a great breakfast, having the right foods in the house is a large part of the battle!

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SEEHOLZ 4/4/2009 2:43PM

    That is great news about your friend!

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ZIRCADIA 4/4/2009 12:55PM

    Man, kiwis are not that big anyway, what does a BABY kiwi look like? hehehee I wish we had a Trader Joe's around here, I hear good things about them.

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PAMELA984 4/4/2009 11:09AM

    I wish there was a Trader Joe's close to me - the closest one is 2 hours away though emoticon

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Three Week Kick Start

Friday, April 03, 2009

OK, I'm going for it. I'm putting it out there to hold myself accountable. I just prepared a shopping list - fruit (varied) smoothies for breakfast, savory spinach and bean soup for lunch, Cajun shrimp and rice (or quinoa if I can find it) for dinner. Nuts, apples, yogurt, oatmeal for snacks. I'm going to a bridal shower three weeks from tomorrow. For the next three weeks I'll track what I eat and keep up the workouts.

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SEEHOLZ 4/4/2009 2:42PM

    I'll tell you one thing that you so have going for you that i seem to totally lack-- you sense of eating great food!
You know what, I'm motivated for a 3 week challenge of a sort, as well!

Thanks for sharing this!

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FITGIRL15 4/3/2009 9:04PM

    Good for you! Make that plan work for you!
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Great choices of food! Yum!

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KIMTASTIC! 4/3/2009 6:44PM

    Ooh, I should jump on that with ya. Vacation with mom in 5 weeks! Tell us more about this spinach & bean soup, sounds yummy!

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BRUIN2 4/3/2009 6:44PM


And now I want some shrimp.....

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ZIRCADIA 4/3/2009 6:42PM

    WOOT! DO IT GIRL! I know you can!!

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Kinda scared

Friday, April 03, 2009

Since I last wrote, I've been following the "baby step" approach...sort of. I've been at the gym 6 times in the past week, doing strength training and cardio each time for a total of 45-90 minutes. That's progress over a short stretch when I was only working out once or twice a week! I've been trying to make healthy food choices most of the time, but I've been eating too much. Sometimes I've had these waves of inspiration where I think I'm FINALLY going to get back on track... but then I don't come up with a plan and just keep on doing what I've been doing. Other times I've indulged in some VERY poor choices, mostly relating to ice cream and/or general portion size.

So where has all this baby step business gotten me? Heavier than I've been since 2006. I am so, so ashamed. I almost want to make this blog entry private, I'm so ashamed of myself. And I'm kind of scared. I'm needing to use my inhaler more now, I can't do a single pushup anymore, and my resting heart rate is much higher. I'm kind of frozen in inaction. I haven't bought bigger clothes, but nothing fits. I don't have a plan because I don't really have a guiding philosophy for my plan. I no longer feel like counting calories and exercising will help me keep the weight off permanently. I always eventually give in and gain the weight back. It's an incredible amount of effort to live a healthy lifestyle for me, and I can't summon that amount of effort for results that I believe will be temporary.

I'm also scared to start yet again and fail. It's scary to know that I NEED to do this, but to know also how likely it is that I will fail at doing it. I could right now erase this whole negative blog and write an uplifting one about a fresh new plan, and I could go to the grocery store and get all the healthy food for a well-thought out plan, but then be back off track by Sunday and feel even more ashamed of myself.

I am so glad that just a few minutes ago I read TurfGirl's blog. She was writing about how a healthy lifestyle does NOT mean automatically choosing healthy food; a healthy lifestyle has to include conscious decisions to make the right choices.

It's the beginning of April right now. I have to let myself get inspired to get back on track to prepare for summer. I hate thinking in the back of my mind that this is going to just be the start of yet another cycle of lose, then gain.. but even if I lose just a little and then gain a little back that is still so much better than this steady gaining pattern I'm in right now. Right now I have absolutely zero momentum, but as soon as I start to feel my biggest pants getting a little less tight I know I will get a surge of drive that will make me want to keep going.

I know I've been a huge downer in this blog entry, but I'm going to leave it as a record of how I'm feeling now. But I also feel like I'm ready to make a REAL step in the right direction.. it's time for a fresh new plan.

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SEEHOLZ 4/4/2009 2:37PM

    My heart goes out to you-- you know I truly, 1000% understand all those feelings and I so get the part about being scared----- strangly, it is a huge step towards a healthier lifestyle though! Worst of all is the feeling of just not caring.. being scared is actually a positive thing-LOL- yet, I hate that you have to feel this way!
I'm looking forward to reading the next blog... to see where you take us!
Thank you for keeping it real! It means a lot to me!

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KMWKENT 4/3/2009 7:12PM

    I swear we're the same person. I'm officially back in the high 160s after reaching the 140s in December. I can't seem to get back that motivation that I had in 2008. I felt great and happy with myself, but for some reason I'm lacking the drive to get me back there. I want to be someone who doesn't have to count calories so religiously in order to be at a normal weight! Anyway, like you, my clothes are tight, but I refuse to buy new ones and most of the items in my closet don't fit at all anymore. Three months ago I loved getting dressed in the morning, because I could open my closet and know that anything I wanted to wear would fit beautifully! Not the case at the moment!
Just wanted you to know that you're definitely not alone in this! If you figure anything out, be sure to let me know. I could use some insight. None of my own seems to be working. (I once heard someone say in regards to addictions and bad habits that "Your own best thinking got you to this point, so what makes you think your own thinking can get you out of it? You need help!" So, I'll take any help I can get. emoticon

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LISS327 4/3/2009 7:08PM

    Don't be scared. You'll get there, it's not an easy or quick process. Be proud of the things you do. One foot in front of the other, take one day and each meal at a time. Hang in there, show your strength in your abs, in you gluts, in your ability stick with your healthy life style. You can and you will, your future is yours-make it what you want-starting today, starting now. And smile-its helps everything in life. I wish you the very best April!!

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ZIRCADIA 4/3/2009 6:31PM

    My heart was really aching for you reading the first part of your blog, but by the end it sounds like you're in a good place. Just gotta get some of that momentum you speak of going! :D I know that you're really a dynamo once you're on track with things. *HUGS* I'm sorry things have been so difficult for you.

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PAMELA984 4/3/2009 6:28PM

    You should join the BLC10 challenge - it opens up on April 11 - I lead the Peach team and we would love to have you join us - we could keep each other on track and continually getting closer to our goals. It is really hard to get back on track - I know - but I also know that both of us can do this - we will succeed! Let me know if you want to join our challenge and I will be sure and get you an invite.

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BRUIN2 4/3/2009 6:21PM

    My response to this blog was going to be "You should go read TurfGirl's blog entry from today". HA. Glad you already read it!

And I'm glad that you were true to yourself and wrote the blog that you needed to, and not the one that you thought everyone would like to read.

Take the time for yourself this weekend to come up with a plan. It doesn't have to be a huge undertaking, rather, something that you can and will follow. You can do this!

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