Friday, March 16, 2012
I borrow this term and the recipe from a Weight Watchers meeting; a Mockarita
Pour over ice and stir the following:
1 jigger or about 1.5 oz tequila
.5 oz triple sec (optional, but mm mm good)
2 Tbsp lime juice or the juice of 1/2 lime
6-8 oz diet lemon lime soda
1 oz fresh squeezed orange or tangerine juice (1/2 tangerine) ...for a little extra sweet
drink!!! makes 2 modest drinks or drink it all yourself, cuz there are only about 170 in the whole thing!
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
I'm in week 6 on Weight Watchers. I am a lifetime member. My memory is that I lost pretty easily back when I got my Lifetime status in 2000, but it came kinda slow. It took about 6 months to lose 27 lbs. That's only about 4.5 lbs per month. But, I got there and stayed for many years until just a few years ago when I had a very stressful job, and a divorce and found 10-20 creeping pounds.
For the past 5 years I've been struggling with the same 20 lbs., er, 25, well, used to be only 10. You get the point. Now, I have about 18 left to go. You think it would be easy. Others lose 100 lbs, why is 18-25 so hard for me?
I've been on Sparkpeople for a couple of years now and I love it, even though there have been many times where I was MIA. I'm part of the Slowest Losers Team because above all, I think I need to know that slow is the way to go, but it's a hard lesson.
Anyway, back to WW. So I decided I wanted a meeting to go to, so I went back to Weight Watchers for the live human support. I figured I could lose my 20 lbs with 3 months and not have to pay for meetings anymore since Lifetime members attend free and life would be peachy.
Well, here I am mid week 6, getting ready to weigh on Friday at my regular meeting. And today, completely naked, my scale tells me that I have only lost 5 lbs. That will not be what the scale says at my meeting on Friday, since I'll have clothes on. just guessing. Who knows, maybe some sudden weight loss will show up and I'll finally get my first 5 lb award! THIS is TAKING FOREVER! Last week, I was down .4, totally 3.8 lbs for 5 weeks. Golly golly, I just wanna get to that stupid first 5 lbs.
At this rate, I am going to be paying for a very long time! You think the money thing would be incentive to stay on track!
I work out almost every day, and I feel great so I know this is right. I haven't really even lost inches either...So I can't even get a reward using a different measurement! The only thing I have is that I feel good and my knee doesn't hurt.
Slow losers unite and someone, ppppppuuuuullleease tell me to get some thick skin and just deal with it and know that slow is better! I'm always encouraging other people, but then I get so hard on myself when I don't see results.
I'm not bad, I'm just drawn this way!
Monday, March 05, 2012
10,000 sparkpoints. Level 11. This thing goes to 11!!!
Yup, that and more!
so much more.
I love all the learning and fun I've had here on Sparkpeople and try every day to learn something more.
Oh happy day!
See you tomorrow,
Thursday, March 01, 2012
I keep reading from a lot of you a similar coming to terms story...the one about loving yourself now instead of waiting to be happy when you finally reach some far away goal. How coming to terms with your body and allowing yourself to have some body esteem RIGHT NOW is the most healthy thing you can do for yourself.
In fact aiming for good self esteem and just plain being happy with yourself right now will put you in a better position to continue strong on your journey toward your goal...your goal of true happiness and self-contentment. (and reaching your goal weight).
(Ok, so I'm not really paraphrasing.)
...To make a long story longer, I bought jeans today. I never wear jeans. Jeans make me look fat. er, they have for the past 5 years, since I've been struggling with my weight. Thinner darker pants have been my pants of choice...the kind of pants a woman with something to hide wears. In fact, my wardrobe is almost entirely black or brown.
Today, I left home vowing not to return until I had purchased a new pair of cute jeans that fit me right now, a size 12.
What a great feeling. I can't wait to get them out of the dryer and look great tomorrow.
I have long had this distorted view of myself that if I wasn't a size 8, I couldn't look good. I'm getting over it. I want to reach my goal weight for health and cute clothes, but darn it, that goal is still pretty far off and I want to look cute now!!!! So, I did it and I'm going to be proud of my slightly larger size right now, because that's what I've got to work with right now! I will keep up the exercise and eating right and keep going, but living in the moment is key to my happiness!
I did it!!! I feel great. Even in a 12. yay! Yay for me!
Thursday, March 01, 2012
My Mother in law is a saboteur. she is at least 100 lbs overweight and is so short that she is about as wide as she is tall, with very short little stick legs and a giant round apple body. She has developed a serious knee problem now and can hardly make it up the stairs in her home. She talks about how old she is and with her husband, how old they are. THEY ARE ONLY 63!
Her Mother died at 62 when she was only in her 20's and I think her perception of the 60's is that it is time to die. As a result possibly, I think she has given up on trying to lose weight and get healthy. It's so sad. My MF (Manfriend) is sad. He doesn't want to lose his Mom. My own parents are 69 and 81 and still working and fit. Great examples of youth at any age. Rough comparison for her, a Mississippi Momma who only knows baking as a form of love. She makes her excuses and makes up her mind: (My Mom is probably naturally thin, etc).
She has tried to diet over the past 40 years since the birth of her first son, my MF, but has just continued to gain instead. I've been told she once lost 30 lbs on Weight Watchers from some menus a friend gave her. Without a lifestyle change and education, she gained it back. She just flat out refuses to educate herself and never reads food labels. She sees healthy food as yucky, tasteless and not for her picky family. No one in her family will eat vegetables because she never fed them any. Her husband thinks pinto beans covers it. So, the menu is simple, fried and served with fried sides, like chips. The end. Margerine and Crisco are in just about everything she makes. She literally adds a stick of Margerine to the pan if she makes eggs for the family--I watched her do it, now I wont eat her eggs.
When we go to Mississippi, she always has 3 or 4 different very fattening desserts waiting for us even though she knows we are both trying to lose weight. The main course welcomes us on nearly every visit--- fried chicken, chicken wings baked in butter, potato chips, corn chips and a huge cheese dip casserole ...This has been the menu that has greeted us for the past 6 years. She puts out the big display, then looks at me and says, "Rebecca, I got a vegetable tray for you!" --she thinks the only thing you can eat when you are trying to lead a healthy lifestyle is a vegetable tray. How pathetic!
After the first couple of years, where I tried bringing my own cooler, buying food after I got there, and stashing healthy snacks in my bag to get me through the weekend of meals with my only friend, the vegetable tray, I finally just gave up trying to do my own thing because she is probably so offended that I wont eat her insulin coma heart attack food. Now, I just nibble on tiny bits of those fattening things, having fruit for dessert and maybe a bite of a cupcake, putting about 90% vegetable tray on my plate. I know it bothers her still, I know she looks to see if I will give in and take a piece of pie, a brownie, Little Debbie heart shaped lard cakes. Once, for breakfast, I chose a bowl of strawberries and bananas alone over biscuits and sausage balls (the usual). and black coffee. She said, "You really aren't going to eat anything else, are you?" I replied, "No thanks, I've used all my points for the week, or I'm really trying to make better choices." I did manage to find some cheerios, though, and I put her regular milk on them, so I wouldn't be starving by the time the next round of Crisco came up. I fend for myself most of the time before or after she is done cooking, making instant oatmeal or cheerios, and a fried egg. I don't even like the yogurt she buys, that she thinks is so good, but has 250 calories and 35 grams of sugar.
I also give up trying to encourage her and instead have learned to shut my mouth and be like the rest of this classic southern family, who will just let her die of a heart attack rather than risk hurting her feelings to tell her the honest truth.
I am not from the South, so it has been very difficult for me to deal with this go around the issue attitude that so many have down here. There are very few direct ways to criticize someone, contructively or otherwise. You just don't do it. My Mother in law will probably die very young because no one would say, "Mom, just being with you is all I want. Please don't make all these Paula Dean recipes for us, because we are having weight problems too!" When she is gone, I will have to keep my mouth shut forever, as I do now, because I am the outsider who doesn't understand how it works.
I have tried gentle encouragement, using myself as an example of how challenging my journey has been, how I have struggle my whole adult life, thinking maybe she would join me. Didn't work.
I have tried every other method too that I can think of and there seems to be only way to deal with it; Just eat her food and get by without making noise and try to track it the best I can. I can only be responsible for me, after all.
I love her and want to keep the channels of communication open, but I need to choose my battles wisely, and I don't know if I want to be the one to blame for addressing this issue with her. Life is so short. I pray she will change before it's too late and my sweet partner loses his Mommy. :(
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