New Beginnings

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I have been under lots of stress and anxiety the last 6 months. I am feeling better. I am moving to my moms next week and also losing my boyfriend (he is leaving me) of almost 3 years/ So ya life has been stressful. I have made peace with moving back home. I just now have to deal with my broken heart. I won't go into details here that's what my therapist is for LOL! So I have lots of new changes to deal with but I will be ok. I will be getting myself back to being healthy in every way. Also will be spending time here on this site. I will gladly take all the support I can get from you all here. So here is to new beginnings!!!

  

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SEATTLESEAGIRL 6/21/2011 12:54PM

Thank you ladies! Report Inappropriate Comment

DOODIE59 6/21/2011 8:34AM

Here is to new beginnings! Best of luck sorting through your life. One of the best things you could do for yourself right now is to take care of yourself by being kind and forgiving and by eating healthily to support your physical and mental health:) Take walks while you're "working things out" in your head and you'll benefit two ways:) Best wishes that you will find that a whole new world has opened up as the result of the (hard) changes in your life. Blessings to you -- Deirdre Report Inappropriate Comment

DONNAGOWAN 6/21/2011 2:45AM

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When do things get better?

Saturday, April 16, 2011

I got the NO for another job I had interviewed for. I really thought this was the one for me. I don't know how much longer I can keep up the front of bieng positive and trying to keep my chin up. So discouraging. I am packing up now and am losing my home I have lived in for the last 20 plus years. Yes, I have to move back home. Not sure if my Bf will be moving there with me. Between this and everything else going on that's not good the stress ,worry and anxiety is starting to take it's toll. I am really tired of people telling me my whole life that i ma stong person. I am really not it's all just a act. So my eating has been out of control as with the exercise. I am trying to get back on track but can't.

I want the old me back so bad, The happy go lucky fun girl. All I can do is try and I do know that this is a temporary situation and I will not have to live at home forever. Sorry to be such a downer just had to blog tonight. Get it off my chest.

I hope you all are doing well and are having a great weekend.

  

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SEATTLESEAGIRL 4/17/2011 1:18AM

Thank you DOODIE59. Report Inappropriate Comment

DOODIE59 4/16/2011 10:45PM

I'm sorry to hear about your troubles. It's hard to leave a place after so many years. Perhaps living with your parents for a short time will ease some of the other stresses in your life ... On the plus side, the bad times won't last forever, and the one thing you ARE in control of is what goes into your mouth. So if through all this stress you can at least put quality food into your body and exercise to get rid of stress you will be that much more ready to face your new job when it (finally:)) comes along. Be good to yourself through these hard times. Take care Deirdre Report Inappropriate Comment

Seriously??

Saturday, March 05, 2011

Today was one of those days that really sucked. Have you ever been told something awful in a public place and can't respond because you are in the public. I could not move,cry,freak out, speak. Still have not been able to have a good cry. I know it's gonna happen and when it does it will fill this hole in my heart.

  

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ONESILLYME 3/7/2011 5:57PM

Dammit, I hate it when unhappy things happen to my friends. Report Inappropriate Comment

FAITH2BWELL 3/5/2011 4:37AM

Hey I feel you on what you have said, So here's a big hugg from me to you, Have a great weekend. Report Inappropriate Comment

SEATTLESEAGIRL 3/5/2011 1:17AM

Thank you FRIENDOFBACH Report Inappropriate Comment

FRIENDOFBACH 3/5/2011 1:12AM

I was told lies that were slanderous about another person in a restaurant the other day and couldn't say anything about it without revealing how I had found out, unfortunately confidential. I know how you feel. Report Inappropriate Comment

Proud of Me

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

I forgot to write something very important yesterday. A friend and I went swimming yesterday at the indoor pool at my place. I was hoping no one else would be there. Well we walk in and there were 6 yes 6 young handsome fit young men all in their 20's I assume. I was like starting to freak out and feel embarriesd and nervous. Already started to know they were either going to talk about us 2 fat ladies or make comments. But then I figured ya know what I am here to get exercise and get my body healthy so screw them. And maybe they would be thinking good for them getting exercise. Well I walked out there tall and proud. And just tried to ignore them. I am and have always been very self concious. They were in the Jacquizzi anyway and not the pool. They ended up leaving after a half hour of us bieng there. I felt better when they left but I did not allow myself to say I am not going in cause people will stare. I got in the pool and swam for a hour and fifteen min. I felt so good after the swim.

  

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SEATTLESEAGIRL 3/1/2011 7:44PM

Thanks guys for your comments! Report Inappropriate Comment

RICHARJ 3/1/2011 3:35PM

You definitely crossed a major hurdle yesterday. Congrats! Report Inappropriate Comment

NANCYRUBIO 3/1/2011 2:08PM

Well, I guess you passed test. Who cares what others think-you did the right thing and I am proud of you. Report Inappropriate Comment

March

Monday, February 28, 2011

Wow tomorrow is March 1st. Where does the time go? Lots of events in March. Well We had a busy weekend. My best friends brother died last week after a long battle with health issues. So we spent all day Saturday and Sat evening with our friend and others. We all went to dinner at a chinese place and I tried to make the best choices as I could and really did not over eat. Still there is alt of sodium in chinese food. After dinner we went back to our other friends ands by the fire which we amazing because it was so freaking cold that night. She put out snacks pistachios and some honey glazed nuts and Girl Scout cookies. I was still full from dinner ,but they were drinking and other stuff so they were munching. Well just because it was in front of me I started in on the pistachio's.

I felt like ugghhhh when got home. It was about 10:30 pm, I saw the light on in my Gyrotonics teacher on so I called her to see what she was doing? She asked do you need to come down?? I said yes can I please I know it's late. Well I went down and worked out till midnight and felt so much better. Felt better yesterday rather than paying for my bad food choices I had the night before. So I am really glad I made that call and that she lives in my building.

Yesterday was the first game of spring training for the Seattle Mariners and we won!! Ya I know it does not mean anything just a practice game but still so excited for the season to start. Then pent the rest of the day watching the RED CARPET hoopla before the Oscars. So happy Colin Firth and the King's Speech won. I love him and LOVED the movie.

This morning I am starting swimming with a few gal pals looking forward to that. Well that's it for my Monday morning blog. I ramble alt I know.

Hope everyone has a great week. Beware of the IDES of MARCH!!

  

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NOMOREBREAKS 3/1/2011 11:21AM

What a lucky break that she was still in! I am so happy that worked out for you, and sometimes it's ok for us to make poor choices and we SHOULDN'T have to feel poorly about them! :) Report Inappropriate Comment