Sunday, January 20, 2013
It nearly feels like a confession, but I am coming to terms with negative aspects of this planning thing that has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. My mind just naturally sees things in a linear fashion, I guess, breaks things down into steps and makes order of them to get to the other side.
Except for now. For the past few years. Since cancer (both cancers!)
There is so much I have to do, it seems that I go two steps forward, and one step (or more) back. I'm getting tired, and it's beginning to really have an affect on me. And I realized I just don't know the sequencing of everything I need to do. It's easy enough for me to accept "one step at a time" and "baby steps", but are they the right "one steps" or "baby steps". I'm in my head too much, thinking thinky thoughts, and not getting into the action. So I've found a couple of tools to get me out of my head, and back to action and focus.
As many of you out there know, there are many, many aspects to wellness in all aspects of life. As I was browsing a bookstore after supper the other night, just killing time until DH went to get the car, I found a set of cards that I think will work perfectly for me: Cheryl Richardson's "Self-Care Cards". There are 52 cards, I pick one per day (might go to one per week later) to help me focus consistently on at least one thing, for one day. That's it - no further than that; no planning ahead. And it gets me out of my head. For example, today's card is: "Boundaries" and the reverse says: "Set boundaries. Protect your precious time and energy."
The second thing that I think will help (haven't tried it yet) is an action bingo for at work. Set up like a bingo card (even a "free" square in the middle!), but with activity blocks all around it. The objective is to cross off all the blocks by the end of the week (or I suppose one could do one line per day). Found it
on a just-discovered blog that I think I will be visiting regulary :
kercise-bingo-free-printable/ She invites people to print and use her stuff.
So I'll combine these two tools with my weight training (which I am still striving to do at least three times a week - two times seems to be the most I can do so far). And coming to Spark more often, as you are all truly an inspiration to me.
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
I went to renew my prescription for my meds (replacement for thyroid that was removed, so will be on them forever), and the pharmacist asked to review my meds list with me as they're updating their systems. We obviously kept was the thyroid med, and I told her to remove one that I'm reacting to so have stopped - will be replaced with another as it's to prevent the cancer from coming back.
Out of a very long list of meds (various migraine meds, three different meds for blood pressure, etc), that was it. I've been off the other meds for months now.
Now, I have been working out with a trainer one or two times a week for the past year - still haven't been able to regularly do three times a week. I have not lost a substantial amount of weight, but I am able to do more and have more stamina. The medication situation is just another confirmation that I'm on the right track, and that NSV are the things to aim for, at least for me. The scale victories will come later.
Stepping it up in 2013!
Monday, January 14, 2013
I seem to be having problems with my meds again - at least, I'm falling asleep everywhere on a moment's notice. I haven't fallen asleep at work yet, but I am sleeping on the way to and on the way home (no, I don't drive!). I see my oncologist at the end of the month and will be discussing it with him. The other thing is that I seem to be reacting to my other new meds, and getting itchy everywhere. Ugh. Baking soda baths it is for me for the next couple of days!
Aside from that, though, I have to say that I'm feeling quite serene with some major decisions I've taken lately. DH and I decided to postpone any travel plans to when I have more energy. We had hoped to take a 25-day trip in celebration of our 25th wedding anniversary. It's a waste though to spend a lot of money on a major trip when I know I won't be able to do the things we love to do (hiking, canoeing, basically being active and out there!) It was a tough decision to make because it's what has been keeping me going in some ways. But now, it just means more time to plan, and perhaps a trip to Europe (which we wouldn't have done in February as it's too cold).
Also, sarting in February I'll be working four days a week instead of five. Sure, it cuts into my salary and benefits, but I just don't have the stamina to do a full five days. I think I haven't been able to do five days in a row since before summer. This will give me a chance to catch up on my energy, and then once I have to catch up on the rest of my life!
I continue to work out with my trainer; in fact, I just got back from the gym. She has this great way of managing my various issues, and finds ways to help me work through them rather than sit everything out. I am truly blessed that they assigned her to my case. I can do more now than I ever thought I could.
So that's it, just a few notes about where I'm at right now. Happy Sparking everyone!
Friday, January 11, 2013
Fellow SparkFriend KASEYCOFF has inspired me! I've always been a relatively organized person, and could list you the advantages and disadvantages of just about any organizing system by glancing at it. I have an ongoing "to do" list, and a daily one. However, one thing that always irked me about my daily "to do" list was reviewing it at the end of the day and reminding myself how much I had not accomplished. Somehow, those items not checked off just seem to garner more of my attention than those that are checked off. And I used to review my "to do" at the end of the day to plan my next day.
Kasey suggests a list of accomplishments instead, to appreciate what you actually have done. Now why have I never thought of that? So I'll be combining them (because I just can't let go of that "to do" list cold turkey!). I'll have a "to do" in the morning, and an "Accomplishments" in the evening, and only look at my "to do" to review and do a new one the next day. Accomplishments will be held close to my heart forever LOL! I'm also going to be trying BOGUSANNIE's WooHoo jar idea. At this rate, I'll have a lot of concrete reminders of my successes!
Thanks Kasey and Annie!!!
Saturday, January 05, 2013
Remember those toys: “Weebles wobble but they don’t fall down”. Well, that’s me. I’ve been a weeble for the past few months, wobbling but not actually falling down. I was trying to think this morning what changed, and the only thing I could think of was that we got rid of the TV/cable. Well, that’s counter-intuitive to me; you would think I would be more active.
I realize now that most of my bad guys are traps that I’ve created myself. For example:
* The computer – spend much too much time on it, and we now watch tv shows on the computer, watch lots of you tube, etc.
* Seating – whether it’s a chair, the sofa, whatever. Sitting for more than 30 minutes at a time means not moving!
* Liquid calories – For some reason, I’ve fallen into drinking juice instead of eating fruit with lunch, or doing both which I’ve learned is WAY TOO MUCH SUGAR for me. Other calories I drink are a protein shake after I exercise, but this is experimental at this point. I’m trying to find a way to steady my glucose levels so that I’m not zonking out after going to the gym. Ok as long as I don’t forget those calories! So, anyway, back to my “no liquid calories” rule in 2013 (except for the protein shake).
The way I’ll battle my bad guys? The usual, which boils down to “do good for myself”. Drink more water, more often. Do small bursts of exercise. Brush and floss my teeth (discourages additional eating). Plan ahead and eat healthy meals and snacks. Attend to my living space.
Counter the sitting at work: Get up and walk around the floor. Go downstairs or upstairs to go to the washroom. Stand instead of sit when I’m reading documents. (Explore having a “standing” station). Sitting on my ergo “kneeling chair” at work for some of the time. Stealth exercises when I go to the washroom, at the copier.
Counter sitting at home: Sit on my ball when at my home desk. Stealth exercises when I go to the washroom. Walking to pick up the mail. Walking to the grocery store, the library, the drugstore.
Unresolved issues: Mostly my medication, which was changed and is causing me even more pain in the ankles and heels, and now hip and pelvis. Will be speaking to the onco this week about trying something else.
So those are my quick thoughts this morning. I hope to be back to Sparking more often in 2013, and wish everyone all the best for the New Year!
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