Saturday, July 09, 2011
Well, my guys are away this week-end at a soccer tournament, so Iím going to dedicate this ďMEĒ time to re-set my compass and get back on track.
The past couple of weeks have been tough for a lot of reasons, and at some point I just surrendered to circumstance and determined to do the minimum required to keep healthy, and put the rest on the back burner. Unfortunately, that included my SP activities.
One of the things that knocked me off track was getting a call from the hospital for a head and neck scan the next day. I had never received notice of this appointment, and didnít expect it. I have been so focused on the breast cancer for the past 1.5 years that I had basically forgotten about the follow-up for the thyroid cancer (which is what this scan was for). So I was back to feeling that I wasnít getting out of this cancer loop, that something else will probably come up just when I think itís over. It took me a while to shake that off. I guess itís never TOTALLY shaken off, but at least itís not constantly in my thoughts.
Another thing thatís taking a lot of my attention is my gradual return to work. Itís the little things that have changed, like I need a list at the end of the day so I donít forget anything. If my end-of-day routine is disrupted, the beginning of my next day is all screwed up.That being said, aside from my low energy itís all going very well. The energy thing is largely, I think, a matter of building up stamina again after having been sedentary for 1.5 years. The other thing at work is that Iíve been very focused on reading and editing some key documents, and so when I get home the last thing I want to do is get on the computer for more reading and writing.
Aside from that there have been family and friendsí health problems, financial issues relating to compensation being split between insurance and salary, etc., etc., etc.
So Iím getting back on the horse this week-end while I have all of this uninterrupted time. That means cleaning out the kitchen, doing some decluttering, and catching up on Spark including completing the pre-challenge activities for the Summer 5% Challenge. Back to drinking my water and not dehydrating; back to eating my freggies (pigged out on strawberries and Greek yogurt last night!); back to doing some exercise. The coming week is going to be very busy. Iím increasing my work to three days per week; I have my physical assessment at the gym on Monday evening; I have a pot luck get together of a cancer support group on Tuesday evening. So I need to start the week strong and on top of things so they donít get out of hand by Wednesday LOL!
Have a great week-end everyone!
Sunday, June 26, 2011
This week was difficult, in that I had three nights that I didnít sleep at all. Iím not sure whatís going on, if itís a bit of anxiety with the return to work, but Iíll fall asleep on the sofa, my DH will wake me up to go to bed and Iíll be awake all night. ARGH.
Anyway, one thing that might help is increasing my physical activity. Today was my first day at the gym. I havenít had my physical assessment yet, but I know I can bike so I did that. I also did a bit of free weights (rehab exercises from the mastectomy; I also knew those exercises were safe). What I had really been looking forward to was going in the pool, but it was family swim time (they have it twice a week), and I canít deal with the noise. Usually the pool is very quiet (2-3 people), so weíll go some other time Ė maybe even later this evening.
I must admit, going to the gym is a bit intimidating. There is my odd shape since the mastectomy which will take getting used to seeing it in full-length mirrors and tighter clothes. But when I look around, I see all kinds of body shapes and sizes there. It isnít one of those pick-up gyms that feels like a singles club. Thereís even a dress code, and people go there to work. I was a little awestruck by some of the exercises that were being done in the weight room. I certainly have some inspiration and real-life role models there!
The variety of equipment is amazing Ė I want to try them all! And I will, eventually, but I want to ensure Iím using them properly and not overdoing it. In other words, Iíve come to the conclusion that Iím going to have to work with a personal trainer for a while. Itís quite expensive ($50-80 per hour), but after everything Iíve been through it seems a small price to pay to make sure I donít injure myself and that Iím off on the right foot for recovering my health and wellness.
But really, canít wait to try out the rowing machines, the treadmills with actual, real trails on the TV to walk, all the weight equipment. PLUS the classes! They have not only yoga, but also yoga teacher training , aqua yoga and anti-gravity yoga. PLUS dance! African movement, belly dancing, Latin dance, Zumba... PLUS the teams! They have house leagues of all kinds of sports including volleyball, badminton, basketball, soccer, and so much more!
I have to be careful and not get ahead of myself here. The assessment on Wednesday (postponed from last Friday) will head me in the right direction, but I have never followed a regular exercise regimen (although Iíve exercised regularly but informally, if that makes sense). Iím looking forward to working with a trainer and really finding out where my limits are, and pushing them further out.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Iíve read some blogs that got me thinking this week.
In her September 23 blog, SeptemberSpiritís talked about clearing pebbles from her path. She shared a quote which is very a propos. ďNobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain.Ē (Author Unknown)
I realized that in my first week of my 100-Day Challenge, Iíve been focussing on the big picture, figuring out how to put things into place so I can reach my goals. The one missing piece was the pebbles. I forgot to pay attention to the pebbles, and Iíve been getting tripped up.
I am a super organized person at work, so this week-end Iím bringing those organizational skills and tools at home. My energy is still limited, and this will allow me to ensure that itís spent on the right activities, so I donít trip over the pebbles in my path.
Why didnít I realize this before???
PAT3ONTHEBACKís June 23 blog got me thinking when she suggested asking "would I serve this to guests?" That really hit home for me. One of my relatives has celiac's so that pretty well knocks out baked goods and most snack foods from guest menus. I always make sure that whatever I make is celiac-friendly, so she doesnít have to feel like (1) sheís a whole lot of extra trouble and (2) like she eats weird food. So it's a good question for me to ask myself when I get those urges! If I go through the trouble to make celiac-safe food for her, why would I not make sure I make the food I and my DH and DS need for our health and wellbeing???
Yesterday was a crazy weather day. On our return home from work, we ran into (in order) a flooded street, a fire, a head-on collision, then multiple flooded streets. I had a physical assessment scheduled at the gym we joined this week, but as we were fjording the streets to make it home the gym called to postpone. It turned out for the best given the circumstances, but I had really been looking forward to getting that baseline data.
My four things to do today:
(1) Pick up cement blocks for the garden
(2) Go to the farmerís market for freggies and to support our local economy
(3) Go to the gym and do some pool exercises
(4) Reschedule my physical assessment at the gym
Have a great week-end everyone!
ETA It's time to sign up for the Summer 5% Challenge! These seasonal challenges have led to some great success stories. Just for the record, the StarFish team is the best one around (in community if not in points!)
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Todayís ďHealthy ReflectionĒ could have been written by me: ďI still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.Ē (John Burroughs, essayist and naturalist)
There havenít been enough hours in the past couple of days for me to feel like Iím even making a dent in what I want done. But who cares? The best thing of all happened today Ė I saw my son graduate from high school.
A year and a half ago, when I was diagnosed with inflammatory breast cancer, I wasnít sure I would see this day. I am forever thankful for the medical team that managed my case, and the support of my family and friends as I went through treatments and surgery. Theyíve all given me a new lease on life.
And still, I find the days too short!!! Tomorrow will be busy as well, being a workday for me as well as having my physical assessment at the gym we just joined. Iím nearly afraid to find out how badly Iíve slipped down the scale, but it will give me a clear baseline from which to work.
Happy snoozes everyone!
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