Tuesday, March 15, 2011
I find it impossible to pick one favourite, but the one that speaks to me in the SparkPeople context is:
'If you have made mistakes, even serious mistakes, you may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down." ~ Mary Pickford
I read this and I hear that itís ok to not be perfect, I can make mistakes, I can experiment and keep trying until I get a good fit.
In this recovery adventure that Iím on, Iím re-learning about my metabolism, and how I react to foods. Iím retraining my body to be stronger and more flexible, to have more stamina. Iím learning new habits, so that more often now I think warm fuzzy thoughts instead of reach for warm comfort foods.
Iím hitting some speed bumps along the way, and have had a few hiccups. But overall, Iím moving ahead and becoming a better me. Canít ask for more than that!!!
Saturday, March 12, 2011
I'm not sure what happened this week. I seem to have lost some time LOL!
After learning last week I can go back to work in May, I got results of my bloodwork back from my annual physical, and that was good news too. Vitamin B12, iron, etc. all within good ranges, cholesterol went down a teeny tiny amount. All good stuff.
So why did I spend two days doing nothing? Literally falling asleep at the drop of a hat as soon as I sat down? Very frustrating!!! I know the docs all say it's still chemo/rads adjustments, be patient, give it time, blah, blah, blah.... I'm so over that! It's making me a little nervous about returning to work and finding out I don't actually have the energy to do it just yet. Mind you, I still have a few weeks before that time, and it will be a gradual return, but still... I worry.
Aside from that, I had a good cooking day on Thursday, making fruit salad, stewed beef, a yummy soup, 5-grain cereal in the slow cooker for breakfast Friday morning. I'm getting ahead on my recipe sorting (one of my March goals) so that when I do return to work, I'll have some easy, multiple-meal recipes handy, and my boys (DH and DS) will know how to make them too!
The other March goal I had was sorting through my plethora of spices, which I did this week. So much easier to cook when I can find everything I want!
Lastly, I did some strength training today that turned out better than I expected. Very happy that my arms are back to nearly full mobility, which I really notice when exercising. Let's face it; I'm not usually standing with my arms over my head, so I don't have many occasions to notice the return of mobility LOL.
My March project for next week is sorting through some old slides, scanning them into the computer, making up a photo book and developing some as pictures to frame. Maybe I'll even post some here!
We're moving the clock ahead tonight for daylight savings, so we're losing an of sleep, but it's also a great reminder that our days are getting longer and the sun is warming up. Spring is just around the corner!
Sunday, March 06, 2011
Big, BIG NEWS this week... I spent Wednesday at medical appointments. The doctors told me I can go back to work in May. I am soooo psyched!
Iíve been Sparking with the intention of an eventual return to work, and Iím constantly looking at things from the point of view how I will adapt what works now (when I have very little energy). I figure if I can do it with little energy, I can do it once Iím back at work. A few lessons learned so far:
ē This week we found organic milk in glass bottles at FarmBoy. Iíve started using one of those bottles for my water Ė one before lunch and one after, and Iím sure to get my 64 oz per day. So Iíll put a bottle in my Ďreturn to workí stash.
ē My Ďstealth exerciseí that I do every time I go to the washroom will, of course, continue when I go back to work. Iíll also be taking the stairs one flight up or down to go to the washroom, instead of going on my floor.
ē I also want to take the stairs to my 6th floor office, so Iíll have to start Ďdoing stairsí at home (we have a two story house, with a basement) to build up the stamina. Hey, cardio, there you are!
ē Much easier for me to cook large batches and eat the same things for lunches, than get creative and try to do something fresh for each meal. Plus, I find leftovers taste better the second time around anyway!
ē Iíll be relying on hearty soups for lunches in the winter/cold or rainy weather, and salads during hot weather. I am not a fan of sandwiches every day, although once per week is ok.
ē Iíll have to develop a strategy for when co-workers want to go out for lunch. Some places around my work are very ok, but most are Italian so lots of carbs, cheese and sodium! Yum for the tastebuds, but not for the rest of me!
Aside from that, the leftovers of the cancer treatments will finally be tied up by end of September; that is... Iím adjusting (finally!) to the Tamoxifen and my energy is coming back. The Ďdog earsí are being removed in August/September once the edema is gone, and my toenails are being dealt with in April/May with minor surgeries. I canít wait to be able to wear socks and shoes! (Itís the little things that give me joy LOL!)
On another front, my son is playing soccer again this year, but is on a different team. Now that he has friends with licenses and cars, we wonít have to traipse to all the practices like we used to (actually, DH used to as I didnít have the stamina). I want to be able to go to all the games this year (except for out-of-town tournaments), especially since itís likely his last year of playing.
So yeah, things are definitely looking up. And how was YOUR week???
Monday, February 28, 2011
My priority is still recovery after completing my cancer treatments in November 2010. My metabolism has definitely changed, and my previous cancer, age and new meds are compounding that, so I need to reacquaint myself with my body and how I react to things. My first two goals therefore target my physical health, i.e. nutrition and exercise.
Iíve been slacking off on tracking food in the past few months, so I want to track food every day in March. With the change in my metabolism, I donít want to take anything for granted. Everything old is new again!
Iím aiming for a high protein/low carb diet because thatís whatís worked for me in the past. Iíll adjust weekly as I see how I react to it now. Obviously, this also means being more precise in my meal planning. Calorie target is 1500 /day (range between 1290 and 1640 cal/day; my caloric distribution looks something like this:
Breakfast about 300 cals
Snack about 100 cals
Lunch about 300 cals
Snack 100 calories
Supper about 600 calories
Snack 100 calories (with meds, before bed)
Keep sodium under 1500 mg/day
And, you know, WATER, WATER, WATER
Iíll have one Ďfreeí day per week, where tracking wonít be expected but where Iíll still make every effort to make wise food choices.
Tracking food isnít going to mean much unless itís combined with increasing my activities. Unfortunately, Iím limited by the state of my toenails (chemo side effect). I have minor surgeries scheduled in April/May to address that, but in the meantime Iím also gearing up to return to work, hopefully in May, after having been away for 1.5 years.
I want to do some cardio every day (SP says I need to burn 274 calories per day to reach my goals). Iíve bought a Leslie Sansone walking DVD and dancing to help with that. Iíll also continue with weight training with free weights, my stealth exercise when I go to the washroom, and my DH and I are looking into taking some Tai Chi classes (if I can do them barefoot).
One of my return-to-work goals is to take the stairs to my 6th floor office instead of taking the elevator.
I know I wonít have as much time once I return to work, but while I do have this extra time I want to spend some of it reading and responding to blogs and to discussion threads. I know Iíve greatly benefited from othersí blogs and messages, and learned and been encouraged so much. I want to continue that circle of support.
My energy levels are starting (I hope!) to regularize, so I want to consistently do 15 minutes per day of Zone work. I also want to complete the following projects:
1st (partial) week of March: Organize recipes for better access Ė this will be ongoing over the month as I plan my menus, and is a huge step in simplifying meal preparation for us
2nd week: Sort through and toss old spices; organize and label spice jars
3rd week (March break!): Scan Everglades slides before they deteriorate, pick a few to print and frame
4th week: finish painting the Ĺ bath reno (which I didnít do in January, nor in February!).
5th (partial) week: Organize my desk
REDISCOVERING MY PASSIONS
Music has always been a love, and Iíll continue with my piano playing and singing (just for me, nothing public!) Ė I want to re-learn Henry Manciniís arrangement of Love Story this month (I used to play it 30 years ago!), as well as start up on some new pieces. I also want to get out and do some photography, and may join an internet group that provides feedback and tips.
In CONCLUSION, I have to say that it looks like a lot, but it also feels like I'm just touching the tip of the iceberg.There is so much LIFE out there, and I can't wait to get at it all!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
I joined a new team this week - WeBlog - and the prompt today was "20 things that make me happy", to acknowledge the 20 members (so far)... what a great thing to think about! In no particular order (and certainly not comprehensive!)
1. My DH of 23 years... I am so blessed to have met him and to share my life with him
2. My DS of 17 years, who just yesterday deemed us to be "cool parents"
3. Dancing and singing along to music, volume turned up full blast - (My neighbors can hear and probably sing along, but that doesn't mean it's too loud, does it???)
4. Being near the ocean... there's an energy in the sea wind and the waves that you just don't get on a lake
5. Being in the forest... the cool air, the smells, the wind through the leaves...
6. Getting that great shot (photo)!
7. Rounding a corner on my bike or in the car, and seeing an unexpected vista
8. Being able to do something I thought I wasn't able to
9. My friends - old and new!
10. Finishing a really, really difficult puzzle (jigsaw, crossword, sudoku, kakuro, whatever!)
11. A really good cappucino
12. Making someone smile or laugh
13. Trusting my instincts, and being right
16. Being part of a really good team
17. Volunteering, doing something that others find helpful or useful
18. Reading and writing
19. Travel, exploring new places and cultures
20. Thinking about things that make me happy!
What makes YOU happy?
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