Friday, August 12, 2011
I have not had much luck losing weight in the past year since I had to stop running due to some joint arthritis and ovarian cysts. But then things turned for the worse emotionally, too. This year, more than ever before, has been so stressful. I am in my mid-forties and experiencing aging parents, a Dad who is showing signs of dementia and a Mom who is much younger and trying to hold down the fort with me as her only support system. Plus, I gave up 6 months to find a home for them to move here, only to close on it and have my Dad's health begin to deteriorate. Now they can't move or put their other house on the market until he improves, God willing.
I have been really feeling the years because of my lack of care for myself. Luckily, I have always eaten healthy food, but it has been too often combined with high calorie desserts and zero exercise most days.
There have been MANY beginnings. I would get off to a decent start of a day, maybe two of tracking and then have a drink, which then lowered my inhibitions leading to making poor food choices. The result was that my balancing act was eating fewer calories one day and too many the next, resulting is no change on the scale, until a few months ago when the scale started going up again!
I saw an discount ad on Groupon for a month of physician monitored weight loss, which included a physical. I don't have health insurance right now, so I thought $59 bucks for a physical (and I might lose some weight)---Great! My partner said go for it, a physical would cost hundreds at our primary care office. So, I went and had blood work done and found out that I am really healthy, with near perfect cholesterol, blood pressure, red and white blood cell counts. My thyroid is running just fine and I have no signs of anemia either! A total bargain to have that validation, let me tell you!
BUT there is more... I kept saying I just wish I had some kind of appetite suppressant to help keep me on track, but I am so sensitive to medications. and this is the other reason I went. I was just tired of feeling fat and not having any clothing choices! I needed my old great ass back and my adorable figure that had gone missing since 2004! A permanent change, because I really couldn't take it anymore. The Dr. prescribed an appetite suppressant. I felt a little like that would be cheating somehow, but I needed help. I needed to feel some control in my life again and this is what the Dr. explained is missing for women in my situation, so I took it! She was right!
First, I dramatically restricted my diet to eliminate dairy, wheat, gluten, corn & soft drinks. I still eat a bit of bread now and then and a scosh of dairy and corn, but it is almost negligible. There are side effects that have been unexpectedly wonderful: I have not had even one day of bloating in more than 3 weeks. Not one headache, and I even think I could go without deorderant, because there isn't any odor! (but, I'll still wear it just in case). I don't know if I have food allergies, or what they might be, but I DO know that whatever I'm doing, it's working wonders on all systems!
Next, I started an exercise plan. I wanted to work out at home, so I bought the basic original set of Zumba! cds for around $54 on Amazon. Now, 3 weeks into my metamorphosis, I am down 8 lbs, and my body is really showing the effort I've put in! My arthritic hip seems to be feeling a little better. This hard work is paying off.
I am sure that taking an appetite suppressant is not for everyone, but it has given me a gift which allowed me to focus on the goal of wellness without the distraction of constant hunger or grazing temptations. Enough I think to get me well into some healthy habits so I will be able to go on when the stimulants stop.
I am really taking care of my body, through walking, dance aerobics, strength training and my Wii Fit Yoga every day! I eat 3 fruits and 3 vegis every day, plus lean proteins and complex carbs like brown rice, sweet potato and quinoa, lots of berries and nuts and I take my omega 3 fish oil every day with a multivitamin. I don't feel deprived at all.
Once a week, I have a free meal. It's a date for me and my Manfriend, when we go for burgers and fries. The wonderful thing is that I make it special and I savor every single bite! You can practically hear me moaning while I'm eating it. I never finish either, (like I used to when I didn't enjoy it as much) and that's the beauty!
I wanted to put this story out there because at the clinic I was told that more than 50% of the patients they see are women in the mid-forties dealing with the stress of aging parents and their own hormonal changes. I want you to know that sometimes you need help. Sometimes, you need to ask for it and it's ok. It means you are strong, and not the contrary! I reached out and asked someone to help me and help hold me accountable, and it is working for this 40-something chica!
Have an amazing weekend,