Friday, December 12, 2014
I was happy to ride the four-day diet streak, even as I knew it would not extend to a fifth day. Well, what are you supposed to do when you must attend the spouse's company holiday party?
It's not that I horribly succumbed to temptations at a potluck where all the staff brought chile con queso and rum balls or anything like that (though I definitely have been in those situations, too!). It's that we had to travel (read: get super-tired, which can lead to poor decision-making), and then we had to attend a "function" (read: event with a lot of people and noise, which exhausts me and...see point #1). Oh, and of course there was an open bar (read: swill plenty of free cocktails to get over being nervous).
I did plan ahead, and took healthful food for the roadtrip portion of the program, but all the advance planning in the world isn't going to help much when you're trying to stick to 1500 calories, and you're weary -- and being served excellent filet mignon with scalloped potatoes and chocolate cake for dessert. I mean...not gonna happen.
So I'm not beating myself up. I am, however, a little concerned about the next trip on our agenda, which begins on Tuesday and doesn't end until Sunday. I'm going to try to muster as much willpower as I can because the upcoming trip is a vacation, and my most favorite vacation activity is EATING. hahaha
No matter what happens, I am not going to ruin my vacation with negative self-talk. I'll indulge occasionally and eat salads as often as possible to balance things out. I think portion control will be my friend. Wish me luck!!
Tuesday, December 09, 2014
I did it! Today was my fourth good food day in a row! This, despite going out for dinner. Yay, me!
I had to perform some dietary gymnastics to make it, I admit. Eating in a restaurant never fits neatly into the diet plan. And in this case we dined at a restaurant (Bennigan's) not known for its health-conscious choices. However, a bit of pre-game warmup on the internet provided the intel I needed to make a smart decision at the restaurant. Also, I admit I ate very sparingly the entire rest of the day. Before we went to dinner, I'd eaten precisely one bowl of cereal with milk plus three crackers with one ounce of cheese during the entire day.
I did drink a ton of water, though.
Seriously, I did not starve myself in order to indulge at the restaurant (including a martini). Instead, I finally got into "small stomach" mode. I'd noticed on previous weight loss journeys that I would reach a point where I simply didn't feel hungry all the time. Or I did feel hungry but was able to satiate the impulse with a very small snack. That's what happened today. I didn't feel hungry, I didn't feel any blood sugar fluctuations (even though I don't have diabetes). I just occupied myself with things other than eating. And I was fine!
I honestly feel I have finally regained mastery over my diet, and it feels so good. I'm heading out tomorrow on a three-day road trip with my husband, and I feel very confident I can get through it without overeating. Wish me luck!
Monday, December 08, 2014
My nascent streak continues. I had an excellent food day today. Despite the fact I seriously craved a martini this afternoon, I abstained. I consumed three excellent meals plus healthy snacks (and some dark chocolate). According to SP's nutrition feedback, I hit every important nutritional range, except for falling very slightly short on protein, fiber, calcium and iron. I can live with that.
The main thing is I'm feeling very calm and in control of my eating right now. I feel relaxed about it. I don't feel like every day is a battle -- one I'm losing.
I don't know what tomorrow holds. None of us can. But today was a great day, and it was the third great food day in a row. I expect tomorrow will go well, too.
Sunday, December 07, 2014
Just a quick update to say...I did it! I managed to put two good food days together in a row. Next up: three days in a row.
I inadvertently almost went over by indulging on ground turkey with beans for dinner. I honestly didn't think I was consuming as many calories as I was. (I mean, I know beans are caloric, but there were no other starches in the concoction.) However, the recipe weighed in at 378 calories per serving...and I treated myself to two servings. I don't feel bad, since it was mainly protein with just a little healthy starch thrown in. YUM!
So I find myself 29 calories under budget. It's not yet 6:30pm, but I guess water will be my companion for the evening to quell any hunger pangs that arise. I'm good with that. It feels like some of my food compulsion ebbed today. I got quite hungry mid-afternoon, and it was curious to feel hunger pangs. I've been feeding my stress so consistently over the past year that I would immediately quell any hunger signal my brain received. It actually felt good to feel the hunger, label it for what it was (boredom), and pour water on it instead of munching down a handful of cookies.
I've been in this situation before recently, where I felt I was regaining control, and then it all went quickly to heck. So I'm not looking any further ahead than tomorrow. Tomorrow I will have a good food day, and that's all I need to be concerned about.
Sunday, December 07, 2014
I did a brave thing today: I got on the scale.
I've been avoiding it because my body tells me everything I need to know: belly roll hanging over my waistband, bra feeling tight, thighs jiggling when I walk. It's not pretty. (And sorry if that's TMI for some of you guys out there!)
My body has been communicating with me all along, as I've laid on an extra 12 pounds this year. But I was deaf to what my body was saying.
Well, as I told myself before I stepped on the scale, "Think of this as motivation." I have exceeded the "absolute max top weight" I had set for myself when I hit 160, so it's time to get serious now. And the fact it's the holiday season is no excuse for overeating.
Yesterday I had a great food day. Today, my goal is very modest: to have a second good food day in a row. I am sitting here plotting my course for the day, and I see egg whites and blueberries on the horizon. It sounds great!
I have a heavy travel schedule coming up over the next couple of weeks, and I want to take a moment to plan ahead. What healthy snacks can I take on the plane? Normally I enjoy eating and having a pre-flight cocktail in the terminal (I try to find ways to make air travel feel as luxurious as it once actually was), but that's out for my upcoming travel. Instead, I will take apples and peanut butter and perhaps pretzels -- foods that I can even stress-eat without much guilt. Simply planning ahead gives me confidence. It allows me to feel I have mastery over my diet.
Well, the planning is done and now comes the doing. No amount of planning will move me toward my goals. Moving requires action. I'm ready.
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