Wednesday, November 13, 2013
I admit it, I recently had a not so brilliant idea, but I went with it anyway. Can you say d-u-m-b?!
So I am super stressed at work right now, writing performance reviews for more than 30 of my direct reports and that on top of my "regular" work as a manager has me over the top overwhelmed. So i figured I would give myself a break from committing my food this week and just go with whatever I felt like having.
This is a VERY bad plan for a food addict and binge eater. I have no idea how much damage I have done in the last four days but let's just say it hasn't been pretty and I feel like crap physically. Needless to say when given permission to eat whatever I want, fruits and veggies don't cross my lips. Fries and desserts are my main stays and I drink diet coke like it is going out of style!
So after four days of this I have had enough! When I got home tonight at 11 pm I made a food plan for tomorrow and actually prepared the food as well, and now I am going to commit it on my food tracker and then I am off to bed.
I guess it could have been worse, it could have taken me days or weeks to decide to stop the insanity or I could have purged, as I used to do.
Surprisingly despite my bad eating behavior I have been going to the gym all week, so all is not lost but I do feel like I have failed myself in a very major way this week and I intend to get right back on track tomorrow. Say a prayer for me, will you please!
Thursday, November 07, 2013
I got my Fitbit in April and tonight I earned this badge!
How cool is that!! Can't believe that I've walked 1000 miles in 8 months. Me the former exercise resister!
Tuesday, November 05, 2013
Guess what .... no more pity party. It's over and done with. I am moving on and feeling good and positive and strong and hopeful. The past 30 days are just that .... the past. I am keeping my focus on the only day that matters, today!
I really appreciate my Spark buddies who commented on my last blog and helped me to see that it was time to move on.
For today I am feeling grateful for the clarity and focus to do my job, to be appropriate in my self care and to appreciate all of the blessings that have. Life is good!
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
This month has been a struggle for me on a number of levels, physically, emotionally and spiritually. After seven pretty great months on Spark People, consistently exercising for the first time in my life and a loss of more than 20 pounds, I started courting disaster. I got sloppy, I got cocky, I got lazy. I got in trouble. I lost my motivation, I lost my drive, I lost nearly a whole month. I am mad at myself and I know from past experience that being mad could lead to more self destructive behaviors. So, what to do now……
Guess I should pick myself up, dust myself off and get back in the game!
I populated my Goals Board, I signed up for a couple of new Spark Teams and I am blogging for the first time in more than three months. That’s a start right? I am also reaching out to you all and asking for help. That’s a tough one for me, I was raised to pull myself up by my boot straps and count only on myself. What I have learned, however is that I do better with support and accountability so I am laying aside my pride and reaching out.
I know that part of the pity party I've been throwing for myself this past month has to do with feeling stressed and overwhelmed at work. In order to more effectively deal with that, today I joined The Stress Busting Challenge.
I am here tonight seeking your guidance, your wisdom, your success stories and your passion for Spark People. Thanks for being in my corner these past seven months and keeping me accountable.
I AM BACK!
Monday, July 15, 2013
So... I have been weighing in on Monday mornings every week since March 11 when I joined SP. No matter what my week has been like, no matter what I have eaten, no matter how many minutes of exercise I have done, I weigh in on Monday mornings. Even after vacation, I weigh in on Monday morning.
Until this morning, every week when I weigh in I have seen a loss or stayed the same. Not so today, today for the first time in more than 120 days here the scale showed a gain. Oddly, I registered the gain said a brief "what the heck" and went on with my day.
I know that I stayed within my calorie range everyday last week and I worked out every single day too, so it seems a bit odd to have gained but I am not freaking out about it. Should I be?
One thing that I will do differently now is to finally take some body measurements. Until recently I didn't even own a tape measure but a couple of weeks ago after reading another Sparkers blog I went and bought one, just haven't used it yet,. But I'll break it out this week and get some measurements down so I can have someway besides the scale to measure my progress. How often so you all take measurements? As often as you weigh?
So glad to be on this journey with all of you!
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