Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Ok everyone, here it is. The truth and nothing but the truth. I know that I could never tell a fib to my dear friends, so with this blog and the last so many, I have to tell that I'm struggling. One day, I know for a fact, that I will actually write a blog that tells how happy I am to reach my final goal! Ya, really!! It's just that I've been going over one rough patch after another on this journey and I really feel that I've come to a dead end. I have to completely turn around and head back to where I started and with that frame of mind that I had then, and then I will experience success once again. I've put 15# back on. I've lost a total of 67# with SP and before and now have lost a total of 52#. That really hurts! How have I gotten to be here? I know how! I eat all the wrong things. Too much sugar and simple carbs and unhealthy fat. Just too much of everything. Oh, I still track everything to a "T"! I've even ordered the Spark Activity Tracker and love it! I can get a Glow Getter Award when I meet the goal that I've set for each day. I've set it at 5000 steps and I have to work to get that many in and that's mainly with the recumbent bike. I put around 40 min. plus on each day. I can go over 5000 steps when I'm gone to town shopping. With having RA, I can't walk lots at a time, but with shopping I can walk and walk with the cart and that counts. I know that it's not the same as walking without the cart, but it sure is alot better than sitting in front of the computer. So I'm getting some good exercise in on most days of the week and still I can't lose. I'm either gaining or maintaining and this has been going on for over a year now. I remember reading here on SP a long time ago that you can't out-exercise a bad diet. I ditto that! I've learned how that works. It doesn't work for weight loss success!
Last year at this time, I gained 10# and that's the same 10# that I'm still trying to get off plus a few more now! How does one find the right balance between the eating and the exercise? All the goodies that one has to ignore this time of the year? I can never exercise enough if I'm going to partake of those cookies and candy and, and, and!! I don't feel that I really ever binge, like sitting with a bag of chips, etc., but I do keep going back to the cookies or candy, and eat one at a time, over and over, so I suppose that does constitute a binge. Ugh! I've tried putting these sugary things in the freezer or other places of hiding but I still can find them. It's not fair to my family to not have these things reachable because they can eat them with working outside so much. I know that I need to be disciplined. I've gone through the Tame The Sugar Challenge and that helped at the time and then here I am again struggling with the same problem. I truly feel that those that reach their goal are really disciplined people and I admire them beyond admiring. I know that one has to learn to say no. It seems that I love to either be talking or chewing!!
I know that my level of stress is high too and that doesn't help. I haven't been sleeping well for a long time now. I used to rely on Tylenol PM to get a good night's sleep and I can't take anything at all along the Tylenol lines now because of the scare of liver toxicity that I have to be tested for every 3 months or sooner, because of the strong meds. that I have to be on with having RA. I'm on med. too for anxiety but I still have stress. I tend to be a worry wart! My situation in life with living on our dairy, all the work that it entails, the whys, whats, hows and whens for this and that. With the meals, with when the vet comes, the possibility of moving to better ourselves, so that's a good thing, just a change, which I always have to work on. I know that I need to find ways to calm down more.
Now, I've thought alot about this and here are a list of things that I will start doing today...
1. Get out the measuring cups and weigh scale and measure everything before eating.
2. Make sure to cook veggies with at least the main meal.
3. Have fruit and veggies readily available at all times.
4. Keep exercising every day, 10-40+ min. and include ST too.
5. Keep drinking 8 cups water minimum.
6. Find ways to calm down more. Play music, play the piano, sew quilt pieces, read a good book, find other sewing projects that I know I have laying around, embroidery pieces, etc,
I know that if I can concentrate on these things each and every day, that I will have success and I will write that blog one day, where I can shout from the rooftops of my success here on SP!! Thanks for all your support! I know that you can't do it for me. I know too, that if I just listened to all your encouragement over the last year and really let that sink in so I would be disciplined, I'd be at my goal weight by now, no problem! One day I will show you that I really did listen and let all your encouragement sink in deeply forever!
Loving you all with hugs Karen
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
I've been thinking of this old saying of :
Good, Better and Best
Don't Let It Rest
Until Your Good is Better
And Your Better Is Best
I've been trying to apply this to my life every day. With taking the good that I have in me with how I've learned to eat more healthy, to actually like and even love to exercise, with trying to find more healthy opportunities with trying to do more, etc. To turn my healthy likes into loves and making my good become better and then even best down the road. To have the best healthy life that I could have because I've worked so hard turning it from good to better to best and liked and loved the transition. I feel that I'm getting a handle of what it takes to do this more and more. I've learned so much here on SparkPeople. I've received so much support and encouragement from my friends while being here.
Good, Better and Best. I can do it.
Sunday, July 28, 2013
I signed the Never Quit Pledge
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Today, I promise I will not quit.
I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey.
I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself.
I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations.
I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend, because that is who I am.
I pledge to stay in the race and to be a WINNER!
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