Monday, June 13, 2011
In thinking about my 100-day challenge, I realized that it will be a lot of experimentation on my part, trying to consolidate the lessons Iíve learned over the years with the perspective that SP has given me and my new metabolism since cancer. It is likely that the particulars wouldnít work for many people. Nevertheless, Iíll be blogging both for my own purposes (for my own clarity and later perspective) and for anyone else out there who may be interested. This is how I think it works for a lot of people who are striving to regain health and wellness: trial and error, figuring out what works for yourself!
One thing Iíve learned is that the food tracker is not currently as useful for me as it once was. The sodium, potassium, etc. arenít reliable measurements for a variety of reasons (I donít add salt when I cook, potassium isnít listed on labels so I canít add it when I do add food, etc.) For me, at this point it isnít about weight loss and/or calories, itís about the lethargy I feel after overcarbing, or the bloating I feel after eating too much gluten, about how energetic I am when I eat well all day. I need to listen to myself for that, and the tracker is both distracting and time consuming in my current context.
Iíll still be logging my food list, but in a portable journal that combines food/meds/exercise/how I react. I also think that the simple act of counting my freggie and water servings is motivating for me, so Iíll be using the quick tracker for that (SparkStreaks!).
Iím still working on the rest of my goals and strategies, but this one was a big realization for me so I thought Iíd share.
Have a good week everyone!
Saturday, June 11, 2011
My 100-Day Challenge
Friday, June 17th will be 100 days from my 50th birthday (September 24th). Iíve been having problems with goals that are too mid-term, and my part-time return to work has made lack of energy an issue again (and Iíve had to slow it down and delay full-time return by at least a month.) I need to get back into gear, so Iíve committed myself to my very own 100-Day Challenge. Of course, if anyone else wants to join me with their own goals, Iím more than happy to have company!
Until June 17th, Iíll be making sure Iím ready with the right food stocked up, the right mind set, strategies to address problems I may run into. Because my mid-term goals always seem to be blocked by events (toe operations, Tamoxifen, etc.), Iíve decided that for 100 days I will focus only on the current week and the current day. Thatís it. No forward planning, no thinking about what Iíll be able to do once Iím healthier, whatever. Small baby steps. Laser focus. Acknowledge and reward small successes.
"To reach a port we must sail. Sail, not tie at anchor. Sail, not drift." (FDR)
Wednesday, June 01, 2011
I know the source of my relationship with food.
A bit of background. I started a migraine on Friday, and it held on through the week-end and Monday. It wasnít huge pain , but it was lots of nausea and light sensitivity and sensitivity to movement. And what did I reach for? You know it. Food. Not just food (which, you know, I DO eat every day), but ice cream and chips and chocolate. Iíve been mulling over WHY ever since.
Iíve always known part of it works (the neurologist says the ice cream thing helps through the same process that gives you brain freeze when you eat it too quickly). Clearly part of it (that would be the part that isn't ice cream) is ďcomfortĒ.
Strangely enough, Iíve expressed it a few times in posts or blogs, but I guess it never really sunk in until I read MKPRINCESS007ís blog ďIt is never too lateĒ. Go read it. Itís short, insightful and to the point. You don't even have to go searching... just click on the link below!
In any event, I realize that so many people around me, meaning to do good and following medical advice at the time, conspired to make sweets especially ďcomfortĒ for me. I was diagnosed with hypoglycaemia when I was two after two weeks in hospital for a myriad of tests. Medical advice at the time was that I eat sweets when I felt ill. So there were always chocolate bars in the fridge for me (especially in case I woke up in the middle of the night sick), and if we had run out it was spoonfuls of corn syrup. When I hit my teens (aka puberty), my teachers saved their Halloweíen, Easter, Valentineís and Christmas chocolates for when I felt ill. A full drawer in each of their desks.
I guess I come by my ďchocolate is comfortĒ script honestly!
That being said, this is the first time I actually put two and two together. Believe it or not, Iím generally known to be an intelligent person, but for some reason Ė I guess because itís such a part of me now Ė I never realized how far back my lessons went. Now that I know precisely (because Iíve always generally known there was something there!), I need to develop strategies for when Iím not feeling well. Because, letís face it, when I feel like $hit and can barely see or stand straight, Iím not going to be thinking rationally or focusing on whatís healthy. So, for my Top 4 List of today:
(1) Strategize, for home, errands and work, and find something healthy that works!
(2) Sew buttons on my sonís shorts (who, apparently, wore them half the summer last year without buttons, using the belt to hold them up) Attendant to that will be teach my son how to sew buttons, but that wonít be today since heís at school, then getting ready for a 3-day canoe/camping school trip
(3) Make marinated salads, that will last through the week-end
(4) Tackle my desk (this is a multi-day project!)
Happy Hump Day!
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Well, yesterday was a write off. I started a migraine which, since chemo/radiation, doesn't come with tons of pain but does come with dizziness, light sensitivity and oodles of nausea. Ugh. I still have it a bit (4/10, if the doc were to ask), so I'll likely have to take it easy today. Today's Top 4 List pics up from yesterday's, but I'll probably send DH to do groceries alone instead of going myself.
My Top 4 List:
(1) Menu, grocery list (send DH to do groceries)
(2) Sort two work boxes, pack to return to work
(3) Exercise (even something mild is better than nothing!)
Aside from that, I'll be putzing around, trying to declutter a bit. It's rainy outside so I can't work in the garden, but I may sit on the porch with a book. At least it's quiet when it's rainy - no whipper snappers or gas mowers in the neighborhood!
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Review of Thursday:
Meals... Breakfast, lunch and supper were as planned, except I had cauliflower instead of Brussel sprouts.
Exercise... Fail. No exercise at all. Very tired all day (perhaps because I hadnít slept all night???)
- Made a rhubarb-apple compote in the slow cooker, with rhubarb from the garden and a $1 bag of apples from the day-old shelf. It was high time I went out and picked that rhubarb!
- Clear out three boxes of stuff, including a full box of things I brought back to work yesterday!
- My ďnapĒ turned into a three-hour sleep! So I didnít make our lunch, we ate out (but ate the same things I had planned to make).
Review of Friday:
Meals... Again ate as planned for breakfast and lunch. We had take-out for supper Ė Lebanese rice, fatoush, chicken. Healthy enough except (probably) for the sodium.
Exercise... Another fail. Iím realizing that I donít have enough ďspoonsĒ to exercise and work these days, and get everything else done that I need to do. Iíll have to figure something out to make this work better.
Activities ... A very full workday requiring heavy concentration. I did some great writing and editing, and got sent to a meeting at the last minute and was able to not only keep up with the discussion, but contribute. Not bad after being away for 1.5 years! Iím happy to see that I have very mild ďchemo brainĒ thatís managed by lists to help me focus and remember, BUT I did use up too many spoons and was exhausted last night. Still feeling it today.
And here, I have to apologize to Team StarFish, because I have totally neglected logging anything onto the points thread this week. My head was totally not there this week, and I wasn't tracking things at all. Promise to do better this week!
Breakfast Ė a kinda fried rice with eggs and veg. Black coffee.
Lunch Ė will be making a broccoli raisin salad, and I have some cooked chicken in the fridge. Supper Ė Pork chops on the BBQ with veg, and a bit of rhubarb compote as a 'salsa'
My Top 4 List:
(1) Clean out fridge, in preparation of...
(2) Menu, grocery list, groceries
(3) Sort two work boxes, pack to return to work
(4) Send bday notes/cards
Also, although the doc said my Vitamin B12 was fine (but was worried that my thyroid wasnít functioning properly, until I pointed out it was removed in 2006), I double checked my bloodwork report. Vit B12 is shown as being ďinsufficiencyĒ (not as low as ďdeficiencyĒ, but also not ďsufficiencyĒ), so Iíve begun to take Vitamin B12 in the morning. They say that you see results within a few days, so Iíll assess next week-end if itís helping or not.
I'm also realizing that I'm adjusting to my "new normal", if I can put it that way. I'm still not juggling my spoons as well as I could, but I'm determined to get back to being as active as I was before the two cancers, but I'm realizing I'll have to adjust my thinking about how, and especially how soon, I get there.
On my way to having a great week-end! I hope you are too!
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