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PNWC Week 2

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Well, it is Day 11 of the 23 so about half way there and I am down 17.2 pounds from my highest (after the 2 load days) which is 15 pounds from my original starting weight. I went to see my naturopath on Tuesday to get measured. I lost 9 inches all together! 6 1/2 inches from my mid-section and the rest from my neck, arms, calves. Exactly what she told me would happen when I asked her how we could be sure the loss would come from abnormal fat and not lean muscle. So far I am pleased with the program. I am not hungry at all and I have a lot of energy. Here's the stats for the week:

May 12th - 252.2
May 13th - 249.2
May 14th - 246.6
May 15th - 244.8
May 16th - 245.6 - not sure what that was about!
May 17th - 243.6
May 18th - 241.6

I continue to learn a lot about myself as an eater this week. I have learned that I do a lot of "tasting" when I cook. It is amazing how much I put into my mouth as I chop up a salad or especially if I add shredded cheese to anything. I am definitely a "taster". This week has been frustrating cooking for others. We had a Mother's Day BBQ with out of town guests and I grilled Cod and asparagus. I don't think the guests noticed that I didn't eat the yummy side dishes they were eating. I am fortunate that my MIL and daughter are trying to eat healthy too. Passing on dessert and drinks was the hardest part for me, but I am proud that I did it.

Another break-through I have had is in how I prepare food. I realized this week that I tend to use a lot of butter and olive oil. You see, butter has never been forbidden while working with my naturopath. It is one of those fats I was allowed. But now that I can't use anything (butter, oils, not even spray Pam) I am realizing how MUCH butter and oil I was using. Quite liberally when sautéing veggies and I always cooked my fish with pats of butter over it. I found that I was quite satisfied with only lemon juice and dill over my fish. I found that steamed veggies are just as delicious without the butter. I am noting these things in my daily journal so that afterward I plan to make a poster for my fridge. So far, here's what I've got:

Use less butter and oil.
No tasting while cooking!

I have been active like she has told me to. I have done 15-20 minutes of walking each day. I am going to incorporate stretching DVDs this week. I have felt really good physically with the exception of two days where I felt a little light headed, had a headache, and felt acidic in the belly. My naturopath explained to me that this is normal and would pass (it has). The body stores toxins in fat and when the fat is released, so are the toxins. Additionally, when the candida die off they also give off toxins - sometimes this is called "carb flu". It makes you feel a little sick for a couple of days but then passes. It has passed. For the acidic feeling I can drink ginger tea or slippery elm tea (also called tummy soother).

My weightloss is going to slow down - she said the typical first week loss is 10-14 pounds and then 5-7 pounds per week after that. Originally I said I was going to try for the 41 days (the maximum you can do this) but now that I am on it I am not sure I will make it - in fact, doubt I will. Not because this program is hard - it's not - it is just terribly frustrating to be so limited in what you can eat - and also to be an island when it comes to eating with other people. I am quite bored of eating this. If I were single it would be better, but cooking for a family is tough mentally. I have found that I can't even watch Food Network anymore because it makes me crazy to see all the yummy dishes that I used to say I could make later - in reality I need to not make those kinds of dishes all the time. I need to focus on good, healthy foods and keep those decadent foods for parties and special occasions. For me every week I had those decadent foods. I can't do that and maintain my healthy lifestyle. So I am continuing to pin yummy paleo recipes and low carb recipes on my Pinterest board. I am definitely looking forward to maintenance where I can eat any fruit, veggie and meat in any quantity (within reason).

That's it for this week - thanks for the love and support - especially from my OWs!

  
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TRENTDREAMER 5/18/2013 10:04AM

    "May 16th - 245.6 - not sure what that was about! "
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" I am definitely a "taster"."
* I'm that way by nature as well.

" I don't think the guests noticed that I didn't eat the yummy side dishes they were eating."
* I'm starting to find that I associate some of my formerly favorite side dishes as "carb-crashy" rather than "yummy"

" sometimes this is called "carb flu". It makes you feel a little sick for a couple of days but then passes. It has passed"
* OMG, I've been through those before. Two words "Not Fun!". Another two words thought, "Worth It!" Glad to hear that's over with for you.

"Not because this program is hard - it's not - it is just terribly frustrating to be so limited in what you can eat - and also to be an island when it comes to eating with other people."
* A common frustration for us. I hear you.

"That's it for this week - thanks for the love and support - especially from my OWs!"
* I can't believe I've not seen your blogs. I'm horrible at checking my friend feeds. Please leave a comment on my page when you post one of these if I haven't read it after a few days (If you want me to of course)

Much love and support back at you.

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PNW cleanse week 1

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Well, so far so good! Although it has not been a whole week, Saturdays are easiest for me to blog so I will start now.

I began with 2 calorie loading days accompanied by the HA2CG drops. I gained 2.6 pounds over those two days.

I had my first low calorie day yesterday with the drops and additional potassium and magnesium and I lost 5.6 pounds.

So today I am 3 pounds lighter than I was on Wednesday when I started. In a nutshell:

Starting Weight 256.2
May 9th - 257.6
May 10th - 258.8
May 11th - 253.2

I have no hunger and no real desire to eat - but I still have my head trying to make me feel deprived and sorry for myself. This is the area I am going to focus on first.

I am doing this program with keeping the end in mind - I fully realize that I will not be successful with this or any program if I cannot make permanent lifestyle changes. I certainly don't want to put in all this effort only to gain it all back when I go off.

I have started to research eating as cleanly as possible - no chemicals or preservatives, and organic whenever I can get it. I have a Pinterest board full of recipes and I will continue to post them until I enter maintenance where I can add back in everything except dairy, starch, sugar and grains.

The other area I am going to work on for this 20-40 day period is mental - changing the way I think about food and finding joy in life that does not involve food. Don't get me wrong - I have a lot of joy in my life that does not involve food - I just want to trade in my obsession for food for a different kind of obsession. I am striving to be one of those people who eat to live (with tasty healthy recipes) and not live to eat. Currently I think about food ALL. THE. TIME. I can't pass by a candy dish or snack bowl without eating some. I think about lunch as soon as I finish breakfast and dinner when I finish lunch. I look for opportunities to eat when I am at my worst. I know this is not healthy and I want to change that.

It is going to take time to change. I know that. When I look back at what I have accomplished professionally, personally, and physically over the past 20 years I know that I have the commitment and drive to succeed. I have proven it over and over. Now I just have to apply that same drive and commitment to my health. I'm ready - and I can't wait to prove it to YOU that can do this and I can be better for it.

  
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DEBBICZ 5/12/2013 8:49AM

    Great goals to work toward Chris. I think any obsession is in the mind rather than need. I pray for comfort and joy and all good things for you while you are going through this part of your journey and afterward. Love you!

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SCRAP317 5/11/2013 12:03PM

    She wants me to be "active" but not strive to get my heart rate too high. She said "go for walks, garden, mow the lawn, clean your house, but don't go running or hard biking yet". So I am trying to keep moving. I would really like to do stretches and she said that is fine, too. Thansk for asking - and for your support!

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JEAN111766 5/11/2013 10:34AM

    This is great Chris! It will be interesting to follow your journey. I know this plan is not for me, but I am real happy for you and that this is the right plan and right time for you to give this your commitment.
I really hope it helps you to find what food triggers affect your weight loss/ weight gain.
Is exercise a part of this plan?


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The HCG that wasn't...

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

I have been seeing a naturopath for about a year and a half now. I started to see her after my dad died of a sudden heart attack at age 62. It devastated me and really caused me to think about my life and how much more of it I want to live and live it healthy. There also happens to be a strong family history of diabetes from both sides - mom and dad. So with double heart disease and double diabetes risk factors facing me I really began to worry about my future.

My naturopath has educated me on so many levels. I understand more how the food we consume is used by the body - how much the food can negatively affect the body too. I am definitely a big believer in trying to eat as clean as possible. So why do I still struggle so with my weight? Why can't I get past the hump?

Well, there are many reasons why and maybe the bottom line is because I give up or give in too often. Because at this point I certainly know what I should be doing. Why am I not doing it?

I don't know if you have ever had this experience but I can go along great - feeling on top of the world because I've lost weight and feel good and then WHAM! I see a photo someone took of me or I see my reflection in a store window. Suddenly reality hits me like a ton of bricks - I have a long way to go to look on the outside like I feel on the inside. It overwhelms me sometimes. When you have a significant amount of weight to lose it can seem impossible.

Yeah, yeah, I know there are hundreds of success stories out there of people just like me who did it. They took all the weight off and kept if off and they did it on their own merit. I get that. But I also get my own reality, excuses, and frankly real life obstacles that I can't seem to over come. I won't bore you with the details of my busy and stress filled existence. Let's just leave it by saying its a miracle I don't weigh a hundred pounds more than I already do.

So, getting back to my naturopath - when I saw her last month she asked me what I was thinking about doing next in my journey. Did I want to continue going as I was or did I want to try something new. I told her I had been thinking about eliminating things from my diet to see if I had any food sensitivities, as I suspect I do. So she told me to consider a form of the HCG protocol.

For those who don't know HCG (human chorionic gonadotrpohin) is a hormone pregnant women produce to mobilize non-essential fat to nourish a baby. This hormone allows women who are undernourished and underfed to give birth to healthy babies. The man responsible for this research was Dr. Simeon. Dr. Simeons "also noted characteristics of the obese. Nearly always they had a depressed metabolism, constant state of hunger, cravings, and many would actually gain weight when on a calorically deficient diet. Dr. Simeons discovered that the diencephalons, (or the hypothalamus) a primitive part of the brain, was responsible for the the accumulation of fat through various factors, a condition we call obesity. Dr. Simeons explains that there are three kinds of fat. The first two are normal fats, structural fat that resides around organs and joints, and fat reserves which are used for energy. The third fat is an abnormal fat that accumulates around the hips, thighs, waist, stomach and other unwanted areas. These abnormal fats do not move with normal diet and exercise. The body holds on to these fats for extreme emergencies such as long term starvation. However, during pregnancy, these fat reserves are burned for the baby and also when inadequate calories are consumed, the hCG will mobilize this fat storage. This is how the hCG works on a low calorie diet. The abnormal fat is mobilized by the hCG. The purpose of this diet is to re-set the diencephalons so that your body does not go back to its original weight. This is when life style changes need to be made." You can read the full article here: http://www.bodyhealthyself.info/hA2cg-Diet
.html - (but it is full of typos so use other sources if you have any interest in looking into this. I just wanted the explanation of how HCG hormone works).

So anyway, I told her I would look into it. I spent hours researching blogs and youTube videos of people who have done it. I watch Dr. Oz's five part series on it. I read Dr. Simeons entire research manuscript. Then I made a huge list of questions and went to see my naturopath last night.

First of all - let me say I knew there was NO WAY she was going to put me on a hormone taken from pregnant women or any other place - totally against homeopathic medicine! So I proceeded to ask her all of my questions and she thoroughly explained that I would be taking HA2CG drops- which contain no HCG hormone what-so-ever. It contains two bioidentical amino acids that do the same thing the HCG amino acids do - make your body use the "abnormal fat". The drops also contain 21 homeopathic ingredients for appetite control, blood sugar management and immunity support. It provides a good cleanse for your liver and kidneys and knocks out candida. In addition to the drops she recommends a potassium/magnesium supplement.

One of my biggest concerns is gaining all the weight back. She said that in 50% of her cases that has been true. She said those people did one of two things - and admitted it - they either cheated during the 23-41 day diet (which did not reset the hypothalamus) or they went back to their old eating habits. She said she feels that I have shown already that I am willing to do the low carb diet necessary to keep the weight off. She feels that this would help me get over the hump and gain some momentum and motivation to keep going. Here is what the diet looks like (please try not to judge):

2 days of "loading" while taking the drops 3x day under the tongue - eat as much as possible for 2 days.

Days 3-41 (you have to do a minimum of 23 days but no more than 41) you eat 7 ounces of protein, 4 cups of veggies, and 2 fruits per day along with the drops and 1 gallon of water each day. Because of the restriction on what kinds of fruit, veggies, and meat - and you may have no oils, butter, dressings of any kind - the calories add up to about 500 a day. You are not living off of these 500 calories - you are living off of your stored fat. That is why you need supplements for some minerals.

When you finish your last day of drops you continue 3 more days with the low calorie diet. Then you go into 3 weeks of maintenance where you can eat any amount of meat, veggies, and most fruits. No dairy, sugar, grains or starches yet.

After the 3 week maintenance you begin to add back in one thing at a time and see how it affects you - if you add in rice twice during the week does it make you gain? Feel achy? Change your mood? If yes, you are sensitive to rice. Try something else the next week. If no, then keep eating rice and add in something new the next week. The key is to only add in one thing at at time.

So I decided to do it. I may not make it the whole 41 days but I am going to try because this is it. I won't do it again. I feel confident after talking to her that this is a good decision for me. I trust her - I know that she is in the business of healthy living and would not suggest this to me if she didn't believe in the product. She used it herself, as she does all the products she sells. She believes in me too. I will see her weekly to weigh and measure and she is available to me by phone for any questions that come up. There are no side effects except those that occur through other detoxification programs.

I am mentally and physically prepared for this journey. I will blog each week about my progress and I appreciate any support from you, my Spark family. I know this isn't for everyone, but for now, I know that it is for me.

  
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NEELIXNKES 5/9/2013 1:12PM

    Good Luck on this journey.

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JEAN111766 5/8/2013 11:10PM

    Definitely some great info here!!! Best of luck to you on this journey, you definitely sound motivated and ready!!!
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A necessary reflection...

Saturday, April 06, 2013

Here is what I wrote back at the end of January (at the beginning of my success) in a blog called "There's a difference"...

"I wish I could bottle this feeling. It feels good - confident, content. I'm not naive when it comes to this - I realize I am going to face obstacles - plateaus, temptations - but I think I am ready to face them without giving up this time."

Well, I really do wish I could have bottled that feeling because I don't have that feeling right now and boy do I wish I had it! I am facing an obstacle right now - the obstacle is how do you get out of vacation mode and back on track?

It hit me this week that it's April and April is when I give up- not intentionally, but after the first quarter the newness and excitement of fresh beginnings has worn off. Now it's work. Now it's easy to be lax in my choices. Now it's time to put my money where my mouth is so to speak. It's time to put up or shut up when it comes to what I believe about my journey. It's time to answer the question -

Did I REALLY change how I approach food and exercise, or did I just get carried away by my temporary success?

Let's think about this for a minute. What are the things I have "claimed" to have gotten control over?

Water - am I still drinking my 64+ ounces each day? Yes.
Exercise - do I miss it? am I still trying to do it? Yes.
Veggies - am I eating enough? No. am I trying to incorporate them? Yes.
Smoothies - am I making them? No. Do they make a difference in my appetite and health? Yes.
Carbs - am I eating them? Yes. Should I be avoiding them? Yes.

Okay, so what does this tell me? It tells me that I have not completely thrown in the towel. It tells me that I only have a couple of changes to make to get right back on track. So what is stopping me from making those changes? When I identify that then I will be one step closer to making these lifestyle changes permanent.

What is stopping me? My thoughts on that:

-I love carbs. No doubt about that. But you know what? Carbs make me achy. When I try to stop eating them I get headaches. And again, I love them. I have two choices - find recipes where I can still enjoy them without flour/sugar or give them up completely. I have had good success making breads and desserts with almond/coconut flours. I have had good success making crunchy/salty snacks with veggies. So I already know this is a successful change for me. So it is a no brainer that I can go back to a low carb lifestyle with minimal effort - it is the second thing that is stopping me that gets in the way and that is...

-stress/time management. Teaching is a stressful job. Well, let me revise that - the teaching part doesn't stress me out - it is the balance of being a good teacher and time management. Planning good lessons takes time - time outside of teaching hours. Time that cuts into my exercise time, my trying new recipes time. Not only am I a teacher, but I am lead mentor of my entire school and team leader over 6 other teachers and 4 specialists. Planning for those twice weekly meetings also cuts into my time. So I have to be on my toes with food management and planning or I stress eat like there is no tomorrow!

So armed with this information how do I move forward and avoid the down ward spiral that ALWAYS happens. How can this year be different than the past? I need a game plan. I need accountability. I need goals.

GAME PLAN: I will continue to drink my daily water. I will commit to 20+ minutes of exercise daily. I will have a spinach smoothie every day. I will aim for less than 70 carbs daily.

ACCOUNTABILITY: I will continue to be honest with my OW team and with my husband on how I am doing. I have already started to head off temptation my telling my husband in advance of what is coming. For example yesterday the school was ordering chinese food for lunch. I told my husband in the morning to say to me "you are not ordering chinese food today. You are going to eat your healthy kale soup for lunch" and he did. And although it was silly, I had someone else's voice in my head telling me the right thing to do. I also counted his cookies and lunch cakes one time and told him to check when he came home to see that I hadn't eaten any. It was a strategy I used to get the voice out of my head that was nagging me to have his snacks. It worked and I could stop obsessing about them.

GOALS: My goal is to lose 20 pounds this quarter. By the end of June I want to be 230. By the end of July I want to be 225. We are going to the beach the last week of July. I want to feel good in my bathing suit. I can do this!

  
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TRENTDREAMER 4/11/2013 8:21PM

    Good reflections.

Best of fortune to you!

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DEBBICZ 4/8/2013 12:15PM

    I too like the way that you organized your thoughts to get really into the core issues. You can do this Chris!! You can build on past success and allow it to lead to continued success. Way to go on your journey!!

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JEAN111766 4/6/2013 11:43PM

    Hey lady,
I love this blog!!! I love the way you organized your thoughts and really put some reflections into this. We are a lot alike! You put into words what goes through my head on a daily basis!
What is keeping me focused this time around is the daily check ins here, my weekly meetings at WW and my exercise classes. Without these, I'd be totally off track by now also.
As a matter of fact, our topic this past Friday at WW was: "Why do we do what we do?" and all the ladies shared about their current struggles of not being able to get focused. Must be Spring Fever in more ways than just the weather :)
You are doing the right thing by taking the time to hold yourself accountable and to put your thoughts in writing... now just remember how good you feel when you make the right food choices and make your body move more. I like that you gave yourself a 20 lb goal, but don't beat yourself up if you don't get there by that time frame, you may do everything right, but your body may not cooperate... I know this from experience :)
Love ya lady,
We will meet one of these days!!!
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Blog Challenge week 2 & 3

Monday, February 18, 2013

Well, I didn't make a blog last week so this week's blog will be a two-fer.

Reflections -

It's funny how when you are not focusing on your weight loss you worry about how bad you feel health-wise. Then you focus on eating healthy and exercising and those symptoms get better so you notice other symptoms - maybe ones you've been ignoring or blaming on your lack of exercise. Then you can't ignore them anymore. That's where I am right now. Trying to get to the bottom of things.

On another note - my hubby has told me he sees a difference in my approach this time. He says he notices some positive changes and has been impressed with my determination. I'm really glad to hear that - because that is another problem with being a yo-yo dieter. You feel that the people closest to you support you but in the back of their minds they are like "here we go again" and are not surprised when we fail - again. So it feels like I won a victory somehow. I got a doubter to believe!

This week I really want to make a push - it is the last week of February and I want to come out of February and say that I at least lost a pound a week. As it stands I am close, but in my head I know that my exercise has been sorely lacking so I need to get that back on track too. I can do it!

So to what do I owe my continuing success and determination? The following:

-no days off - sometimes a meal doesn't go as planned, or even an entire evening, but never the whole day. I will not allow myself to make poor choices for a whole day - no giving up!

-pre planning my food so there is always something healthy I can choose

-forcing myself to have the spinach smoothie for the overall good of my health!

-trying new recipes - some hits, some misses but never giving up on finding better alternatives to what I am eating and drinking

So there you go - my reflections as they stand now. Still chugging forward... and it really is getting easier and more natural to do this every day!

  
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JEAN111766 2/21/2013 10:53PM

    Hey lady,

This is a GREAT Blog!!!

This is one of the hardest journey's to accomplish. Now that I have completely committed to not quitting, I am really feeling this struggle right now and I have hit a brick wall these past couple days and am really fighting with my inner voice. I can understand the struggles of so many other addictions as I continue each day in this journey.
I need to get a blog together to get these thoughts together...

Jean


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CWOMACK138 2/20/2013 12:21PM

    Thanks for the inspiration on a daily basis Chris!!!!
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TRENTDREAMER 2/19/2013 6:28PM

    "You feel that the people closest to you support you but in the back of their minds they are like "here we go again" and are not surprised when we fail - again. So it feels like I won a victory somehow. I got a doubter to believe! "
* Know the feeling. I've been on both sides of that.

"So there you go - my reflections as they stand now. Still chugging forward... and it really is getting easier and more natural to do this every day! "
* Really glad to hear. Continued success to you!

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ROEANDGO 2/19/2013 11:39AM

    I love that your husband notices that your approach and determination are different this time!! You can do this!!
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DEBBICZ 2/19/2013 10:52AM

    Love it - always trying something new and planning. It's working for you - keep up the positive outlook!!

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