Friday, October 29, 2010
(Countdown to New Yearís Ė 63 days left!)
Iíve been focussing on regaining my health since August 23, 2010, joined SparkPeople on September 9, 2010, and been undergoing radiation treatments (rads) for breast cancer in October (expect to finish around November 3). I have had the focus of a heat seeking missile, learning about nutrition and exercise, but am now unable to follow-up on the exercise because of reactions to the rads. Giving up? No way!
All this means is that Iíll take a step back and digest what these two months have brought me, let my lessons sink in, and be better prepared to continue once Iíve recovered. In the meantime, nutrition will continue, as will organizing my home. Movement will be incorporated insofar as possible, but Ďformalí exercise is on hiatus until Iíve recovered. Then Iíll reward myself with an aquafit class!
I was planning on Aquafit in January 2011, but my doctors say I can do it four weeks after I finish rads (assuming my skin heals properly). That brings me to end November/early December. I see no reason to delay it Ė itís four more weeks of exercise challenge! It will give me a good re-boot before I return to work in January.
Iím so looking forward to all of this. I am re-energized, and Iíve taken conscious, deliberate control of my life for the first time. Feels great!
Monday, October 25, 2010
(New Year's Countdown - Day 67)
Today was a model for the rest of my week, as I near completing my radiation treatments.
Fatigue is assailing me to a degree I never expected. I got up, ate, and fell asleep on the sofa this morning. I was so soundly asleep then when my ride arrived, and rang the doorbell three times, I didnít even wake up. Luckily he called, and the phone woke me. But that just means that I need the extra sleep, and Iím allowing myself to take it. Itís the only way Iíll heal properly.
Of course, that meant I had no lunch before going to the hospital. I had to eat in the infamously unhealthy cafeteria. After doing the cafeteria circuit twice, I noticed someone refilling the salad bar. So guess what I had for lunch!
After that, went to my doctorís appointment, then my rads, then a walking circuit of the hospital campus, just to get some steps in. I found a circuit is about 600 steps, and decided to do one before and one after my rads this week.
Now, because I slept all morning and was away all afternoon, I made no preparations for supper. Normally, that would lead to take out. But today, I managed to organize something from food we already had at home, so we had a nice healthy supper. After that, we did a couple of errands, and I finished sorting my closet at home (from which I removed most of my dressier clothing, which has all gotten too big!)
So this is the model I want to follow this week: rest as required, eat nutritiously, add walking wherever I can, and get stuff done at home. Things are still falling nicely into place.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Today: Radiation therapy 16/25 ; Day 72 in the New Year Countdown
Iíve been working on my vision board lately, and have concluded that I forgot myself somewhere along the way. I am reaching a more serene place, where I lived when I was single, and know that my DH will be more comfortable there as well. Heís never been a Ďhigh needsí type of person. Thatís all on me LOL!
I want my life to reflect my personal values more clearly. Care for others begins with care of me (good nutrition, exercise, rest, etc.) and encouraging the same for others. Care and nurture of the environment: re-use and recycle rather than buying new Ė clothes, furniture, etc. The strength of community: encouraging community resources (library, farmerís markets, common transportation, etc.) over individualized (buying books, shopping at chain stores because itís easier, using a car for everything, etc.) Volunteering: donating time, experience and skills (and money when possible). Living my spirituality daily through prayer, meditation, awareness and appreciation.
I never expected to get married, and I think I never really consciously adapted to it. I somehow got caught up in cluttering my mind and my house with some sort of image of what marriage is, and what a home is. Iím looking hard through the eyes of ďwant versus needĒ. I am realizing that I felt some type of security with things around me, that I had images of a house filled with collections and books and things. This has become less true over the years, to the point that I now view it as clutter. Itís taking up space that we have to pay for, and we feel crowded in our own home. Maintaining and keeping things clean eats up our time. I want to strip it all down to a minimum, so that when our DS leaves the nest (heís in his last year of high school, and is already discussing sharing apartments with his buddies when he goes to college) we have relatively little. We may even move to a more central location and get rid of the car altogether.
Iím feeling lighter, and Iím feeling that thereís more light.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
My DH and I were in the basement pulling out our winter clothes, and I found a treasure trove of clothing that I now fit in. I guess Iíve lost at least one size since starting this return to health, and hadnít really noticed!
Among other things I found squirrelled away in our catacombs:
ē An ultrasuede sleeveless dress and long jacket to go with it
ē Two ultrasuede shirts Ė one black and one Christmas red
ē A few other long-sleeved shirts
ē A winter coat
ē A dressy vest, and a casual quilted vest (which I can use to cover a multitude of sins in my older clothing)
That is going to save me a lot of money, as I was afraid I would be buying an entire winter wardrobe. Between the July mastectomy and the weight loss since late August, I didnít know how anything would fit! My sister is coming over tomorrow, and sheíll be taking away some of my now oversized (for me) clothes, so bonus decluttering going on as well.
The cherry on top of my sundae includes amending one of my goals (yet again), namely:
ē Review Total Commitment binder every day
This binder is basically my vision board, and it holds pictures, poems, inspiring blogs... the usual stuff. Well, another thing we found in the basement is a huge 3X6 foot magnetic whiteboard. My husband is putting it up as I type, and Iíll have an actual Vision Board that I can play around with to my heartís content. Iím pretty visual, and I canít express how happy this makes me. It will be right by the stationary bike. What better way to start an exercise session than to meditate on my goals, and what better inspiration when I start wearing down at the end of the cardio program!
I am definitely dancing a happy dance today!
(PS: New Yearís Countdown: 76 days left!)
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