Thursday, June 16, 2011
So tomorrow is Day 100/100, starting the count down of my 100-Day Challenge. Iíve been working hard this week thinking thinky thoughts, to identify the right my priorities and goals, that is achievable but not so easy that I get bored, not so hard that I get discouraged. I should contextualize this by saying that all aspects of my life have suffered from lack of attention during my 1.5 years of cancer treatments. This is my fresh start. My framework is my longer-term "vision" oriented stuff that generally looks like this.
Health and Wellness: My body is strong and healthy, and I trust it enough to be spontaneous, daring and fun! (Obviously, this is my priority). (I just realized that this reads more like an affirmation, but it works for me.)
Family (including extended family and friends): I'm not even sure I know how to express this one. There's an awareness that the kids are growing up (i.e. my son, nieces and nephew) and so our lifestyles are changing. I want to ensure that it means we'll all grow closer rather than growing apart. I've been quite isolated during my cancer treatments, and I want to re-connect.
$$$ (there's no money emoticon??? or am I blind???)
Money: Be debt free, get our son through college without acquiring more debt, and really start focusing on emergency and retirement savings.
Household: That our house be a home, not only for us but for our extended family/friends to drop by whenever they feel like it. (Yes, that means decluttering, but also finishing some renos that we had started before cancer and getting the yard landscaped/patio re-done, and start inviting people over more often).
Recreation: This one is only on the list insofar as it feeds into Health and Wellness, i.e. hiking, photography, snowshoeing, etc.
All other aspects (learning, career, etc.) are coasting for now, as one can only focus on so many things at a time. I'm working on specific goals for those areas today
Taking a tip from the ďLiving Well Beyond CancerĒ workshop I took with the Canadian Cancer Society, Iíll be identifying three goals each week, and ignore anything further than that. Holding a laser focus on short-term activities leading to my longer-term goals will kick-start my program, and get me further along than what Iíve been doing so far (that is, looking too far ahead and getting discouraged when roadblocks delay my journey).
ďIt must be borne in mind that the tragedy of life does not lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy of life lies in having no goal to reach." Benjamin E. Mays
Monday, June 13, 2011
In thinking about my 100-day challenge, I realized that it will be a lot of experimentation on my part, trying to consolidate the lessons Iíve learned over the years with the perspective that SP has given me and my new metabolism since cancer. It is likely that the particulars wouldnít work for many people. Nevertheless, Iíll be blogging both for my own purposes (for my own clarity and later perspective) and for anyone else out there who may be interested. This is how I think it works for a lot of people who are striving to regain health and wellness: trial and error, figuring out what works for yourself!
One thing Iíve learned is that the food tracker is not currently as useful for me as it once was. The sodium, potassium, etc. arenít reliable measurements for a variety of reasons (I donít add salt when I cook, potassium isnít listed on labels so I canít add it when I do add food, etc.) For me, at this point it isnít about weight loss and/or calories, itís about the lethargy I feel after overcarbing, or the bloating I feel after eating too much gluten, about how energetic I am when I eat well all day. I need to listen to myself for that, and the tracker is both distracting and time consuming in my current context.
Iíll still be logging my food list, but in a portable journal that combines food/meds/exercise/how I react. I also think that the simple act of counting my freggie and water servings is motivating for me, so Iíll be using the quick tracker for that (SparkStreaks!).
Iím still working on the rest of my goals and strategies, but this one was a big realization for me so I thought Iíd share.
Have a good week everyone!
Saturday, June 11, 2011
My 100-Day Challenge
Friday, June 17th will be 100 days from my 50th birthday (September 24th). Iíve been having problems with goals that are too mid-term, and my part-time return to work has made lack of energy an issue again (and Iíve had to slow it down and delay full-time return by at least a month.) I need to get back into gear, so Iíve committed myself to my very own 100-Day Challenge. Of course, if anyone else wants to join me with their own goals, Iím more than happy to have company!
Until June 17th, Iíll be making sure Iím ready with the right food stocked up, the right mind set, strategies to address problems I may run into. Because my mid-term goals always seem to be blocked by events (toe operations, Tamoxifen, etc.), Iíve decided that for 100 days I will focus only on the current week and the current day. Thatís it. No forward planning, no thinking about what Iíll be able to do once Iím healthier, whatever. Small baby steps. Laser focus. Acknowledge and reward small successes.
"To reach a port we must sail. Sail, not tie at anchor. Sail, not drift." (FDR)
Wednesday, June 01, 2011
I know the source of my relationship with food.
A bit of background. I started a migraine on Friday, and it held on through the week-end and Monday. It wasnít huge pain , but it was lots of nausea and light sensitivity and sensitivity to movement. And what did I reach for? You know it. Food. Not just food (which, you know, I DO eat every day), but ice cream and chips and chocolate. Iíve been mulling over WHY ever since.
Iíve always known part of it works (the neurologist says the ice cream thing helps through the same process that gives you brain freeze when you eat it too quickly). Clearly part of it (that would be the part that isn't ice cream) is ďcomfortĒ.
Strangely enough, Iíve expressed it a few times in posts or blogs, but I guess it never really sunk in until I read MKPRINCESS007ís blog ďIt is never too lateĒ. Go read it. Itís short, insightful and to the point. You don't even have to go searching... just click on the link below!
In any event, I realize that so many people around me, meaning to do good and following medical advice at the time, conspired to make sweets especially ďcomfortĒ for me. I was diagnosed with hypoglycaemia when I was two after two weeks in hospital for a myriad of tests. Medical advice at the time was that I eat sweets when I felt ill. So there were always chocolate bars in the fridge for me (especially in case I woke up in the middle of the night sick), and if we had run out it was spoonfuls of corn syrup. When I hit my teens (aka puberty), my teachers saved their Halloweíen, Easter, Valentineís and Christmas chocolates for when I felt ill. A full drawer in each of their desks.
I guess I come by my ďchocolate is comfortĒ script honestly!
That being said, this is the first time I actually put two and two together. Believe it or not, Iím generally known to be an intelligent person, but for some reason Ė I guess because itís such a part of me now Ė I never realized how far back my lessons went. Now that I know precisely (because Iíve always generally known there was something there!), I need to develop strategies for when Iím not feeling well. Because, letís face it, when I feel like $hit and can barely see or stand straight, Iím not going to be thinking rationally or focusing on whatís healthy. So, for my Top 4 List of today:
(1) Strategize, for home, errands and work, and find something healthy that works!
(2) Sew buttons on my sonís shorts (who, apparently, wore them half the summer last year without buttons, using the belt to hold them up) Attendant to that will be teach my son how to sew buttons, but that wonít be today since heís at school, then getting ready for a 3-day canoe/camping school trip
(3) Make marinated salads, that will last through the week-end
(4) Tackle my desk (this is a multi-day project!)
Happy Hump Day!
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Well, yesterday was a write off. I started a migraine which, since chemo/radiation, doesn't come with tons of pain but does come with dizziness, light sensitivity and oodles of nausea. Ugh. I still have it a bit (4/10, if the doc were to ask), so I'll likely have to take it easy today. Today's Top 4 List pics up from yesterday's, but I'll probably send DH to do groceries alone instead of going myself.
My Top 4 List:
(1) Menu, grocery list (send DH to do groceries)
(2) Sort two work boxes, pack to return to work
(3) Exercise (even something mild is better than nothing!)
Aside from that, I'll be putzing around, trying to declutter a bit. It's rainy outside so I can't work in the garden, but I may sit on the porch with a book. At least it's quiet when it's rainy - no whipper snappers or gas mowers in the neighborhood!
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