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I can't get my mojo back again!

Thursday, October 23, 2014

I've gained around 20-25# now and it's like I can't get my mojo back and it's like I don't care, but I know that deep down I do! I've been trying to exercise as much as I can with my RA feet and hands and bum knee. It hasn't been easy, but the two cortisone shots in my knee now, have helped. I will be scheduling an appt. soon for the pre-op appt. and then the total knee replacement. I'm really kind of looking forward to getting this over with and getting on with the p/t and home exercises too, and down the road when I can start really walking again and melting off these pounds. That's how I mainly lost my weight the first time because of getting off the couch!! From zero to 100. Ha! So at any rate, I know that I will lose this weight and get out of the 170's once and for all, sometime after this knee surgery. I feel that I'm frustrated and kind of down too with this extra weight and how I look in the mirror and how my clothes feel tighter and dig into my skin. Errr! emoticon I'm beginning to get fed up with it all! My Rheumy says that he'll change me to another RA biologic when I'm done with the knee surgery and well on my way to getting back to normal. He had me have an MRI of both of my feet and that confirmed that the RA is progressing in my left foot more than he likes to see. So that does explain my more pain. Ouch! Also, he feels that the RA is too active in my right wrist and some fingers too and since the Orencia seems to working in some miracle ways, it's not doing the job as well as he or me like, so will change to another one. He did mention Actemra (sp?) IV, but I didn't really like what the nurse explained to me about the possible side effect of diverticulosis. And that one is advised not to start it if you any of those symptoms. Well, I do have a disturbed gut once in awhile and that makes me kind of nervous. So we'll see down the road what biologic is next. He truly feels that I need something stronger. I do too.

Ok, so now you have the latest update on me. The gist of it is just that I will really be getting into gear once I get my over-haul! emoticon I'm not giving up, just not totally giving my all until later.

Happy Halloween to you all! Oh, I must say that I was craving a Reece's PB Cup and I picked up a bag of the snack size and then put it back after a while. Was at the next store and this time picked up a small pack at the counter and then put it back. Did more shopping and then payed for my purchases and got back in the car and thought, " I never bought any Reece's PB Cups", and I was pleased as punch with myself! That was an awesome NSV today!! Little by little we can do it!!

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KMCASSADA0515 11/17/2014 9:01AM

    My Grandma had knee replacement one or two years ago- she said it was the best thing she ever did! Same goes with a gal I know from church, and she had a double knee replacement- both at the same time! Boy, you should see her whizzing around that church like nobody's business now. Its amazing what they can do :) I am very excited for you! You will feel so much better.

I know exactly how you feel about not caring but really actually caring! I go back and forth with that CONSTANTLY - and today seems to be an "I care so I'm going to do something about it day" and it almost seems inevitable that I'll be back in the slumps in a week or two! What matters is that we get up and keep on pushing, right? RIGHT!

Anyways, you posted this awhile ago so I hope you are doing much better. If not- you can always shoot me a message. We're all in this together, Karen. :)

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MARLINDA5 11/9/2014 11:46AM

    My brother had knee surgery on both knees - a year apart and he is doing great. He is back to working out with his family.

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 10/27/2014 6:32PM

    **HUGS**
I am sorry to hear that you are still in such constant pain. It is so tough to move, focus or do anything when one is in pain. I'm hoping that you get much relief from the replacement. Just do what you can and stay hopeful. A positive attitude helps a lot, but I know is tough when in pain.
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CHEBBA 10/25/2014 6:51PM

    I do't have RA, but I do have double OA in both my feet, so bad sometimes that I can't even bear bedclothes on them. The pain has made walking incredibly difficult and excruciating at times, especially before I lost weight. The tops of my feet have large build-ups of calciferous bone and the pain radiating from them really used to have me in tears. I don't know whether the condition has actually improved, or, as someone with a high pain threshhold, I've just got used to it, but losing 40lbs with SP has helped to a degree, as has cutting out regular sugar - which I used to love. I now only use 100% stevia.

Some days are wicked but I have shocked myself by falling in love with the 'dreadmill' at the gym. Every step hurts, some days more than others, but against all the odds I can actually run ¾ a mile now! I hate the elliptical as it messes up my knee, something which has never fully recovered after a cruciate injury 3 years ago. Growing older means that bits of the body do hurt more than they did 40 years ago, but I am determined not to let them deter me from continuing to lose the last 28lbs. The pain is still there, but on all but the worst days I just have to grit my teeth and crack on. I used to think that arthritis only affected fingers, arms, knees - I truly didn't know how foul it can be when it hits the feet. My sympathies are with anyone who has excruciating foot pain. I have a chronic back condition too, but becoming fitter and improving my core has really helped incredibly. But, if I had to choose between forever curing my feet or my back, I would ask for my feet to be magically cured - no contest!

Try to keep smiling - we women are strong, we do pain better than most men and it takes a lot for us to cave in. YOU CAN DO THIS!

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FITGRL124 10/25/2014 5:52PM

    Dear Karen - this must be a bad year for all of us! I've gained 30# and I cannot wear any of my clothes. I had to break down and get bigger ones despite not wanting to! I'm sorry to hear about your RA! I've been having issues too with ailments and it is VERY frustrating!! Hang in there sweetie! We'll find a way to get past this slump that we're in! Kudos to putting back those candies!! Baby steps.

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HICKOK-HALEY 10/25/2014 11:45AM

    Must be the year. My RA has been more active too. I am doing ok though. Good luck with the knee replacement. Hopefully you will feel a lot better, and get around better. Hang in there. You will get your mojo back!
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JANISMKW 10/24/2014 10:57PM

    Dear Karen,

Just keep doing the best you can... any ounce that you can keep off or take off will make it easier on your knees when you get up on them post-op, so keep trying. It is so hard to move with RA or OA pain, never mind both, as I know as well.

Great job resisting the PB cups! I repeat to myself the old saying "a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips."

I, too, put on enough pounds that my clothes are tight, so you are not alone in that either. I recently took off one, so I hope I've changed direction.
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MORTICIAADDAMS 10/24/2014 9:50PM

    My R.A. is very active right now too. It can certainly be a pain in every way. I'm trying to slowly make some changes for the better. I hope you get some relief soon.

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WINNIE1978 10/24/2014 8:04PM

    Exercising with an injury and constant pain is difficult. I really hope the knee replacement gets you back on your feet, literally.

Those darn PB cups are soooo tempting!

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KAREN-IS-HERE 10/24/2014 1:12PM

    emoticon seriously the world can keep their candies EXCEPT pb cups... and I have been acting suspiciously at check out counters too- but come through so far without getting any- in other words pb cups are just plain not doable- I can't eat just one.

so far so good- I don't remember the last time I had pb cups- but I do remember I promised myself to not do it again at least till next year.... It is a trigger that once pulled won't be pretty.

good luck- we'll all need it-

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GSEATON 10/24/2014 11:30AM

    Lots of people are kinda losing their "Spark" these days, including me, sometimes! Maybe it's the fall weather, maybe it's the .............dunno, but I hear you! Hang in. Ease into ANYTHING slow and just keep going!

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HEALTHIER-VICKI 10/24/2014 9:50AM

    I'm sorry you're still having so much pain. I hope they'll find the right course of meds for you to help.
You're doing what you can and that's the most important thing. Just do what you can until you can do more.
WTG on the NSV !!!
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LOVINSHERRY78 10/24/2014 9:36AM

    i've been feeling the same way. there are obstacles that stand in our way and ufortunately some are harder to push through than others. going through what your going through can def set u back but it can't last forever, right? i hope that all goes as planned and u r able to find your mojo again. super great job on the pb cup victory..that's huge! been there done that so many times and it amazing me out much our minds have to fight our flesh for what it wants. so annoying, lol.

n e way..have a great halloween too. one filled with NO pb cups ;)

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_LINDA 10/24/2014 8:59AM

    Oh Karen, so very sorry to hear you are having these flares :-( I am glad the cortisone shots helped with your knee (they never did anything for me) Having foot pain is awful. I will be interested in what your Dr. suggests. I have struggled with this mysterious pain in my right foot they can't figure out. I did buy some new shoes and couldn't believe the difference they made, I was able to stand for quite a while (doing dishes) and the foot didn't bother me..
The infusions are always dangerous for reactions (after five years on Remicade I had a severe reaction and had to go off it) She then put me on the injectable Humira which as a low risk of side effects. Have you tried any of those?
Congratulations on the great NSV!! That is fantastic!
As you know, when you can't exercise, your diet has to be what holds the line on weight gain. I derailed and ate comfort food when it looked like I might not regain use of my right arm, but for the most part accurately weighing and measuring my food and trying to stay in the calorie range of a sedentary person is what helped me not have a total blowout.
We can get back on track with this -you will be a new person once you get your new knee -makes a huge difference!
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WHYNOTJ1 10/24/2014 7:52AM

    Hang in there!

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IRISHEI 10/24/2014 7:42AM

    I know how that pain keeps you from exercising the way you want to. Just
do what you can for now. RA is not a easy thing to live with. I do think once you have the knee replacement it will help you immensely. It is not easy to go through, but in the long run, it is the best solution to being able to be free of that terrific pain and get on with your life. Keep smiling and keep sparking. GOOD for you not keeping the candy twice when you thought you would get it. Hang in there and things will get better. Remember this is only temporary. Keep in touch. GOD bless. hugs, Irish Ei emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/24/2014 7:25AM

    Proud of you for not buying the candy! And I am praying that you feel well soon. Don't give up!


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JANET552 10/24/2014 6:34AM

    I hope you can get the pain quelled. It's hard to do healthy when your body is acting up. Good for you for putting the candy back and then forgetting it. I forget that lesson sometimes == a craving only lasts a little while and distraction can make it go away.

Have a good day!

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BRE2003SB 10/24/2014 3:24AM

    Im struggling myself and I dont have the hardships you are facing. Its hard to get the mojo back once you lose it. Im looking into getting a personal trainer in hope that will spark something in me. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KANSASROSE67 10/23/2014 11:42PM

    Way to go resisting the Reeces. I LOVE them so I know how hard that was!

Hoping and praying that you will soon be feeling better and able to start walking off the pounds.

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Getting Help For My Bad Knee

Thursday, July 03, 2014

I thought that I should let all my buddies know that I've been doctoring with my bad right knee. I was to my doctor last week and x-rays were done and then to the Orthopedic Spec. this morning and when he walked into the room, he said that my knee was shot! And shot he meant too, with how he explained all the damage of OA arthritis and bone spurs and bone chips floating around and a ball of calcium that will have to be taken out. A complete knee replacement down the line and could've actually been soon if I wanted it , but I opted for shots of cortisone to band-aid it as long as I can. I know that the knee replacement is an intense kind of surgery and a lot of pain with the first 2 weeks afterwards, but so worth it too. He told me that his best patients are those that have RA because they're so used to alot of pain and can take it easier. That was encouraging! He told me that with the cortisone shots, that if they work well, that I could expect to have 3 in a year, so hopefully they'll work good with helping me. I'm looking forward to moving about with more ease. Every step has been so much pain, so walking has pretty much been out the window. I mean really walking. I get around with a limp and a cane when I go shopping. He said that I could get on my recumbent bike too, so yay! I've been avoiding it because of so much pain, so needless to say, I've been gaining and gaining. So I'm up about 20# now with not being able to do much. So hopefully things will be looking up and I can move more to get some weight off again. It's been rather frustrating and depressing and I've been overall, just plain blue! But I know that this doctoring can change that and soon! Thanks everybody for all your support and care while I've been hurting so much. I really appreciate it!

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DEDICATED2HIM 9/27/2014 4:55AM

    hi Karen.
I was scrolling through these comments, trying to get to the end of them so I could add my two cents and WOW! DO YOU EVER HAVE A LOT OF FRIENDS!
I hope the shot helps you. I had shots in my hip and in my spine and in my shoulder and NONE of them worked. I hope they do help you. I know for some people they are miracles.
Don't let people scare you about the surgery. People told me how TERRIBLE the shoulder replacement is...that it is the worst surgery anyone could have....and I was terrified. And yes, it hurt but I was like "This is IT?? This is what I was terrified of??" It hurt but a lot less than I anticipated. I know knee surgery is painful.....but if you can get through it you will probably rather quickly find that , compared to how much your knee hurt BEFORE the surgery, the surgery itself is not such a big deal. My hip replacements were like that also. Keep on plugging along....you will get through all of this mess. I would maybe not try to hard to lose weight now (although it IS good if you can because it can help you in the surgery to weigh less)....but maybe just try to stop gaining for now. Maybe time to just level out and stop further damage.

You are a brave little lady and you always encourage me so much.
Thank you for commenting on my blog. You made me feel so much better

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CELLA_P 8/23/2014 7:23PM

    I'm so sorry you've gone through such a painful time... It's been a while since you posted this, but I hope all went well. It's easy how a person would enter into this whole process of diagnosis and treatment with some degree of hesistancy and, certainly, concern...

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JANET552 8/14/2014 8:04AM

    emoticon How is it going now?

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HICKOK-HALEY 8/10/2014 3:30AM

    I'm praying the shots work for you. I have RA, so I know how you feel. emoticon

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BARBANNA 8/7/2014 10:17PM

    I hope life is being kind and your getting around with less pain and discomfort. Have an awesome day tomorrow! emoticon

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B-LYNN1ST 8/5/2014 11:35PM

    You know I'm wishing you the best!!!
God is the master healer and he's in the business of healing. So it will come soon. Take care of yourself!
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NEELIXNKES 7/19/2014 6:01PM

    I hope the shot helped some. Hang in there.

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BARBANNA 7/13/2014 8:19PM

    I hope life is being kind to you! It seems unfair that some people have so much pain. I pray it is better! emoticon

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BARBANNA 7/12/2014 7:56PM

    Hope you are having less pain with the shots. The surgery is a better option for the long run! Keep you head up, Im rooting for ya! emoticon

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IRISHEI 7/11/2014 7:17AM

    Karen,
So sorry to hear of your severe pain with your knee. I do hope the shots help you.I had two knee replacements. Left knee in April 2007 and Right knee April 2011. As you said the first few weeks it is difficult, however the best thing I could have done was to have the surgeries. I did shots at first, but found out it was wasting my time for the long term. If I did not have the replacements I would not be as active as I am now. It was good for me. The biggest thing some do not realize is that the Physical Therapy is Crucial each day. I did PT in the hospital for two weeks and then when I got home I went 3x a week to pt and also did it at home in between for 6 wks. So glad It is over, and I am doing well. I know what you are going through with the pain. I have OA also. All the best to you. God bless. emoticon emoticon emoticon
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SHELLS514 7/10/2014 3:33PM

    Karen, I am so glad to hear you have a plan! I hope, hope the shots work for a very long time. I've known several people with knee replacements and while the recovery period can be rough; their results were fantastic. My mom is the last person I know and she is doing wonderful and is so relieved. Take care and know I think of you often!
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HAWTGRANNY2014 7/9/2014 8:07PM

    Karen I am glad you are going to get help and hope your pain lessens with medicine. My hubby's step father was supposed to get a hip replacement but someone told him to take that chondroitin stuff and he didn't have to have one. I forgot the exact name. Maybe you could ask your doctor about it.
I am praying that the pain goes away and it heals. I am so glad to see you blogging again. I love to get feedback and support. hugs, pam

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CATHOLICCORGI 7/7/2014 8:29AM

    Hope the shots will help until you are ready for the replacement. You'll know when it is time.
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FITGRL124 7/5/2014 10:30AM

    I hope the shots work for you Karen! However, maybe a knee replacement would be better because then the pain would be gone! (yes, temporary with surgery but later, suffering no more).

I hope you're doing well otherwise. emoticon

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_LINDA 7/5/2014 1:37AM

    So hope these shots will work for you!! So glad you have the specialist looking out for you now!
I had an arthroscopy on my knee before a replacement to clean things out and was playing paintball two weeks later :) But I did end up needing the total knee a year later. For me, the cortisone shots never worked. Nor did the Synvisc treatment, which attempts to replace the cartilage missing so the bone would not rub on bone.
Hope you could enjoy your 4th holiday celebration!
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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/4/2014 8:58PM

    My mom had those shots and they helped her for a while. I hope they help you too.

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MARLINDA5 7/4/2014 10:51AM

    The shots will help - - emoticon

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WINNIE1978 7/4/2014 7:01AM

    emoticon I hope the cortisone shots give you some relief!

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    So grateful you have a good doctor and that he is able to help you. emoticon emoticon

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COASTAL6 7/3/2014 10:31PM

    Thinking of you, and always in my prayers.
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D_4RECOVERY 7/3/2014 6:48PM

    Hoping they help you and you can move around more. Wishing you the best. emoticon

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JANISMKW 7/3/2014 6:39PM

    Dear, dear Karen,

So sorry emoticon you have such knee pain. I've been there, so I can identify. In fact I had two TKRs about 9 years ago. I think 2 weeks of pain is an understatement... more like 2 months requiring heavy pain meds (tapering them down) and 3 - 4 months before you start "forgetting" to use your cane. Sounds like your knee is bad enough that it will be worth it make your life much better afterward.

Beside cortisone shots, which do some damage each time, have you heard of Synvisc (hyaluronic acid) injections? They add back more cushioning joint fluid, without drugs. They can last 6 - 12 months. There other brand names.

Good that you can use the recumbent bike... sometimes some exercise/movement can actually improve the arthritis.
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TRANQUILBEAUTY 7/3/2014 6:26PM

    It sounds like you are moving in the right direction!!!

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You can do it!!!

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 7/3/2014 5:48PM

    **HUGS**
I hope you get relief soon and that you can avoid the surgery for a long time. However, if the total replacement will help you, don't do without it just because of a "little" pain, which will be over relatively shortly compared with what you are dealing with now. I'm glad you can get back on the bike. It might help some with the pain in the long run.
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I Feel Like This Journey Is Like Doing A 5K With Having RA!

Wednesday, May 07, 2014

Hello everyone. Yep, that says it. I feel like this journey is like doing a 5K with having RA. It hasn't been easy. What would a 5K look like if everyone was disabled and still doing it? There would be ones in wheelchairs, in crutches, those being helped with walking, some using canes,etc. Just to let you know how I feel on most days and to exercise is pretty much zilch. Sure I can walk, with a limp, and I can get around. I go shopping and other places and things around the house. I try to do yardwork as much as I can. The thing is that I can't get my body working enough to sweat the pounds off, like really getting my heart rate up to make a difference. I know that when Summer comes around and when I work outside, I can really get sweating with the yardwork. If my body lets me. I've been working on going low carb. I feel better when I eat more protein and cut out the sugar and breads. I know that I need to get a handle on eating because the exercising part of it just isn't kicking it. Oh yes, I've done the chair exercises, but can only do so much with that too. I'm at 178# now. Why is it always so easy to gain instead of lose?

Well everybody, I thought that I should write an update and let you know that I'm still here and that even though this 5K isn't easy, I'm not giving up and I will get to the finish line. Thank you all for your never-ending support! I would definitely throw in the towel if I didn't have all of you rooting for me! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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ROCKYCPA 5/25/2014 8:55PM

    Great blog - thanks for sharing!


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BARBANNA 5/25/2014 8:27PM

    You reach the finish line just getting out of bed! emoticon

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BARBANNA 5/23/2014 8:24PM

    Keep pushing! Thanks for your support! Have a great Memorial Day weekend! Let us not forget those who served our country! emoticon

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BARBANNA 5/23/2014 12:11AM

    emoticon Thanks for all your kind words for my hospital visit. Its no fun being sick as you know more than most people. I am very happy you are making the most of your situation! emoticon

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WWLIFETIME1 5/12/2014 12:41AM

    Karen, You are absolutely inspirational! The fact that you face so much pain yet you still have the drive to keep going and never give up no matter how hard the struggle! Let's do this together and keep each other accountable!



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COASTAL6 5/9/2014 9:23AM

    Why is it so easy to gain, then to lose?
I wont to know that too!

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SHELLS514 5/9/2014 8:57AM

    Karen, I'm so sorry you have to deal with RA, having been diagnosed recently with osteoarthritis I have a little idea of how you feel. It might slow us down but we have to continue to do our best and keep moving. Does it improve for you when the weather gets nicer? I've been thinking recently that I need to work on the carbs too; i wasn't realizing how much of my calories were from carbs! I have been struggling to get back on track and make my heath a priority. I have so far to go it seems daunting but then I think of you and am inspired. I love your upbeat attitude, I think you have done so awesome! Prayers your journey gets easier each day.
Love and hugs,
Teri

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HAWTGRANNY2014 5/8/2014 3:30PM

    I know you would never give up and are a strong woman...your spirit and your doing...however small is a triumph. You do what you can and that is important. I started on the hungry girl diet and it is very filling. You get 3 meals and 3 snacks and it is supported by a dietician so supposed to be healthy. So far I am enjoying the recipes, although I have to cut down on some and just pick the ones I want. She suggests e recipes for each meal for each of 7 days. you pick the one you want or you can have different ones on different days. I am choosing to stick with one recipe for each meal and do it for 7 days...cheaper that way.
You are finding yourself and making your way on your journey in your own way and that is the best way. I hope all the best for you,. Pam

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MORTICIAADDAMS 5/8/2014 1:39PM

    I'm in exactly the same place as far as the R.A. goes. This has been a bad year for it for me too. I'm limping as well. My doctor has restricted me to gentle exercises - no high impact exercise, no running, no biking, no weight lifting, etc. He would prefer that I just walk and swim. I do some yoga, qigong, and dancing too. We just have to do our best and not compare ourselves to others. They are healthy, we are not. It's 80% diet and 20% exercise anyway. Maybe things will improve for us soon. There is always hope. emoticon

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KAREN-IS-HERE 5/8/2014 12:41PM

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CAROLMAID 5/8/2014 9:16AM

    Hang in there Girl! It must be exhausting a 5k everyday! I can feel your frustration. But from what I can see by what u track your still doing it. and the duration has increased. It sucks to have to struggle like that and i'm sure you'd like to get a sweat going, it feels so much more like you've accomplished something I know, but just doing it is worth it. Big sweat or not! Just saw a special on TV about longevity. One of the findings...exercise, any exercise, not even necessarily vigorous, contributes greatly to longevity. Take heart, while we all want to thinner and attractive here on SP, well the other goal is truly health and longevity. So your efforts are worth it even if that stupid scale says mean things! I hate it when it does that!!!! RRRGH! But your on the right track no matter what that machine says. Keep going Karen. Good luck in your low carb endeavors!
Carol

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 5/8/2014 8:09AM

    Hang in there. You know I am rooting for you and here anytime you need support.
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BRADMILL2922 5/8/2014 2:57AM

    Good for you, don't give up! You can do this!

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JANISMKW 5/7/2014 10:05PM

    I can identify so much! I always assume you are very active with your farm and animals, right?

I feel like even if I walk, strength train, do tai chi, etc., I'm not getting sweaty enough, enough of the time. Plus, thanks to immune-supressants (for which I am SO grateful) I had food poisoning last week and a miserable sinus infection this week, so I have done about zero exercise.

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WOUBBIE 5/7/2014 9:41PM

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 5/7/2014 7:05PM

    I get it, I really do. It *IS* tough to muster the strength and determination to keep on. For me, going totally gluten free helped more than going low carb. I couldn't do low carb diets (tried numerous times) but the cravings always got to me. Since going gluten free the cravings have mostly disappeared and those I do have are manageable with gluten free varieties that I don't binge on nearly as much.

You are worth continuing on, living as fully as you can. All I can say is have some fun, having fun makes all the difference. When I'm at my worst I'll just put on music, sit and "dance" to feel better.
**HUGS**

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TRANQUILBEAUTY 5/7/2014 4:57PM

    There are too many people on your side to throw in the towel!!!

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DANMAR1 5/7/2014 2:36PM

  Oh I know how you feel!! Once a physical therapist told me there are times that for people with RA just getting dressed is cardio. We just have to figure out when to rest and when to push on...which I still do not get right. smile I wish we came with gages like old cars. Hang in there and try to encourage yourself with how far you have come not how far you have to go...hugs

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FITGRL124 5/7/2014 11:58AM

    I'm rooting for you too!!! I agree - it's so much easier to gain. I think it's the struggle with yummy foods, for me anyway!

We're going to succeed!! Keep pushing and moving forward!

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_LINDA 5/7/2014 11:28AM

    I would suggest an elliptical or a recumbant stationery bike as a good investment for you. Doesn't have to be new, the best deals come from garage sales where some nearly new stuff can be found when people give up on their exercise plans. When my knees went and my feet were too painful to even walk on, my elliptical gave me exercise when nothing else worked. No impact, the feet didn't have to move (so no painful bone crunching) and the arms gave a great workout. Always sweated it up. It was my lifesaver. I had it in front of a TV and stereo so always had something to occupy me although music is best, to get the energy up. Yardwork is a wonderful workout, but the stress on the hands can easily cause a flare. Exercise always made me feel better no matter how much pain I was in and going without it is very tough. We need to keep moving and not let the disease take over. If you are in too much pain, your disease is not being controlled so its time to rattle your Dr.'s cage! We have to be proactive with our care. They can't tell if we are feeling low. And if you don't see them often its especially important. I only saw my old specialist once a year!
It was nice to hear from you, please take care of yourself!
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AKATHLEEN54 5/7/2014 11:18AM

    I am rooting for you too!! I have arthritis in both my knees (not as bad as RA) but some days its rough. Typically, walking is my only exercise and even when it hurts I just keep pushing. That's what we have to do to stay limber. Maybe if you have the opportunity to join a "Y" or swim club somewhere since exercising in the water is so much easier on the joints. I know those types of facilities are usually expensive, but maybe you can find someplace near you during the warmer months to swim where it is free? Just a thought. In any case, I am with you and understand your plight. We just have to keep plugging along!! emoticon emoticon

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D_4RECOVERY 5/7/2014 10:31AM

    I am most definitely rooting for you. What you are doing for your body....despite the pain...is great. Even on those times when you can't get your heart rate up, the movement you are giving it is much better than nothing plus it keep you in the habit of movement. I just did a video talking about my limping around the building...I can't get speed but boy does my body appreciate it and it shows me in very subtle ways. Keep pushing dear friend. I know you won't give up. Spark emoticon !

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Just For Fun ----- The A - Z Of Me!

Sunday, February 16, 2014

A. Apples - I love the crisp, crunch of a cold Red Delicious on a hot day. Mmmm!
B. Babies - I love babies. Each and every one!
C. Chips - I crave them because of the crunch, the salt, but I try to avoid them or count them for one serving. The light varieties just aren't the same to me at all.
D. Dogs - They start out as the most precious puppy alive and with the right direction can grow up to be man's best friend. emoticon
E. Eggplant - Almost too beautiful to eat, but do make yummy dishes.
F. Fruit - I do love most all kinds.
G. Google Chromebook - I do love the new one my DH bought me about a month ago. emoticon
H. Happiness - What a joy it is to have happiness!
I. Ice cream - we don't eat it much at all. More in the summertime and then I try to get some that's more healthy and sometimes my DH even likes it!
J. Jersey cows - We milk cows and we have some Jersey cows in our herd and what a beautiful breed they are with their big brown eyes. The calves are as cute as buttons!
K. Kettle Corn - Oh my, don't get me started! I love it way too much!
L. Laughter - Laughter is the best medicine. There's nothing like a good laugh from deep-down within!
M. Milk - I love my skim milk and 1% milk. I cannot have our raw milk from the dairy because of having Rheumatoid Arthritis and having a low immunity along with it. emoticon
N. Noodles - One of my downfalls, so I try to avoid it. Or a splurge rarely.
O. Oysters - Now this is one food that I could never learn to like. emoticon
P. Piano - I love to play it. I'm so glad that my parents had me take lessons! It can be a solace to me at times when I need it the most.
Q. Quilting - I want to learn more and more about quilting and You-Tube has helped me lots with that.
R. Roger, my loving husband. This year we'll be married 33 years on September 11th. Yes, 9/11/81 emoticon
S. Singing - I love to sing with the piano, with songs playing on the radio or just on my own.
T. Tennis, Tether Ball & Table Tennis. All things that I loved to do before my RA hands.
U. Ukelele - If I'd ever get to Hawaii again, I'd love to hear this played again. So beautiful! But for now I can listen to it on You-Tube! emoticon emoticon
V. Victory! Now that's one word that I love! And I want to hear it a lot more in the future!
W. Winter - This has been one very harsh Winter! It's broken records too with how many days in a row for temps. under zero degrees. We can count on one hand how many days we've had above zero since Thanksgiving! We're looking forward to Spring and a possible move too, for more reasons than the cold.
X. X-ray - It a good, awesome feeling when we get a good report from an x-ray. emoticon
Z. Zzzzzzzzz - I love my sleep. It doesn't come easy for me, so when I get a good night's sleep, I love that good-rested feeling.

  
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BARBANNA 4/19/2014 12:32PM

    Happy Easter, hope all is going well, never give up!

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HAWTGRANNY2014 4/16/2014 8:23PM

    What awesome alphabet you make...lol. Keep on being your sweet self and I know you will continue on. Have fun and many happy sunny days. Pam

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WATERONE 3/22/2014 11:36AM

    Very fun blog and it helps me know you better.

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CAROLMAID 3/3/2014 3:15PM

    Hi Karen!
Looooooooooooove this! It just made smile. So glad you still enjoy your gift of music and all the other letters of the alphabet! LOL
I hear ya about the winter too. Way too long in my neck of the woods as well. Cold, cold, cold, snow and then more cold. uuuugh!
Stopped by to see how you are doing. It's been a while since I last checked in with some of my old SP friends. Hope you are well. Seems you charging forward with a new focus. (starting over as you say....even if it really isn't COMPLETELY starting over LOL) I mean you've been here on SP for quite a while and still striving for a better you. Best of luck, my friend! You can do it....2/3 is in the mind and diet anyway. Exercise can only take you so far. You really can't exercise away a crappy diet....tread water maybe??????
I'm kinda in the starting over mode too but my mindset is less focused than yours. It's kind of all over the place ranging from "I can do this" to "to heck with all this' imgoing backwards" or "uuuuugh, I just ate EVERYTHING, I mean EVERYTHING today, moooooooooo!!!!!! " "i tracked today" "no I didn't for the last week" so yea all over the place as you can see.
I'm hoping I can suck up some of your enthusiasm here and get together soon. Nice to talk to you Karen.
We can do it! Let's go!
Oh and thank you for the valentine wishes. Your so sweet!

Your friend,
Carol

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RUBYREDIVY1 2/28/2014 1:58PM

    Interesting! You're a very positive person! :) *hugs*

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MARLINDA5 2/20/2014 3:16AM

    Nice - thanks for sharing :)

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 2/18/2014 6:41PM

    Thanks for sharing more about yourself. Love learning more about my friends.

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JANISMKW 2/17/2014 8:54PM

    Thanks! Good to learn more about you. Piano... cool.
Maybe you can take pictures and post them when your Jersey cows have calves... I bet they are cute.

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DIANER2014 2/17/2014 4:46PM

    Great blog! Thanks for sharing! emoticon emoticon

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    emoticon Love the blog!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 2/16/2014 10:16PM

    Loved the fun blog and could use it right now with my horrible weather and my cold.

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LPRUNWALK 2/16/2014 8:41PM

    Thanks for this! Lots of riches in your life, clearly.
I am happy to see more proof of what I always tell my daughter: no adult who was ever made to take piano (or another instrument) as a child reaches adulthood without appreciating that gift in some way. My DD is talented and musical but hates to practice, so it can be helpful to refer to stories like yours to help her get through the tough bits. I am still mad at my mother for failing to give me any kind of musical education, when she herself was made to take piano for 9 yrs. and of course became a very good player!! Gotta let go of that one and just appreciate the fact that I'm doing things differently and giving my DD a gift that she will be able to enjoy her whole life.
Cheers,
LP

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_LINDA 2/16/2014 6:55PM

    emoticon for sharing this info about yourself! Love learning about my Sparkies!

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FENWAYGIRL18 2/16/2014 6:13PM

    emoticon I enjoyed that now is that your house that is pictured on your page???? if so I just love the curb appeal!!!! emoticon wow so beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love gardens my hubby made me a special garden because I don't get out much...

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GUNNSGIRL91303 2/16/2014 4:40PM

    Really emoticon post! So fun to know you better. I too love to sing, though I have damage to my vocal cords so I sing less now.

I too HATE oysters!

Every SP member should do this!

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    emoticon emoticon blog. Thanks for sharing. emoticon emoticon

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FITGRL124 2/16/2014 3:55PM

    I loved this blog!! So cute and a great way to get to know you better!!! emoticon

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    emoticon Love this!!!!

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ROBBIEY 2/16/2014 3:50PM

  This is awesome. It took a lot of time an effort, thanks for sharing yourself from A-Z.

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The Truth; I Admit It And Here It Is!

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Ok everyone, here it is. The truth and nothing but the truth. I know that I could never tell a fib to my dear friends, so with this blog and the last so many, I have to tell that I'm struggling. One day, I know for a fact, that I will actually write a blog that tells how happy I am to reach my final goal! Ya, really!! emoticon It's just that I've been going over one rough patch after another on this journey and I really feel that I've come to a dead end. I have to completely turn around and head back to where I started and with that frame of mind that I had then, and then I will experience success once again. I've put 15# back on. I've lost a total of 67# with SP and before and now have lost a total of 52#. That really hurts! How have I gotten to be here? I know how! I eat all the wrong things. Too much sugar and simple carbs and unhealthy fat. Just too much of everything. Oh, I still track everything to a "T"! I've even ordered the Spark Activity Tracker and love it! I can get a Glow Getter Award when I meet the goal that I've set for each day. I've set it at 5000 steps and I have to work to get that many in and that's mainly with the recumbent bike. I put around 40 min. plus on each day. I can go over 5000 steps when I'm gone to town shopping. With having RA, I can't walk lots at a time, but with shopping I can walk and walk with the cart and that counts. I know that it's not the same as walking without the cart, but it sure is alot better than sitting in front of the computer. So I'm getting some good exercise in on most days of the week and still I can't lose. I'm either gaining or maintaining and this has been going on for over a year now. I remember reading here on SP a long time ago that you can't out-exercise a bad diet. I ditto that! I've learned how that works. It doesn't work for weight loss success!

Last year at this time, I gained 10# and that's the same 10# that I'm still trying to get off plus a few more now! How does one find the right balance between the eating and the exercise? All the goodies that one has to ignore this time of the year? I can never exercise enough if I'm going to partake of those cookies and candy and, and, and!! I don't feel that I really ever binge, like sitting with a bag of chips, etc., but I do keep going back to the cookies or candy, and eat one at a time, over and over, so I suppose that does constitute a binge. Ugh! I've tried putting these sugary things in the freezer or other places of hiding but I still can find them. It's not fair to my family to not have these things reachable because they can eat them with working outside so much. I know that I need to be disciplined. I've gone through the Tame The Sugar Challenge and that helped at the time and then here I am again struggling with the same problem. I truly feel that those that reach their goal are really disciplined people and I admire them beyond admiring. I know that one has to learn to say no. It seems that I love to either be talking or chewing!!

I know that my level of stress is high too and that doesn't help. I haven't been sleeping well for a long time now. I used to rely on Tylenol PM to get a good night's sleep and I can't take anything at all along the Tylenol lines now because of the scare of liver toxicity that I have to be tested for every 3 months or sooner, because of the strong meds. that I have to be on with having RA. I'm on med. too for anxiety but I still have stress. I tend to be a worry wart! My situation in life with living on our dairy, all the work that it entails, the whys, whats, hows and whens for this and that. With the meals, with when the vet comes, the possibility of moving to better ourselves, so that's a good thing, just a change, which I always have to work on. I know that I need to find ways to calm down more.

Now, I've thought alot about this and here are a list of things that I will start doing today...

1. Get out the measuring cups and weigh scale and measure everything before eating.
2. Make sure to cook veggies with at least the main meal.
3. Have fruit and veggies readily available at all times.
4. Keep exercising every day, 10-40+ min. and include ST too.
5. Keep drinking 8 cups water minimum.
6. Find ways to calm down more. Play music, play the piano, sew quilt pieces, read a good book, find other sewing projects that I know I have laying around, embroidery pieces, etc,

I know that if I can concentrate on these things each and every day, that I will have success and I will write that blog one day, where I can shout from the rooftops of my success here on SP!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Thanks for all your support! I know that you can't do it for me. I know too, that if I just listened to all your encouragement over the last year and really let that sink in so I would be disciplined, I'd be at my goal weight by now, no problem! One day I will show you that I really did listen and let all your encouragement sink in deeply forever!

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HOUNDLOVER1 4/6/2014 2:45PM

    Since you added my as a friend I wanted to comment, even though this is an old post now. I think when you wrote this you made so many important connections between your behavior and your health and I can see how it will pay off very soon now. Looking forward to getting to know you better.
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GUNNSGIRL91303 2/16/2014 6:01PM

    Try Lavender, either in essential oil form, capsules or tea. Super herb for stress.
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CAT-IN-CJ 2/12/2014 5:04PM

    Way to go! You CAN do it! WE CAN DO IT!!!

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RUBYREDIVY1 2/6/2014 12:05PM

    I've been there! Plenty of times!

The best thing to do is to do just one thing that keeps you accountable.

Everyone is different - my trick - as of late is simple.

I print out a chart I make of 3 columns.

Calories for the day
Weight
Deficit for the day


I stick this on my fridge - so I do see it every time and it reminds me.

Plus I feel more bound by it when I'm writing it down physically - I also track online and use that figure on the chart.

Another thing is I write the deficit for that day.

Say my BMR is 1700, and I eat I want to lose weight gradually and I aim to eat between 1200-1400.

If I eat 1350 - I just minus 1700 from 1350 and I get my deficit for the day.

Each day brings you closer to your goal - and you can easily see that on days when you overeat the deficit goes back up and you know you'll have to work that off again...

That way I can see it clearly.

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BARBANNA 1/31/2014 4:37PM

    Karen I hope all is well. I feel a lot of gratitude for you and so many of my SP buddies. Thought I would share this sweet quote! Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Let us know how you are doing!


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CAROLMAID 1/8/2014 9:59PM

    Hi Karen,
That was a very good blog, very honest. You always are though.
But hey, your still here on SP and TRYING! that's important. It can be really hard to find your weight loss groove, especially after a long plateau or even a backwards slide on the scale.
Try not to beat yourself up about past mistakes. Yea, they stink, I know but ya gotta look forward. You can't go back and redo yesterday no matter how you slice it. LOL
You know even with your recent weight gain you are still ahead of the game. And if you look at it as an all or nothing thing you WILL be discouraged so keep on fighting the healthy fight. You've got a plan in place, actually a lot of plans you want to follow thru on towards your goal.
I believe everybody has to find what works for them....so I hate dishing out advice(not sure i'm qualified for that!!! lol)...but I was thinking even if you just start with one of those ideas you had, like say trying to cut back on refined carbs and concentrating on that and only that one thing til it's a habit again, then tackle another thing on the ideas list. It may sound like starting over again but HEY, that's better than just throwing in the towel! I know you...you won't do that! As evidence.... your still Sparking.
I'm just getting back to finding my groove again after over a month's hiatus...from all things dieting and sparking. Wasn't actually my plan but that's just what happened. In all that time I found out at least one thing, that the very first thing I ever did to work towards my goal, which was to quit any cream or sugar in my coffee, has stuck as a habit and in fact, don't even like it with those things anymore and I do so LOVE my coffee. That's right I'm a tough chick, I like my coffe black, just black! hahaha! Anyway, I guess that's why I suggested going back to start and picking one thing to change and making it stick. Eventually it will become part of what you just do. I'll bet if you think about it there is at least ONE thing that you do that already fits this description, probably more than one so VOILA, already on the path to success. There's your discipline right there. BAM! you got more than you think!
Keep working at it Karen, it may not be as quick as you had once hoped but you'll get there. A liitle bit backwards, a little bit forward but that's OK!

We are all in this together in one way or another, that's whats really cool about Sparking.
Good luck and best wishes Karen.

Carol

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BARBANNA 12/25/2013 5:45PM

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/13/2013 1:17PM

    Those of us with R.A. can totally relate to your predicament. Try not to be so hard on yourself. You have still kept off a bunch of the weight. Don't have the all or nothing mentality. I can assure you as a nurse that no one never eats a treat again unless they really don't want. Set some small goals until after the holidays such as no more than one cookie a day. No more than one serving of candy a day. Etc. Get through the holidays and then reassess.

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JANISMKW 12/12/2013 9:54PM

    Dear Karen,
You sound frustrated but also determined to make progress. I know first hand that RA makes it extremely hard to lose weight. I was pretty easily losing a lb. a week before I got RA, then it's been mostly a multi-year plateau even though I'm eating even better and exercising more. Between the inflammation, pain, stiffness, meds esp. prednisone, catching other infections because of the immune-supression, it is very hard.

You have accomplished a lot... the exercise, tracking honestly, using the Activity Tracker, the whole sound plan you have outlined to move forward. Also keepng of over 50 lbs.! That's like 3.5 cement blocks you aren't carrying around every step! That's the way I think of it.

I think that stress management and good sleep are critical. I like prayer and meditation for the former and use .5 mg of melatonin 1 hour before bedtime for the latter. (It re-sets your sleep cycle, so don't take it too late or you'll guarantee that you stay up later the next night.)

Stay positive, you have accomplished so much. Beating yourself up doesn't help. "A hammer is not a spiritual tool."
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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 12/12/2013 2:48PM

    I do so identify with your situation. More than you may remember. I was where you are no last year at this time. And while I haven't made it to goal yet... I'm now down BELOW my lowest weight before the gain. It's taken most of this year to reverse the damage the previous year brought but I am encouraged for the rest of this year and next will bring me closer (if slowly) to where I want to be.

I love that you aren't waiting until the New Year to begin. Great plan. It will help you get through the Holiday's better.

I know you can do it!



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FITGRL124 12/12/2013 11:31AM

    You sound like you've set forth a good plan. Don't forget to come here to blog and we'll all help keep you accountable!! emoticon

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PROUD-GRANDMA 12/11/2013 7:54PM

    Boy can I identify with your blog. We can do this!

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_LINDA 12/11/2013 6:01PM

    I have a similar problem to yours, scary so. Its interesting that you are not allowed the Tylenol. I too, have RA and I am on strong meds that at one time they tested me monthly for liver toxicity. Well, my specialist Dr. took me off acetaminophen because I had been on it a long time, but my family Dr. is putting me back on high doses of it to try and control my pain (albeit with limited success) I am talking 8 600mg tablets daily!! Seems like you need an alternative and should be asking your Dr. Gabapentin may help you.
You hit the nail on the head though -eating the wrong stuff. The multiple trips back to the cookie and candy jars, for sure uncontrolled binges. Do you really even know how much you took and the calories it added up to? I know my memory is bad that if I did that I would not have a clue at the end of the day how much I really ate. I just know the calories add up in those things incredibly fast!
Even if you get moderate exercise or none at all, eating right can still give you weight loss. Perhaps if you always had a healthy meal first, tracked it, and then every time you had a sweet tracked it each time and just saw the calorie counter going up, maybe this would be an incentive to put the breaks on if you saw you were going to be over calories and not be able to eat the meals you wanted later. I always track what ever I eat as soon as I am finished. It really helps. Also, try chewing sugarless gum when you get a snack craving..
Have you ever thought of breaking up your exercise, 10 min at a time throughout the day? Trying some of the chair videos on here? They also have seated ST ones too using dumbbells or bands. Maybe you could do more if its spread out, giving you time to rest in between the sets. I have always found moving less painful then sitting and finding different ways to do that is always a mood booster too.
Keeping your hands busy is a great way to prevent them from stuffing food in your mouth too. Its amazing you can do all those things you list -I could not do a single one!! But even with my warped, painful hands, I can still actually lift a dumbbell! I also have glove weights and wrist weights that I don't even need to hold onto! Where there is a will, there is a way!!!
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MARUKI52 12/11/2013 3:06PM

    You might like to think about getting a meditation CD to listen to. That might help with the stress levels. Just take a while and sit down, close your eyes and listen to one of these and you may find yourself gradually feeling the stress levels go down. Done regularly they can really help. It's just a matter of find one, or more, that suits you.

I have some on tape but I'm not sure if they are available any more on CD, I've had them so long! Perhaps some other Sparkers could recommend some for you.

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B-LYNN1ST 12/11/2013 2:26PM

    Struggling at times can become a (personal) misunderstanding. We go over rough patches –one month we’re on fire, the next month we can't start the fire.
But as long as you keep on pushing everything will eventually fall into place. That’s what I tell myself, I will fall back in line with all I need to do...easy said, but the falling back in line or turning around takes a lot of work –sometimes it takes a mental makeover. As in wiping out what you did in the past and starting all over again without going backwards, but forwards with a new (outlook) on life and your personal goals. emoticon I believe coming clean with (YOU) is the best. We all need to come clean before we start all over again. emoticon For sharing your truth. emoticon


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LPRUNWALK 12/11/2013 2:24PM

    Hi Karen,
I think it's fabulous that you took the time to say this, and I'm grateful for your honesty and your friendship. This weight loss thing is a major struggle for all of us, and for many of us it truly seems as if discipline comes and goes mysteriously, sometimes appearing in full force and at other times disappearing into the background for months or years at a time. The simple act of facing yourself and talking to others about your feeling of being out of control can be the very thing that brings the discipline back. So I think you've taken an incredibly important step.

I find that my discipline is such a tricky thing that I actually have to trick myself into maintaining it. I play little mind and word games with myself in order to do a better job of keeping my goals in mind. This seems to be working. I'll give you an example. This past weekend I traveled to my home town and joined my large extended family at a memorial for my uncle, who as I think you know died a little under two weeks ago. Against the wishes of my uncle's skinny (but otherwise troubled) wife, who blamed unhealthy food for leading to my uncle's premature death, my aunts chose to celebrate his life with a lavish spread of all the bad foods he enjoyed during his lifetime. I know it is not unusual to serve desserts at a reception after a memorial, but the desserts were thicker on the ground than at most events -- along with the usual trays of cheese and crackers and cookies and cakes, there were big bowls full of my uncle's favourite candy: peanut butter cups, M&Ms, chocolate bars, etc. I took one look at this spread and had a moment where I could see myself blowing the last 3 months of hard work on SP. It was an emotional time, and I was feeling stressed out, and it would have been SO easy to dive into one of those bowls of chocolate. But as I stood there next to one of the tables, I started to think about my goals, and I suddenly noticed that all of the stuff I most wanted to avoid started with the letter C: cake, cookies, candy and cheese. (Cheese is not so bad, but I never get it because my daughter is anaphylactic to milk protein, so we literally never have it in our house, and when I'm away from her, I have been known to indulge in the stuff to excess. I once ate an entire wedge of Brie by myself). Then I thought about what the letter C means in an academic sense, as a grade. I made the connection between the foods starting with C and the feeling I would have if I got to the end of the weekend and gave myself a C, or worse, if this cheat launched me onto months of unhealthy eating, and I gained back all of the weight I had lost. I realized that if this happened, I would give myself a C AT BEST for effort and results. And let me tell you, I HATE a C. I know it's supposed to reflect the average, but I don't want to get C's in any part of my life. I want to do better than that. Fortunately this little cognitive trick was exactly what I needed in that moment. It was like I was suddenly MADE of will power. I found myself totally immune to all of the unhealthy food that I was so afraid of at the beginning of the reception. Later that night at a family dinner I allowed myself one tiny piece of Baklavah, but I stopped there, even though it was incredibly delicious, and I was genuinely not tempted to eat more. If you can find your own little mind game, it just might help you. Of course it would be even better if your family would agree to help you by keeping sugary snack foods out of the house (after all, they can probably get plenty of that stuff when they're in town or at school or work or wherever they need to be). But as long as there is temptation in your cupboards, you'll need to find creative ways to steer clear of the stuff that does you no good.

Best of luck, and thank you again for sharing this honest and inspiring post!

Lee

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HAPPYMENOW58 12/11/2013 2:22PM

    You can do it! I think you writing your blog is going to help you! Happy Holidays!

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GARDENQE2 12/11/2013 2:04PM

    It's a struggle to live a healthful life, but remember every step in the right direction, however small, still counts!
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RAELEAN88 12/11/2013 1:41PM

  I know you can do it too. I have bad days, and years for that matter. I have been struggling with weight since my tween years. One thing I have learned (but often forget) is that if you are going to have a snack ENJOY it, you will be less likely to have a guilt trip and keep eating them. Don't get made when you have a cookie. Allow yourself the cookie, enjoy the cookie and move on.

I know it's easier said then done, especially at this time of year. I had a cookie binge the other day.

Keep working hard, thinking positive and loving yourself just the way you are and soon enough improvement will be seen. I know, these last 4 months I probably lost a total of 20lbs, but put on about 8, leaving me at 12lbs lost and I don't dwell on what I have gained back, I look at what I have achieved and know that I can keep achieving it.

Keep working hard and keep up the right mindset, you seem to know what you have to do, so keep doing it.

Good luck on your journey

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LETHA_ 12/11/2013 1:36PM

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