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Day 78/100 - Been Overwhelmed

Saturday, July 09, 2011

Well, my guys are away this week-end at a soccer tournament, so Iím going to dedicate this ďMEĒ time to re-set my compass and get back on track.

The past couple of weeks have been tough for a lot of reasons, and at some point I just surrendered to circumstance and determined to do the minimum required to keep healthy, and put the rest on the back burner. Unfortunately, that included my SP activities.

One of the things that knocked me off track was getting a call from the hospital for a head and neck scan the next day. I had never received notice of this appointment, and didnít expect it. I have been so focused on the breast cancer for the past 1.5 years that I had basically forgotten about the follow-up for the thyroid cancer (which is what this scan was for). So I was back to feeling that I wasnít getting out of this cancer loop, that something else will probably come up just when I think itís over. It took me a while to shake that off. I guess itís never TOTALLY shaken off, but at least itís not constantly in my thoughts.

Another thing thatís taking a lot of my attention is my gradual return to work. Itís the little things that have changed, like I need a list at the end of the day so I donít forget anything. If my end-of-day routine is disrupted, the beginning of my next day is all screwed up.That being said, aside from my low energy itís all going very well. The energy thing is largely, I think, a matter of building up stamina again after having been sedentary for 1.5 years. The other thing at work is that Iíve been very focused on reading and editing some key documents, and so when I get home the last thing I want to do is get on the computer for more reading and writing.

Aside from that there have been family and friendsí health problems, financial issues relating to compensation being split between insurance and salary, etc., etc., etc.

So Iím getting back on the horse this week-end while I have all of this uninterrupted time. That means cleaning out the kitchen, doing some decluttering, and catching up on Spark including completing the pre-challenge activities for the Summer 5% Challenge. Back to drinking my water and not dehydrating; back to eating my freggies (pigged out on strawberries and Greek yogurt last night!); back to doing some exercise. The coming week is going to be very busy. Iím increasing my work to three days per week; I have my physical assessment at the gym on Monday evening; I have a pot luck get together of a cancer support group on Tuesday evening. So I need to start the week strong and on top of things so they donít get out of hand by Wednesday LOL!

Have a great week-end everyone!

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JUSTYNA7 7/10/2011 6:31PM

    Reading this makes me laugh. Not because it is funny, but because it is NORMAL. The balancing, the juggling. Yes, I know it is overwhelming and tiring but you are so back into everything girl. Woot!

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JULIEANNCAN 7/9/2011 2:47PM

    I'm sorry that you were shaken by the news of your scan. I can understand that. I definitely understand transitioning back to work. I'm glad you're taking this weekend for yourself and I hope you take some time to accomplish what you want to. emoticon

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Day 91/100 - First time at the gym!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

This week was difficult, in that I had three nights that I didnít sleep at all. Iím not sure whatís going on, if itís a bit of anxiety with the return to work, but Iíll fall asleep on the sofa, my DH will wake me up to go to bed and Iíll be awake all night. ARGH.

Anyway, one thing that might help is increasing my physical activity. Today was my first day at the gym. I havenít had my physical assessment yet, but I know I can bike so I did that. I also did a bit of free weights (rehab exercises from the mastectomy; I also knew those exercises were safe). What I had really been looking forward to was going in the pool, but it was family swim time (they have it twice a week), and I canít deal with the noise. Usually the pool is very quiet (2-3 people), so weíll go some other time Ė maybe even later this evening.

I must admit, going to the gym is a bit intimidating. There is my odd shape since the mastectomy which will take getting used to seeing it in full-length mirrors and tighter clothes. But when I look around, I see all kinds of body shapes and sizes there. It isnít one of those pick-up gyms that feels like a singles club. Thereís even a dress code, and people go there to work. I was a little awestruck by some of the exercises that were being done in the weight room. I certainly have some inspiration and real-life role models there!

The variety of equipment is amazing Ė I want to try them all! And I will, eventually, but I want to ensure Iím using them properly and not overdoing it. In other words, Iíve come to the conclusion that Iím going to have to work with a personal trainer for a while. Itís quite expensive ($50-80 per hour), but after everything Iíve been through it seems a small price to pay to make sure I donít injure myself and that Iím off on the right foot for recovering my health and wellness.

But really, canít wait to try out the rowing machines, the treadmills with actual, real trails on the TV to walk, all the weight equipment. PLUS the classes! They have not only yoga, but also yoga teacher training , aqua yoga and anti-gravity yoga. PLUS dance! African movement, belly dancing, Latin dance, Zumba... PLUS the teams! They have house leagues of all kinds of sports including volleyball, badminton, basketball, soccer, and so much more!

I have to be careful and not get ahead of myself here. The assessment on Wednesday (postponed from last Friday) will head me in the right direction, but I have never followed a regular exercise regimen (although Iíve exercised regularly but informally, if that makes sense). Iím looking forward to working with a trainer and really finding out where my limits are, and pushing them further out.

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JUSTYNA7 6/28/2011 5:00PM

    It's a surprise bag and you never know what you are going to pull out. Great plans and then something not quite right .... or you come across something you CAN do that wasn't planned. It will come!

Some day I am going to take a summer off. My mom used to and I remember as a kid loving the cottage. These days we never get up there unless something needs replacing or fixing. Sad! But with my work weekends and Bob's work week days it's a bad combination. We HAVE booked the long weekend in August off together though AND have booked going up there. It is a shared family cottage and you never know how many or what combination of people will be there. I think my sister is having a party. Should be interesting. We finally got all the parts of the solar and are going to install it tomorrow and Thursday. Monday Hydro will come and actually hook us up to the grid. I am sooo excited it's silly. I have eaten way too much the last couple of days celebrating so hit Farm Boy today and stocked the fridge with fresh healthy foods. They are opening one just a few minutes from us next year! Woot! I have been painting the guest room and it has taken too long to clean up. I have guests end of the week but a long to do list before they get here... and with the instalation I'm sure it is going to be crazy around here. Wish me luck! Have a great summer! Justyna

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JULIEANNCAN 6/27/2011 6:52PM

    It sounds fun! Wishing you all the best and hoping you get some more rest!!! emoticon

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SGILBER6 6/27/2011 5:26PM

    Your gym sounds great! The dance classes sound really fun, especially! You'll enjoy trying all the different machines. I really like changing up my cardio machines to keep it interesting. Working with a trainer is definitely worth it. I would advise that you only stick with a certain trainer if you like them, though. Don't stick with someone who isn't a good "fit" for you because they are super expensive!

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PAT3ONTHEBACK 6/26/2011 11:16PM

    Your gym find sounds so exciting! Good for you!

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TEDYBEAR2838 6/26/2011 9:47PM

    I LOVE THE GYM! I think you will too. I go every other day and am
there 1.5 - 2 hours. I love all the machines, and some better than others.
I usually switch around my routine, legs then arms then legs etc.

You'll find what works best for you. We have the time if we are willing
to MAKE the time.


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LJCANNON 6/26/2011 3:59PM

    I hope you really Love your new Gym. I'm not one who believes you HAVE to belong to a gym in order to lose weight, but I do think it makes the Journey easier and more Fun. Plus--as you already noted--all the Real Live inspiration that you are surrounded by.
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JECKIE 6/26/2011 3:31PM


I'm one of those people who LOVES the energy of the gym. There's something incredibly motivating to me to have all those people working towards similar (not the same) goals in one place. I hope you really love it!

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Day 92/100 - Off to a Good Start for the Week-End

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Iíve read some blogs that got me thinking this week.

In her September 23 blog, SeptemberSpiritís talked about clearing pebbles from her path. She shared a quote which is very a propos. ďNobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain.Ē (Author Unknown)

I realized that in my first week of my 100-Day Challenge, Iíve been focussing on the big picture, figuring out how to put things into place so I can reach my goals. The one missing piece was the pebbles. I forgot to pay attention to the pebbles, and Iíve been getting tripped up.

I am a super organized person at work, so this week-end Iím bringing those organizational skills and tools at home. My energy is still limited, and this will allow me to ensure that itís spent on the right activities, so I donít trip over the pebbles in my path.

Why didnít I realize this before???

PAT3ONTHEBACKís June 23 blog got me thinking when she suggested asking "would I serve this to guests?" That really hit home for me. One of my relatives has celiac's so that pretty well knocks out baked goods and most snack foods from guest menus. I always make sure that whatever I make is celiac-friendly, so she doesnít have to feel like (1) sheís a whole lot of extra trouble and (2) like she eats weird food. So it's a good question for me to ask myself when I get those urges! If I go through the trouble to make celiac-safe food for her, why would I not make sure I make the food I and my DH and DS need for our health and wellbeing???

Yesterday was a crazy weather day. On our return home from work, we ran into (in order) a flooded street, a fire, a head-on collision, then multiple flooded streets. I had a physical assessment scheduled at the gym we joined this week, but as we were fjording the streets to make it home the gym called to postpone. It turned out for the best given the circumstances, but I had really been looking forward to getting that baseline data.

My four things to do today:
(1) Pick up cement blocks for the garden
(2) Go to the farmerís market for freggies and to support our local economy
(3) Go to the gym and do some pool exercises
(4) Reschedule my physical assessment at the gym

Have a great week-end everyone!

ETA It's time to sign up for the Summer 5% Challenge! These seasonal challenges have led to some great success stories. Just for the record, the StarFish team is the best one around (in community if not in points!)

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PAT3ONTHEBACK 6/26/2011 11:21PM

    I'm in your blog! Does this mean I've been published!!!! JK. I'm glad you "took something home." Now I have to figure out which pebbles tripped me up--with the power outage and the travels, I have completely forgotten about my 100 day challenge. Maybe that format isn't for me. Have to investigate.

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JULIEANNCAN 6/26/2011 2:51PM

    It sounds like you're doing well. :) Good for you!

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TEDYBEAR2838 6/25/2011 2:55PM

    Sounds like you have a good plan.
Now just stick to it

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JECKIE 6/25/2011 9:24AM

    Some great insights here. I let the "pebbles" get in my way sometimes, too, because I have such lofty sights. I need to look down once in a while!

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Day 94/100 Ė Just passed the longest day of the year, and still the days are too short!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Todayís ďHealthy ReflectionĒ could have been written by me: ďI still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.Ē (John Burroughs, essayist and naturalist)

There havenít been enough hours in the past couple of days for me to feel like Iím even making a dent in what I want done. But who cares? The best thing of all happened today Ė I saw my son graduate from high school.

A year and a half ago, when I was diagnosed with inflammatory breast cancer, I wasnít sure I would see this day. I am forever thankful for the medical team that managed my case, and the support of my family and friends as I went through treatments and surgery. Theyíve all given me a new lease on life.

And still, I find the days too short!!! Tomorrow will be busy as well, being a workday for me as well as having my physical assessment at the gym we just joined. Iím nearly afraid to find out how badly Iíve slipped down the scale, but it will give me a clear baseline from which to work.

Happy snoozes everyone!

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PAT3ONTHEBACK 6/26/2011 11:23PM

    I found it really hard to voice that proud moment of being alive for something I was not sure I would be for. Made me feel weak that I had doubts. .. .

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JULIEANNCAN 6/24/2011 6:45PM

    Yes, the days are too short, aren't they? emoticon

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    You are a true survivor and the gift of life that you have been given is being used in great ways!! emoticon

Cheers to having more hours in the day!!

Happy Friday!!

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KELPIE57 6/24/2011 4:12AM

    So much to be grateful for, and so much to put into each day

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KAREN_NY 6/23/2011 9:12PM

    No fear!! You'll find some joy in the new movement and be on your way!

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96/100 Short and Sweet

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Today was a work day for me, and it was very productive. Ate a healthy breakfast, brought a healthy lunch to work, had a healthy supper. Iím happy with where Iím at in my reintegration to work, and with the projects theyíve given me to do. I canít say it enough Ė Iím very lucky to be working with the team I am.

After work, we did some not-so-quick shopping to get equipment for going to the health club. In particular, DH didnít have a sports bag and we both needed indoor shoes. Having just learned that my shoe fitting problem isnít that I have a wide foot, itís that I have an exceptionally high arch, we went to a specialized store where their staff is trained in fitting shoes. What a difference! Iím going to feel like exercising even more now!

So that was my day. Now I have to think about what Iíll do tomorrow to be productive, before and after a medical appointment. ĎNight Sparkers!


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SPARKCHANTAL 6/23/2011 3:59PM

    ho ho! i'm familiar with that one, the high arches!
maybe you should consider getting some toe shoes (pointe shoes in british) for ballet dancing! you might have quite an attractive foot for that.

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JULIEANNCAN 6/22/2011 6:18PM

    So glad you have found some more comfy shoes!

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TEDYBEAR2838 6/22/2011 8:07AM

    Hope you rested well. What did you decide about today's activities?

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DAV128 6/21/2011 8:53PM

    Good for you. Sounds like things are on track and your head is in the right place.


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