Thursday, April 12, 2012
Today marks 64 days until my sister's wedding. 64 days until I have to wear a dress that at this moment I cannot fit into. 9 weeks and one day to change.
I think I've lost all accountability. I've gained another 6 lbs on top of the 10 lbs I put on over the holidays. The thing is, I'm still exercising quite a bit. I teach vinyasa yoga about 3-5 times a week, take class once a week, run maybe twice a week (working on getting that up), bike with dad twice a week (averaging about 18 hilly miles each time) and do weights once a week (want to do twice).
I eat crap! All the time! It's terrible. I feel like such a hypocrite standing in front of my yoga classes. I'm terrified to (once again) gain back all the weight I lost through such hard work and dedication.
I am back to tracking my food. Anyone out there who wants to start looking at my tracker and holding my accountable for what I am putting in my mouth? I really could use the help!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
So sometimes I'm what you would call a "pushover." I realize that I am a 31 year old with no kids and a very understanding husband. If someone needs me to sub for a yoga class, I do it. No real thoughts, just "ok."
Normally this is not a big deal. I'm a people pleaser and I don't want anyone to have to miss any family obligations. However, I think I need to begin to learn to say no (sometimes, LOL).
I am currently teaching 3-4 yoga classes a week. It's a lot on top of a full time job and trying to maintain my running fitness while ssssllllooowwwwlllyyy building my bike fitness. So when the gym that I teach at decided that they were going to cut my Thursday night class so they could add a spinning class, I was actually relieved. Awesome, now I have an extra day to work on the bike.
While at yoga last night, I mentioned to the owner that I was no longer teaching up at the gym on Thursday nights. She mentioned that the current Thursday night instructor at the studio (who is pregnant with twins) is having a hard time with the class and would probably like to give the class to me. My first instinct is to take the class. I feel badly since the other instructor is pregnant and I know the owner has a lot on her plate as well. I want to be able to help out. BUT...
I get home and tell my husband. He asks what about spinning. Yes, what about spinning? I REALLY want to take that class. I NEED to take that class. Mentally, I cannot handle any more teaching. The guilt really gets to me though. I have this really deep NEED to help when I know I can.
After thinking it over, I believe I have come up with a better solution which I will discuss with the other instructors at our meeting on Sunday. I will be taking the spinning class. I will do this for my own mental (and physical) health. I believe the new solution will help assuage some of the guilt, but I know some will remain. It's just one more thing to work on...
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Time for a run outside! So excited to be joining up with my running buddy for a run before I teach yoga tonight.
My motivation level is sky high and I'm using that to really push my workouts. I've currently been marking a spot on the inside of my wrist with the initials MPB to stand for the Millstadt Park Biathlon. I WILL be ready to rock that race.
Have a great night everyone!
Monday, January 09, 2012
I really need to get back in the habit of blogging at least twice a week. It's been waaaayyy too long since I've written anything done which always makes it seem more permanent...more real.
So anyway. Just came off of a month and half long binge and gained about 5-10 lbs because of it. I don't know the real number because I stayed off the scale during it and then gave myself a week back to healthy eating before checking the scale. I'm right back where I was last year at this time which means I've had a whole weight-stagnant year...BUT I have accomplished a few things along the way
1) completed two half marathons, one of which was a 2:05 which I am EXTREMELY proud of
2) completed yoga teacher certification and have been happily teaching since July
3) PR'd my 10K time (57:00)
4) completed a very scary hike in Hawaii that I know I never would have gotten through two years ago (it was amazing!)
5) started biking with my dad and made the commitment to train for the entire Millstadt Biathlon next year
Not too shabby of a year.
Hubs is on board for healthier eating so that aspect should be improving greatly for me. I have put my new fitness plan on my sparkpage and will be adjusting month-to-month. Right now, I'm teaching 3-5 yoga classes a week and taking up to two classes. Yoga has definitely become a part of my life and I couldn't be happier about it.
Here are the goals for 2012:
1) Run a PR in 5K and 10K
2012 will be the year of short distances. No races longer than 10K (at least until after the Biathlon in September, then we'll see) There will be much tempo running and sprints at the track.
2) Complete Level 3 yoga teacher training and become certified to teach hot yoga
I'm already registered for classes in March!
3) Master Crow, Side Crow, Scorpion and Handstand (against the wall)
I am sooo close on all of these. I just need to practice a bit more on them at home.
4) Be able to keep up with my dad on the bike
The man is amazing on two wheels. I would be happy just to be able to keep pace with him!
5) Complete my first triathlon.
Yep, there I said it. End of August, Sunset Hills Triathlon.
6) Kick butt at the Millstadt Biathlon
And maybe get a medal for me and my dad???
7) Stop eating crap
8) Stop drinking by myself at home
This is embarrassing and really needs to stop. I'm already nine days into the new year and no booze.
9) Save some money this year!
My husband and I tend to be really bad at this, but honestly it's mostly my fault. I need to make this more of a priority.
10) Do more activities with my husband.
We'd really like to get more into kayaking since we have a goal of an ocean kayaking trip the next time we go to Hawaii (five years!). This summer, we hope to take some weekend kayaking trip together.
Here's to a great 2012!!!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
It's official - I have 44 days until Hawaii. 44 days until I want to be able to strut my stuff in a bikini and short shorts on the beach.
The problem: I have been eating like utter crap.
Seriously! How can someone who burns 3500-4500 calories a week in exercise consistently go up or stay the same in weight? Answer: Because I eat and drink crap.
Sure, coworkers look at me eating my greek yogurt and fruit for breakfast or my big ol' salad with lean protein and lunch and say "You always eat so well!" But they don't see me at night or on the weekends. There is wine. There is beer. And there is an over abundance of sugary, fatty, crappy food.
Last night started out good enough. Got home from yoga. Hubs had made super delicious tuna croquettes which he pan fries in very little oil. Get out the greens, make huge salad with fresh tomato and some super good goddess dressing. Eat all four croquettes that he left (which he pointed out this morning, only because he thought that I would save two for work - of course, I should have!). Still not bad though. Proceed to go to pantry and grab out the huge bag of chocolate pomegranate goodies that we had recently purchased at Costco. Eat half of said bag sitting in front of the tv. What is wrong with me?
This needs to change. Not only am I not getting anywhere with my weight loss, but this obviously affects my training as well. I have another half coming up and I really want to rock this race! Eating like crap means that I feel like crap for my runs. This weekend was a prime example of that for me.
Wake up call!
Oh, and I just got in a pair of shorts for Hawaii and they are a tad bit snug. Those puppies are going up in the kitchen where I can see them every day. I may hang them on the pantry door.
44 days to turn it around. 44 days not to drink. 44 days to realize that a single serving of a sweet is enough for dessert. 44 days to feel like I finally accomplished something.
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