Frustration

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Mostly this is me venting, but this is more for me and my journey than for all of you out there (although I do hope you enjoy it), so I'm being completely honest on these things.

  

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JALARE 1/20/2011 10:56PM

Keep doing what you're doing you will see a difference. Report Inappropriate Comment

SARSPARKS25 1/20/2011 7:55PM

I completely understand the frustration. However, you are noticing differences in your fitness abilities. That is good! Yes, I know you want to see the number go down...we all do! :) Just keep at it...don't give up! have you considered measuring yourself as well as using the scale? You may not see a number change on the scale, but you may see a change in your inches. Muscle is heavier than fat, and I do not know how much sodium you eat in a day, but water weight could have something to do with it. You are weighing yourself first thing in the morning after you use the bathroom, right? Ok, I am sure you know ALL this stuff already, but I just wanted to throw a few things out there. Report Inappropriate Comment

SHELLSTERS1 1/20/2011 6:44PM

I know that it's frustrating to not see that number go down.. but keep up the good work and it will pay off. In the mean time, check out this blog. It helped me realize the number is not as important as I once thought it was! Hope it helps and DON'T GIVE UP .. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_p ublic_journal_individual.asp?bl og_id=3926473 Report Inappropriate Comment

NSV: Running...OK Jogging

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

So tonight I was on my treadmill for a full hour just listening to music and reading blogs on SP. Forty-five minutes in, I decided to jog for a minute at 4mph (not that fast...I think some people could probably walk that fast, but I can't). After watching Arthur running on BL last night, I thought, hey, if some guy who weighs 500 pounds can do it, I can too. Anyway, I got lost in my music, and when I looked down, and it had been three minutes, so I figure, hey, I'll go for five. The last 45 seconds were killer--probably because I was looking at the clock--but I made it.

"Vlog" tomorrow. (Sorry, I don't think I'll ever be able to take that word seriously.) I know you're all excited. HA!

  

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KMTOOLEY 1/20/2011 1:52AM

Good job! Watching the time always kills me so I know what you mean. Report Inappropriate Comment

Turning a corner

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Today was my fourth day in a row to work out...for at least 45 minutes, and for a whole hour yesterday! I can really feel myself getting back into exercising again, which feels really, really good. Tonight I figured I would take a break, but I actually wanted to get up and work out. I had actually burned a lot of calories throughout the day (walking to and from my car at the law school, which is a bit of a hike, going up and down the stairs because every other class is on a different floor), but I wanted more. It just feels really, really good.

Unrelatedly, I just found the fruit and veggie tracker. Sooooo helpful.

  

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KMTOOLEY 1/18/2011 11:51PM

Awesome!! Keep it up. Report Inappropriate Comment

Ugh. No weight loss.

Monday, January 17, 2011

I haven't posted all weekend, but I weigh-in on Saturdays, and I lost nothing. Boo. I'm hoping it's because this is the first week I really started working out, because I know I had a calorie deficit every day, even days I went over my calorie goal. (It may also be because I wasn't eating enough...I thought I was in the 6-7 times my body weight range, but turns out, when you gain 50 pounds, you get to eat more calories. Who knew?)

Even worse, I STILL haven't lost anything. Actually, I've gained a pound. This is very frustrating, and it's taken a lot of work for me not to get depressed, give up and order a pizza. Hopefully I can keep up on my average rate at 2 lbs a week.

In other news, I've fired up my gowearfit and wore it last night while walking with Leslie Sansone (which, at least for me, is rather intense, yet low impact cardio), and I burned 500 calories in 45 minutes, just a bit more than SP estimated. Sweet!

  

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SKINNYMISSKASEY 1/19/2011 7:38AM

I know how you feel. There are weeks where I do the SAME thing as I did the week before (and lost 3lbs) but that week I don't lose, or GAIN! This week I binged on Friday and paid for it all weekend. I was down 1.2lb as of yesturday (my weigh in is on Thursdays, tomorrow) and I busted my butt yesturday with running, Curves, Curves & Zumba...and I went up .5lb today! But I think it's water or muscle because I did NOT eat that many claories yesturday! But great on burning those calories in 45 minutes! Report Inappropriate Comment

APIRLRAIN888 1/18/2011 9:45PM

just keep at it, you can do it Report Inappropriate Comment

BADAMS86 1/18/2011 9:34PM

It can be so tempting to give up sometimes, especially when the scale isn't moving in the direction we want it to. I weigh-in tomorrow and am anxious to see if I lost any, but am trying to talk myself up in case it isn't what I expect. We just have to realize that we ARE doing something better for ourselves by tracking our daily eating habits and exercising, and I don't know about you, but I have a LOT more energy than before I started SparkPeople! :) Keep it up, I know you can do it! Report Inappropriate Comment

KMTOOLEY 1/17/2011 6:11PM

Great job on working out! I am glad you did not give up too easily. It can get tough, but just realize that you can still make progress even if you haven't lost some weight. Our bodies are changing so it will take time to adjust to what is going on. Keep your head held high and and just keep working at it. I know you can do it. Report Inappropriate Comment

SARSPARKS25 1/17/2011 6:00PM

First, congrats on working out and burning all the calories last night! That is just awesome! As for the weight loss, just keep pushing. It will eventually show! Make sure that you are eating the right amount of calories and just take one day or moment at a time! We all have the moments of weakness and wanting to just indulge in some serious comfort food! We are human...perfectly imperfect and beautiful! Report Inappropriate Comment

Going Out

Friday, January 14, 2011

So, I tend to be kind of a recluse, and one of the things I really want to start doing is being more outgoing and not letting my weight get in the way of me going and having fun and stuff. In that spirit, tonight I am going out with a few friends. We're going to dinner and then to another place for some drinks. Luckily, the restaurant had its menu online, so I was able to scope out what I am going to get (roasted chicken, potatoes and green beans...not too bad!), but I haven't had a DROP of alcohol in soooo long. Well, now that I think about it, I did try some coconut rum and diet pepsi over Christmas, but it was seriously a tiny, tiny sip. It was pretty good btw. Anyway, I stopped drinking alcohol because it has so many calories, but I think I'm going to have one drink tonight. I have about 1150 calories left for the day--I knew I would be going out--so hopefully the dinner and drink(s) don't put me over.

What worries me is that my weight has been pretty steady this week. So far I'm down less than a pound. Alcohol probably isn't the BEST thing, but peer pressure is a you-know-what. Tomorrow is my official weigh-in. Ugh. I really need to change that. Lol. Anyway, have a wonderful weekend everyone! And thanks for reading. :)

  

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BADAMS86 1/18/2011 11:48PM

I know the feeling! There are some lower-calorie drinks that you can still have and not feel completely deprive such as rum and diet coke.. and apparently Applebee's (I heard) has 100 calorie "skinny" margaritas now. :) Report Inappropriate Comment

LAXBRO 1/15/2011 12:29PM

Well, how did the night out go?? Report Inappropriate Comment

KMTOOLEY 1/14/2011 9:30PM

I wouldn't worry about it TOO much. I mean as long as you aren't getting 900 calories from ONE burger like I did last night then you will be good. Have fun with your friends and know that you can work out tomorrow! Good luck with your weigh in. Comment edited on: 1/14/2011 9:31:10 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

IAFARMERWIFE 1/14/2011 8:18PM

Enjoy the time with your friends-that's important also. Report Inappropriate Comment