Thursday, February 17, 2011
I have been feeling like I was on the cusp of big changes, and I was right! DH and I are reaching the end of a week at Justyna7ís B&B, where weíve been focussing on us, on aquafitness and on nutritional goodness all week. Itís just what I need to kick-start my energy and get back on a positive swing.
I absolutely love being in the water, and aquafitness is just the ticket for getting me active without stressing my joints or my back. Once my muscles are stronger, Iíll be adding a lot more Ďlandí exercises, but this is just the ticket for now! Itís the springboard to get me using those bike trails this spring, hiking in our wonderful parks, canoeing in our innumerable waterways, taking advantage of our yard to grow some wonderful vegs.
Iím also feeling much more positive about my energy levels and that I will be able to return to work soon-ish (hopefully in May). Itís been a long haul and quite isolating, but my co-workers are a wonderfully fun loving and supportive bunch of people, and I miss that daily interaction with them!
Aaannnd... if Iím not mistaken, itís day 68 of the 100-Day Countdown.
Sunday, February 06, 2011
Iíve been doing a lot of contemplation lately, and realized that yes, I am just tired of fighting. I think I need to acknowledge it somewhere, and I hope youíll allow me to do it here...
Iíll put it in the context of:
ē Illness during my teenage years that doctors didnít know what to do with, or how to diagnose. Had to quit school at 16 (finished HS by correspondence), and was told I would never be able to hold down a job. Forget about university. Finally got to uni when I was 24.
ē Issues during pregnancy put me in bed for 3 months, then no exercise for quite a while
ē Health issues and 3.5 years of arguing with doctors finally led to thyroid removal and diagnosis of thyroid cancer, and subsequent treatments.
ē Then breast swelling, orange peel skin, etc. led to diagnosis of Inflammatory Breast Cancer and all the nightmare stories that entails regarding survivorship (or lack thereof), chemo, bilateral mastectomy, radiation therapy. Luckily, although 22 lymph nodes removed, no mets. Iím still off work, though, started Tamoxifen. I gained nearly 10 lbs the first week I started it, but am in a holding pattern now. Chemo screwed with my toenails, and I havenít worn closed shoes in a year (difficult when thereís snow, but Iíve been wearing clogs). Energy is gone.
All this to say, Iím tired of fighting. Iím tired of the uphill battle, of Ďimpressingí everyone with how strong I am, blah, blah, blah. I want to go snowshoeing, bike all the wonderful paths in Ottawa, go canoe-camping, skate the canal, so many other things. Sometimes I just want to scream, but I know it will just affect those around me really badly and will hurt more than help in the long run.
Not giving up the battle Ė not by a long shot! So many things are going well for me, my son has just been accepted in the program he wanted at College, my husband is a blessing that words cannot begin to describe, I actually have a job I enjoy to go back to and a lot of moral support there.
I just had to say it somewhere Ė Iím tired of fighting. I'll be back to my usual self tomorrow. Today, I'm wallowing.
Thursday, February 03, 2011
Iím going to have a tough finish to my week. I asked my DH to pick up a desert yesterday as he was stopping by the groceries to pick up some veg and we had someone over. ďA desertĒ I said. He came back with cookies, a chocolate coffee cake, and a carrot cake/loaf. Four cookies and one slice of cake are gone. The rest is sitting there, calling to me while Iím home all day and he and our DS are both gone.
I have to figure out some strategy to stay away from these goodies when they come in the house. Neither my DH nor my DS eat a lot of desert, but when they do go for something they always bring back 2-3 things. DS (and his friends) especially burns the calories like crazy playing soccer, running, etc. but DH and I can afford those empty calories a lot less. I know next time Iíll be a lot more specific and say ďpick up a fruit saladĒ rather than ďa desertĒ. Although he never brings back 2-3 fruit salads when I say that LOL!
Any suggestions to build up my resistance to such insidious interlopers in my kitchen will be much appreciated. In the meantime, Iím taping a fat picture to each container!
EDITED to say, no I'll tape a picture of an active healthy person to the containers - much more positive!
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
Lessons Learned in January
ē I CAN do at least 10 minutes of exercise every day. I completed the 10-Minute Daily Exercise Streak Challenge!
ē I thought I would use the slow cooker or rice cooker at least once per day, but Iíve found that (1) we often have leftovers, so we use those instead of cooking again and (2) weíre not big dessert eaters, so the desserts I was thinking of making arenít being made. Hmmm... weíre eating healthier than I thought!
ē I started playing the piano a bit after 25 years away. Muscle memory is a wonderous thing!
February 2011 goals
ē In addition to continuing the 100-Day Countdown with our little mini-team...
ē Now that Iím exercising, I want to really pay attention and determine what time of day works best for me. Although Iím not a morning person, exercising in the early morning has some appeal to me so Iím going to try that.
ē Weíre staying at Justyna's B&B for a week, to celebrate our wedding anniversary. After spending more than a year dealing with the breast cancer, this is a week that is long overdue for DH and I, and we are looking forward to it very much! AND she's got that wonderful pool for aquafitness!
ē Iíll be completing the Living Well Beyond Cancer course Iíve been taking with the Cancer Society.
100-Day Countdown (Day 84)
1. Drink 8X8 oz water/day Ė Iím good here
2. Exercise 10 min/day Ė Iím good here
3. Eat within my recommended calorie range Ė Iím good here
4. Eat within my recommended low sodium range -- Iím good here
5. Use my slow cooker or rice cooker at least once per day. Ė
6. 15-min Zone work per day (inspired by flylady.com) Ė
7. My average weight will decrease weekly -- lost .6 lbs (every little bit helps!)
8. Daily reports to the mini-team! Ė I admit it, Iíve been a slacker! Iíll try to do better!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Well, Iíve learned something today, or come to a conclusion of sorts. While I thought dance/exercise DVDs would be ideal for me Ė I love music and dancing of all kinds Ė the set routines are probably one of the worst things for me at this point. Hmmm. The thing thatís happening is I try to do their routine, but can do so much less than I would normally just dancing around on my own. My biggest problem is that the early routine focuses on leg work, and my knees give out on me.
If Iím dancing around on my own, I just wave my arms around at that point and step it out, but if Iím trying to follow a routine... I just canít. Itís so much more enjoyable, more freeing to do it my way! How did I ever forget this? So itís away with the DVDs and on with my own music for the next while when it comes to cardio!
The other discovery is a kind of zen of weight training. I really enjoy the focus on form, the repetition of movement that weight training gives me.
So my Ďreportí for yesterday and today (days 93 to 92)
1. Drink 8X8 oz water/day Ė Iím good here
2. Exercise 10 min/day Ė ok here, although I think I might have to change up and do more ST before tackling cardio; my muscles just donít have the stamina!
3. Eat within my recommended calorie range Ė ok
4. Eat within my recommended low sodium range -- ok
5. Use my slow cooker or rice cooker at least once per day. Ė none Sunday or today; will be putting something in it tonight, though.
6. 15-min Zone work per day (inspired by flylady.com) Ė ok, in the bedrooms this week
7. My average weight will decrease weekly -- started week at avg 246.5 lbs. Also, DH has agreed that if my average weight does go down, we'll go out together for a cappucino. It's a real treat for me, and without sugar, etc. in it it's not all that unhealthy.
8. Daily reports to the mini-team!
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